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Two Falling Ribbons

Right Now

This is a song about surrender — not in weakness, but in peace. It’s about finding safety and stillness in the darkness when the world outside feels too loud. In the song, the forest becomes a mirror of the mind — quiet, haunting, full of shadows that are somehow comforting.
From my perspective, it’s about drifting into that space between fear and calm, where the monsters stop chasing you because they are you. When I sing “close my eyes”, it’s not about escaping reality; it’s about accepting it, floating through it, and realizing that sometimes the silence knows you better than anyone else ever could.


LYRICS:

[Intro]
Close my eyes
Close my eyes

[Verse 1]
I see shadows in the pines
Voices echo through my mind
This dark forest calls my name
And I feel alive in pain
I’m a stranger to the sun
But here I’m not the only one
I feel safer when I hide
In the night, in the night

[Chorus]
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes

[Verse 2]
The stars are burning in the leaves
They pour their fire into me
I get lost inside illusions
Build my world out of confusion
I have ghosts who understand
They reach out and take my hand
I feel safer when I hide
In the night, in the night

[Chorus]
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes

[Verse 3]
Branches whisper, roots entwine
Telling secrets through the pines
Every nightmare feels like home
In this forest I’m not alone
Creatures hum a lullaby
Pull me deeper, let me lie
I feel safer when I hide
In the night, in the night

[Bridge]
Don’t wake me up, don’t pull me out
This is the place I dream about
The fear becomes a lullaby
In my eyes, in my eyes

[Bridge – Pt. 2]
The silence heals, the darkness sings
I feel the safety that it brings
Shadows keep my secrets tight
In the night, in the night

[Chorus]
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyes
Close my eyeeesssssss

[Outro]
In the night, in the night
In the night, in the night
Close my eyes…

Close My Eyes

This song is about being trapped between memory and release — the impossible weight of carrying every mistake, loss, and truth that time refuses to wash away. It’s me confronting the ghosts I’ve built inside myself, knowing they anchor me as much as they drown me. The song moves through grief, guilt, and the desperate hope for redemption, even when freedom feels like betrayal to the past. Every verse is a mirror of endurance and self-punishment — a soul chained to what it can’t forget, still reaching for light through the cracks.


LYRICS: 

​[Verse 1]
​The cold light bleeds through a fragile frame,
Another midnight whispers out your name.
This heavy silence holds the truth I keep,
A buried promise while the whole world sleeps.
I walk these halls where the echo remains,
Of whispered damage in the driving rains.
The pages turn, but the ending's still the same,
And every future portrait is consumed by flame. 

​[Pre-Chorus]
​[Drums become heavier, tempo pushes forward. Vocals rise in intensity]
I've tried to tear the binding from the page,
To break the cycle on this lonely stage.
But the weight is crushing, the truth too near,
And the price of freedom is a boundless fear. 

​[Chorus]
Go on and scream my burden to the void!
Let every empty hope I had be destroyed!
I am the anchor holding down the past,
A shadow burning, built to never last!
Oh, the memory, you're the vessel and the grave!
A place where the soul comes, but nothing is saved! 

​[Verse 2]
​They say a spirit can only linger on,
If the single, fatal thread is never drawn.
Well, I am that thread, fraying in the grime,
A prisoner sentenced to unending time.
I search the darkness for a flickering spark,
A single reason to get out of the dark.
But the shadow I embrace is all I find,
Leaving every fragile future far behind. 

​[Bridge]
Don't tell me silence is a kind of peace...
I can hear the rot inside me, it will never cease!
A thousand voices screaming that I belong,
To the fault lines where I knew I did the wrong!
The only key to sever the chain is to forget who you are!
But the memory's the only beacon I can see in the dark! 

​[Verse 3]
​The glass is cold where I pressed my hand against the pane,
And nothing waits outside but endless rain.
The cost of letting go is more than I can pay,
So I'll stand here frozen 'til the final day.
The light I seek is just the fading trace,
Of every moment I can't replace.
I made my choice to wear this heavy crown,
And this is where the walls come crashing down. 

​[Chorus]
Go on and scream my burden to the void!
Let every empty hope I had be destroyed!
I am the anchor holding down the past,
A shadow burning, built to never last!
Oh, the memory, you're the vessel and the grave!
A place where the soul comes, but nothing is saved! 

​[Outro]
...Nothing is saved.

The Anchor's Hold

https://on.soundcloud.com/s5DPdvuJaZwvzix8XJ by Al-Zill @al-zill ✨

Part of the stunning album https://soundcloud.com/al-zill/sets/reflections

A special crush on this one... 🫠💞✨

ShAnkAri touch - ShAnkAri prod. ✨

@djshankari ✨

Al-Zill - STARSEED (ShAnkAri touch)

Didn’t Plan On You

"Miniature" is a swift polyphonic piece, brought to life by a string ensemble. Its energy lies in the perpetual motion and interweaving voices that create a complex yet harmonious flow. Devoid of a pronounced emotional message, this composition captivates with its sheer dynamism, inviting the listener to appreciate the beauty of the process itself — an endless striving forward.

MINIATURE

LYRICS:

I want to write the worst song in the world
So I can be somebody special

I'll try to be unliked by everyone
But they don't provide a dislike button

Besides, randomly somebodys gonna like my song
And fuck up my whole intention

I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst

It seems that even writing the worst song in the world
Is a wish that I can't count on

So instead I'd better try writing the best song in the world
But then I will never be liked by everyone

I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst

Clearly I'll never be best or worst at anything
Because these words are just an illusion

I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst
I wanna be best at being worst

Worst Song in the World

Living  (3)

Download: https://analoguetrance.bandcamp.com/album/warm-sun

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