brain

I like music music

Untitled Playlist

blood and loyalty

loneliness and despair

under the influence (speed up tiktok ver.) /"You don't know what you did, did to me "

I can't wait till I'm asleep
I can't wait till your asleep
In your coffin bed that I wish was mine
I see you there lying so comfortably
I can't read your mind
not that anything's inside
you hurt me so
don't wait up all night

Come on let me in
I feel left out every time I speak
because you don't listen to a word ill say
you don't care at all

I opened up my door
you're walking out
don't even bother to look at me
all the things that I do
the things that i care about
you just pushed them aside and never looked
never looked once at all
it really doesn't mean anything at all?

Come on let me in
I feel as I'm being pushed back every time I speak
Just a few kind words
Just a few
Kind words
to me

Not that anything's inside
you hurt me so
don't wait up all night

You dare to say I love you
but you never showed it
you never showed it
now I'm left wondering why
It really doesn't mean anything at all

Come on let me In
I feel as I'm being pushed back every time I speak
just a few kind words
just a few kind words to me

To me

I'm sorry for the awful things that I've said
I'm sorry for making you cry
you made me cry
I wish I could hear those words from you
I'm sorry
plead for forgiveness

It's Been A Long Time Since I've Spoken to You

Dreams suddenly feel real
You know that feeling when your memories collide and you’re lost on what’s real
I fear I’m just a memory and my existence is apart of a blank paragraph
I existed, but I can’t grasp onto my reason to question it

Even if the stars start fading, I could handle watching them die out with you
I would choose to live forever if it meant to spend eternity with my half self
Even if my life starts falling I will hold onto our dreams and never let go
I know our memories will fade but they live on forever and ever like the stars

Suddenly grass feels stale and trees make no sound, this is not the picture I painted

Hold onto those fragile written stones, you don’t know how happy they make you
When we’re dead we won’t know how happy we were
Take my hand, let’s grow a tree and let it sprout through our skulls

Even if the stars start fading, I could handle watching them die out with you
I would choose to live forever if it meant to spend eternity with my half self
Even if my life starts falling I will hold onto our dreams and never let go
I know our memories will fade but they live on forever and ever like the stars

When we’re dead we won’t know how happy we were
Take my hand, let’s grow a tree and let it sprout through our skulls

Eternity With My Half Self

A lovely story

Wrong notes but its not jazz

HEYMYLAN BEAT VAMPVIOLENCE HEYMYLAN *edit*

Aria Math TTK Mix (ProdByTTK)

Kai Cenat & IShowSpeed (Hoodtrap Remix)

Idialedyournumber - Hourglass - 03 The Home We Built Is Gone

Idialedyournumber - Hourglass - 01 Bunny Goes 2 Business School

FORTNITE RAP BATTLE DJ ESS TYPE FLIP - NINJA x CDNTHE3RD

do you miss who i was?

this is NOT the real version. It's a remake by me. this song is prod by arbitrary on tiktok. 

arbitrary - octobre 1971 (hoodtrap remix)

Lyrics

My blood
Falls down
My eyes
Bleed
Cry out
Gauge
My fuckins soul
I don't
Want to live like this
Anymore
Shut the fuck up
Flowers bloom from my hands
Rip the the weeds out
Feel my skin against yours
I will not forgive your sins
I pray you will fall down
Fly too close to the sun
Your dirty wings will burn away
I will not fall down
Shut the fuck fuck up
I burn away

Flying to close to the hand who burns your flesh

Lyrics:
Did you really think that we were more than friends
Friends is all that i thought we would ever be
I like the way that you would talk to me
You should've asked me sooner 
but now it's too late for me to think of you that way
Anymore
I don't like you like i did
I'm sorry that we will never be something again
I wish that i was more true to myself
But i hate the way i look and lie all the time
I'll just drag you down 
You'll never be proud to be with me
So please 
Fall in love someone else
Someone who won't hurt you and make you proud
Someone who adores the way you smile
Someone who isn't me

Wrong person wrong time

Lyrics 
I hate you so much
But i can't leave you anymore 
Cause you're all i have
Why did i commit to this
Why do i pretend like i'm happy in this place
When i know that i'm not
Was it my mistake to think of you as the one and only 
That i love
Yeah im a fucking fool
I miss all my little friends 
I miss all the things i would do with them
I just wanna feel like 
My life means something again
But it means nothing
Can you touch me
Can you say it's alright
Can you tell me another lie
Can you please kiss me
Can you please love me
Can you please tell me nothings gonna change.

abcense of subtance

Lyrics:

Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say that your pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Cause i think about it all the time
Yeah i think about taking my own life
I havent felt myslef in such a long
Muthafucking time
I still wanna cut myself when im alone
I still wanna grab a rope and throw it over 
the ceiling fan
And see what happens when i hang
I think about it every fucking day
And i dont know how to cope with these feelings
So i sit in my room and i sing these silly fucking songs
Do you like an empty stomach
Right before you cry?
Do you like when i say you are pretty 
Even though its a lie
Do you want me to still love you 
Even though your past prime 
Though your past your prime
Do you ever think about not breathing
Do you ever think about not breathing
Maybe suicide
Yeah i wanna fucking die

Do you ever think about not breathing

Clip my dirty wings
Because I’ll fly to high
I can’t forgive myself 
But I hope that you will 
I close my eyes and I pray
Hoping that you’ll hear me
I feel the blood on my hands 
Just like you did that day 
I think I’m losing faith
Can you give me a sign
That my guardian angel 
Is right by my side 

Clip my dirty wings
Because I’ll fly to high
I can’t forgive myself 
But I hope that you will 
I close my eyes and I pray
Hoping that you’ll hear me
But everyone i do 
I still feel the same 
I can’t control my thought 
Full of impurity’s
I hope that one day the mirror 
Can say that I see me
So give me a sign 
I know that it’s selfish
But I think of you don’t 
I’ll just end it

Clip my dirty wings

Lucky

i'm sorry

I’m feeling distant again

I don’t know what the name

Of this feeling is

I wanna feel real

But we’re falling apart

Tell me what is wrong 

What the fuck is wrong

I don’t wanna feel this way

No of these things make sense 

So what the fuck Is wrong

I really wanna know 

Why I feel this way

All this mind numbing pain 

Please make it stop

Feeling distant again

Lyrics:

I cut myself again
Did you notice?
I slit it vertically 
Just for attention
I don’t care if you wanna stop me
Because you know that I won’t listen
Yeah I won’t listen
I won’t listen to you
Or to any fucking one who tells me
How to live my life
And I’ll say 
fuck you and I’ll cut it again
I’ll cut it again 
And I don’t give a fuck if I end it
I think that it’s time for me to go
This time hopefully it’s quick not slow

i told you not to leave me alone

It’s shit that’s the point
Im on all streaming platforms Proleefic :)