anyone know the background beat? plz n thx 

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i’m either numb or i feel way too much
i’ve come to terms who i am and how it’s just my luck
i always hated change i hate it worse involving breaking up
when i can feel i gotta front
i’m always acting tough
i’m missing all the days with not a worry in the world
cause now i’m in a daze just tryna make some sense of it
as soon as i climb out i fall into a deeper pit of darkness 
leaving me to wonder if i never found my way out
would i be missed

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do i feel like this
anxiety has got a hold on me it’s got a tight grip
my fist striking the concrete while on night shift
so many people but i still don’t know where i fit
i don’t wanna work a normal job 
i got dreams i could reach if i carry on
i have days when i feel like i could be on top
but then most of the other days i hate every single song

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

why do good people have to go through bad things
why do people like you more when you have a little fame
why do people have advice for you when they are not the same
why can i not explain the reason that i have this pain
i don’t know if it’s cause and effect
i don’t know if it’s something that i’m bound with to my death
all i know is that half the time i feel like i am dead
and the other half anticipate for when it comes again

when i open up my eyes
all i see and all i feel is leading to demise
the emptiness and shattered dreams the things that keep me up at night
the constant question what it means it got me looking to the skies like
like
like why

i'm either numb or i feel way too much (prod. cloud cadet)

Written by: Thomas Reid & Fog Lake
Produced by: boyfifty

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Lyrics:
we were always miserable together
riled up and underneath the weather

i been running away for so long
got everybody asking me where i’m from
i couldn’t even tell you
tell you
i got nowhere to go now

and i been running away from myself
got everybody saying that i need help
i couldn’t even tell you
tell you
cause i know you’d just run out

and i got no one
no one
nobody left to talk to
it’s no fun
i wonder where highway
might lead
if i just started driving

and i got no one
no one
nobody ever calls now
they moved on
i wonder if i’m breathing
maybe not
if no one can see me
no one can see me

we were always miserable together
(together, together forever)
riled up and underneath the weather

i been running away for so long
my lungs are curled up and i’m slowing down
i wish that i could tell you
tell you
i’m too tired to move now

and i been running away from the past
the finish line’s empty when you’re in last
i wish that i could tell you
tell you
but i know i’d just run out

and i got no one
no one
nobody ever calls now
they moved on
i wonder if i’m breathing
maybe not
if no one can see me
no one can see me

running down your face and on your sweater
something I've been thinking for forever

no one can see me (prod. boyfifty)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Produced by: Gio
Engineered by: Gio
Written and performed by: Gio

Lyrics:

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now 

(Verse 1)

I feel stuck in my awareness, I’m not tryna sound arrogant 
It’s just that I feel like there’s so much goin’ on 
around me 
They expect me to be hard as iron, and that’s word to robert downey 
Watchin’ it slowly surround me, everything is cloudy

I look deep into the mirror
And I see me frowning 
I wish everything was clearer
So the rain won’t fuckin drown me
Started pickin up the slack 
For all the people that’s around me 
Started pickin up the pieces
So they’re not upset like I be

And maybe that’s the real issue
Need to do it for myself and not because I fuckin’ miss you 
If I get back in that story I’m gon’ need a fuckin tissue
Hopefully you understand why I no longer fuckin need you

Sorry everybody for my language 
Lately I’ve been so upset that i start causin hella damage
I’m not violent, just depressed and it’s a never-ending cycle
I just hope that I can be at peace when my eyes close 

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now 

(Verse 2)

See nowadays I don’t even worry ‘bout what
could’ve been
It’s taken me so long to finally figure out where I fit  in
They wanna smoke up and get high and wanna be a kid
I can’t even blame ‘em cause nobody listens 

No one hears me, hears you
Here is me, what am I supposed to do 
I don’t get no fuckin sleep
What the fuck I’m goin through 
Tell me, I need answers please
what the fuck I’m goin through 
Tell me, tell me, honestly 

“Just, tell me what’s wrong
I wish that you would talk to me”
I said you better go home
I know you’d rather try to help because that’s better for your conscience
Bur if I’m being honest
I’d rather you feel guilty
Than talk about what I’m lost in
Than talk about my nonsense
I just need to process
the concept I’ve forgotten

Lately I’ve been locked in
Or maybe just a bad friend
Depends on where you’re watchin
Maybe I should stop and -

(Chorus)

Breath, slow down
It’s only one road you can go down
Only one path you can take now 
Like breathe, (woo), oh wow
Finally see the light, watch it go down
Friday night dancin in the sun now

When do we settle?

on Spotify!

Breathe, slow down

Produced by: @boyfifty & @areyougiovanni
Engineered by: @areyougiovanni
Written and performed by: @areyougiovanni

Picture Painted

OUT ON SPOTIFY

Amor situations

Vibes

this is an old song, but it means a lot to me.

verse 1

last night
wasn’t my best night
my wrist looking like i got into a bear fight
i’m kinda scared 
because i really don’t feel right
i mean,
is everything supposed to be this bright? 
i might past out this time 
and i’m having flashbacks of my timeline
yo, i’m thinking that these cuts 
are way too deep
please help me,
i don’t wanna fall asleep.
and that’s when,
i heard the call on my phone
so i picked up 
because i’m all alone
and you didn’t even know 
you were just at home
so i put it to my ear and said hello
and you asked me if i was okay
then i said no.
not really today
then you told me,
you were heading my way
how did you know that i needed a save?
i’m just glad that it wasn’t too late

(hook)
do you know why i’m a mess
i’m never out of bed
it’s all inside my head
and on the stereo 
a song i listen while i bleed
i hope i never breathe
the way you look at me
you see right through my sleeves

verse 2

tell me how you do it though
girl i really wanna know
it’s not like i’m that public yo
i’m never on the radio
you treat my sleeves just like a ghost 
how do you know?
can you see my cuts?
do you watch them grow?
if it wasn’t for you
i’d be six feet deep
i’m strong now
but i once was weak
you know i’m hurting 
when we still don’t speak
your eyes froze 
from the blood in the sink
i’m sorry that i put you through this
but i promise that i’m on a new movement 
i might fall 
but i know i won’t lose it
so i thank you and look imma prove it
yeah

(hook)

sleeves (prod. haruhi) [unreleased]

I can't do this anymore

I don’t fear for nobody else but myself
Facing repercussions for hands that I dealt
Moving far away counting down the days
Head across the coast headed to LA

I sit and Wonder how this life will change 
Could I see
Everything that I was supposed to be 
I never needed 
Anybody
Just to get an opinion 
From someone else
Just to tell me That I really need some help
Who need some help

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith, fate
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Wait and see my dream unfold
Right in front of my eyes
Never seemed to close to me 
Taking in all my advice 
On the path go right 
It is only how supposed to be 

So when I move on 
Will we will still be strong
Or you will come follow me
See us in the night time sky with the summer time vibes 
feel nice out wind and breeze 

Cause I been down falling out now I’m up so far
Felt so lonely now I’m moving
Finding me fresh start

Used to run slow watch me go
Won’t be missing my home
Call me if you need me but I can’t be here

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static 

Let me escape
To some place I’ve never been
I could find a way to start it over once again
Chasing wind knowing that nobody ever wins 
Thinking things were better back then
It’s not tho

Cause things were never better i hope I can move on
Tired singing sorrow I don’t like sad songs
Beach days sunlight heal
When I can’t help but feel
what i feel

Hope a move will finally make it better 
Blue skies LA heard it nicer weather 
All is alright I said would never
Wrote goodbyes love notes and rose letters

Finding peace in my garden
Every piece is not new
Some things have to get started
For my dreams to come true

Let me escape
I had some time away
I tried my best for the change
When I don’t follow faith
I’m losing all
Of everything I have
Thoughts stuck in the past 
Minds been frozen for so long it’s static

Escape [prod.kado]

prod by. @kadowav
Instagram: @seon_47
@lilxtraatl

SEON
Depressions hitting 
It’s getting worst and I can’t seem to listen 
To the voice inside my that head tell me I can make a difference 
Cause I’m stuck inside the ones that tell me I should not be living 
Well It’s hard to see the beauty when I’m caught in tunnel vision 

do I like to feel this way 
It’s like I’m searching for the pain 
Cause I know if I wanna change 
Then it would have to start today 

But I’m lazy and I’d rather waste my time inside my bed 
I’m Contemplating over words that I just wish I never said 
And All the texts that I would send her that I wish you never read 
Cause I’d be lying if I told you that I wish I wasn’t dead 

All I gots a little hope 
That ones day I won’t be alone 
And that the pain will fade and go 
But how am I supposed to know 

Because there’s nothing in this life that is a promise 
I really hope if I would grab the rope then somebody would stop it 

Lil Xtra 
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse 

I left a message on your phone I really hope that you reply 
I know for you it’s not important 
But for me it’s do or die
I wonder why I’m in this place
Why you’d tell me to my face 
That I’m the cause of all your problems and I’m taking up your space
Or how you air that you breath 
Was not created for me 
I’ve got some problems now you watching while I ruin everything 
I’ve got a question 
How I never seem to learn my lesson 
How I never  grasp the point 
Only grab the Smith and Wesson
 
I keep a thousand yard stare and it’s 
Apparent that my family named perished i’m a fucking embarrassment
When a single good day is an event it’s like a miracle 
I’m  getting off cymbalta now and starting on the seroquil
But honestly that I need a little space to breath 
A way to clear my mind And learn to live with my deficiencies 
A shame I turn to substances to cope I know it’s rough to see 
A life devoid of purpose filled with pain is not enough for me 
 






SEON
But I’ll be stuck with my mistakes
I wear my heart up on my sleeve  
So everybody could just see 
Where I’ve been cut and left to bleed 

All the scars and open wounds 
That I’ve been trying hard to heal 
Like all the memories of us that I just wish someone would steal

My insecurities are bound to get the best me 
But maybe when I will be dead then I will finnaly rest in peace 
Cause lately i can’t seem to ever find a way fall asleep 
The Nightmares running through my head but I don’t think I even dream 

Afraid of who I was knowing that he never far behind
Creep lll into mind and tell me i will never be alright 
There no way I can find someone to ever fill me up inside 
I’m broken losing hope you don’t see my life a living lie 

The smiles on my face 
And All the words that I will say
To make them finnaly go away 
I even said I’m doing great 

I know you know it isn’t true 
You see what I been going through
It is never shocking news 
When I will play this song to you

Lil Xtra
Head in the clouds 
Sun in my Eyes 
Done looking  back 
That’s a waste of my time 
I want to feel home
Everything is alright 
I’ll be Filling this hole 
For the rest of my life 
Let me go back 
To when I was young 
Before I knew Shame for the things that I’ve done  
Heart on my sleeve 
Feeling my words 
Try to hold on 
It could always be worse 
Please don’t get worse

I can't do this anymore

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