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Doubt's Shadow
© 2021 B. Merritt, J. Merritt & P. Fulham
Janice Merritt: vocals/melody/arrangement
Peter Fulham: guitars/arrangement
Bud Merritt: lyric/mix/mastering/arrangement/photo
Thanks to Peter and PG Music www.pgmusic.com
www.janiceandbud.com


Doubt’s Shadow

V1
I lie and watch the fan slowly turning
Like a clock it’s shadows dance on the ceiling
Does each turn count the days since you left?
Or with each one am I closer to my healing?

CHORUS

Without you I struggle to find my next step
Without you the days seem to grow longer 
I do not want to leave doubt’s shadow 
It’s a safe harbor where my hope  can linger

V2

In my shadow the memories drift slowly by
Everywhere I turn there are too many voices
All my family and friends are trying to offer help 
When I listen they shout out too many choices 

REPEAT CHORUS

tag:  It’s my safe harbor here in doubt’s shadow

Doubt's Shadow

Some days are diamonds

Some days nothing comes
Try as you might
Dive down into the depths
Nothing comes to light
Some days it all makes sense
It all falls into place
But on a day like this
That’s not the case

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some nights I can’t sleep
Though I’m tired to the bone
Some nights I crave a little company
At times I’m glad to be alone
Some memories are like old friends
So glad when they emerge
Missed chances, though, and old regrets
Are best left undisturbed

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole
 
Verse
Some days the fates are with you
The wind is in your sails
Then hope turns to ashes in your mouth
Every venture doomed to fail

You know the story of Prometheus
Bound and chained to his stone
Every night the eagle tears out his liver
Come the day it has regrown
Time doesn’t flow like a river
Some say time is an illusion
Time is fluid, time is relative
That only adds to my confusion

I’ve had days that never seemed to end
Some days blink and you miss them
I’ve heard ideas that caused my mind to bend
Never easy to dismiss them

Some days are diamonds
Some days are coal
Some days you’re reaching for the stars
Some days you’re deep down in the hole

Some Days Are Diamonds

I saw you walking 
Down by the river in the moonlight
With your head hung low and
The darkness in your eyes
And it made me cry

I know he hurt you
He broke your heart 
And left you empty inside
And it feels like there’s no end
And just no point to living life

I know the letting go ain’t easy—
We need a hand to get on by
Someone to take our side
And help us step into the light.

So if you need a lover
Or just need a friend
I’ll be here to the very end
I’ll stand by you
And help you learn to live again

You know I want to
Take your hand and walk beside you
Through all the pain
I want to see your blue eyes
Sparkle in the sun
I want to see you smile again

Time was I lost myself in sorrows
Fell so damn deep I lost my mind
Until somebody held my tight
And whispered everything’s alright

Sometimes we all need somebody
To pick us up when we feel small
When the darkness comes to call
To help us rise above it all

(c) 2021 Dj Lekich

Learn To Live Again

REALIZED

a stay at home movie night
in the middle of the week
you get lost in their heartache
a tear on your cheek

then you catch me staring
i can't help but grin
you hide your face in a pillow
but your laughing again
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;that's when i realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

your eyes shine when you're scheming
an easy, innocent read
you dance in the kitchen
i move in for the lead
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;that's when i realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

how lucky can one man get
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;i have realized
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you are my everything
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every wish my heart has whispered
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;every dream i've dared to dream realized

Realized

Vocals Janice Merritt
Guitars Ray Cochrane and Scott Collingwood
Lyrics Ray Cochrane
Production Scott Collingwood, Ray Cochrane and Bud Merritt

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SOMETHING TO PROVE

how many years since you climbed that hill
yet here you are, bragging still
we all know your story well
it gets a little deeper with every tell

spitting out someone else's words
rehashing something that you heard
repeated enough that you believe
you earned the right to wear it on your sleeve
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;big man, big talk
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;never actually made that walk
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;i paid my dues out on these streets
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;i know a liar, i know a cheat
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;god knows what you'll claim next
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;it's anybody's bet
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;if you've got something to prove
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;you ain't proved it yet

ready with excuses for
why they never let you in that door.
guarded like some precious vault
sure as hell that ain't your fault

you tell us how things should be done
you know what's right you know what's wrong
but shown the truth you get offended
the life of a party you never attended
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;big man, big talk...

back in the day
a conquering hero, so you say
self-made, center stage
ah, weren't you all the rage
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;big man, big talk...

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We enjoy writing and producing Americana songs.  Janice's 2018 Americana album All Over The Map, her 2020 blues album Am I Blue Enough and her 2023 blues album Deep In The Domain are streaming on Apple Music, Spotify, Amazon,  Youtube and other platforms.  We appreciate you checking them out!

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