prod. ocin
guitars: yhello

Come catch a feeling while we’re watching a lightning 
But nothing excites me, baby I try to hide it 
I think about you, let’s make love on the highway 
Can we get inside babe 
You know time won’t stop flying 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
We keep laughing it off, ya 

Kill time when we're driving 
It's both of us finding 
A reason to separate 
Your past is behind me 
I don't open up 
Don't wanna be judged 
Don't wanna be looked at 
I blame my gut 

I love you and you know that 
Even if you don't love me back 
I pray at night to hope you're well 
And pray again for my own self 
If I had a wish and that would be to see you laugh 
Cause I guarantee that you'll receive a smile back 
Now we both sitting there just laughing it off 
I want you to know that you were all I got 

You know me I 
Could never stop 
I’ll do it or die 
Can’t lose you and cry 
The pain in our back 
It hurts 
Now we’re laughing it off 
Now we’re laughing it off, oh

laugh it off (ft. heylog)

@tnvr555 

you always bring out the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
watched u burn our home straight to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

the worst in me my love
i hate myself so much
u burnt it to the ground
i grieved but now i’m done

said you’d do it in a heartbeat
i guess hearts don’t beat inside your world
cause it’s been 4 weeks
i just wanted comfort in the girl who once adored me
i’ve learnt that your words are nothing more than just poetry

i want to take the blade
slice across my throat okay
hurts more than i’ll ever say
hurts more than my music could ever convey
don’t come and play your games with me
i wanted somewhere i could breathe
it hurts
it burns
so endlessly
i swear to god you’ve ruined me
and i don’t ever want to feel
if this is love i rather bleed

spotify

i hate myself so much [tnvr]

red vol. 2, 7th july <3

i feel my heart tear string from string again 
and i’m so sorry but i don’t know where the fuck you went 
cause you’re somebody, not the one i met  
i’ll leave the roses by our grave for all the love we had  

no one ever really cares for what i need 
i fall in love with narcissists that have different beliefs 
said that you’d do anything 
but chose to watch me bleed 
and honestly the pain is starting to feel like relief 

no one ever really cares till u can’t breathe 
i’m really fucking fighting i just need my time to grieve 
feeling so damn angry can’t take anymore defeats 
i really miss my friend another ghost amongst the trees 

are you mad love 
tell me i’m the bad one 
your life is but a scam but 
you don’t care what anyone thinks of you 
wish you had think us through 

fuck it’s so pathetic 
miss when you were more poetic 
brag that you’re so copacetic 
but what’s that worth when everyone’s tasted you 
it just not the girl i knew..

i’ll lay here flat on my face 
compare us, i’m a waste 
but at least i’m not fake :/ 
so don’t text that you miss me too 
oh love it’s just not the truth

i fall in love with narcissists [johnnyfriend]

i shouldn’t write a song
but idk where else that i could say it
move along but
every time i do its like a phase
and am i wrong?
cause i can never tell
when i’m to blame
so move along
cause idk how else to cope with pain

you wear and tear
go ahead and rip me love
but i’ll still stop and stare
cause i know that you’re hurting too
but this shit’s just unfair
say how much you miss me
but you really do not care
cause i broke down in front of you
and he’s still fucking there

on the bad nights
did you lose sight
of me
you move like
it’s never you & i
darling
i hate life
but i’ll keep on fighting
cause i got lots of ghosts
and i would hate to see them starving

i would hate to see them starving..

i hold my heart in my hands
but you’re still feeling the tension?
walk all over it again
it’s fine i won’t even mention…
spit all over my face
then ask me why i’m regressing
baby could you ever change
cause i don’t get that impression

guess i'm to blame [prodsecre x prophecy x veilonme x kre8ore]

it starts slowly 
no movement 
i couldn't even feel the difference 
then it hits  
i'm missing you 
now it's quickly 
but gently.. 
hands around my neck so swiftly
before i know 
i'm falling in love 

then a lie sprouts again 
ruins all that i know, it's the end  
so is it all goodbyes now i guess 
always wrong timing my friend 

but don't say that you love me 
when you couldn't spare me a minute, no 
i'm so used to people acting different
thought u were different though 
so hang me up so slowly 
let me see what is it you're about 
lately it just feels like 
i'm about to get my heart ripped out


spare a minute [neverforever]

@onlyfriendyeah 

// onlyfriend
i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
so hate me
fuck your friends and move on with your life
it's taking everything i've got to even try
now i won't say forever, forever's come and go
cause people change and people leave
it's just the way it goes

i'm just a spirit in your bedsheets
i've been dead and gone for six weeks
won't take you back
don't hold me down
please don't tell me how you feel alive
whenever i'm around

// i'm geist
ohh
you have a way with your words
to always get what you want
no
i’d tell you how much hurts
but what’s the point of it now

six weeks dead still in my bed
and the sheets stained red, holes in my head
and after all was said, i watched you burn it down
had me holding on tight, to a love in the ground
promised we’d be alright, so how is it over now?
oh if you just stayed the night, we would have figured it out
now i’m stuck here without you
minds plagued full of doubt
and there’s nothing to amount too
with these stains on my crown

six weeks

six weeks w/ onlyfriend [iof x king theta]

@seenyona

i feel lost
my words get stuck
the good all fades away

hear my songs
so you know what’s wrong
and you hit me up
but your numbers blocked
hey you know my side
so i’m sorry love
made me kill myself
and i can’t do it all again

fall on my back love
kiss at my palm
my eyes dim down -is that what you want-
grip at my chest
i know that youve won
accepting fate
im yours from now on

lost in my mental, im crashing in waves
scratch at my wrists, im bleeding again
im beyond help, someone do something
i dont think i could go through it again
always left out, i feel so abondendond
taking my trust, and taking advantage
fell out of love, i took so much damage
im beyond help, im beyond caring

GO TAKE YOUR TIME AND WATCH ME DIE INSIDE YOUR ARMS
ITS OKAY.
CAUSE THERE’S NOWHERE ELSE I WOULD RATHER BE BURIED
BUT WHEN I’M GONE WILL YOU EVEN THINK OF ME
CAUSE IT SEEMS LIKE THERES SOMEWHERE YOU’D RATHER BE

OH NO
WHAT IS HOME??
IM THE GHOST THAT WAS LEFT WHEN THE CROWN FELL RIGHT OUT OF YOUR HANDS
BROKEN BONES
LEFT TO ROT
YOU CAN SEE THE DIRT
IN EVERY CREVICE
OF HIS WORDS

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

conversation, we should give it up
i think im struggling to fight you
and theres no need for me to act so tough
id throw my life away to find you
and we can stop, tell me its enough
inflict all the damage you want
you can bruise my bones and be rough
id never tell you to stop

this is the only time i get to hear you
ive wasted all my life, trying to see you
and i dont go outside, cause im ashamed to
id rather stay and hide, its what im bound to

bound

Lyrics 100% written by me, vocals produced with AI. Looking to work with real singers and other songwriters so let me know if you’re interested. Let me know what you think in the comments. 

when i'm gone, will you even think of me? w/ yona

valentine ghost