crazy p. siem spark

me & Lxst boy <3
lyrics ⬇️ 

is it necessary to think you always get what you want
often times I understand the way that you know to dodge
much obliged
but some days it’s still hard to know that you been movin on
you know I was out stuck in the darkness
lights off
Night time walkin
so lost

cuz I try to be my best
yea but that’ll never work out
its too hard to learn how
i need to get some rest
but it’s too hard lay down
you’re stuck in my head 

i hope there’s something left
i think abt the memories where u had took my breath
i hope you will remember me cuz that is what you said 
you said that were meant to be and there waswas no one next

late night walkin' w/ Lxst boy (flesh x ertu x medium)

Deltetions

https://open.spotify.com/track/5oodSx1VXqSffLSCqiUkKq?si=111860bd32f647ee

prod moneo
mix/master @vito2300 <3

really excited to have vito on this one, hope yall enjoy it :)

lyrics:
a ghost in a crowded room
doesnt like the attention
your death still haunts me too
is that even worth a mention 
if i keep on this path of abuse
maybe ill see you real soon
but what kind of ghost are you
maybe its not so frightening

like the spiders web
that catches the fly
in the same way that earth
takes back what dies

it got way too loud
oh dont make a sound
it got way too frightening
ill leave it behind me

(vito)
your eyes, melt mine
like cheap silverware
your cries, in the night
echo through the air
so keep holding out
to bear the weight all on your own
is not easy
ill be there every time you call
if you need me
ill keep you safe from me
as long as im breathing

do you believe in ghosts (w/ vito)

when the night tears

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when the night tears feat. AVXiD (prod. yunnygoldz & woahsxda)

~2300~

i wrote this song a few years ago about my predisposition to drug addiction. I never planned on sharing this publicly but I wanted to keep my SC page as more of a "time capsule" so here it is. I've lost many loved ones to the cycle of addiction and i'm grateful for my friends who have helped keep me grounded over the years even when things have been hard <3 love you.

predisposition (you weren't meant to hear this)

prod @1synthwrkr

Lyrics:
Step into a portal
Now your in my universe
Yeah I guess we falling out
Leave Diamonds on my shirt
Bloodied up, bloodied up
Baby do your worst
Fallin in, Fallin out
Time flow in reverse
X2

I be in the night, like a shadow
While I lay it down
Cigarette ash on my clothes roll the window down
Shawty take my hand, I don’t know how long I’ll be around
Shawty take my hand, I don’t know how long I’ll be around

I’ve been up for weeks
Will it ever fucking change
I don’t know myself
So I’m tearing off my face
Yeah I’m writing all these notes
But inside im feeling blank
Ay, blowing out the smoke
While I’m staring into space Ay

Crush me
Give me a rush when you fuck me
Going to fast, crashing
I can give you anything you asking

Step into a portal
Now your in my universe
Yeah I guess we falling out
Leave Diamonds on my shirt
Bloodied up, bloodied up
Baby do your worst
Fallin in, Fallin out
Time flow in reverse
X2

When I’m laying down I can feel my body levitate 
Oh u miss me now, no I can’t relate dont relate
Don’t hesitate just tell me what to take what to take
Talking to these demons in my head about my fate
Talking to these drugs too stay awake, stay awake
I’ve been getting faded for 88 days
I forgot that you exist
Forgot that you exist
Bitch im a fucking glitch
I can never miss
I can never miss
I can never miss
I can never miss
She didn’t want me back then
Now she say I’m him

Step into a portal
Now your in my universe
Yeah I guess we falling out
Leave Diamonds on my shirt
Bloodied up, bloodied up
Baby do your worst
Fallin in, Fallin out
Time flow in reverse
X2

DIAMONDS ON MY SHIRT (PROD. SYNTHWRKR)

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/xelfiy/talking-alone

:(

lyrics:
I can’t deal with it 

All these people fucking fake 
an I can’t deal with it 
I’m tryina get off the drinks and drugs but I can’t sleep without em
I just wanna talk to my friends but I get anxiety when around em
I gotta pop some just to join the call
If I fall
If I fall I wont even ask for help at all
I wanna ditch this town and never come back 
Pain in my back I couldn’t even count the times I been stabbed in it 
I don’t think that I had ever deserved this shit

I can’t deal with it 

We could talk it out 
I can’t deal with it 
Swear you never listen when I’m talking now
Everything could be different now
I can’t deal with it 
But you just wanna fight it out
I can’t deal with it 
An I just wanna talk about 
Shit that I can’t talk about
We used walk about the town 
And talk about the shit 
We couldn’t talk about around 
Are other friends 
But I guess I’m one of them now cuz you won’t talk to me about shit now and I guess this is where it all just ends 

I can’t deal with it

I can’t deal with it 
All these people fucking fake 
an I can’t deal with it 
I’m tryina get off the drinks and drugs but I can’t sleep without em
I just wanna talk to my friends but I get anxiety when around em
I gotta pop some just to join the call
If I fall
If I fall I wont even ask for help at all
I wanna ditch this town and never come back 
Pain in my back I couldn’t even count the times I been stabbed in it 
I don’t think that I had ever deserved this shit

crazy p. siem spark

HARDLYLUVD