C. C. ON THE

ft OGbobbybillions "better days"

'87 Benz
I just sit back, I hit the gas
Ride through the wasteland broken down buildings and piles of trash
I moved as far away as I could to get away from the past
I'm just a scavenger looking for copper and metal to scrap
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack
Kill my throat from all this nicotine and vapor I inhale
I never used to but this stress got me not doing well
Work so much but this self motivation it can be hell
I roll my mary and I just put myself up in a spell
My weak brittle bones, I need phosphorus
I just need some love but I can't foster it
And i do what I love but I just lost the bliss
They only show the love when it’s posthumous
Tell me it means
Tell me it means
Tell me your train of thought when you shut yourself off from me
Save it please don't talk to me
Please don't talk to me
I don't know what it was but something's been off with me
And I don't wanna be that, but I don't wanna be that
Pack up my bags like don't worry I'ma be back
Can't find no home I can't find anywhere that I wanna be at
Home's where the heart is but I'm fucking heartless so that don't mean jack

phosphorus (with brody)

i hate highways (second version) prod. sorrow bringer

These Times Don't Feel Right

Pick Up

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 

to those going through it right now i know it hurts
dont let that distract you from the fact that you have worth 
fairytales are darker when you peek behind the curtain 
the world out here will hurt you just be careful with your words 

we were never welcome in this world its arms were closed 
 we were never welcome in this world so whats the use
trapped in flesh and bone only leave home in mask and cloak  
and anyone ive told the story has apologized for you 

break me down to my last molecule and make me new
i never had that much connection with this stranger in my room
drag this empty bag of flesh and blood into its tomb 
feed me to the maggots till my carcass is consumed 

wash my eyes and scrub my dirty skin and decontaminate
hyperventilate, my words ventilate 
this texas sun will char your skin until it wears away 
push the hand away  
push the hand away 
(repeat)

decontaminate

Wokeupscrmn (with notmorgn)

Like a single sculpture of matter in Superposition
Every place it ever occupied
We’re sentients just cycling through our lives 
Like carts on a track
See, everything outside our dimension 
That’s eternity 
Eternity looking down on us...

(STZYWENDIGO)
It’s 3 A.M. outside the city 
So the clouds are all lit up 
The night was cold 
The snow was holding out
The wind sure made it tough to spark this Blunt 
My lungs are done 
And I can’t seem to keep on running with this Buzz
Now, buckle up 
My feelings tank 
I’m sinking deeper in the mud
It’s getting rough
Both inside and out
This world is foul
That means my mind is fucked
I try my best to not go climbing up then jump 
Another reason pleads 
Won’t keep me breathing 
Bleeding out my needs 
But breathe in trees to keep my feelings even 
Or just through the roof 

(HOLLOW TAMASHĪ)
Get the fuck away 
Damn I wanna run away 
Blow my brains out with a .38
Shame taking me back to my dirty days 
I dont wanna be stuck in my evil ways 
Isnt there another way? 
I'm a fuckin' guttermane 
I'm an alcoholic and it feels great 
That's another lie, bitch I feel grey
I dont mean the 5'9 
Wanna let my body hang 
Cut me wit a fuckin' blade
Nothin' gonna be the same 
How do we cope with depression mane?
She shakin' me down leave me hurt again  
Suicide on my mind so I contemplate 
Really think I need break 
Bitch you another fake 
Past hit yo ass like you hit the brakes
Do you wanna die? 
We could make the bullet slide
Through the barrel like a scar on my wrist When I suffocate 
Hoe, get the fuck away

SUPERPOSITION  (ft. STZYWENDIGO)

all these highs be weary 
they take my friends and bury 
but dont be scared theres much more room inside this cemetery
all these stories cautionary
like take your life compare me 
take the parts you dont like then 
in your life be different than me 
nothing could have prepared me 
none
but i knew the whole time what would happen 
it just hits different when youre really in it heavy 
my skin is slipping off me
just leave me where you find me  
im in the woods trainspotting through the poison ivy 
i left that all behind me
still feel it close beside me 
i dont know what to do with myself when i sit still and silent
i find myself in situations i hope dont get violent 
i trip myself up thinking someones intentions are sideways
ive just been done so badly
you dont know the slightest
all these things that i done seen i keep em in my eyelids 
all this time that ive spent looking youd think that id find it 	  
and i try the millionth i dont know why 
repeat

tombstone carousel (prod. sorrow bringer)

i was picking something off the vine 
working with what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret it
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling 
i been tryna chase this feeling
all this time and space that its stealing
my life its like if i let you inside 
know it meant the most that you were in it
i was picking something off the vine 
working what i got if you get it 
bouncing off the walls im in my mind
i can be too much i admit it  
didnt know what to type when i read it
so into the void i let it 
i dont ever wanna stop trying
i dont care if i dont im gon regret 
i been on my own since a lil kid
havent felt at home since a lil kid
everything i wanted i been living it
why the fuck is none of it fulfilling

Grapevine (prod. sorrow bringer)

looking for myself, in the pieces you left me

Best Thing To Happen To Me - Single

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Envy Me

stream + download

not worth saving

with @cloudhighcomeup
produced by @prodbybrody

lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-alive-lyrics

spotify

alive (ft. cloudhighcomeup)

go follow @sinxi rn he makes god tier music.

lyrics:

ill use this time to remind me
never fall in love cause it hurts
too much now days all i think ab are
awful things ye ill put that cyanide
right in my veins ye ill change my
discord name wont talk to anybody
thought it was better than nothing
but guess that i was wrong
cause i thought that you had

the cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well
ooo~ oooo~ oooo~

cause i miss all those days
we would mute ourselves in game
and talk shit about
the people we both hated
Now a days only hate that i haves
for myself
You said lets think bout the future
i understand that but
cant help but think bout what
could have been
said it was better than nothing
just wanted to feel anything

whats the point if were
wasting our time
its what you said
left a hole in my stomach
get over it
cant help but think about those nights
you had

the cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well

ill use this time to remind me
never fall in love cause it hurts
too much now days all i think ab are
awful things ye ill put that cyanide
right in my veins ye ill change my
discord name wont talk to anybody
thought it was better than nothing
all that i wanted was something

cutest voice in the whole world
emissions were on made yer eyes glow
but youll never join the world no more
uwu o well
miss your touch like a phantom
cannot catch my breath cause the scuffed lungs
but at least theyll match a broken heart
uwu o well

uwu o well ~ [p. sinxi]

SPOTIFY: https://open.spotify.com/track/53J39xVaQgctovcJ8q5DSV?si=PTfNaKmVSI2IJkFEuPoscw

LYRICS:
oh i know its all a game
all this time i felt the same

was he really that mean to you?
youre better of without him and im sure
one day youll laugh at everything but everytime you think of him youll understand
what i tried to do
i tried to help you 
i tried to help you  

was he really that mean to you?
youre better of without him and im sure
one day youll laugh at everything but everytime you think of him youll understand
what i tried to do

i wanna know
and i wanna know
and i wanna know
and i wanna know
and i

and it dissolves in the end
after all i was your friend
i know its just a feeling
a feeling i cant shake
but we'll get through it like every other time

meanie

suicideboys ▸ diemonds / яʀᴇᴡɪɴᴆ ʀᴇ:ᴇᴅɪᴛ

IG - @3xBravo
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvlNyC-3SrcL5LBqTkJtc4w?view_as=subscriber

Heart Gone

9 Times Out Of 10 (feat. Lil Baby)

pre save my album 'roses' dropping april 17th <3

lyrics ~
oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

to go around
and break your heart

oh i wonder
if this life could get any better
i tried
to be the one you fantasised 
i lost it
yeah you tried to call me weak
when i cried
this could be our own little paradise

oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

oh i could spare a minute if you need it
threw away your purpose then you spoke to me
is there any reason to be over this?
i could reminisce but i don't think that i'd remember anything
woke up to another missed voicemail
they say they wanna talk but they didn't say i had to
sky blue from the start to the end
have my say then i'm out
why you gotta act so innocent?

'cos i'm falling away from you
yeah i'm falling away from you

oh i've never known someone like u
if you want i'll survive through
every lie that you tell me
though you'll always be the death of me
despite the issues that i'm dealing with
it's all a game remember this
i'll pick your heart and play with it
cos it's all that gives me confidence

PRE-SAVE MY ALBUM

~ death of me

main sample taken from this youtube video: 
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fXU_Q_i3-So&t=819s

Crying Wolf

Matthew smith


Faith. forgiveness. truth.

C. C. ON THE

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