What if I ended it?

DECIDE

End of Beginning

The Land Is Inhospitable and So Are We

My Love Mine All Mine

https://soundcloud.com/tv-girl/loving-machine

TV Girl - Loving Machine (Instrumental + slowed)

Words n shi

I saw a tear run down your face
I took my thumb to wipe off
Me and you alone in this place
A very special part of me was lost

You told me loving me had got you lost
You told me loving me and got you lost 

What did I do to deserve what you did to me
Butterfly’s on a perfect earth, Is what you looked like to me
Questioning, my own worth, my eyes see you speak
Justify, a rebirth, but my ears don’t hear a thing

Why did you do that to me?
why did you do that to me?

I’ve tried to fill this void
Since that loving side of me was lost
Another way to fill this void 
Admit that loving you had got me lost 
But if I move on I’ll forget 
The feeling of losing you would make me sick
I’d rather sit through what you do to me 
Then move on from everything 
Self destructive in my ways
Everyday I’ll feel the same 
I will tell myself that’s it’s okay
Since I can still see your face 

Why do I do this to me
Why do I do this to me

you hurt me in so many ways 
you never wipe the tears off my face
You’re never there for me
The way I’m there for you
You never ask me to stay
 When you know I wanna die with you
It’s sad but it’s true, you keep me around because it’s easy for you
Is this all I am to you?
Something easy to use

You told me loving me had got you lost 
Loving you had got me lost too
Why did you do that to me
Why do I let myself get used
I guess it’s both of our faults
We push the blame but what did we expect 
I have no self respect 
And you are unable to self reflect 

Why do you do this to me
Why do I do this to me

If you relate to this im sorry

words 

I spend my nights better alone
So please stop calling my phone, 
cause I don’t want you
I get high better alone 
Without always stressing 
about if you’re in a mood
Spend my nights better alone
So baby stop calling my phone, 
cause I don’t want you
I get high better alone
Without overthinking 
about if you’re in a mood

Baby I don’t wanna get high in a bad state 
Steady fucking buggin my phone because I’m out late
“Self project on me it’s fine” I said it that way
Then they ran off and they cried, “I’m in bad state”

Help me see the better side of everything
I wanna go I wanna see
I wanna go I wanna see
I wanna go I wanna see 
I wanna  (sh)

Spend my nights better alone
So baby stop calling my phone, 
cause I don’t want you
I get high better alone
Without overthinking about if you’re in a mood

Why you always on my dick, I know you like that
Breathing up and down my neck, you think I like that?
Why you always holding shit over my head 
Let me fucking live my life, not trying to fight ya

You really know how to kill my vibe 
(You really know how to kill my vibe)
Drinking dark liquor just to clear my mind
You really know how to kill my high 
I’m just trying to get you out of my life 
(I’m just trying to get you..)

Help me see the better side of everything
I wanna go I wanna see
I wanna go I wanna see
I wanna go I wanna see 
I wanna  (sh)

I spend my nights better alone
So please stop calling my phone, 
cause I don’t want you
I get high better alone 
Without always stressing 
about if you’re in a mood
Spend my nights better alone
So baby stop calling my phone, 
cause I don’t want you
I get high better alone
Without overthinking 
about if you’re in a mood

i get high better alone (feat. aWannabe)

Words 

I’m gone in ways, 
I’d explain but I don’t know what to say 
I’m gone in ways, 
Stitches with soon replace
My mood, my gaze, 
Every ounce of emotion on my face
Is fake 
I’m fake 

I just really wanna talk to you again
I have so much that I wanna say
But you’ve gone, far away past earth and beyond my gaze 
And I’d pray But I’m scared of what he’d say
Cause I’m fake
Im fake 

And I’d pray but I’m scared of everything he would say
Cause I deflect and reject every ounce of help that is sent my way
I’m scared for the day, no one will show to my grave 
Cause fake 
I’m fake 

Cause when I found you died 
It would be a lie if I said that i didn’t die too
They said I’d be fine, it would pass with time
turns out that was a fucking lie too 
Cause I’m still hurt
Every since I saw you get lowered in the dirt 

Were planting crosses in the dirt above 
I’m laying pictures of a time when all we knew was love
And I know that I’ve been fake 
I haven’t been the same since you’ve gone away
I’m sorry I haven’t prayed but I know exactly what I’d say

Of how I miss those days when me and you would run and play
Smile and laugh all through the days 
Break all the rules our parents made 

As we got older things had changed
You started to drift away
There’s so much that I didn’t say
Cause I was scared to push you away 

Gun lust, bad drugs, 
it gets crossed up with the ones we love
I’m so afraid 
That there will be a day
Me and you will be face to face and I still won’t know what to say 

I’m sewn in ways 
Stitches reflective on my face 
I’m gone in ways
Stitches will soon replace
My mood and my gaze 
Every ounce emotion on my face
Is fake 
I’m fake

i feel so fake

i wish

Inhale me like nicotine
I’m all that your body needs
You’re fragile like my self esteem 
Crumbling beneath my feet
Every-time you look at me
Our eyes they always meet
Your eyes are like an open sea
Ready to pull me beneath

I hate the way they look at me
You know exactly what I mean
Everything they say to me
They think I’m some kinda of freak 
Everything they say is mean
They always hurt my self esteem 
They know how to get to me
Because these people they’re just me 

Inhale me like nicotine
I’m all that your body needs
You’re fragile like my self esteem 
Crumbling beneath my feet
Every-time you look at me
Our eyes they always meet
Your eyes are like an open sea
Ready to pull me beneath

I love the way you look at me 
Your love it helped me see
Everything that’s make believe 
All the thing that reside within me

i hate the way they look at me

Words 

I only know 
Two chords on my guitar but I try to make the most of them 
I don’t really know
How to express myself but I do the best that I can 

So I’ll scream until my heart stops
slices down my wrist watch as I blow the roof my own head
I take back what I said 
I’m sorry I got angry again 

I only know 
Two emotions but I do my best to feel the rest of
Them 
I don’t really know
How to love that much but I do the best that I can

But I drink until my mind stops, 
scream until your tears drop, watch as you leave me again
I take back what I said
I’m sorry I got angry again

I can’t take it back
The damage that I’ve done is permanent 
I can’t take it back
All of my actions are permanent 

Even the sad ones
Even the mad ones
Especially the drunk ones

I wish I mad more decisions out of love
I wish I talked to you more kindly before you were gone
I wish I thought before I spoke
I wish I understood myself 
I wish I could’ve been better for you
And not treated how I treat myself 

I want to be better for you
But everything I’ve done is permanent 
It’s probably better to stay away from me
I’m bound to undo everything I’m trying to make permanent

I don’t really know but I do my best

..hold me?

Depression Cherry

Space Song

Notion

From Cigarettes After Sex LP out now:
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Apocalypse

recorded December 2015 in Brooklyn, NY

Written by Greg Gonzalez
Greg Gonzalez - vocals, electric guitar, acoustic guitar
Phillp Tubbs - keyboards
Randy Miller - bass
Jacob Tomsky - drums

Recorded by Greg Gonzalez
Mixed by Rocky Gallo
Mastered by Greg Calbi

Cover photo by Ryan Zoghlin
Cover design by Randy Miller

Released on Partisan Records

Apocalypse

SPOTIFYYY!!

i wanna be your girlfriend

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Show me how you care, 
Tell me how you were loved before 
Show me how you smile, 
Tell me why your hands are cold 

I’m turning around, 
I’m having visions of you 
But then I understand 
The friend I’m dreaming of is far away 
But I’m here... I’m here 

Show me how you’re proud, 
Tell me how you reach the moon 

My thoughts err away tonight 
My heart fell to love again 

I’m turning around I’m having visions of you ( 
But then I understand 
The friend I’m dreaming of is far away 
And doesn’t feel my love 
But I do... I do

Men I Trust - Show Me How

Changes

Telephones

TELEPHONES

music and lyrics written by Alex Stephens 
produced by Alex Stephens 
mastered by Joel Anthony Pratchett 
artwork by Joanne Liu

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