@ilyajay @ripwarheart

song on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6CJwcaJ83LutWpWRcAi1In?si=feab4f3d81294ed8
amv/lyric video: https://youtu.be/BB8OZrtmYXo?si=vfbcjquZs7u8S-9t

i told her once that we're too far apart
tried my all i cant reach ur heart
got me thinkin what's all this for?
miss ur love and i just want more
girl i love u, oh i do
i can't lose u, u , u
girl i love u, oh i do
i can't lose u, u , u

uh huh, im gone
i need u bad tho u did me wrong
girl without u i would be no one
do it all for u
all for you
do it all for uuu
(2x)

mm yea i love u
notes in my diary
only us two
wont ever lose u ever again
i need u forever dont want this to end

can't lose u (ajay + warheart)

@k4rson @rewind214

song on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1De62gH8Sp1kiLux0knInl?si=36efc69842564404

@itsevvie:
feelin lost now, feelin misused
think i miss u, having issues
make my heart stop, can we liplock?
make my heart knock
can u rewind time again?
wanna be more than friends
anything for u ill do
i want to be the one u choose

@k4rson
the one u always chose
Margiela on my shoes
need all my money blue 
girl all i want is u 
im riding round w that tool
ion got time to lose 
ur the one id always chose 
swear i tell the truth and i
just wanna be with u tonight 
promise i can do you right 
girl u make me lose my mind

one u choose w/ K4RSON (rewind)

my other half prod. saig & adrien

u and i are the same but were brokenlovers

even i felt the same, think i just got louder

by my side u and me, cuz we both sound crazy

cuz i know love is there, but ill keep on tryin

girl i need ya, and i want ya

cuz im dyin, wanna come and see u now

cant deny it, every moment, need u closest

ill keep on tryin if ur down

yeah dont feel bad cuz well figure it out

cuz u and me bb, yeah theres no doubt

just say that u want this

were two in the fight

just say thats theres no one

theres no one in sight

brokenlovers (nami + n1lssture)

Sounds like 3am thoughts.

Feels like remembering something you can’t explain.

For when you don’t even know what to say anymore.

A mix of peace and chaos.

Can I trust

Positive Karma

So what if i told you that i loved you so
I watched you from afar i had to let you know
I lurked beside a shadow as your pale skin glowed
Your smile lights up the room and girl you star this show

I wish i lived away inside a small town bae
I’d write myself a paper tell you bout my stay
A shame this town is cursed we can’t have one nice day
I wrote a book about it but there’s tears on a page

Her mother burns the sage
She thinks i’m so diseased
She’d probably change her tune if she knew i’d end up deceased

A body by the beach
It washed up by the river
Cold souls even weep inside your case i saw you shiver

Baby thought im emo
I like singing c notes
Heard your bestie deep throats
Raven haired and evil

She moved back to town and tried to change your soul
I just don’t have the heart to say i hate her though

So baby what if i like you
So what if i want you

Tell would you parents stop this
Cause tell em bae you really want this

My best friend had a guilty conscience
Homeless i ain’t even got a crib
My minds trapped did you know i exist

You’re fighting with your old best friend
Only cause you want him in your pants
Tell me am i here for love or is
This one way you that you must get back at him

What if i told you that i loved you so
I watched you from afar i had to let you know
I lurked beside a shadow as your pale skin glowed
Your smile lights up the room and girl you star this show

I wish i lived away inside a small town bae
I’d write myself a paper tell you bout my stay
A shame this town is cursed we can’t have one nice day
I wrote a book about it but there’s tears on a page

Her mother burns the sage
She thinks i’m so diseased
She’d probably change her tune if she knew i’d end up deceased

A body by the beach
It washed up by the river
Cold souls even weep in your case i saw you shiver

It must be getting so cold
Since when did 19 feel so old
Your heart and soul is made of gold
Its vaguely different from what i was told

Why does the world portray you as such
I’ve never seen you as too much
Yur bestie seems to be your crutch
I want you baby lets be one


star the show p. disco

Lyrics

my brother done beat that case they sewed his mouth shut for three months straight
I just hope im not too late I missed my boat and it’s left me pained
While my mom still sits and paints she’s worried bout a check that she still can’t pay
Cheap wine we’ll celebrate 
Cheap spirits and drink them straight

We don’t care what’s on our plate
See the pain upon her face
She was never really into me
She was never really into me

And I think we got too close
Cause the towns now filled with clones
And I’ve walked through dark closed doors
Got blood trails on my floor

Uh
And last time I just said let’s run its course uh
But then I saw it filled us with remorse uh
It’s probably best that we should stay divorced uh
Cause last time ended badly but of course uh

BUt at least i see he’s better
He was locked in chased that cheddar
In the darkest rain got better

Left tears to soak my sweater
But the weather still ran its course
I ran away fast and  i took their horse
I swear to gods swear to god im so lost uhhhh

I lost my soul with my friends
Im terrified theyll meet a bitter end
This path i walk alone is filled with sin
The other one still feels like i wont win

Got me feeling like southside serpents
Wanna runaway gal from urban
And i tire so much from bourbons’
And im staring at the back of the bourbon

And hes saying jake drink me slow
And ill let your problems go
But i just cant yet oh no no
Want a bad shawty with attitude
Youll be just like all the other dudes
Whats a loyal gal, but a bad mood
Go and have sex, youll feel brand new
But i cant yet, like my friends do uh


So sing this but do it slow
Friends finally been let go
Bad system cant stop us
Top dog we still plottin

I wanna climb my way up until we slide down
Sing my chorus softly if you know where we been now


cheap spirits p. disco

Lyrics

For what its worth
What i’ve seen what i’ve done and who i’ve hurt
All these things that i learned and i deserved
I’ve got a mission i know i was born to serve
I hate my sins i pray to free me in the church

So does she want me?
She tried to play me but she gives me natural dopamine
She changed my life that’s with her beauty she got confidence
She sat me down and had a chat like its a conference

She pulled my strings no guitar
The dagger sticks in my heart
I feel so stuck, feel so stuck 
Oh God please free me oh from this mud

For what it’s worth oh bae i’d never change a thing
It’s barely been a month i’m thinking of a ring
She’s not even my queen but she treats me like a king
She makes me feel these things, that i can’t express and sing

I know you need ya time
I know you hear these rhymes
I know you feel alive
I want you to be mine

Like diamonds watch ya shine
Oh I can change your life
Just hop inside my ride
Let God play alibi

And if you'll sing you sing this slow
You watch the wind blow
You said you’ll keep this on the low
My feelings start to show 


for what its worth p. pico

song on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1HlFRFepSb4exd17f4W1cr?si=aad827fa3e844c53
music video: https://youtu.be/w1bFD7s7pYo?si=AAdsBQY2AesuF9Za

prod. @rewind214

feelin pain in my chest feelin nauseous
body goin numb when im off it
ouh ouh
i can’t let u go
ouh ouh
can’t leave u alone
ouh ouh

can u come a little closer?
i don’t wanna get further from u
love the way u walk, way that u move
don’t want nobody else, only want u

baby hold on
baby can u hold on?
ouh, ouh
put me out my misery, oh
i need u right next to me

where are u now that I need ya?
where are u now that I need ya?
i need u the most girl
need u the most
for u i’ll do the most girl
i’ll do the most (x2)

hold on (rewind + mynorth) MV IN DESC

Lyrics
Its like she got struck by lightning
Her barber messed her hair said she didnt want it lighting
I always make mistakes overthink my head was fighting
My eye contact tends to vary if i see her lips shes biting

Uh huh
Im unsure if she likes me
I really like being friends
But the thought of more excites me
I know there’s not much chance
But im hoping that there might be 
Cause even all my friends
Who sleep round got sum that likes him

It still dont make no sense to me peeking over fences
I wanted one more chance but its too late for my ex when
I try to take a stab in the dark its like her piercings
She wants more tho like damn natural beauty should be plenty

But that’s not my decision
I love it and accept it
There’s not much you can do
That’s gon let my body change things

The way you make me feel
Must be battling my depression
I fall in love again
Should be good but i’m regressing

Feel like eleven
My life’s so self expressive
Uh uh uh uh i start to question
If I’d prefer the heavens 

My life cant take it
Not when I could go change it 
This world is breaking
I’m constantly rearranging, my guts

I’ll just say it, i’m nuts
There’s no more if’s or buts
I must tell you, what’s up
No more secrets, its done

No more sneaking, out home
I told my momma, i’m grown
Making decisions, alone
It’s so scary, I know

Its like she got struck by lightning
Her barber messed her hair said she didnt want it lighting
I always make mistakes overthink my head was fighting
My eye contact tends to vary if i see her lips shes biting

Im unsure if she likes me
I really like being friends
But the thought of more excites me
I know there’s not much chance
But im hoping that there might be 
Cause even all my friends
Who sleep round got sum that likes him


struck by lightning p. yashio

film diary 
perspective of me and fiction

struck by lightning p. yashio

verse