(prod. falci)

time i lose
from the abuse
smokin lucky strikes hope you know luck comes in 2’s
death in 3’s
on my knees
i pray to fable because theres nothing else in my mind to read
this isnt how i should be
theres only one thing i need 
one thing
one thing thats you
the abuse
ive dirtied the trues
pressin the blues
30 mg to see if i win or lose

abuse 🫀

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thank you for @laluko and @luvflorent for making this song so beautiful!

Lyrics:

La. luko:
Yeah there’s no going back 
What’s in the past is in the past 
Oh no we didn’t last 
Even though you were all I had 

I ain’t coming back 
I know that really sounds so sad 
Live your life be glad 
Let it known I’m glad for that 

Yeah there no going back 
All the colors have turned to black 
Yeah there’s no going back 
Gotta find my way on track

me:
Oh i dont wanna make you sad
and i dont wanna make you mad
i dont wanna make you feel bad
so this time i wont come back

oh you know i tried
but it never worked out quite right
its best if im not in your life
so i guess this is goodbye


Luvflorent:
I try 
Oh I tried alright 
Every night 
You’re on my mind 
Everyday, new pain 
New strain but I won’t change 
I don’t wanna live like that again 
Better leave the old days in the past 
You were right there 
Pink hair 
Bad highs 
I’m so scared 

You can hate me I don’t care 
You can hate me I don’t care 
You can hate me I don’t care 
You can hate me I don’t care  
You can hate me I don’t care 
Getting so high that I get scared 
You can hate me I don’t care
You can hate me I don’t care

I tried (feat. LA LUKO x luvflorent)

Thank you teej for destroying this song into a thousand pieces <3

Lyrics:
cant plan the journey later down on the road
cant see what will happen thats what scares me the most
ive never let anyone this close
say that you wont, say that you wont go (x2)

Teej:
say that youre leaving but i dont want you to go
i gave you all of my time just to end up alone
a memory of a figure that i no longer know
you tried to write me a letter and into the fire it goes

i dont think you get it 
whatever i said i meant it
i dont want you to go
i dont want you to end this

so tell me you wont, tell me you wont go
say that you dont, say that you dont know
im letting go, im letting go
im letting go, im letting go

better alone, im better alone
better alone, im better alone
no way to cope, theres no way to cope
im letting you go, im letting you go

me:
cant plan the journey later down on the road
cant see what will happen thats what scares me the most
ive never let anyone this close
say that you wont, say that you wont go (x2)

Teej:
all my fault i know its all my fault
if im the problem and you meant it
then whats left here to solve

i hate the way i cant talk
i hate the way that you walked
i begged and pleaded dont go
but im still writing my wrongs

me:
cant plan the journey later down on the road
cant see what will happen thats what scares me the most
ive never let anyone this close
say that you wont, say that you wont go (x2)

wont go (feat. Teej)

lyrics

lyrics

she get mad at me
i know it get bitter sweet
and i know it get tough to see
how much u rly meant to me
i think this the end of me
i take in the air u breathe
and u hold on a piece of me
jus smth that i kno u need
let the runes take hold of my soul
more i go more i feel my blood boil
at this rate ion think im getting old
i cant say what i want from my world

life gets harder than they tell u bout
red in my cup
im just bleeding out
saw my vocals and they ripped them out
i couldnt scream
i culdnt call
i culdnt ask for help

life gets long
but it gets shorter
when ur burning out
wasted time
wasted energy
im giving out
i cant speak
i cant talk
ion have a mouth
when i bleed
when i cross across the ghosted town

let the runes take hold of my soul
more i go more i feel my blood boil
at this rate ion think im getting old
i cant say what i want from my world

locked eyes with
a demon in
your skin but i
think i prefer
you now
what could i say
what could i say
these things that u tell me
leaves me in the grey

Red Forty Coursing Thru My System

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lyrics:
am i just expendable?
so easy to leave behind?
oh how its painful
everyone walking out my life

look at me im unstable
keep on rocking side to side

its so hard to speak my mind
when youre always playing the victim
do us part, i guess you were right
cos half of me is missing
its so hard to say im fine
when its always me they're leaving
tired eyes and numb inside
remind me why im breathing

it all just keeps crumbling down
there's always something else
last sense of hope is gone now
dont think i can climb out this hell
watching me bleedout
the worst pain that i ever felt

​Cineraria:
I cried until my lungs heaved
Begging for something to change
'Til death do us part, well I guess
I've died and you're still living

I'm sorry I made it all about me
I shouldn't have dragged you along
I just thought I loved you, I guess
But I couldn't have been more wrong

Couldn't have been more wrong
Sorry you always had to take the fall
I'm sorry I'm so far gone
Knew you were done when you said

Remind Me Why I'm Breathing (feat. Cinniepop)

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feeling hollow
whyd i follow in the woods
swr i saw u
but my eyes r not that good
find the journal 
find the text i swr i wuld
im eternal
in ur debt
right where i stood

stagnant water in the sink
girl i hope u know
when i die
i can no longer hold u close
stagnant blood in my veins
pool down in my toes
u will rot and they wont find u till ur all alone

theres a body in the river
i think but idk
and my vocal cords are ripped out by those holding thrones
it like 110 degrees but still i feel so cold
my joints snap off like ur pulling on a wishbone

i told u 
i told u
we shuld heed the warnings they pull thru
i warned u 
they warned u
but its no use
they found u

stagnant water in the sink
girl i hope u know
when i die
i can no longer hold u close
stagnant blood in my veins
pool down in my toes
u will rot and they wont find u till ur all alone

theres a body in the river
i think but idk
and my vocal cords are ripped out by those holding thrones
it like 110 degrees but still i feel so cold
my joints snap off like ur pulling on a wishbone

Jurnal1 - Intro _

My whole life (IOF)

sometimes when i sing i think i'm wasting beats
and these nights i don't wanna walk on city streets
most times i be jumping off the balconies
of my loves just to get up out of what i need
but i don't need you, you're just haunting me
i'm not gonna taunt you in case you believe
that i'm gonna stop you from death in my dreams
i'm not wearing a costume but it's tearing the seams
you keep staring at me, why's it so hard to believe
that i could really be someone i wanted to be?
i'm not a bee to be kept, you're not a promise i'd keep
don't have a tear to be wept so cry another for me
you keep staring at me, why's it so hard to believe
i'm not a bee to be kept, you're not a promise i'd keep
don't have a tear to be wept so cry another for me
yeah, yeah i brought a couple monsters to the rave last night
and i drove without a problem officer, it's just the light
and for two more days i couldn't hear you from the
right side of my face, i didn't see you in the nighttime

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

a beekeeper's promise

unfounded hate, find me at the bottom of the lake
why do only beautiful souls take
to your grave here's a promise i could make
secret's safe, imma leave it in the bank
worked hard now you get to take a break
i see through you, i can see the fake
a redo with you i could never take
can't fake a need for you, never got to say
look on the bright side, everything's okay
everybody's fine and it's just another day
and you'll wake up every time thinking "oh what a disgrace
i am to everyone in life that i love and push away"
we're one in the same cause my state of mind's
exactly like the ways that you describe when we always type
at night and i don't get to sleep a wink cause i turned out the lights
but you don't give me any chance to think about my dream tonight
i don't have a dream i gave up when i started living life
push your propaganda on me i'm just not the reading type
type but never send, you'll not respond ever again
why would i wanna talk as friends if it's just means up to your ends?
you gotta kick me in my knees if imma buckle to the trends
i used to feel so small and weak and here you're saying it again
i don't know what i should believe the thought police are in my head
so now i gotta get my sleep so i can put these thoughts to bed

written performed mixed and mastered by bedhead
produced by homecomingqueen
recorded @ the gloss temple
art by @worm_sludge on ig

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