when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this"

Verse 1

i get sick off walking down the same road again 
use to hold my hand baby you was my bestfriend
now im sitting on this cold floor
i don't know where i am 
i don't know what to aim for 
i walk past café where we use to eat a lot
take the left round the corner because my heart still in shock

when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this" x2

viens

rings on my arm, in the ink, and it stings
i remember when u pushed that needle in my skin
can u do it deeper? i wanna feel the pain
I want the ink to stain, and i want this tat to stay

whats the point of holding on if u wont change?
whats the point of bringing light to the bad days?
whats the point of losing sleep on what u might say?
im just doin lines of ket until my mind fades
whats the point of lying, saying that im okay?
and it pains that u will only ever see me as someone thats in ur way

when i see him with you it makes my stomach sick 
knowing you use to touch me with those fingertips 
i remember you getting tatted on your wrist 
you held hand and told me "baby we can get through this" x2

fingertips w/ betweentheviensandi (jolst x me)

forgiveness (prod. taurs)

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

i see the shit that u talk about me
trust me
i know- that these niggas doubt me
i dont need friends and i dont need love
being alone,
i find good enough

closed all the doors and swallowed the key
i swear that these fuckers are after me
what did i do to get all this hate?
i'll prove 'em wrong
and i just cant wait

all ur insults,
i have heard before
dont try to spin this- like im a whore
i'll take my love and i'll slam the door
you wanna reaction?
i say "no more"

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

i can forgive but i won't forget
all the shitty things that u have said
i can make peace and i'll go to bed
i can forgive but i won't forget

closed all the doors and swallowed the key
i swear that these fuckers are after me
what did i do to get all this hate?
i'll prove 'em wrong
and i just cant wait

forgiveness (prod. taurs)

w e l c o m e f t. h e y l o g

i guess i never mattered… w/ seezenz [branwen]

feelings 4 u (prod. swaine x eric godlow)

Produced by @irby314 & @jolst
Mixed by @decksmusic
Additional vocals by @prodhorosha
Mastered by Bryan Shortell @shordeli

LYRICS
Wounded at a young age
Had nobody I could turn to
It’s sickening the things you did
And how I learned through
The example you set
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like the rest

Of my family tree
Rotting from the inside
Branches devoid of leaves
So please
Don’t ever idolize me
These eyes have seen more pain than you would believe

I’ve got a damaged brain
There’s not much can be done
After all I’m just a product
I’m my father’s son
I can’t cope with this all on my own
I kill myself slow
Insisting all the while I’m not suicidal
It’s hard to match expectations I put on myself
I took a step
I took two steps back
How will I know when it’s bad enough to need help
I thought I was a black sheep
Turns out I’m just like

My dear old dad
He was the man of the house
He wasn't often around
Guess what that makes me now
As if the world’s against me
I only rely on myself
Turns out I’m somebody else

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Black Sheep (Prod. irby & Jolst)

LYRICS:

I'm too fucked up to be in public
Anxious at the function, got this feeling in my stomach
I see people dancing drunk, in a few hours they'll be fucking
But I'll go home alone and fall asleep; remember nothing
Baby, waking up is such a chore
I'm always high or else I'm bored
I gotta pick myself up off the floor
One day I'll see the world (and I'll see)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

I don't wanna talk, I wanna end it, no discussion
Give me everything I wanted, I'll return it like it's nothing
Make it back tomorrow night and go to heaven in the morning
The devil's in the book, but I'm too good at telling stories
So I wake up, say a little prayer for all the dead ones
Take one, and stay the fuck away from all the fake love
Guess I'll make it through somehow
Tell me, darling, how soon is now?

I don't know what the fuck to call it
I'm always in withdrawal, I'm like a fucking alcoholic
But with you it's something special, I can tell that's why I lost it
I don't wanna talk, honestly, wish I went to college
Cuz I'm sick of all the run-around
You hate my guts, I hate this town
I hate the things I write about
Cuz soon we'll all be dead (but fuck it maybe)

One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life
One day, I'll wake up and I won't have a headache
Chest pains, blame it on the drugs or on the heartbreak
Today, I woke up and I don't feel right
I guess I'll try again in the next life

ONE DAY

seethrucrew hellsing || follow junoes, toemuro & sochi <3

https://youtu.be/urtkBvuLR9U?si=-7ZWAEBsOo3WGTvQ

lyrics:
whats my problem
i think i got a problem (problem)
bong rip to the face
thats just how i solve em
pop em yeah you know that i had to go crop em
real talk yeah i told my brothers to forget them

real talk yeah i tell my brothers all the time we gon be up
yeah i tell my brothers all the time that we not givin up
we not fuckin up but sometimes i be fuckin up
record another track yeah while im rolling up
i made a promise to my girl that im no longer pouring up
but when im so stressed out i dont wanna kick the cup
tell me when we linkin up
tell me that we wont break up
tell me everything i wanna hear until you pullin up
what Erisu said yeah you my darkest fantasy
ive been getting so high i dont fuck with gravity
bouta get so rich for my friends and family
bouta get so rich (rich rich rich)

forget them
hellsing cause a bunch of mayhem
hit the gas v8
hit the gas backwood
most disliked in my city but im still good
man wasnt that your homie that seen me up in your hood
i dont got friends yea i only got family
why the fuck would i stop 
i dont got a grammy
acting this way cuz i care about my mommy
acting this way yea i be so care-free

wuts my problem? (junoes x toemuro x sochi) mv in desc

produced by sor
mixed by me
mastered by nate2timez
featuring popularreject

lyrics


on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

there’s nothing that i want from you
there’s nothing that you want from me
so please just please just go away 
and save some room for better days
now all that shit is history
so save it in your memories 
and just know that, that one mistake
will be the one you can’t erase

all these word were hidden underneath the floor
on the wood it’s written you can’t ignore
mistakes are unforgiven unlike before
i’ll be the one your missin right too the very core

(popularreject)
i don’t know
if im ever gonna make it out this hole
i don’t think ill make it out this rut
what the fuck
think it’s best that i shut up
i got smoke inside my lungs 
i think ive really had it
i hear your voice inside my head 
it says im so dramatic
none of these people have my back
i turn around they stab it
now i’m all off track im crashing
i don’t even really know what happened 
i’d puff puff pass but shit i am…

on my own
yeah i can’t believe i did it on my own
yeah i remember when they’d never hit my phone
yeah now it seems im always leaving them at the tone
leave me alone
let me be alone
i just wanna do it on my own
they don’t know the blood and broken bones
that’s i’ve laid in front of my own home
leave me alone

i guess i never mattered… w/ seezenz [branwen]

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