stuck in the past

So Alone

Produced by bapop x ayoleybeats

Lyrics

Laying in my bed, been up for 24 hours
I don't wanna feel the love unless the love is ours
I should learn to let go but I'm honestly a coward
I'm afraid that we're past our final hour

Baby where'd you go?
I been missing you since
I made that grave mistake
I think I should take a hint

That you're done with for good
But I still wonder if we could make it work out
But then again I wonder if we would

Cause we're both fucked up, we don't know what we want
But I know I want you back and that I never could front
I'm like I was when I had that job calling outbound
I don't care about shit, I only work when you're around

Come back baby
Won't you save me?
I hope you don't hate me
I could never even if I say that I do

I only have cause it hurt so much
To go without what I had
Your touch on my soul made me glow
And how dark it's been without, you don't even wanna know

I can't escape from myself
I know I'll burn in hell
For the things that I did
But I never would tell

Nicotine on my tongue
Bad build up in my lungs
Metal press on my lid
My hand is holding a gun

Send a signal from my brain to my hand just to end them all
Place I'm in just abysmal like the hole inside my heart
If I had a fucking nickle every time I fell to parts
I could buy a fucking missile and blow up for real this time

I get lost when in my mind
All my thoughts are you & I
Think bout all the times
That you fed me up with lies

Telling me you loved me
Ain't nothing else above me
But I know everything is
At the bottom of the pit

Fuck this, I'm pissed
My pain I'm in
I don't think I'll ever get
What the fuck it is I did

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UNI.

@guccihighwaters

Lyrics

| unknxwn. |

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past
Me, I just wanna get better, I can't be like this forever
Call me a loverboy when I'm with you
You're my sun when I'm under the weather

It's late as hell and I'm up
Recording a song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

I been stuck in the past like I'm McFly
And I'm so full of shit like a pigsty
I can be good or bad depends on whos eye
Everyone that I loved I was used by
Now I'm broken, still hoping
I can breathe in your love without choking
That I won't regret what I've spoken
Hope the pain that I felt won't soak in

Lately I been feeling like shit, fuck this
I ain't never really had felt much bliss
Her lips, death stained kiss
I reside in my mind's dark abyss

Write songs just to cope with the pain
Broad day, still stuck in the rain
Different day, shit still feel the same
It's been a while and I still hear your name
It's been a while and I still see your face
It's been a while and I still can't erase
All the times that I used to embrace
I know you can't so don't say that you relate

I don't wanna start over again
Guess I'll cry about it, scream into my pillow again
Bleed more than I do when I'm using a pen
You know where to find me if you wanna see me again

Everyone's so damn depressed, everyone's so fucking sad
Everyone's scared of the future, everyone's stuck in the past

It's late as hell but I'm up
Recording this song cause I feel so fucked
Volcanic emotion getting ready to erupt
Now I'm all on my own, just hope no luck

| guccihighwaters |

Am I worth it, is it perfect
Do you feel the same as I do
Worthless, so cursed, with a mind like this
Do you mind if I die for a bit

To keep it honest, I would die for you bitch, yeah
Say fuck life, wristcry for you bitch
Never wanna make you sad, it kills me
Intoxicated every night from feelings
I got regrets in my head (x4)

unknxwn. - regret

regret.

regret. (feat. guccihighwaters) | Produced by brokn

найтивыход - ионка

guccihighwaters - goner

Lyrics

Broke as shit, I just wish that I could cope a bit
I'm sick and tired of hoping this life will get better
I'm over it
I'll drown in my tears, and forever fear
Letting another person get near
The last of a heart that I have
I'm trippin' out and not off of a tab
But I wish that I was, I hate when I'm sober
I love being buzzed, I wish it was over
I'll always have some kind of chip on my shoulder
Even if I loved her I still wouldnt show her

You only care for me when it's too late
I don't want friends cause everybody's fake
I'm already broken, so stop adding weight
I'm fading away and I'm starting to shake
Life is a bitch so fuck it
I'm tired of all of the fuck shit
I'll start not giving a fuck quick
This life is nothing but tough shit
You can't put me together I'm too far apart
Black in my lungs & black in my heart
Don't ask me to save you, don't know where I'd start
The knife in my back is so fucking sharp

I'm a piece of shit & I know that shit
The girl who broke my heart? I don't know the bitch
Yeah I care a lot but you won't notice it
Cause you can't break my heart if I don't open it
I'm a locked up, dying, low life
I'm living it wrong, so taking it's right
And the sunlight fucking so bright
Don't wanna make plans, I'm staying inside
I'm making a song, I'm up all night long
This shit do more than you ever done
For me so it's peace to most people I know
Ain't ask you stay so I think you should go

lowlife. | Produced by unknxwn.

Produced by Paryo

Lyric video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_joXtIT0is

LUV U BABY WHY YOU NEVER TELL THE TRUTH

Lyrics:

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

[Bridge]
yeah tell me why
i stayed up 2 nights
tell me why

baby i tried
waiting for you 
but you didn't reply
why, why

[Verse]
see i've been trynna find a way
but cant escape this fucking place
and you know that i'm fine
had to say it just in case
trynna stay in my own lane
dont give a fuck bout what u say
all i see is fucking rain
and trynna live with all this pain
all i do is fucking sleep
heres my heart that you can keep
yes i know that love is fake
but i fell in it way too deep
i cant go back theres no help
yeah i rather burn in hell
being stranded in the woods
just wanna die, i wish i could

[Chorus]
i survived, but no one tried
can you look me in my eyes
not much time for me to hide
help me find a brighter light
yeah im fine but theres a line
i have nobody by my side
it's been ages since i cried
thats why im stuck inside my mind
i dont know what to do
i was waiting here for you
come and save me, luv you baby
why you never tell the truth
fucked up feelings,
have no meanings, 
stayed up 2 nights
it got me bleeding
why you gotta do this
tell me why

Biteki びてき

brighter light (prod. Paryo)

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LOVE IS GONE FT. DYLAN MATTHEW (ACOUSTIC)

Lyrics

Am I real? Am I fake?
Every path that I take always sends me right back to the start of the maze
Lost in a haze of the shit that was broken, I can't really say if I'm happy or hopeless
Fuck it, you think it matters it doesn't, what does? I can say for sure that not love
Every connection I had it was all lust, look at 'em now, they're so beautiful, all dust

Ashes of passion, could never imagine that what really has would have ever have happened
From crying to laughing, from peace to me spazzin', I used to have drive but I fucked up and crashed it
I'm still alive but I wish I could die, told me the truth when I wish you would lie
Cause sometimes the fantasy's all that I need, real isn't something I'm ready to be

Valentine in december
You say you love me but you don't remember
I named, you caused me pain
All girls are the same in the end

This whole year been dumb shit
I lie and say that I'm making it better but I ain't did nothing
Said that I quit drugs but I'm still out here buzzin'
Whenever however so I can feel something

Nicotine in me suppress the anxiety
I can't get out that's inside of me
I lie to you so it's cool if you lie to me
Tell me sweet nothings, just for the time at least

Cause I want what I don't need
Don't want you but don't leave
I might be a dick but I'm worse when I'm lonely
I'll write a quick line bout the time you were still here
I'm so indecisive like bitch why you still here?

I'm sorry that I'm not, it be like that
I won't tell you when I leave, like be right back
I don't open up but when I do I needed that
You think I'm going down the wrong path and I agree with that

december. | Produced by capsctrl

Visual: https://youtu.be/GPKZ9nyH2lM

Art by @alexseibelorsomething

Lyrics

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I catch a girl I can't let her go
Everyone I every cared for is gone, if you don't wanna stay then let me know
Why does everybody like to waste my time?  If you don't think you are then where're you now?
While I sit alone in my bed and cry, I can't even get high to escape my down

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I say that so many times, ain't shit else to say
Even when I'm happy, I don't really get to feel it, been not so long, I don't really like the feeling
My brain is so messed up, my hardware fried, I got a virus
So much weight I can't get up, if there's any kind of help please help me find it

I been searching for so long for somewhere that I belong
I'm an orphan to my own thoughts
I get so lost but I know where I'll end up
Dead in a box all covered up, my life's a mess, I fucked it up

Where do I go when I don't know where to go? (x4)

Peaceful in Hell, when I'm not I feel so cold
I'm off the rails and back on the same road
Not doing well but this is what I chose
Laugh at my pain, my life is all a joke

Been starved of love for so damn long so when I get it now, I just let it go
Everyone I ever cared for is gone, you don't really wanna stay, I already know
Why does everybody like to waste my time? I got tired of it all, I don't go out now
I just sit alone in my bed and cry, why should I get high when I'll just come down?

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, ain't shit else to say
Never really happy if I think I am, It'll go away
My brain is so messed up, I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? I already tried it

I'm not alright, I'm not okay, I don't really got anything else to say
Never really happy, if I think I am, I just felt a little nice, it'll go away
My brain is so messed up, tried to download love but I got a virus
Everyday the same why should I get up? Ain't shit gonna change, I already tried it

virus. | Produced by IOF

Lyrics

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
When I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

Will I end in suicide?
These are things inside my mind
That I always try to hide
But it's hard to always fight

So I'll let it all be known
Show some things I've never shown
Learn some things you've never known about me
Evil in me

I've done things I'll never cope with
Might be bad to show this
I take back what I said
I'm keeping it all in my head

I won't love again
Stuck in the pain, I been smothering
Nothing to hope for in life except for the end
Don't think that my pain is a trend
I been so lost in the thoughts of my mental
How in the fuck did I get so far away from myself? It don't make sense
I'm in love with the fact that I hate shit
Took shit so long ain't no wonder I take shit
Hood on my head, don't you look at my face, I'm not confident, I cannot take it
I'll never be fine because you wasted my time
You played with my mind, thought you were a dime but that's a lie
You left me alone and I wanna know, bitch why?

Why don't I feel alive?
No life in my eyes
I've died many times
Why do I still try?

Why do I try? 
I know it's all a lie
In the end you'll say goodbye
No one ever by my side

why don't i feel alive? | Produced by Raspo

Lyrics

Where to go? I don't know, hide my soul, I won't show
Anyone the many things I feel when they get too close
Can't be fixed, I'm too broke, I'm searching for new hope
I'ma let you let you find in me what's really there but won't glow

Be the spark I need to burst in flames, I can't go like Kobain
I just wanna see the day I'm saved, I don't want fucking fame
I just need myself to make me safe but I feel out of place
Yeah I might get lots of plays but I still feel like I'm a waste

You don't know how I feel when I see your eyes
I know it's a disguise covering up all the lies
You told me that you cared but you left me fucking scared
Girl I see you everywhere, swear this life ain't fucking fair

Bitch you ain't real nothing but a hoe
I can't even stay with you, I really gotta go
If I don't, you gone leave me cold
Till I'm dead and I'm growing mold

Scars on my heart you can't see
The one I need you can't be
Stayed here so long, now I can't leave
Breathed in your love, now I can't breathe

I don't wanna die but I don't wanna live like this
Why try when I always end up pissed?
My life is nothing but a ball of shit
I'd cry but I'd rather make a song like this

Why would you hurt me for nothing?
I knew you were up to something
You say you care but you bluffing
I lost my way cause I made you my compass

This is a poem for you my love
The thing I can't take but it is still my drug
I hope we can both learn to go high above
Just so I can knock you down and show you what it's like to trust

You don't even know how hard it was for me to reach out to you
Just for you to do the very thing you said you'd not do
She loves me, she loves me not
Picking pedals off a flower under the moon is all I really got

Nagging about the past, it's all I'm really good at
According to you, it's something we could get back
But looking at your actions, you're something I don't need back
I hope you can find someone, seems you need that

a love letter. | Produced by unknxwn.

Produced by sorrow bringer x project luna

Lyrics

I can't figure out where to go
Maybe I just really might be better on my own
It's not like that I'm not used to being alone
I just like it better when I have someone to hold

But they always go and I always run
"unknxwn. I can't wait for you to blow"
That's not what I want
I just want a home where I can go when cold
Never works out though, I'm forever alone

I've done some things that I don't like to say
I've been all of the things that I say that I hate
A cheat, a lie, the smoke in the sky
I don't want you to see, can you please close your eyes?
But I have learned from all my mistakes
I won't ever go back to reside in that place
I have changed for the better and that I can say, I put on that on my grave

I don't why it's so hard to figure out what I would want
I think I stop and say it's over but my pain ain't ever done
I can never get away, be the reason I should stay
Everyday is only just a drag from all the other days

I don't really get the point of all this
Would you try to save me if I fall in?
Because I'm falling, please fucking stop it
This shit is not it, my heart is knotted

Don't say that, I'll fuck up
I hate that I lost love
Honestly I'm not much
Don't go get your hopes up

I am just a fuck up
Trying not to fuck up
I know that I'm stuck up
So you can shut the fuck up

In my room tryna write these songs
Just to fucking try and right my wrongs
How much weight on my chest? A ton
I can't wait for the day I'm done

I can't figure out where to go
Maybe I just really might be better on my own
It's not like that I'm not used to being alone
I just like it better when I have someone to hold

But they always go and I always run
"unknxwn. I can't wait for you to blow"
That's not what I want
I just want a home where I can go when cold
Never works out though, I'm forever alone

home.

Produced by Zane98

Lyrics

You don't know how I feel but I wish that you could
Even if the shit I feel most times ain't good
I know I'm hard to connect with, if I could change, oh I would
Cause all I really wish to be is loved & understood

Cause what feel like now is not enough
For you & every other person that I trust
I don't wanna leave and I don't wanna stay
I really wish it was black and white but it's all really grey

I don't wanna be alone
It's so hard for me to show
What I feel inside my soul
Hold on baby, don't you go

Wait for me
I just need a moment
I love you, I showed you
But I don't think you know it

Your heart, I just wanna hold it
My chance, did I really blow it?
So far, distance can we close it?
My hand, I want you to hold it

Frozen and hopeless, I don't know where to go with
Everything I need to ask about all my emotions
I might go where I can't be noticed
No one wanted to know my soul, so I sold it

I'll tell you that I'm good but I feel fucking lonely
I'm misunderstood, I just wish you would know me
Not because you think I need it, because you want to
When you feel what I feel, just know I'll be gone too

I don't wanna feel like this no more
I hope that you don't let me go
Don't make me think, just let me know
If you don't love me anymore

Cause I need you until I know that you don't
I could never leave you and I think that you know
You only come back to me when you feel that you want
We've made a mess of things, I think it's time to move on

misunderstood.

Produced by sketchmyname x vaegud

Lyrics

What I want and I feel do not agree
It's stopping me from reaching to all that I could
I try to be good but my thoughts keeps stalling me
I'm not an angel don't call to me
I'll make you regret it, don't fall for me
I know that I did but I hate that I said it
I'm guessin' that love is just not for me

I cannot trust what I feel
Stuck in the lust I know this isn't real
I'm feelin' crushed, I might crush up a pill
You know how it goes, at this point it's a drill

Wake up, feel fucked, go to sleep, repeat
I miss real love, nobody needs me
I fall, get stuck, no one can reach me
To me do not look up, ain't fun to be me

I smoke for the pain, life in the drain
I wanna forget so I go grab a drink
Do I really need it though? I do not think so
It seems that the drugs all that help with the pain though

So I'ma get fucked up
Don't want advice, shut the fuck up
When I was alive you ain't act like you care
So the day that I rise I won't show love

Leave me alone, just leave me alone
Don't care if you stay cause I just wanna go
No not to a place, to the grave where we go
When we get erased from the life that we know

Evil in my head
Don't try to care either when I'm dead
Cause honestly I got like 3 friends
You can't save me I'm stuck on the deep end

I don't care, life ain't fair
She's not here, I'm not there
I hate this oh I swear
I can't make this up out of air

Bleeding out, I'm on the floor
Don't care about it anymore
I've tried time and time again
I don't think that I was meant for this

I'm a piece without a place
I'm a mask without a face
Not too long before I break
You should stay out of the way

Cause the day I do
I won't consider you
I'll just burn it all
Along with anyone too

3.14...

Lyrics

Thought you were the one but you just changed my mind
Thought I had it all but there's so much to find
Feelings I just lost for the one that was mine
You went so out of line, you made me feel not fine

All you put me through, I don't I can take it
Don't know what to do but I swear I'll just fake it
Still in love with you and swear that I hate it
I get so fucking anxious when I can't stop my thinking

Nicotine and redbull is all that I consume
On the day I met you I shouldn't of let you
Inside my mind, you left me feeling toxic
I don't feel right, I think I'm getting nauseous

I could forget every word that you said
But I won't forget that you made me feel dead
I'm so fucking pissed, I'm so full of regret
Why did I let you in? You left me such a mess

Falling for you, should of fell off a cliff
Or a damn fucking bridge, I don't see no difference
What did I do except tell you the truth?
If a god's in the room, I need hard fucking proof

I wrote this shit for you but we know that ain't new
Look what you put me through, don't know what I might do
Please don't play with my feelings cause I don't have many
All I see is red, I don't know what's got in me

Was it really love if it did this shit to me?
Guess you had enough, do you regret that you knew me?
One day you wanna talk then the next day I'm blocked
серая лунная роза, can you please fucking stop?

ты не любишь меня как раньше
Я бы хотел никогда не потерять тебя
найти способ ненавидеть тебя я не могу
Я тебя люблю

Thought you were the one but you just changed my mind
Thought I had it all but there's so much to find
Feelings I just lost for the one that was mine
You went so out of line, you made me feel not fine

All you put me through I don't I can take it
Don't know what to do but I swear I'll just fake it
Still in love with you and swear that I hate it
I get so fucking anxious when I can't stop my thinking

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iwrotethis4u. | Produced by IOF

xxxtentacion - revenge/hope *sewerperson cover* (fantom)

Produced by tundrabeats

Lyrics

I thought I moved on, thought I forgave
But the shit that you done still stuck in my way
Tried to ignore and I tried to escape
But I still think about your touch everyday

Still think about what I could of changed
You were the reason my soul got saved
I try to find love but I retreat to the fact
That I know no one else is the same

Maybe that's good that you're one of kind
But I swear on my life you won't get out my mind
I thought I let you out but when I walked away
You were standing on the other side

And I can't lie, if you came back
With all of the knives in mine
I'd still have yours, because I never lied
That you were the love I was dying to find

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high

Fuck it, I'm stressed again
I don't who you been messing with
I thought that you were my medicine
But it don't seem like you heaven sent

But for your love I'm hellbent
I'm so selfish, I want you all to myself
But it don't seem if that's it
So I think I'ma just take you to my little hell

I think my mind gone bad, I'm so sad
You think you leaving me? Not so fast
"Yo shit man, why so rash?"
I guess we all want the shit we ain't have

This ain't aesthetic, it's fucking pathetic
You think it's a trend, you gone fucking regret it
I can burn all of you down to the filter
I say the words of a mouth with no filter

Will I ever move on?
I can't get you out my head
I think a screws gone
Luna you're my last light

Look what you've done
I know something's not right
Looking for a new one
Chasing at my last high (x2)

stuck in the past

Alexander