Lyrics
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It breaks my heart
knowing you and I won't cross paths in a lifetime again
A lifetime again
And I took my car on a night ride
But the street lights won't tell you when it ends
Tell you when it ends
'Cause I've been driving for a while
And the gaslight just keeps on flashing red
Keeps on flashing red
While my head's spinning libel
A hand on the bible I swear to god I hope he strikes me dead
Because I ain't changed from who I am
Hard drugs next to empty cans
And scriptures as diaries of torment penned in lead

And I took my car on a night ride
But street lights won't tell you when it ends
Will it ever end
And I found my heart by the sidelines enough times
With too many wounds to tend
Too many wounds to tend

A face in the crowd
Pick me out
Hear my name
Say it aloud
You'll only know me when I ain't sober
Or maybe once if I'm a little hungover
See you 'round
'Round this town
Get to learn me
My ups and downs
You've only known me since last October
Still naïve but just a little bit older
Who's to blame
Naming names
The more it changes
It stays the same
And our investigation patience
Doesn't grow it only wanes
In this game
That we play
Pointing fingers
Like an array
It just keeps testing my agency
'Till it fades like tears in rain

It's hard
Knowing you and I won't cross paths in a lifetime again
A lifetime again
And I crashed my car on a night ride
But street lights only tell you if it ends
Tell me if it ends

And I crashed my car on a night ride
But street lights won't tell me if it ends
Will it ever end
And I found my heart by the sidelines enough times
With too many wounds to tend
Too many wounds to tend

Night Ride

Cast Out (prod. Venus)

13. FIGHTING DEMONS

@prodreaper

Art by Beka Nicole

Lyrics

Everyday I wake up same old shit
Same life same thoughts same all black fit
Mom disappointed with the same damn kid
Still broke still sad still real feelings hid

I aint got a job Ima be a fucking bum
Still broke still sad still living with my mom
In the same damn house in the same damn room
With the same damn mind and the same damn veiw

Hate it that I have created this world that I'm in
And I cannot erase it 
Yeah I make music but that's fucking basic
I just wish that I could make myself face it

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

Broke is expensive and I cant afford
unknxwn. aint the person that you should adore
Everynight when I write I just fall to the floor
Then the carpet just soaks up my tears even more

I'm a sad piece of shit
I aint gone never gone get me a bitch
I aint gone never gone feel any bliss
If I took my life I dont think I'd be missed

We all been raised to think money is real
To the point where people would even kill
Aint gonna lie to be honest I will
Hate seein' mail and all of it is bills

I'm in despair hmu when I'm not
There aint no pill to fix what I have got
But that smoke chill me out when I am feelin' hot
So I dont give a fuck if my brain gonna rot

unknxwn. - Despair

I'm too busy in despair.

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i'm too busy in despair: part 1 | Produced by reaper

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

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Check Out The Producer:
Soundcloud: @lilghosty00
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCVj24MJaGwohHDmmbfQ6Frw

Lyrics
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If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

Nobody knows me
Y'all just like who you think that I am
Because how I show me
I'm on my lonely
But I'm just fucking fine with that
'Cause nobody owns me

I've been working non-stop
Working on a new drop
Making sure it's top notch on my own
Yeah I think about her a lot
Sometimes I wish I could stop
Instead I smoke on some pot all alone

All alone, all alone
Instead I'm smoking on thrax all alone
On my own, on my own
Imma make it to the top on my own

If you hate me now wait 'till you see me on shit
Fucked up in the back of the new whip
Write another track while I'm in my all black drip
With a brand new bitch
Baby one more kiss
You know I like that

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

They'll be jeering on the way back
Looking at my face tats
So off of my face
I don't know where my face at
I don't really give a fuck
Imma make it on my own two
You can hate me all you want
I don't even know you

Right now I feel on top of the world
And I ain't coming down
I ain't stopping now
Miss me when I'm not around

I ain't lie to my girl
So I mean it when Imma make it now
She hop in the whip
When I scream fuck this town

(Outro)
Where is my mind
Where is my mind

One More Kiss

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One More Kiss [Prod. Lil Ghosty]

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Love Letter ft zenny

Lyrics AMV featured on IDLEGLANCE: youtu.be/FaB_adGLw7Y

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

up in my stomach
I'm nauseous stay cautious I've been feeling low
like fill up the void with these flows
write down on the paper I roll
exhale all the vapor I know that
this shit ain't good for me
blowing out smoke like a factory
charging for features like battery
hopin this could be my salary
like, eating beats up like a calorie might
beat up the verse
know that this won't be the first
weepings the greatest, you worst
like fuck that shit was clean might run back
getting lean no more lack
smoke that green no piss pack
get me on ill attack that

note
i might fucking choke
I might waste away
let time decay
fuck what I wrote
feeling bleek today
can't speak no way
anxious no smoke
they say you can't really fix up whats already broke

take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

who the fuck you think you are?
talk bad on my name?
yes a year from now you'll leech my brow
and take the blame
"weepings" glow in golden lights that's that rise to fame
and ain't nobody wanna fuck with me before my flame

(slowed)
take a chance.
now you in it full send, no looking back, advance
crumpled up the blueprint ain't got no fuckin plans
I know that I've been lost for minute take a glance
hit the gas the exhaust linger with it 

kush got me in a trance, think I'm losing it
swallow up my pride and pills yes baby i'm abusing it
sorrow in my head alright, this dream am I pursuing it?
got her in my bed tonight but she ain't gon remove pit

Exhaust [prod. pink]

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