W-Was that a gunshot?

Well hello… are we having fun yet as we travel around the sun? First off, I do not know how to play piano. Bear with me on this. I am just learning hand and finger placement on the keyboard. I did not use any of that to do this song. Ha. A friend just gave me an older electronic keyboard that he dug out from all the dusty junk in his shed. So I have been noodling about and learning a bit of music along the way. I am also testing glass, as a percussion instrument. I already broke my favorite glass slide. (Just get a drum set Dude!) Hahaha. I am also exploring my vocal range, as an advanced beginner, when it comes to singing. You’ll hear that on this track, as the song is in a higher register than I am used to singing in. The first vocal stanza is just me finding my voice. Hahahaha. (I guess I need to try some pre-singing.) The recorder works but isn’t in the key of the song, so I had to wing in, insofar as melodies. That is what I like about music, these little creative explorations that develop into ‘music’. I had about an hour or so to lay this down… Outside summer distractions have cut into my music time. Hope you are all well. Thanks for dropping by, Mark

First Keys

Nights * Instrumental

|| Ataraxia ||

[at-uh-rak-see-uh]
noun

Philosophy.
a state of freedom from emotional disturbance and anxiety, especially as an ongoing condition of soul-fulfilling attainment; unconditional tranquility.
I’m not looking to achieve ataraxia—I just want a week (life) away from the daily grind.
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(Sometimes things are best when reimagined)
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Freedom is a state of mind
Happiness is a concept
You can create the life you love
Take control
Slay those demons
Break the bonds (addictions / fears) that enslave you
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Embrace creation
End (self) destruction
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Empower yourself 
Seize the moment
The time is now
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Watch the video here: https://youtu.be/o2kGL-Ix66I

Ataraxia

You are better off without me. 


Verse 1: 

I'll never forget that last day I kissed your cheek. I never imagined that from that afternoon on I'd never see you again.

Verse 2: 

Everything clouded over in my heart. You were a part of my life, and in your absence, everything was lost. I cried trying to understand why you were leaving. Until I understood that I deserved it.

Bridge: 

Now I see clearly. I respect your distance. I even confess that it's fare what happened.

Chorus: 

You're better off without me. Your friends tell me so. That your lips smile more and you look fuller. You're better off without me. I saw it in your photographs. Your eyes shine brighter, and you even look more beautiful. I only pray for you every day, convinced that I loved you very much, but I didn't understand the meaning. And now that you're gone, I faint from your absence, and in my loneliness, for all I've done wrong, I beg for mercy. 

Verse 3: 

I remember your words, your laughter, your silences. Everything that made me happy, now everything is uncertain. I wonder if you'll ever think of me, or if I'm dead to you.
 
I wonder if you'll ever think of me, if you'll remember my name... and my existence


Español 

Estás mejor sin mi. 

Verso 1: 

"Jamás olvidaré, ese último día que tu mejilla besé.
 Nunca imaginé, que desde esa tarde ya no te vería otra vez"

 Verso 2: 

"Todo se nubló en mi corazón, 
eras parte de mi vida 
y en tu ausencia 
todo se perdió. 

Lloraba intentando comprender por qué te ibas. 
Hasta que entendí, que eso me lo merecía"

 Puente: 

"Ahora veo claro, respeto tu distancia, incluso te confieso que fue justo lo que pasa"

Coro: 

 "Estás mejor sin mí, me lo dicen tus amigas, 
que sonríen más tus labios y te ves más rellenita 
 Estás mejor sin mí
lo vi en tus fotografías, 
tus ojos brillan más
 y se te ve hasta más bonita.

Yo sólo rezo por ti todos los días convencido, 
de que te quise mucho 
pero no supe el sentido. 
Y ahora que no estás, 
desfallezco por tu ausencia, 
y en mi soledad, 
por todo lo que hice mal, 
te pido clemencia.


Verso 3:

 "Recuerdo tus palabras, tus risas, tus silencios. 
Todo lo que me hacía feliz, 
ahora todo es incierto. 
Me pregunto si alguna vez pensarás en mí, o si para ti estoy muerto."

Coro: 

"Estás mejor sin mi, 
me lo dicen tus amigas, 
que sonríen más tus labios y te ves más rellenita. 

Estás mejor sin mi, 
lo vi en tus fotografías,
 tus ojos brillan más, 
y se te ve hasta más bonita.

 Yo sólo rezo por ti, 
 todos los días convencido, 
de que te quise mucho
 pero no supe el sentido. 
Y ahora que no estás, 
desfallezco por tu ausencia, 
y en mi soledad, 
por todo lo que hice mal, 
te pido clemencia.

Me pregunto si alguna vez pensarás en mí, si recordarás mi nombre...y mi existencia.. 

Letra: Miguel Ángel Botello

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Estás mejor sin mi - D'mendo Boteli.mp3

My eldest son grew up playing keyboards, to cut a long story short, I used to borrow his keyboards at times and using the auto rhythms/bass used to knock out a tune with one finger. Well, I did play guitar so I suppose I did use more fingers but always one after the other. I quite enjoyed the sessions and recorded the outcomes on reel to reel tape  or later on cassettes. I have posted a playlist/album of these disasters on Soundcloud, just for complete journaling of my musical journeys...

The recent covers I have been doing of my early songs and recordings set me thinking... I decided to see what Suno could do with these instrumentals and this is the first - and possibly the last experiment. But I was pleasantly surprised again.

EXSTATIX

Miles from Home

with many thanks to Christelle on vocals, me on classical guitar


in the rain

Trap On Door

sentry 9.13.25

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Composer, photographer, solo bassist, and cat lover. 

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