[+] I been taking my time when I write what im spitting
*produced by @thersx *

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LYRICS:

[hook:]
had to let my mind just slip for a minute,
shawty she a dime, I don't think I wan spend it
I been taking my time when I write what im spittin'
I been getting by, but I still been sinnin (2x)

[verse:]
I don't wanna feel the heartache
pull up like a star aye, she been on my dick
I fucked her right there in the hallway
I keep havin withdraws thats why I call baby Im sorry
I just hope you know I'm gonna love you and thats always yeah
22 and Im a piece of shit, I should call it quits
I think I'm giving in, my momma counting on me
But im not feeling it, I quit my job left school cuz I thought I'd be big
my time is running out, I hear this voices in my head
what they talking bout? got this Xanax in my system and I feel it now
You aint even there when I be coming down...

star dust

drunk, wasted prod. siem spark

The Ones I Have Loved

scrapped ideas, demos, and things i made with friends for fun (2022-2023)

i am freddie dreed w/ lil darkie, lil cubensis, kamaara prod. freddie dredd

lyrics ⬇️

time flies by i know
make the life you wanna unfold
one eye looking down the rifle
countless tries they got me going thru a cycle

tbink back when i was young i would go hunting in the woods
grandpa taught me that yhe guns are only used for doing good
why is everybody toting all their guns up in the hood
i really think that i would change the world if i feel that i could

love, peace thats all that we need
everybody hates a single feeling of defeat

i always try my best to tell em how i feel
i dont like to crash the parties
i dont like to pop the pills
gimme paranoia 
used to gimme thrills
made me trapped made me stuck feelin ill
“whats up, poor a cup” no deal
maybe thats the reason i feel how i feel

they said that i gotta learn how to live
i wish that i could get past all the tricks
but i know nobodys an idol
so vital, the fact that you can lie tho

nowdays i think that honesty really got an appeal
theyll take ur heart when u think that they dont steal
yea you really gotta watch out 
cuz theyre gon tell you that you shouldnt ever fear

paranoia hits me in my ears
talking all the time thinking bout the years
i dont wanna think that you were ever even mine
you were with my peers 
it was clear

now i know what really came to my demise
but i dont wanna hear what i should really hear
always try to cover every single little lie
cuz i dont wanan kneel where we used to lay
but when its all uncovered ik how youll rlly feel
ill look up in the sky and hope ur still alive
im feeling really horrible and skippin all my meals
cuz i know im the guy that ruined ur whole life

nobody told me it wpuld be this hard
fell to my knees cuz it was ruined from the start

always felt like i need backup
yea but that aint even really rational 
could blame it all on bad luck
you know this life gets so personal

peace. (cl6udy)

prod by icantsleeplol
(a old song ill never finish, so here's what i have rn)
ps. if i had the file for this song, i would've mixed it properly, so im sorry

lyrics:
i lay in my bed, and i sit and sigh
and i stay up all night and i go and write
about the feelings that i really cant identify
so i wonder all the ways i couldn't satisfy
her needs and expectations that she already had in mind
and i was blind by the way she looked me in my eyes
and said "im sorry" but there's no need to apologize
all the times u fucked me up and tried to justify
u always loved that game where i was inside of a box
and silenced me everytime i had a single thought
and i questioned it but you told me that i was wrong
u drilled it in my head that this is where i belong

justify (unfinished, unmixed)

prod. heyzbee & onidtnom

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest 

honestly, i’m struggling, but i don’t think that’s fair to say 
god i feel so selfish every time i write and the say way 
i’ve been feeling recently, i don’t wanna stay the same
this a cry for help but no one cares, i do this day by day
are you listening to me, every word can you repeat?
god it feels like you’re a liar when you say you’re caring please
it’s all upsetting to me, everything you say is cheap 
you just wanna make me feel better but that’s not what i need 

AVXiD:
i been getting worse
everyday i turn
bb can we take it back a little
back to what we were
let my body purge 
let my systems burn
enter in my heart and sew it up cuz it had start to hurt

split my brain into pieces
u know that i need 
im sick of being
who im not 
somehow seeing
somehow breathing
barely bleeding
let it rot

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down and i don’t want it 
i hate myself so i vomit 
i’m the worst i swear i promise
this the only time i am honest

upside down (feat. AVXiD)

Flow State

Psicodelico

ROLLIN'

enjoy </3

Lyrics:
Lost hope 
Feelin lost at the end of my rope 
Been tryna figure out a  way to fill this hole
I been beggin for some kind of self control 

Waste my life on petty dreams, broken promises n, all my greed 
Running from my home, had myself buried since 17

All this weight on my back could collapse under weight that i know that i lack 
Feelin ive been lost, losing track 
All my sense seem to become dull, got nothing no one i can console 
Pretty useless whit my arms tied up wit rope 
Sorry mama i wasnt what you wanted please try to cope 

Wasted my life on petty dreams broken promises and greed 
Running from my home had myself buried since 17

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