I'm going through this right now... it's so lonely without her, she knows how much I needed her but she changed up. and now she knows I'm on the edge, she just doesn't care.

produced by hiraeth


Leave me outside in the rain 
Crying with no one to stay
Leave me to rot and decay
Can’t even look at my face

Say that you hate me 
I won’t break
Don’t ever tell me to change
I know I struggle I promise I’ll wait
If I’m staying inside 
am I safe ?

Call me anything you promised that you’d wait
Changed my name so I don’t fall by what you say
Letting go just to save me from what I hate

Take away from what I own
I never had a plan
Saving grace you never cared 
I never had a chance 
Tear me up and take away from all I ever had
Can’t believe you tried to blame it on your fucking past

Nothing lasts
You were all I had
Turning back 
Save me fore I crash
Going bad 
Turning into ash
Nothing lasts
Holding to the past

grise fiord

<3
released via: https://soundcloud.com/universalchill

featured artist: https://soundcloud.com/hiraethsry

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lyrics:

There is something that’s inside of me
Screaming at me, tryna go to sleep
Dancing demons under eyelids
Can’t be rational when I’ve been

Awake for a couple of days
You don’t understand my struggles
Don’t pretend that you’re me
You’ve been buying a new necklace
When there’s a noose on my neck
Writing down all of my problems
Like they will go away

There is lots that I’m not proud of
I admit that I have messed up
Something’s causing all this pain
Must’ve slipped up in the past

Please don’t try to cheer me up
Don’t lie to me, I hate that
I’m aware of all my faults
And I’m trying to fix that

And I can’t stop it
Pills been pretty numbing
Been out of my mind
Excuse all my shortcomings

I swear to god it
Ruins all my friendships
I have tried everything now
Somehow I fuck it up, wow

They told me that I’ll end up insane
I think that
To say that it’s a little too late
And I just
Can’t bear the thought of not seeing the day
Where I will feel okay
Buried 6 feet with the pain

I don’t wanna lose you again
I been alone in my bed
Ive had a few dreams about you
But theyre all in my head

Scratching marks on my chest
Engrave ur name in my flesh 
So I can’t forget if I tried to
Ur gonna leave me for dead

I keep fucking up the timing 
U don’t wanna listen
U got feelings of denial
Another pot to piss in
feel like I should start to fight more
I don’t need to be religious baby
U know what I stand for
Ashes burn my eyes sore

anxious I can’t breathe
Im getting nauseous turn the lights out
Please don’t ever speak to me
Don’t act like got time now
Im fighting with myself
Im out of luck is this my karma
I can barely talk im scared of speaking when i call her

6 feet with the pain

6 feet with the pain (feat. hiraeth)

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

@lilskeleskrrt
@prodjpjp

// geist
don’t look at me and tell me no hard feelings
blood was lost, it’s dripping through the ceiling
i saw this coming from a mile away
the knife was left in my chest for a reason
but i wish you the best forever, you win
i don’t want to fall in love with hate

i just wanted to dance
when your hand’s in my hand i feel my heart is racing
lost in a trance
but now i’m alone and i rot in this basement
there’s blood on my hands
and i paint the walls red when given a chance
oh don’t give me that glance
your eyes tell me secrets my heart cannot stand

oh
the knife was left for a reason :/
oh
wish you the best forever you win...

// skele
cut me right thru
baby you don’t need a panic
watch it pour out
darling isn’t it romantic
it’s like paradise
fading out
only you and i
somebody call the surgeon
tell him that it’s urgent
on the table stained red
i told you
i think that it was worth it
this is perfect
if you hold me as i go
i’ll wait up there for certain

and you
are
the reason
that i lay awake
staying up
i’ve been stuck here for days
hold my heart
in ur hand till breaks

don’t keep telling me to let go
screaming out
i stop to listen to the echo
not enough
fucking tearing up my throat
i’ll keep going
till the blood
makes me choke
what you know
baby tell me where you go at night
empty out this bed
i’m still not feeling right
staring at my meds
i’m on the borderline
walk along the edge
i don’t feel alive

spotify

paradise w/ skele [jpjp]

hey, woah
you look so much better than i thought you would
i know i could have helped and i know i should
have been there when you needed me most
so stay close
i just can't bear the thought of you going ghost
on everything we built and the roads we took
doesn't that sound like the best?
'cos i've been staring at a little piece of heaven in your eyes
and i look beyond the arch and see the devil in disguise
and it hurts when you matter the most
and it kills me when you leave me alone
and trust me that i gave it my all
my skin is shed and i'm nothing but bone
you're poison in my veins, my disease
the end of everything we could be
and it's hard
to focus on our wants and i won't
leave you here in my arms 'cos you know
it never got easier
my disarray
leads me here when i need a safe place
i might lead you here into the flames
and right here we'll stay
tongue tied, what can i say
burrowed, i'm hiding away
go without me, save yourself
leave right now, i wish you well
it's been a while since we spoke
but it feels like a week ago
and you forgot what i look like
you won't see even if you try
you won't see me even if you try your best
i can't believe we continue trying again
'cos in the back of my mind i just know we'll end
let's not figure it out, let's just call it dead
i stay alive for a reason
and that reason is you
when my body is bleeding
it bleeds out just for you
Friends (Interlude)
oh she stole my heart
it's all i have
ooh drifting apart
but there ain't no way i'm giving up
it's all my fault
you said yourself
i took too long to answer
you called my your 'makeshift hell'
my patience thin
you told me you wanna stay as friends
i don't know how to take that in
but trust me i'll be alright
it's the same shit but a different day i
woke up in a different place i
don't really remember how i got so damn low
save me all your bullshit lies
i find it hard to push the lines
but ain't that what you wanted love?
ain't this what you needed oh?

you're poison in my veins, my disease [feat. heylog]

prod by stezzyxl
enjoy ^\^

lyrics:
i fall like the leaves and i cry like the rain
i like to believe that one day i’ll be safe 
from you
is it too good to be true?

i’m not very sure myself
you can see my mental health
that i’m doing not as well
unlike you cuz i need help
i can’t get you out my head
the pain just starts to spread
i can’t believe i’m still in love
with someone that’s been dead

the girl i met 3 years ago is somewhere far away
and i’ve been scavenging around
hoping i can find you one day
but everyday that passes by i lose hope
i lose hope

i will give you this one
you got the best of me
i’m sure you had ur fun
oh well that’s what i think
for 1 you never talk
and 2 you always block
narcissism at its finest
i was never wrong
i sit back and recline
i have no fucking time
so go and bring ur worst
i promise i will fight
i swear i’m not the same
sit prone and take my aim
by the time u blink, ur gone
by the time u think, ur scarred

if u wait for me
wait for me
there’s a vacancy
from what i can see
we were meant to be
wait for me
wait for me

she’s been dead

Pass me, I don’t where I’m going
Should of asked me before, now I can’t show it

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

There’s cracks in the pavement, I’ve been walking on 
Hold me up, outside 
I’ve been waiting for so long

Don’t get annoyed when this morning was fine 
Keep your hold on me, leech to me tight
The person that I am is no worse than the one I was
Somewhere in the winter I lay
Hibernate way too long 
A part of me died
I’m hosting funerals
It’s partly in spite 
So you can watch my body decay
Rot infront of your face
And I’m sat checking my list
Just to remember your name
Though it’s partly in spite 
It’s mostly in vain

It’s half three at night
It can’t be morning yet
Go to sleep my dear
It’s not like I could yet
Pull me out of here
I’m in a hole of regret
Don’t highlight my fear
I’m not over it yet

3:30

@seenyona

i feel lost
my words get stuck
the good all fades away

hear my songs
so you know what’s wrong
and you hit me up
but your numbers blocked
hey you know my side
so i’m sorry love
made me kill myself
and i can’t do it all again

fall on my back love
kiss at my palm
my eyes dim down -is that what you want-
grip at my chest
i know that youve won
accepting fate
im yours from now on

lost in my mental, im crashing in waves
scratch at my wrists, im bleeding again
im beyond help, someone do something
i dont think i could go through it again
always left out, i feel so abondendond
taking my trust, and taking advantage
fell out of love, i took so much damage
im beyond help, im beyond caring

GO TAKE YOUR TIME AND WATCH ME DIE INSIDE YOUR ARMS
ITS OKAY.
CAUSE THERE’S NOWHERE ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE BURIED
BUT WHEN I’M GONE WILL YOU EVEN THINK OF ME
CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THERES SOMEWHERE YOU’D RATHER BE

OH NO
WHAT IS HOME??
IM THE GHOST THAT WAS LEFT WHEN THE CROWN FELL RIGHT OUT OF YOUR HANDS
BROKEN BONES
LEFT TO ROT
YOU CAN SEE THE DIRT
IN EVERY CREVICE
OF HIS WORDS

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

I Miss You, Heather

Love as a game. Space as the board. Two players, no rules.

ELON-VEN-0539 - Law Corrects Art

사랑이 행복이었던 적이 없어서
허기진 아이가 되어버린 나는

모든 게 허기진 것 처럼 느껴져
가득히 받아본 적이 없어서

그런 기분이 뭔지 몰라
아무것도 모르겠어

매번 사랑받아본 사람처럼
상상하면서 생각을 해

나에게 사랑을 달라고
떼쓰는 어린아이처럼

마음속에선 매번 울고 있어

나에게 사랑을 달라고
떼쓰는 어린아이처럼

마음속에선 매번 울고 있어

누군가 내 마음을 얻기 위해
애써준 사람이 아무도 없어

사랑을 받아본 적 없으니
사랑을 할 줄 모른다던 말

아마도 그 말 때문일까
That shadow is still here

상상 속에서만 존재하는
배부르게 사랑받는 아이

이런, 허기진 마음이 싫어
비어 있는 마음에

뭘 채워야 할지도 몰라
Somebody please tell me how

나에게 사랑을 달라고
떼쓰는 어린아이처럼

마음속에선 매번 울고 있어

나에게 사랑을 달라고
떼쓰는 어린아이처럼

마음속에선 매번 울고 있어

내가 채워지지 못해서
사랑이란 것도 못하는 걸까

다른 사람들은 사랑이란 걸
잔뜩 받으며 살아서

자신감이 넘치는 것 같다고

어디서 생기는 건지 궁금할 만큼
그런 힘을 가진 사람들

Is that what love is for

나에게도 사랑을 달라고
떼쓰는 어린아이처럼

또 마음속에서 울고 있어

나에게 사랑을 달라고
이제 그만 허기진 아이이고 싶어

나에게 사랑을 달라고
이제 그만 채워지고 싶어

So fill me up with all that love
So fill me up with all that love

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

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