w/ @six-days-after-christmas

like a deer in headlights 
when i saw your face i froze in fear 
ran back home in hopes that 
all the thoughts i had would dissapear 
thinking bout ur face while sitting sippin on some shitty beer
lay in bed dreaming that maybe one day 
youd be near 

monday wasnt good at all 
walking past you in the hall 
i saw you with your friends 
laughing and joking  at someones expense i 
didnt know them 
but im glad it wasnt me 
cus im hoping 
maybe i can talk to you at least

i cant get any closer 
my friends told me walk up but i dont even know her
i havent had this feeling in a while itold her
i know how it endsmaybe try when we're older 

cuz its i hate you and you hate me
your lifes a little more private but i'll still see 
cuz if ur all i need you're all i'd be
but i cant see that much from here i'll just see u in my sleep

deer in headlights

https://open.spotify.com/track/5ZIIE80NheRzoIBzmo18dU?si=f78fc6c0ed884726

@melodyx_o cover
prod me

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i hate being alive
slit my wrist i wanna die
wish i wasnt such a guy
stay inside like all the time
life just feels like such a pain
i really hate everything
motivation is so drained
and i really hate my face like
oooo
been so long since i have cleaned my rooom
been so long since i have made my fucking bed
i feel so made fun of by all of my friends
and
i feel so degen
i wake myself
at 1 pm
i hate this life
i think of death
but im too scared
of nothingness
im not prepared
to leave this world
i wish i was
an average girl
instead i struggle to feel real
instead i struggle to see a life where i pay bills

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaadd my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

i dont know why i try
bad decisions i just cry
see incisions on my thighs
next to prickly bumps of mine
everything is strange
why do i feel so much pain
my hair feels so disarrayed
and i cannot feel okay like
i dont have like any power
feel like my life is over
only have me to blame
throw on a skirt and
run outside again
embarrassing
myself for hours
feel ashamed my shitty mood
ive fucked my life too soon
i know i’m not doing too well
i’ll end up a jisatsu girl
if i don’t grab onto myself
if i don’t lose my fucking mind without some help

i feel like i am dead
cant get outside my heaad my head
i feel like i cant move
just dont know what to doooo
to do

jisatsu girl (自殺) (cover)

If I could see u

i know i cant do anything right
fucked up once, i was gone from ur life
said you'd always be by my side
i now know that you're full of lies
there's still something about you i cant get out my mind
im thinking about you, but im left behind
i just miss when we used to talk and
ik that i wont ever forget
hate the thought of you, i think and i get upset
i was in the wrong now i was i wish that i could be dead
dont wanna look back, so many things i regret
too much going on and im feeling so embarrased
we could talk it out, but u act like im a ghost now
everytime i see u i get anxious, im so scared now
ik its over now
i feel so burnt out
cant get u out my head
ik u want me dead x_x

PRODUCED BY me plz do not tell me i accidently rewrote another song yet again

it's over

too far gone

i'm rlly clueless (feat. overtonight)

single while u guys wait for my ep
(got inspired to make this from a yt beat i produced this tho)
lyrics:
chorus:
Lately ive been feelin useless
Nothing seems to go my way
But i gotta suck it up
Cus nobody gaf
Even when i feel like i wanna quit

verse:
all my life just filled with lies i dont wanna do this anymore
always mad or always sad i keep on going but just what for?
always seem to wonder whats wrong with me
my friends dont stay they always leave
and i always seem to wonder why im so naive
this worlds not real its make believe

chorus repeats then solo

degenerate

https://open.spotify.com/album/0yUJgkExQ2wON5yiQzu1gc?si=DZtw7NSUQJO6Sgf3AbtatQ

prod. me
@naerobi

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going 

i wont lie
like you do
cuz time from time
i miss you
your touch you smile
i’ve been through 
so much worse

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going 

@coldwntr

Why am i stressed without you
Always sad dont know how ill get through
What comes next? Im not sure what ill do
Wasting time, cant stop thinking of you

I’ll drive as far as 
i can go
while my heart says
i love you so
why cant life be 
much easier tho
i cant keep on going

i can't keep on going w/ coldwntr

https://open.spotify.com/track/62Kx7oQZSo2hr1wEcWvN3h
(prod. spawncamped)

stream <3

missed calls

Don't eat it
Don't taste it
It taste like soap
It taste like soap

It's not the key
To the knowledge
It's not the key
To the knowledge

Of good versus evil
Of good versus evil
I say it's wrong
I say it's wrong

For I am the
Forbidden Bite
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right

They call me the demon
The demon from hell
But what is hell
But what is hell

They trick you
Into thinking
I'm evil
Which is bad
But I'm good
But I'm good

For I am the
Forbidden Bite
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right

If you
Don’t taste the truth
Then what is hell
If you
Don’t taste the truth
Then what is hell

They pretend
To care
They pretend
To be scared

For I am the
Forbidden Bite
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right
For I am the
Serpent
I'm right

The Serpent’s Doctrine

{{BEST OF ME}} (Prod.52blu)

What's in Your Cup? 👈 Jim Quick. Two types of people: those who look into your cup to see if you have more than them, and those who look to see if you need more. #2025 #Rock #trendsetter #trending #Fire #alternative_rock #storytelling #lit #90s_rock

What's in Your Cup

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Most songs on all plats

If I could see u

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