lyrics:

all alone 
please stop calling up my phone 
i’ve  been on my own
now my heart is cold 

you broke all my trust, 
now it hurts to think of us 
a picture frame covered in dust ,
was it love or was it lust 

now i sleep way too much 
dreaming of you, missing your touch
now i’m off these drugs 
the only things that keeps me numb 


not what you want not what you need
i’m not enough for anything 
you stabbed my heart left me to bleed 
now there’s a hole where you used to be


shoutout twilightblue and draven for everything. love y’all

all alone (twilightblue)

deleted track "take me away." by @unknxwn7 (detmer, garrett)
non profit

Lyrics

I ain't want no help, did it on my own
Fuck it if I fail, I'mma blame it on my own
Fucking stupid ways, I don't really wanna wait
For that door to open up, I'mma find another way

To get where I want, to get where I need
Ain't like where I was so I had to fucking leave
Ain't like what I was so I had to fucking change
I kept fucking up, I was boutta go insane

Almost took my life sittin' in the parking lot
Of a motherfucking Kroger, stuck inside my thoughts
I let it blow over, then I had a choice
So I made a change, I was sick of all the noise

That I had in my head
I said, "I just wanna be dead"
Regrets flooding up my vision
I needed to talk, so I called her up, then my tears start to drop

I was fucking scared for someone to see me
But I didn't care, I was sick of what was eating
Me up inside, opened my gates
I let the love in and let out the hate

I felt like nothing, I wasn't okay
I needed something to take me away
I wanted drugs, I wanted sex, I wanted money
But it wasn't what would save me

It wasn't what would make me
Know I'm only one could ever save me
I am the only one could ever break me
I am the only one could ever take me

Where I wanna, where I wanna be
I don't wanna sit here on my knees
So I'm gonna get up off my ass
Leave it all behind & I'm never coming back

take me away. (prod. WXRST)

Chef Boyardeo

(prod. idly blare)
feat @greenwood2000

(vacant)
been stuck in my bedroom lately contemplating  
they tell me i need help i dont need saving 
how do u fix a broken soul when thats all what they've known 
they ask what am i scared of i answer i dont know 
maybe its myself or that these walls will close in on me   
oh i falter oh i wonder 
how it feels to b okay is it really how they say  
is it my fault by the way i ponder 
when i go it'll all b over 
gave my heart and soul to the one i owed 

(greenwood)
i'd wait for you to call
so senseless when we talk
think that i've been sick again
i can't tell you what it really is
i was good for like a minute, never lasts though
said you wish that i would listen but i can't so
i could tell you what's been killing me, what's happening
really i wish you could understand like half of it
feeling something broke and worthless
i would travel back and tell myself that you were worth this
face the silence it just feels wrong
hard to blame the sickness, it's been part of me for so long
think i know from where you left off
i would do it different, it's just been so long since we've talked
heavy hand inside a freeze frame
i was focused on just tryna find some meaning
kinda thought you'd always be there
in the mountain air and cedar
i just really want to see her

seclusion (w/ greenwood) (idly blare)

artists in order of appearance 
xipz
teddyboi
Danny Adventure
Crizzy White
xipz

On My Mind (asperr)

Holding your hand by the reservoir….

Lyrics:

Holding your hand by the reservoir 
admiring just how pretty you are 
Even your eyes your nose your hair your lips your head to your toes
I want it all
I can’t get enough
I float away when I feel your touch is this what they call love


I ran into the reservoir after the dog and i got wet
But it was worth it to see you smile I’d do it again 
Then I got lost in your hazel iris
Sunlight tied around your hair
And the butterflies in my stomach never left 
It’s so new to me when you hold my hand I don’t know how to act
Sweating uncontrollably when I call you beautiful I stare at the grass

holding your hand by the reservoir (cobalt)

prod. idly blare
lyrics

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

i miss smoking tobacco
i gave u my gun with no ammo
just to see what u would do if one day i let go
u pulled the trigger back n hurt me little by little
its fucked up but nowadays dont sleep at all
im paranoid that one day u wont catch my fall
i kno its all my fault
but i gotta finish what i started
i dont even like recording make me sick to my stomach
i dont like what i make
n i dont like how u say that u like what i make
happy birthday
hope u got what u wanted
so happy
but i continue falling

oh hows ur head doing baby
cuz u burned a hole thru mine
at the end of the day we all want more time
so no sleeping
baby im daydreaming
thinking bout better days
praying for a better way

your eyes can actually shoot lasers if you try hard enough (idly blare)

prod. eclipse7

(without you...)
let me go,
i dont know who to blame when my world comes crashing.. down
and ill never know whats truly best for me-
it wont take much time and,
i cant take just half of this,
time only kills if you let it,
i dont want silence to kill us,
ive been wanting some time alone with my feeilngs.
(i cant picture life without you)
(no value)
x2

let me go, i dont know who to blame when my world comes crashing down
and ill never know whats truly best for me.
it wont take much time and
i cant take just half of this
time only kills if you let it
i dont want silence to kill us :(

(gone in the head)
(feelings..)
(i cant picture life without you)
(no value)

gone in the head.

Chef Boyardeo

HARDLYLUVD