giving up

TOXIC

[+ loverboybeats]

@navyxower
@dylaanlotus
@noxious-nights
@souldfadexo
@emptychest
@northshoremusic

(navy)
gotta black tee
some would say its green
baby i gotta lay down
baby im feeling weak

wandering through the streets
heartbreak on the seames
ima travel cross the sea, i wonder what it means

party you party, lets party you talk in ur sleep, i need to get outta here again
why do you wanna get down with him, i heard you talking im sick

when we met by the water
would you think of me differently, if i had a daugher
i watch all these aniamls go to slaughter
its cause ur all selfish, what did they do wrong

(dylan lotus)
i’m burning up, i been hellbound
i’m leaving this earth cuz you hate me
so fuckin lost, i been spellbound 
i’m under the curse that you gave me
fuckin it up til you break me
all of these drugs that i’m taking
lace a few pills and i’m soarin off
lovin a thrill yeah i’m pouring up
fucked up; i’m worthless 
constant soul searching 
am i really worthy of love? i’m not perfect

(noxiousnights)
why am i so hard on myself ?
my goals are too big it's ruining my health
i could really make it easier
but all the summer i make it feel like winter

I distort my mind to help me cope
the world is spinning i'm out of control
sometimes it feels like there's no hope
i'm lost in my thoughts i can't let go

(soulfade)
Surely hate the way you talk to me
When things around fallen downward
In sense I never wanted this
Things would never happen way too soon

Always talking to myself at the noon
Always staring blankly at the moon

(emptychest)
different day different rolls
u know how the story goes
u know how to keep me close
i know how to keep u warm
its my responsibility
to keep u warm..
i never thought id live, endeavor!
never thought id see forever!
i didnt think id find my home
I really thought id die alone 
die alone.
nobody knows whats in my head.
ive been counting down my days
so i can finally get some bread
ay, see my, be my, mind
you'd die in a second!
its crazy to think im the same as you

(TNS)
Take the path that’s in front of me 
Feel the rhythm inside of me 
Tired of just playing hide n seek 

Where you really at girl, I don’t wanna leave 
Self esteem aside, girl I need you with me 
I just did a full 180

Hide & Seek w/ NAVYXOWER, dylan lotus, noxiousnights, soulfade, emptychest & The North Shore

https://open.spotify.com/album/76XDGbeLgdXtHXABbBZJEl

wore me out like an accessory '/

produced by @jolst
featuring @xobroken

lyrics:

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
(to)catch me while im falling to the ground
you just treat me like a clown
you wont help, you only let me down

i'll just smile and wish you well
i feel broken cant you tell
i've been sad inside
where my soul resides
since you put me through this hell

[@xobroken]
shoulda known that there was no fixing this
asking me what's wrong but she aint listening
we all know the story but she keep on twisting it
i know when i'm gone she aint ever missing me
one second she hate me, next second she kissing me

sending mixed signals fucking up my head
putting me through hell, tell me what is that?
only want you but you looking for the next
i dont think that im over it

[@lottaheart]
am i over it?
or will i ever be?
if i could i would erase you from my memory
i cant forget what you did or what you said to me
you took me and wore me out like an accessory

and now you're dead to me
don't wanna see another message that you send to me
now who am i?
im someone else
where were you when i was crying out for help?

you were nowhere to be found
nowhere to be found
you only let me down

THANKS 4 LISTENING!

accessory w/ xobroken [jolst]

DONT WANNA DO THIS ANYMORE

lyrics ⬇️

time flies by i know
make the life you wanna unfold
one eye looking down the rifle
countless tries they got me going thru a cycle

tbink back when i was young i would go hunting in the woods
grandpa taught me that yhe guns are only used for doing good
why is everybody toting all their guns up in the hood
i really think that i would change the world if i feel that i could

love, peace thats all that we need
everybody hates a single feeling of defeat

i always try my best to tell em how i feel
i dont like to crash the parties
i dont like to pop the pills
gimme paranoia 
used to gimme thrills
made me trapped made me stuck feelin ill
“whats up, poor a cup” no deal
maybe thats the reason i feel how i feel

they said that i gotta learn how to live
i wish that i could get past all the tricks
but i know nobodys an idol
so vital, the fact that you can lie tho

nowdays i think that honesty really got an appeal
theyll take ur heart when u think that they dont steal
yea you really gotta watch out 
cuz theyre gon tell you that you shouldnt ever fear

paranoia hits me in my ears
talking all the time thinking bout the years
i dont wanna think that you were ever even mine
you were with my peers 
it was clear

now i know what really came to my demise
but i dont wanna hear what i should really hear
always try to cover every single little lie
cuz i dont wanan kneel where we used to lay
but when its all uncovered ik how youll rlly feel
ill look up in the sky and hope ur still alive
im feeling really horrible and skippin all my meals
cuz i know im the guy that ruined ur whole life

nobody told me it wpuld be this hard
fell to my knees cuz it was ruined from the start

always felt like i need backup
yea but that aint even really rational 
could blame it all on bad luck
you know this life gets so personal

peace. (cl6udy)

*dont know who made the beat so soundcloud exclusive*

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns 

Sometimes I watch the sunrise 
Mostly I been getting high for the whole night 
And I know that Im the only one that’s still holding on 
If I called it love baby would you call me wrong 
I can’t control it 
That life’s a roller coaster 
And I’m afraid of falling 
no one to stop it from hurting at all 

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns 

Spent my whole life waiting
Feel like its been ages
Driving myself crazy
Filling empty spaces
Looking for solutions 
Filling up the pages
If only I didn’t have heavy ties
Binding them in place
In my diary of Jane 
I will try to find my place 
The thorns around her vines 
Are wrapped around my spine 

Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns Take me away 
To a far away place 
Where we 
Can forget about life 
And how it all intertwines 
I could’ve sworn 
We’ve done this before 
And I’m feeling torn 
Cause roses have thorns

THE MESSENGER. (prod. Vita Flare)

Vita Flare