Doubt's Shadow
© 2021 B. Merritt, J. Merritt & P. Fulham
Janice Merritt: vocals/melody/arrangement
Peter Fulham: guitars/arrangement
Bud Merritt: lyric/mix/mastering/arrangement/photo
Thanks to Peter and PG Music www.pgmusic.com
www.janiceandbud.com


Doubt’s Shadow

V1
I lie and watch the fan slowly turning
Like a clock it’s shadows dance on the ceiling
Does each turn count the days since you left?
Or with each one am I closer to my healing?

CHORUS

Without you I struggle to find my next step
Without you the days seem to grow longer 
I do not want to leave doubt’s shadow 
It’s a safe harbor where my hope  can linger

V2

In my shadow the memories drift slowly by
Everywhere I turn there are too many voices
All my family and friends are trying to offer help 
When I listen they shout out too many choices 

REPEAT CHORUS

tag:  It’s my safe harbor here in doubt’s shadow

Doubt's Shadow

Some days are diamonds

Some days nothing comes
Try as you might
Dive down into the depths
Nothing comes to light
Some days it all makes sense
It all falls into place
But on a day like this
That’s not the case

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some nights I can’t sleep
Though I’m tired to the bone
Some nights I crave a little company
At times I’m glad to be alone
Some memories are like old friends
So glad when they emerge
Missed chances, though, and old regrets
Are best left undisturbed

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole
 
Verse
Some days the fates are with you
The wind is in your sails
Then hope turns to ashes in your mouth
Every venture doomed to fail

You know the story of Prometheus
Bound and chained to his stone
Every night the eagle tears out his liver
Come the day it has regrown
Time doesn’t flow like a river
Some say time is an illusion
Time is fluid, time is relative
That only adds to my confusion

I’ve had days that never seemed to end
Some days blink and you miss them
I’ve heard ideas that caused my mind to bend
Never easy to dismiss them

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some Days Are Diamonds

I saw you walking 
Down by the river in the moonlight
With your head hung low and
The darkness in your eyes
And it made me cry

I know he hurt you
He broke your heart 
And left you empty inside
And it feels like there’s no end
And just no point to living life

I know the letting go ain’t easy—
We need a hand to get on by
Someone to take our side
And help us step into the light.

So if you need a lover
Or just need a friend
I’ll be here to the very end
I’ll stand by you
And help you learn to live again

You know I want to
Take your hand and walk beside you
Through all the pain
I want to see your blue eyes
Sparkle in the sun
I want to see you smile again

Time was I lost myself in sorrows
Fell so damn deep I lost my mind
Until somebody held my tight
And whispered everything’s alright

Sometimes we all need somebody
To pick us up when we feel small
When the darkness comes to call
To help us rise above it all

(c) 2021 Dj Lekich

Learn To Live Again

Premiered on June 12th, 2021 at Le Centquatre-Paris as part of Ircam ManiFeste.

Joshua Hyde: alto saxophone
Zoë De Sousa: choreography and filmed dance 
Jon Yu, Dominic Constantine, and Mareike Engelhardt: video

This affirmation (2021) for alto saxophone, video, and electronics

REALIZED

a stay at home movie night
in the middle of the week
you get lost in their heartache
a tear on your cheek

then you catch me staring
i can't help but grin
you hide your face in a pillow
but your laughing again
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;that's when i realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

your eyes shine when you're scheming
an easy, innocent read
you dance in the kitchen
i move in for the lead
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;that's when i realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

how lucky can one man get
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;i have realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

Realized

Vocals Janice Merritt
Guitars Ray Cochrane and Scott Collingwood
Lyrics Ray Cochrane
Production Scott Collingwood, Ray Cochrane and Bud Merritt

Emerald

Electronic sequence, sounds created in Pure Data.

Night Made Longer (naviarhaiku426)

This weeks assignment was to remix a trio from an earlier disquiet project.

I very much enjoyed the Campos track https://soundcloud.com/campos-1/on-their-way-with-krakenkraft-and-morgulbee-disquiet0527, So I attacked it with delays and fx and added a more repetitive beat, creating a more washed out remix of the original. Heavy usage of Permut8 with lfo's for the noise barrages.


More on this 533rd weekly Disquiet Junto project – Numbers Magik (The Assignment: Remix a trio — potentially using its subsets and variants) – at: https://disquiet.com/0533/

More on the Disquiet Junto at: https://disquiet.com/junto/

Subscribe to project announcements here: https://tinyletter.com/disquiet-junto/

Project discussion takes place on llllllll.co: https://llllllll.co/t/disquiet-junto-project-0533-numbers-magik/

On Their Way (tumbledown Mix) [feat Campos, Krakenkraft And Morgulbee] [disquiet0533]

This project is to remix one of the trios. You might simply choose a trio, download it, and rework it.
https://soundcloud.com/wasabicube
https://soundcloud.com/half-unusual
https://soundcloud.com/insomnia

3 feet High ft wasabicube, Insomnia & halF unusuaL - disquiet0533

More on this 534th weekly Disquiet Junto project — Transition Capsule (The Assignment: Record music to help people efficiently reorient between two zones) — at: https://disquiet.com/0534/

More on the Disquiet Junto at: https://disquiet.com/junto/

Subscribe to project announcements here: https://tinyletter.com/disquiet-junto/

Project discussion takes place on llllllll.co: https://llllllll.co/t/disquiet-junto-project-0534-transition-capsule/

A Temporary Reprieve (disquiet0534)

For the ones who broke my heart. Thank you for allowing me to channel my emotions into something creative and manageable.

Learn To Live Again

Dj Lekich

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