Warning: This song contains recordings from a hypomanic/manic* episode and a depressive episode. These recordings include suicidal ideation, cursing, and I repeatedly address the listeners as “bitches.” If you are sensitive to any of these things, or any of the TWs/CWs, there is a version available without the recordings linked below (it still has some TWs/CWs, but not the recordings).

TW: audio from a hypomanic/manic* episode, audio from a depressive episode, some flashing, suicidal ideation, self-deprecation (self-mockery? Idk I just insult myself a lot in the recordings), cursing, addiction/drunk mention
CW: discussion of mental illness, unhealthy coping mechanisms

* At the time, I was told that I only had hypomanic episodes, so that's what I thought it was. But later, another psychiatric nurse noted that when I recorded that audio, I was on a medicine that could have triggered a full manic episode. So it may have been a manic episode. I’d like to ask a professional about it one day, but I have yet to have the chance to. If it was a hypomanic episode, it’s definitely the worst hypomanic episode I've ever had.

Version without the audio recordings: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9rXxj_M2bo

For everyone asking if the song's going to be on Spotify: I wish I could put my songs on Spotify, but (as far as I can tell) it does cost money to host songs on there. Songwriting is currently just a hobby of mine, so I'm trying to keep it simple. If I continue making songs and there is a significant demand for the songs to be on Spotify, then I'll probably invest in it (I'd also love for this song to be on Spotify because I wanna put it on Reggie's playlist). But, for now, it's just going to be on YouTube.

Welp, now that THAT'S out of the way.

This song started as my own experiences with YouTube, but it quickly become more of an amalgamation of things I've heard from other OC art Youtubers. So, I created a new character to write the song from the perspective of (and I may have gotten carried away with making them)! Faer name is MaiCreations(also known as Mai or Reggie), and fae use all pronouns with a preference for fae/they/it. If you want to know more about faer, you can check out faer tag on my tumblr: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/tagged/MaiCreations/chrono

Also no one's allowed to comment on how I can't stay on beat. Let's pretend it's on purpose 😇😇

More of my music: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgJG4MzUu4_gDDOWscSV232PikmU9B2yr

My site: https://www.sarahtruly.com/
Tumblr: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/
Deviantart: https://www.deviantart.com/totalchance
Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HilariouslyScary
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/sarahtruly_/
Tiktok: @sarah.truly
Tellonym: https://tellonym.me/SarahTruly
Twitter: https://twitter.com/SarahTruly3
Amino: Overseers Amino

Mentally Ill B*tches with OCs

Mentally Ill B*tches With OCs

Here's my song, "Marigold's Stuck." This was written for my character, Marigold.

⊱ ────── {  Lyrics } ────── ⊰
Marigold’s stuck
Marigold’s stuck between two places
Marigold, stop
Marigold, stop your worry and face it
You’re weighting out your options
You’ve gotta get the gumption
To rise up

Marigold’s up (Marigold’s up)
Marigold’s up and at ‘em get it
Marigold’s luck (Marigold’s luck)
Marigold’s luck is so magnetic
You’re gonna be a star
If you can figure out who you are [pretend I wrote this correctly in the vid]
And rise up (Marigold’s up)
Marigold’s up and down this weekend
Marigold’s luck (Marigold’s luck)
Marigold’s luck is running out if
You find who you are
Then, honey, you could go so far
Up to the top

Marigold’s struck
Marigold’s struck with sudden panic
Marigold’s such
Marigold’s such a nervous wreck
Is it all too much?
Do you just feel stuck?
You could be a star
But you don’t know who you are
Are you going up?
Or are you out of luck
Cause Marigold’s

Marigold's Stuck

This is my song, "I Will Do It." It was written for my character, Savior. You can learn more about him on my YouTube channel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rhyOVWrKpKw

⊱ ────── { Lyrics } ────── ⊰
I will do it
I will do it

Aspian’s be damned, I’m making my own way
Tell him he’s alright, you’re here to save the day
It never gets old that look upon his face
When it finally clicks that he’s actually safe
It just takes a push to set everything straight
Three separate events and the rest is up to fate
I know how to do this. I can play this game.
I am not a hero, but Savior’s still my name

So no one else could do it, no one else could see
I’m not the chosen one, but they chose to save me
Now it’s my destiny to be the one that sets them free
Let them be

Under the cover of night
I’m gonna stop it
And if they put up a fight
Gonna make them drop it
Someone must save these kid’s lives
I swear that I will do it
I will do it

I will do it
I will do it

Don’t you call me selfish. This is not for fun
When I rescue him, I’m saving everyone.
This is what will work. It can’t be led astray
Anything that’s extra just gets in the way
If she comes for him, it could become obscure
She has to think he’s dead, yeah, even if it hurts
It’s a heavy burden, but I can take the blame
I am not a leader, but Savior’s still my name

And no one else can do it, no one else can see
I can’t save everyone and certainly not me
It's still my destiny to be the one to set them free
Let them be

Under the cover of night
I’m gonna stop it
And if they put up a fight
Gonna make them drop it
Someone must save these kid’s lives
I swear that I will do it
I will do it

I will do it
I will do it

Aspian’s be damned, I’m making my own way
Even if I know I’m not making a change
Is it really best for things to stay the same?
This wasn’t what I asked for.
I don’t want this name.

But no one else can do it, no one else can see (somebody has to)
I can’t save everyone and no one can save me (no one else will)
It's still my destiny to be the one to sets them free. They’ll be happy.
('cause someone has to)
Cause no one else could do it, no one else could see (somebody has to)
I’m not the chosen one, but they chose to save me (no one else will)
So it’s my destiny to be the one to sets them free
Let them be
('cause someone has to)

Under the cover of night
I have to stop it
And if they put up a fight
Gotta make them drop it
Someone must save these kid’s lives
I know I have to do this
So I will do it
('cause someone has to)
Under the cover of night
I’m gonna stop it
And if they put up a fight
Gonna make them drop it
Someone must save these kid’s lives
I will do it
I will do it
(somebody has to)

I will do it
I will do it

I Will Do It

You can watch the full video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHD3QfgzFHo

I did some editing to make it sound a little better. Let me know what you think!

Lyrics:
C
In this bitter cold,
A
At least we see our breath.
C
Our troubles sevenfold
A
Can only end in death

F
I say, “let’s make camp.
D
So we’ll survive the night”
F
But we don’t have a lamp
D
Or even just a light.

Your hand against my cheek
Should be a warming touch
But I can’t feel your heat
The chill is just too much
I could build a fire
To melt your frozen skin.
I could be the pyre
So burn me from within (I said "melt" but it's supposed to be "burn")

D     C   F
Let me do
A#min                       F
The one thing I’m good at
D     C     F
I’ll save you
A#min            F
All it takes is one match
                 D C F
Cause this is dire
A#min           F
What we require
D     C         F
To build a fire
C                               F
Something has to burn

Words of wisdom fell
Deaf upon your ears
That desire to rebel
Burned away your fears
Now we’re all alone
The cards have all been dealt
We’re too far from home
We’re too far from help

We hear a distant sound
Like a warning call
Maybe it’s a hound
Or nothing at all
If we were to stop now
And lie down in the snow
We would never be found
No one would ever know

So let me do
The one thing
I’m good at
I’ll save you
All it takes is one match
Cause this is dire
What we require
To build a fire
Someone has to burn

         A#min
Let’s face it,
              F                           D
I was never going to be on fire
           C
Like you’re on fire
               A#min
And let’s face it,
             F                     D                   C
I was never going to be the one you desire
         A#min
Let’s face it,
            F                       D
I was never going to be on fire
                  C
Not like you’re on fire
                A#min
And let’s face it,
             F                      D                           C
I was never going to be your heart’s desire
             A#min             F
I could never even aspire
              D                    C
So just let me be on fire
             D C F
Cause I can burn
      C      F
If only once

To Build A Fire [Empty Church Version]

TWs/CWs: suicide, a character is kicked out of his home by his parents, light cursing (a-word).
(The segment talking about Better Call Saul does not contain spoilers other than referring to "something" happening at the end of season 3).

With the release of this podcast, I have decided to release my novella, One I Don't Even Deserve To Get, which you can read here:
https://www.sarahtruly.com/one-i-dont-even-deserve-to-get

Welcome to the first episode of my new podcast. If you want to see how this came about, you can check out the posts on tumblr here:
https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/tagged/the%2520overseers%2520podcast/chrono

If this does well, I'll try uploading it to proper podcast sites (iTunes, Spotify, whatever). But I figured I'd put it on YouTube first since that's where my audience mostly is. The sound quality should be significantly better next time since I plan to record indoors. But I thought it was fun to have the first episode be raw like this.

Art of this episode's characters: https://www.sarahtruly.com/oidedtg-extras
Inspiration playlist: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLgJG4MzUu4_ibg8e-hRqE9zk05Xx386Yk

The Overeers Podcast - Episode 1

TWs/CWs: a fake suicide is referred to multiple times, child abuse, child imprisonment, murder, attempted murder, blood, hospital, some cursing. (The segment talking about Breaking Bad does not contain spoilers other than character names).

It is recommended that you read my novella, One I Don’t Even Deserve to Get, before listening to this episode (if you don’t want spoilers). The entire book is on my website for free: https://www.sarahtruly.com/one-i-dont-even-deserve-to-get

Welcome to the second episode of my new podcast. Today we will be continuing to talk about Infinity’s story, going back to explain Passion’s backstory and explaining up to the end of the novella.
If you want to see the discussion around this story or see other questions that have been asked, check it my tumblr: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/tagged/oidedtg/chrono

I’m looking into uploading the podcast to other places. For now, it’s going to be on YouTube and Soundcloud. I am looking into iTunes and Spotify. Let me know if there are other sites I should look into hosting the podcast on!


Art of this episode's characters: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/post/688519988801355776/art-for-episode-2
My incorrect quotes blog (because it was mentioned): https://incorrect-overseer-quotes.tumblr.com
Soundcloud/Download: (here)

If you have any burning questions about what was discussed in this episode, please send me an ask on my tumblr and I'll answer it in the next episode: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/ask

The Overseers Podcast

The Overseers Podcast - Episode 2

TWs/CWs: cursing (f word, b word, s word, etc.), mention of death, shitty parenting, war, characters are arrested at one point

I thought I would spice up this episode a bit and give the YouTube audience something to look at while I talk, so have this real time drawing of Ambition! Except that only took up half of the podcast, so I added some footage of me drawing Judith the Aspian and Doll, who are characters in Ambition's future. You can see that here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SLhgm6aYM0I

Art of this episode's characters: [coming soon!]

If you have any burning questions about what was discussed in this episode, please send me an ask on my tumblr and I'll answer it in the next episode: https://sarah-truly.tumblr.com/ask

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