Vocals：lily-an, Stack
Lyrics：ACTRock, azuki/kaztora
Arrangement：ACTRock, kaztora
Circles：暁Records×Liz Triangle
Album：First Memory/Next Memory | Reitaisai 13

Lyrics:
The seasons change countless times,
even if I’m lonely, even if I’m sad, and I thought it was completely normal.
Even though I was empty I had something I wanted to take care of.
I started walking from there – my first memory.

I certainly saw a God just for me with my eyes.
I was laughing merrily – my happy memory.
When I grew up, I noticed that the “me” waving her hand, saying “I’m not alone!” really was.

When I couldn’t believe, when I had enough,
when I began to sulk or when I lost my nerves, you were always close by.

Walking steadily, I cut through the wind.
I spend my days pretending not to see.
I was a bit rebellious and probably a bit ignorant as well.
There was the lonely sound of shoes walking behind me when I walked home by myself.
The memory in which I felt a little regretful.

Even though I was left alone more and more and my loneliness increased, my kind Gods were by my side.

“I want to solve this conflict; if we talk it out you will understand me.”
I was such a fool for believing such a thing…

I misunderstood the me from then on,
because I knew I was the odd one.
Don’t follow me, my tears won’t stop.
Even though I understood I was just lying to myself somewhere in my heart…
This means Goodbye. The memory I’m sorry for…

Don’t go anywhere… I don’t want to be alone for real.
I can’t chose what I can do or not, can’t I? I resignated. A sorrowful memory…

Walking steadily, I cut through the wind.
It’s okay, I’m not afraid or anything.
I have to go soon… the two are waiting for me.
Even though the strong headwind was trying to stop me, I said “I’ll go then.”
This is my first memory…

The wind blows through my frozen fingers.
I put my expectations and fears into the outskirts of the world I imagined as a child.
A weak light shines inside of my chest that has run off.
My altered dreams lay in my hands, so they won’t spill.

I don’t have to lie at myself anymore.
I will dash forward as who I really am!

Now, there is a light that makes me cross my hopes so I can request.
I cut through the wind I imagined back then.
Now, simply everything I can see is precious to me.
I stand inside of the howling wind in a scenery after the rain.

I chase the back of the “me” from tomorrow.
My sensations are on the opposite of the feelings I can’t catch.
And yet I believe that I voluntarily step forward.
Because even if I wish for a miracle to occur, it will happen now.

I can’t even regain the things I’ve thrown away.
Now, I will just look forward.
Even if I take just one step, I will do it with the strength I’ve cast away in the past!

Now, rather than hopes or requests I have a prayer.
I cut through the wind, not even able to cling onto anything.
The sprout inside my locked-up heart blooms large-flowered.
I see my self from those tucked away olden days,
when I looked as if I wanted to run away.

My heart has fallen out, but my empty chest is noisy.
I can’t believe I continued to believe…
Everything I wanted to convey to others in the name of religion
actually are the things I wanted myself.

That’s right. That’s what I did. I closed the lid,
pretending I wouldn’t be able to notice.
Right now, I want to know everything that remains in my hands,
even the things I’ve forgotten, hah ah…

The seasons change countless times;
Even if I’m happy, even if I enjoy myself, so I thought it was completely normal.
How much was I loved…? I didn’t notice and forgot about it.
It continues even from there on – my eternal memory, ah, ah…

Thus, people are creatures hoping and requesting.
They live in the present while laughing and crying.
Hey, because I didn’t throw away my future and it continues now,
you and me have made it this far and we’ll
go on whilst believing in the future!

Akatsuki/暁Records & Liz Triangle - First Memory & Next Memory

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Akatsuki/暁Records & Liz Triangle - First Memory & Next Memory

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