aftertheparty ~ 5.30 (Unreleased, Snippet)

4rmTheHeart (VIDEO VERSION)

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Aftertheparty Snippet 20230717.mp3

aftertheparty ~ 8.1 (Cadence, Snippet)

aftertheparty ~ 8.1 (Curse, Snippet)

oh i wanna hurt you bad even if it means no winning
who took you out your cloth, who put your ass on linen
oh i wanna say i meant it just so i can say i didn’t
i don’t wanna pull you back, i just wanna push you in it
and you cut me so damn deep, muscle fibres in it
oh i wanna hurt you bad even if it means no winning
oh i wanna say i meant it just so i can say i didn’t
i don’t wanna pull you back, i just wanna push you in it

and you know where this goes

took a long time to find out i was bleeding
in bed the light on your face from your phone
took a long time for my eyes to see it
somehow i was the last to know
color drain from your face when i read it
funny how fast you can learn how to mourn
better men would just move on and leave it
but better men i am not, i need to

know

was the gold not bright enough? diamonds never were clear enough?
did i hold you too close? guess you never adhered much
i couldn’t get a word, you said that i didn't hear much
too much baggage on me, i guess that i didn’t heal enough

was the gold not bright enough?
diamonds not clear enough?
do you care about anything? are you sure that you feel enough?
don’t look at the wall, are you sure that you’re here enough?
is that fair enough? guess we’ll see huh?

oh i wanna hurt you bad even if it means no winning
who took you out your cloth, who put your ass on linen
oh i wanna say i meant it just so i can say i didn’t
i don’t wanna pull you back, i just wanna push you in it
and you cut me so damn deep, muscle fibres in it
oh i wanna hurt you bad even if it means no winning
oh i wanna say i meant it just so i can say i didn’t
i don’t wanna pull you back, i just wanna push you in it

-

oh please, oh please, oh please
don’t go begging me
like what's the value on my time, but you can’t answer me?
i got a deadline to meet
how you so hurt at that?
maybe i’m looking too deep
maybe you sow what you reap
maybe you reap what you sow
maybe it’s worse if you know
you could just tell me to leave, but you know it’s harder alone
i know you’re used to the co
i learned dependence is weak
i wish i could let that one go, i can’t, but it’s like the leaves at my feet
in enough time it’ll grow
go on and look through the trees
go on and look through the smoke
maybe i’m looking too deep, but it go forever and more
go on and look through the trees
go on and look through the smoke
maybe i’m looking too deep, but it go forever and more
it go forever and more
it go forever and more
it go forever and more
it go forever and more

no winning

i can’t believe that i thought it’d go well
i know you want the idea not the real
so i give it to you and you can’t tell
if it isn’t me then i won’t feel

i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so

i’ll take too long, say i’ll be there in a minute
don’t take too long, i am not what you’re wishing
i wash my hands but the bloods already set in
better take what you can, better take what your given
wish i wasn’t so indifferent
try to find a real connection
is it fucking or affection
same thing if you let it
wake up and forget it
pop pills and forget it
find balance and upset it
repeat then regret it

warm air thick in the summer rain i’m not that far from you
i hope i stick, hope i’m melted in i hope i’m into you
hope i’m still, hope i never blink until you make a move
hope i’m here, hope i’m anywhere that brings me back to you
same old shit, you can push it down but it’s still coming through
same old shit, i try to let it go but i can’t shake it loose
the same old shit, even when i win i still feel like i lose
same old shit, you can’t live the life without it coming due

i can’t believe that i thought it’d go well
i know you want the idea not the real
so i give it to you and you can’t tell
if it isn’t me then i won’t feel

i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so long
i remember waiting up for so

the idea

and i met you at a place that's gone now
can't believe never seen your face
when i heard you were held in the past
all that i could do was just wait
so i'd wait

look at all the years we've been
i say it's luck, you fate
look at all the time we've had
still hasn't even taken shape
hundred thousand years from now
still gonna feel the same

pick me up, blue luna
warm air hitting my face
watching as the sun goes down
no words by the lake
nosebleed seats i sit
walking across the stage
sign on the dotted line
place to place to place

and i met you at a place that's gone now
but it doesn't matter anyway
when i watched you as you walked through the trees
all that i could do was just wait
hands shake

look at all the years we've been
maybe it really was fate
look at the times we've had
still hasn't even taken shape
hundred thousand years from now
i'll still feel the same
still gonna feel the same
i'll still feel the same

and when i see her smile, i see you in her face
just wait

just wait

it's too much to go down at once
so i'll eat it day by day
which deity should i blame?
it's been months and it won't fade

who you would've been now
would you run around the house?
would you know my name by now?

i can't even talk about it
and we've had our fights about you
which deity should i hate?
it's been a year and it won't fade

who you would've been now
would you run around the house?
would you know my name by now?

and if you hear this play, don't ask me to explain
we'll see you when we see you
it might be some time yet
but i'll see you when i see you
as good as it can get
we'll see you when we see you
it might be some time yet
but i'll see you when i see you

on some other side
in some other life
on some other side
in some other life

some time yet,

I wanted to post these songs again on Soundcloud since it was taken off all sites. Nomad is one of my favorite past albums of recent years and I've had the most memorable growth and experiences with this album. I wanted others who felt the same to have this work of art back into their lives because there are emotions that are perfectly encapsulated in each of the songs for those looking for something different from the market of typical trap/hip hop music. Thank you for taking the time to whoever may read this, and please enjoy NOVA's nomad as I have.

Aftertheparty Snippet 20230717.mp3

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