youtube upload - https://youtu.be/Nx0i8yjQRsc
spotify - https://open.spotify.com/album/7JLcMMgmXYzcLqZdqPoxXX?si=Qaw8iwHRTDiVRbwfCWATVw
bandcamp - https://friendxp.bandcamp.com/
twitter - https://twitter.com/friend_xp

- lyrics -
“My oh my! It’s quite sad what you’ve become...
“Sooner than later, you succumbed”
Well I’m sorry that I wasn’t innocent
I promise, all I wanted was some fun
Still, yea-a-a, I agree
That it’s better to be deceived
It seems you and I are one in the same
So let’s not pass the blame, I don’t want your shame

That’s that, learn when to quit
Though I admit, I’m a bit of a hypocrite
With jealousy I have frequent chats over how, for this life, I’m unfit
“Deny this life and win the game”
We earned a prize that never came
I wasted my time and got what I deserved
But we made a vow, you can’t back out now

Keep putting on an act so the world remains intact
Sleighting hands make their demands, and the seasons never change
This kindness has a catch
I mean, is it really that far fetched?
Nightmares like to creep when no one’s asleep

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland where nothing’s quite right
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as your eyes are on me, it’s fine if we play make believe
So throw away your nightlight, tuck me in and sing, “Goodnight!”

FOOLISH :)
Though I admit, I always was
Years of deceit, the perfect product of
Day in, day out, I’m still being taught
Everything’s outside what I would have thought
I want to see the best in things, but I can’t trust those behind the strings
To stand idly by and fall in love with this lie
Waiting, biding time, isn’t that a crime?

Ain’t it a little trite to keep picking and choosing what’s wrong and right
And of course I’m the guilty party
It’s not that hard to outsmart me
But where’s my judge? My jury? My sympathizer?
Turned away so I stayed none the wiser
I guess this was all for naught
Still, you dare be concerned when I’m caught?

Keep putting on an act so the world remains intact
Sleighting hands make their demands
And time seems to stop
Seems living has a catch
I mean, is it really that far fetched?
Nightmares like to creep when no one’s asleep

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland that’s just out of sight
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as your eyes are on me, it’s fine if we play make believe

So decide who deserves to profit from a life that hands out hardships so often
No other options…?
Substitute these evils any way you please
Call it destiny, but you’re not fooling me

Forget this life, let’s become exactly what we feared
In that dream I had, everyone disappeared
I promised I’d fulfill my role
I warned you, yet even so
There’s no way out
So, give in to all of your doubts

Forget this life, here I thought that we could make a deal
And that dream I had
Tell me, was any of that real?
A promise lined with silver and gold
I’d half a mind to fulfill this urge
In a wonderland where nothing’s quite right
Through this selfishness I thought I would’ve learned
That this give and take cannot be overturned
I know I don’t deserve control but I can’t help but feel a little bold
‘Cause as long as I can be deceived, it’s fine if we play make believe
No right nor wrong, don’t you agree? I’ll throw away this passing glee
No matter how you beg and plea, it’s time we woke up from this dream

goodnight ft. gumi [vocaloid original]

Ayo it's my first song

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7_oHEnDDjaU
VSQX: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hbLh...
Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/file/d/14wLW...
Lyrics: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1M...

【Criminality】Flower Disease【feat.V4flower】

UGGGGUGUGUGGUGUGUGGGG IM REALLY PROUD OF THIS ONE!!!!!!! i really like how different it is to my other songs and just like the whole vibe of it really,, if you coudn't tell i was like really inspired by candle queen and i think it  h e l l a  shows,, the character's outfit was stolen (colors were reworked to fit the setting better) from my friend william bc he dresses like a legit time traveler literally every day and i wanted to put the character in one of his fits,, i was totally buggin for a few days bc i couldn't work on this song bc of an issue that crypton had with their new piapro studio updates,, for anyone who reads this who isn't following me on twitter and insta, basically piapro studio (a vsti plugin vocaloid editor distributed by crypton future media) had their first update in LITERALLY YEARS and upon updating it, people lost access to their third-party vocalists (vocaloids that aren't distributed by crypton),, so everyone was majorly upset as they should've been bc crypton royally messed up,, luckily they put out a rollback method but like??? y'all really messed up here????????? but yeah i hope you like this song, mixing was a pain bc i had to redo it after i found a big mistake in the vocals so i had to go back into piapro, fix it, and then export and mix the vocals all over again :/ yeah that wasn't fun,, BUT IT WAS WORTH IT i think,, omg also my producer anniversary in next month :DDDDD i'm gonna start working on something fun for it after i upload this,, but yeah uhh that's about all i have to say i think so uhhhhhh yeah enjoy the song :)
VIDEO: https://youtu.be/pm_Y5Bl2t0o
LYRICS: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1au20q8i2JCyKagHieNM1bhSgDiO3sIT59ROQbncNjPI/edit?usp=sharing

A Time Traveler's Delight

I love ghost and wanted only the end but for this song. SUGGESTIONS IN THE COMMENT PLS 🧍‍♀️. Image isn’t mine.

Appetite of a people-pleaser - Ghost and Pals (only the end bit)

LYRICS:

Tie me up and break me down, unspoken words I’ll shout out loud
Wonder what I’m looking for, besides the consequence of fighting more
Undoubt, the hounds have come to tear me apart
I’ll drown, fall down, but it’s a work of art
-
Even though I know the point is moot and it’s a losing battle
I can’t help but crave the rush of feigning blindness for the crowd


Beat me to the last breath that I’ll take
Know that this won’t be my final day
So break my mind and make me deaf
Your screams are all I need to cause my death


Little maggots crawling all around beneath my claws, beneath me now
Follow my lead, for my eyes you’ll plead, unmistaken I will be undoubt
Fortified wrath, unbreakable walls, no sympathy for those who crawl
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos
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Pitiful sludge and larvae all around, I’m a giant to you all
Little spiders crawling at my feet must stay away I’m arachnophobic
Pitiful wastes of space all cursed to have that face, I’ll cull them all
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos


Bloodied by the cut of all those words I heard
Sadomasochistic urges
-
Spinning in a web of yin and yang
But to us, this war is just some silly game


Beat me to the last breath that I’ll take
Know that this won’t be my final day
So break my mind and make me deaf
Your screams are all I need to cause my death


Little maggots crawling all around beneath my claws, beneath me now
Follow my lead, for my eyes you’ll plead, unmistaken I will be undoubt
Fortified wrath, unbreakable walls, no sympathy for those who crawl
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos
-
Pitiful sludge and larvae all around, I’m a giant to you all
Little spiders crawling at my feet must stay away I’m arachnophobic
Pitiful wastes of space all cursed to have that face, one day I’ll cull them
Am I alone, or am I adored? Who cares, after all my name echos X2
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Lay me down upon my final resting place
Gently close my eyes, your soft hands drift across my face
Please remember that I’ll be okay
A victim’s plight is sung before their better days

FORTIFIED ARACHNOPHOBIA -【IMPOSTOR】FT. 3 VOCALS // VSYNTH ORIGINAL SONG

UGGUGUGUGGG OKAY ITS DONE THANK GOD,, this was technically due yesterday but i was given so much work this week it was most definitely impossible to get this done on time so thank god i got an extension till monday,, the song and video took longer to  make than i'd have liked, but i guess it was pretty ambitious to try and finish this entire video in two days,, but uhh i'm really proud of this song,, we had to make a presentation about our identities for this project and i decided to make every aspect of my identity visual and let the lyrics focus on my cultural and racial imposter syndrome which has been playing a really big part in my life right now,, here's a little breakdown of the aspects of my identity shown in the video: at the climax of the song, the dress i'm wearing is heavily influenced by mexican culture,, it's made up of all the colors of the non binary flag,, the sun on my cheek is the sun on the flag of the philippines and the patch over my eye is the lgbt flag,, on my shoulders are more specific flags (the mlm flag and gendervoid flag) of the identities i identify with,, and lastly on in my hair is an asian giant hornet (my favorite insect) because i want to be an entomologist :) i have no specific tie to sewing,, i just thought of the idea of a quilt being made up of different parts of someone's identity and decided to go with that,, but uhh yeah enjoy the song and if i don't get a good grade i'm gonna go ballistic because this took so much longer than i would've liked ❤️
VIDEO: https://youtu.be/fKLbtp3AfCQ
LYRICS: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1H3BxeOFEI9LBxpSk3zGquI5elG26dc5Z-fXjLOthcJg/edit?usp=sharing

[VOCALOID Original] A Chimera's Quilt feat. Maika

Kevin / Uncanny - [GHOST]

❗️❗️2024 REMASTERED VERSION: https://soundcloud.com/saturn-candies/rabbit-hole-ft-dex-vocaloid-original-song-2024-ver

WARNING: THIS SONG HAS THEMES OF SELF HARM AND SUICIDAL THOUGHTS!!! 
First, I'll put something I wanna say, second, I'll put the lyrics. 
What I wanna say: 
This is a song about things that apply to my everyday life, and a situation that has been resolved. It's not at all what I expected to be my first song, but that's okay!!! Random fact: I started and finished entire the instrumental in one night

The Lyrics:
I’m trying to keep myself together
I can not do this for much longer
Nothing I do will make me want to stay alive

It’s pulling all the wires I’ve wired
My head’s been aching, and I’m tired
As I go down this route, I soon begin to strive

I got no one to turn to, and now I’m breaking in two
Hopelessness is all that I’ve got, leaving me inside here to rot

He said that he wasn’t mad, but he was
I could see it in his eyes, and he was
I’m stuck, trapped in this cave
I just need to behave
 
Well deserved scolding, right?
Father puts up quite a fight
My emotions in his sight
Now I guess that that’s not right

Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again
So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again

Does someone with a soul like mine even deserve to live?
To all the ones around me It’s my effort I have to give

Crying more than I want to, that shows I’m breaking in two
All these thoughts are all that I’ve got, why don’t they all leave me to rot?

Screaming helped me out, and I so there I was
I was hoping for any pain there was
And so, to myself I say, “This will all end one day”

I deserve scolding, right?
Mother puts up quite a fight
I put the truth in her sight
But she thought that they were lies

Buried in these thoughts of mine over and over again
So now, I shall make my way down the rabbit hole again

Tell me, what if I threw this life away?
Tell me, what if I slit the pain away?
Tell me, what if I could make this all end?
Tell me, what if I was what you would like?

Someone tell me why I can’t help but cry
Someone tell me why, someone tell me why!
Someone tell me why i’m so terrified
Someone tell me why
"There’s no reason why!"

Nothing I think feels right!
Black and white are in my eyes!
Are they good, or are they bad?
Am I allowed to be sad?

Sitting alone in the night, of course that’s the case again
So now I shall make my way down the rabbit hole once more

What am I doing wrong?
What have they been all along?
Can I fix this mind of mine?, or will they say not to whine?

Buried in my memories, why is this the case again?
All of them will guide my way down the rabbit hole again!
(lyrics end here)

I'll see if I can make a google doc explaining the lyrics, for now, those are there. 

Tuning, instrumental, and art in the picture is all by me BTW!!! 
Instrumental: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1VY9GOdV6NyfjjsczgKKzCEnXY0vwYHbJ/view?usp=sharing

ANOTHER RANDOM FACT (since you're now down here): I actually saw a rabbit while thinking of this song, it's kinda funny to me.

Kevin / Uncanny - [GHOST]

Reinhardt