This Heart is Bleeding Pain

@qawikamri

LYRICS:
I know we fight sometimes
https://genius.com/Qawi-kamri-im-sorry-but-hold-on-to-me-annotated

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I'm Sorry But Hold On To Me

prod. @blacklunged

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
not goin out like i dont make anymore plans
sitting in my room, staring at the ceiling fan
wait, whos your mans?
guess i forgot to ask that
you haunt my dreams, i can see you in my flashbacks
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

im unnatentive to these bitches like i go to class
reach for the holster, load it up, and then i cock back
up to my dome, running frantic like my last lap
fill the spaces with distractions
cuz you know im bouta snap
like the led on my pencil when i try and write
i smoke a blunt, then im sleepin for the whole night
i didnt answer cuz im busy talkin to the knife
throwin shade like we forgot about the sun light
sometimes its hard to fight back
wake up around noon
stuck in bed while i smoke the sack
black fingernails creeping down to your body
always fucking up like its way more than a hobby
fiendin for some love, so ill take what i can get
nothings ev-er enough, death would be the safest bet
got ashes on my clothes cuz everything about me’s gross
you said i always did the least but bitch i always do the most

people fade away like ghosts, i guess its for the better
loving at what cost? feel closer with the reaper
when i see her its like all time stops
cuz im asleep while the fucking rain drops

smoking packs while im alone
i write these songs and hate myself
this alcohol straight to my dome
and i dont pace myself
fuck a chaser
all i chase are these illusions 
happiness, a fallacy
ive come to the conclusion

these days waking up is getting hard now
i knock the jack back
i pick up what i put down
bad habits comin round like theyre ancient
its no surprise that im gunna need a rain check
i fill my brain with whatever i can find
im self defeating
always wasting all my time
got a 9 to my head, but i swear im fine
im unattached from the little that i call mine

Follow me <3

while the rain drops (prod. blacklunged)

@notmorgn <333

lyrics:

I don't need no friends that fake expressions just for fun
how you say i started when i ain't even begun
every lie you stack up on me hurts unless you're done
every day i suffer in my room well just because

everyday i wake up in a nightmare its a curse
every night i try to change then wake up felling worse
thoughts and hollow memories but still no lessons learned
broken glass for feelings but nobody act concerned

i can't hold my happiness for not even a day
people poppin xannys and they wanna hide the pain
i don't think they understand that life isn't a game
look inside yourself and you might find someone to blame

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

i can hear your whispers as they echo through my mind
pitch black border painted all around your eyes
i don't feel a thing i swear i've never been this high
i don't need to try
i don't wanna stay here
wanna take my life

i don't think i'll every try to make it through the night
who wants to feel alive
am i right
wanna die in your eyes

medicate anxiety no remedy to pain
medicate society so they all go insane
medicate my brain, medicate my brain (x2)

dying in ur eyes (prod.notmorgn)

Mix and Master: @itsyungvan
Production: @lilheartbreaker
Sample: Love Story - Taylor Swift
I love you all so much, from here on out it's all going to be sad music!! i want to make you all proud and i hope you like this song, love y'all, thanks for always having my back <3

Lyrics:

Chorus-

I'm only 19, what do you want from me
laugh all day, just to cry in my sleep
got a whole year before I'm outta teens
8-5-9's just the way I be
Awake all day to escape my dreams
I feel this way, but I wanna be free
Got a whole before I'm outta teens
8-5-9's just the way I be


Verse 1-
When I was only 10 I think I lost myself
I'd go to bed and I'd pray for help
Flash forward only 9 years
I'm still dealing with the same fears

Chorus-

I'm only 19, what do you want from me
laugh all day, just to cry in my sleep
got a whole year before I'm outta teens
8-5-9's just the way I be
Awake all day to escape my dreams
I feel this way, but I wanna be free
Got a whole before I'm outta teens
8-5-9's just the way I be

Verse 2-
I try my best to heal your pain
I know I'm different, but we're still the same
I put love in all my songs
So that you can sing along

Outro-

I'm only 19, what do you want from me
laugh all day, just to cry in my sleep
got a whole year before I'm outta teens
8-5-9's just the way I be

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i'd do anything for you (Prod. lil heartbreak)

Special thanks to https://www.instagram.com/fallingap.art/ for the artwork on this <3
https://twitter.com/sayygoodbyye
https://soundcloud.com/goodbyye

Lyrics:
Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

Writing this letter so I could say
Dearest friend I hope you'll be okay
Think about you each and every day
I'm still wishing that you could've stayed
Want you to know that I'm broken
Hear the words that were never spoken
I was fine until I was awoken
A heart is so fragile when it's stolen

Fuck you I'm just so mad
Got me feeling so sad
Think about the times we had
Why'd you have to leave like that
Left me all alone in fact
I been lonely holding back
Tears in my eyes looking past
Wishing that this could've last

So I'll write this note and then I'll burn it
Let the smoke carry up the words and turn it
To a message from below so you learn it
Thought I wanted death before but now I yearn it
I know you want to go
Please stay I'll be alone
If you leave from this home
Don't go out in the cold

Don't go out in the snow

Please don't leave me alone

I don't want you to go

Please don't leave me alone

why'd you have to go

@lilmoonlet <3

hello?

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them, i hope you don't think i'll resolve them

sometimes its just not that easy
(not that easy)
sometimes its just not that easy
(i wish that it could be)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i wish you could see what you're doing to me)
your vices control you you're not seeing clearly
(i need you to be, all that you can be, i'm sorry)

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

i am only human, how do you expect me to react when you're abusive
i get that you're hurting but i'm not deserving of being your way out 
if i'm such a burden then why don't you leave
hoping you'll stay but its hard to foresee, if you will ever be happy with me
i can't keep doing this every week, i'm growing too weak, 
i think this relationship has reached its peak, i'm growing to weak
so sad its bleak

you call in the night why you tryin to fight me
i don't get the issue i'm sorry i'm trying
i just can't relate to your problems
how you expect me to solve them

problems w/ moonlet (prod.hkfiftyone)

guccihighwaters - do u wanna be mine (KEMMMY flip)

@lilkuudere

lyrics:
i hear my phone ringing 
but i know i shouldn't answer it
this negative energy's
so fucking cancerous
i swear i need to cut you off
before you grow on me
and i loose everything to you
up in the bed sheets

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

go ahead and hate me for wanting to die
i just want to be alone tonight
curl up in my bed and cry
let out all the things i hide

don't you worry
i'll be fine
tryna get you off my mind
atleast i hope so over time
you never know tho
with all these photos
in my camera roll
every time i look at them
i'm sucked into a black hole
you cut me deep 
and watched me bleed out 
morbidly
now i have no choice 
but to adjust my life accordingly
hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me


(hopefully i'll find my way to
something that means more to me) X3

don't worry, i'll be fine (prod. lil kuudere)

OFFLINE

down the slopes i'm going [prod. offline]

the homie @guccihighwaters

lyrics

(gucci)
I build static
I go crazy
Can't put it out if it doesn't sound amazing
and life's too fast baby hold me till it's over
tell me that you love me maybe once when you're sober
Don't wanna die as a memory
I can't leave without my legacy
Leave love letters lying on my tombstone
death is only physical I'd like to have a new home

Anxiety make my body go numb now
I sleep early withdraw on the comedown 
when I was younger it left me in hunger
but now I'm older 
desire to be under x2

(softheart)
you dont even care like you used to 
you aint even there like you used to be
hard like the usual 
you just give me stares like you're used to me

anxious probably up late
tryna hide my face
tryna bring it back
i was thinking that
life is always moving so fast
before you knew it had passed
doing better still bad

i guess im just scared it wont come
true so i dont think it
i swear its so lonely when its snowing
in new england
thought you called me it was just a 
dream was just a figment
of back when you would hold me 
like the only thing you need is
me 
is me 
is me
hate me you hate me so bad
its over hard to stay sober 
as i get older just grow colder
weed make it okay so i stay stoned
just like a boulder

chorus

anxiety (feat. guccihighwaters)

Prod. By: @neverday

fuck this place I hate this town
swear one day I'll burn it down
I prefer when no one round
cause I just wanna die with sound 

smoke so much 
I cannot feel my toes
I've been getting high 
to try to fill these holes
inside my mind 
I hate me all the time
feel depressed 
but I tell em that I'm fine
cause they don't really 
know or understand
it's not their fault 
I really wasn't in the plan
but really I don't give a damn 
I stack my money up
I got them blue strips in my hands 
In the club and I'm throwin bands
I'm only 17 
but you know I'm still the man 
any drug you want 
you know I got it 
she looked me right 
in the eyes and she popped it 

I'm so high not coming down
fuck this place I hate this town 
my creative vibe is running out
I'm gonna die 
the light is out
she crushed my heart and took my soul 
she took my youth and made me old
I hate this bitch with my whole heart
left me shattered from the start 

left me in the dark

yeah she left me in the dark 
I think I'm gonna die
demons coming for me 
angels falling out the sky 
now my heart is fucked up
baby I was love drunk 
fell into a nightmare 
now I'll never wake up 

I will never wake up
I don't wanna say much 
I just wanna crash fast 
knew it when our lips touched 
I fell for you too hard 
I can't get back up 
now I'm fucking stuck here
I always have the worst luck

spotify

fell into a nightmare (prod. neverday)

[produced by kenny x ninetyseven]

always love studio days with @gyzalofi , go show him love!! i'm hoping to put this on spotify very soon.

up for days (feat. ninetyseven)

⚰️

Spotify • https://open.spotify.com/track/1gKuDaXI4tMM0ARlCR1y7y?si=G8govNrsRyydmOulr2gL1A

Apple • https://music.apple.com/us/album/shallow-grave-feat-rinnegone-guccihighwaters/1439826577?i=1439826667

Shallow Grave (Feat. Rinnegone & guccihighwaters) [Prod. 4evr]

produced by @produnown
mixed by @iofmusic

[lyrics]

i don’t mind that you,
won’t get out of bed,
please don’t cry,
when i die, when I’m dead,
and i still try ,
erasing thoughts in my head,
but all i find is,
that I’m so fucking useless,
cigarette ash falls to the carpet,
blood stains in the sink of your apartment,
yeah you stole my heart,
and you swallowed it whole,
i guess ill love you while I’m young ,
because i won’t grow old,
i want to see your face as i fall asleep,
place your hand upon my chest while laying next to me,
I’m gonna break your heart but you knew this,
and i can’t do shit because I’m useless,
i see it when i look in your eyes,
I’m just gonna waste your time,
i see it when i look in your eyes,
I’m just gonna waste your time,

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Useless - (prod. unown)

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baby do you hate me (prod. sketchmyname) out on spotify

S/O https://soundcloud.com/lilsadeyes for mixing my part :)

Kixsu X Flowars - So High (Prod. Syndrome)

w/ @guardinmusic
prod. by @taylor

lyrics:

why does this 
seem never ending i try to be patient
i wake up everyday just trying to escape it
this darkness is lurking don’t want to embrace it
i left my sanity dead in the basement
i burn with the demons
i drink till i’m wasted
this life full of color just seems to have faded
though i know my hearts temporarily jaded
and i will be free on the day that i face it

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

(guardin)
why do i
even try 
i swear that i've 
lost my mind
it's not right
losing sight
of direction objection i'm losing my pace
caught in the storm and my head's outta place 

grip my hand and we can make it out alive
trust my integrity it's eating me inside
they say honesty is crucial to survive 
but i know a couple people comfortably living a lie
so why do i feel so uninviting
head vs heart and they keep on fighting
lost my mind but i just keep writing
lock my door in my bed i'll be hiding 

(ooo ooo ooo
oh no
oh why)

oh no
if i you go down this road
i’m gonna die soon
and i don’t wanna die soon
oh why do i
do this to my health
it’s like i’m killing myself
i’ve created this hell

oh no ft. guardin (prod. taylor morgan)

we're all sad its okay

i don’t have any heart left to give you
i ran straight out but i still missed you
out my mouth the words that kissed you
i am a failure i couldn’t lift you
i’m so sorry for the way 
that you left me i’m a waste
you don’t seem bothered i’m led astray
why don’t you lock me up
in a cage•
•i told you i don’t have anything left
i’m sorry but i hurt myself again
you envied me too much to play pretend 
i know that i’ll go down with no regrets 
gonna make this music till i break as i
watch you cut me out in different shapes
thinking that maybe she cared always my big mistake 
without her inside my life think it’s time to meet my fate
pour your broken heart out on a voicemail to me
hold my breath slowly til i go pale and i cant breathe 
give you everything that’s my promise to keep 
chopping up my heartache i’ll give you the biggest piece 
i don’t have anything left 
not since she left 
not since she left me
oh no (x2)
been feeling anxious for hours 
my ex might call me a coward 
i pray to a higher power 
wash sins away with a shower 
cut my chest until it’s open 
squeeze my neck until it’s frozen
smash my heart until it’s broken
and lose me in the commotion 
i’ll be right here waiting 
i’m slowly hallucinating
with you i don’t read the paintings
colored hatred in my daydreams 
feel the wicked danger changing 
my emotions and the way that i
exist you cannot pave the road 
i’m going i will always stay the same

since she left (prod. cxld blxxd)

WHY DON'T U FOLLOW ME ON INSTAGRAM YET HOES :( @JAKKYBOIII
JK LOVE YOU BUT ACTUALLY THO 💖
VIDEO LINK: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qD2tCSQ_CkE

fuck another hoe
i still feel alone
u think that i’m fine but i just don’t let it show
ya why u gotta mean so much to me 
why u gotta mean so much to me 

I was always there
no one really care
don’t act like u did baby don’t u fucking dare
ya why u gotta mean so much to me 
why u gotta mean so much to me, ya

i feel like i’m dead when i wake up in the morning
take it as a joke but should see it as a warning
i’m a pretty boy but so fucked u aint don't see
i don’t give a fuck if i did nobody’d know me 

She just make me feel like these girls did in highschool
throbbing on my heart like a bad bitch I hate you
she gon tell me lies after all that we been thru
I thought it was lust then i started to fall too

DEEP
IN LOVE
u got my heart like beating like on and on and on

GET OUT
MY WAY
i can’t let pain take back the truth
(and) it’s so far gone
can't replace u

Why u gotta mean so much? (VIDEO OUT NOW!)

Alone EP

Fall Apart ft.Ouse (Prod.By CapsCtrl)

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Love you all 😘 ps free hugs if needed

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This Heart is Bleeding Pain

Michael Shingler