desolate

i bought u flowers n u jus threw them away :'(
Lyrics:
I bought you flowers
You just threw them away
Why you even fucking with me
If you don't believe in change
It's getting hard to sleep
Losing all my track of days
But I'm stuck with all these problems
And I just wanna run away

Just take me away
Get the fuck out my face
I tried to make us work
But you treated us like a game

And I gave my, all to you
You broke me down
Watched my world turn blue
Since you hate me now
I guess I'll give up to
I should end it all
I have nothing left to lose

I've never felt this low
I swear you left me Defeated
Regretting chances that I'd blow
Can't change how you percieved it

You just needed time
I just needed space
Maybe we can run it back
I heard that love can never fade
I'm so sick of all the bullshit
I just wanna run away
But I know my momma needs me
So on earth is where I'll stay

Problems would breed in the back of my mind
I can't take the truth, so just feed me a lie
I've been losing love, crossing states as I fly
I gave you everything I had
So I tried

And I gave my, all to you
I should blow my brains
see my face in the news
I never wanted this life
It's only ever bad news
I can try an stick around
But my mind I'm gonna lose

run away (prod. OkayKoda)

Lyrics:

I still need you
I see you like a ghost
I still love you
I don't know how I can cope
I've been dying slowly baby
Can you hang me from this rope
I know that lately you've been angry
I just need some fucking hope

Can you hold me together?
I've been falling apart
You can leave if you'd rather
I can just sit and hit my cart

I'll learn how to cope
Or at least how to start
I smoke on this dope
Because I know life is hard
I can't love you forever
you ripped out my heart
And now you acting sus
Freak me out jus like a narc

You may forget my face
But remember my words
Heading state after state
someday I hope I can learn
How to remove all this weight
And this truama I hold
Cuz day after day
I feel my heartbeat growing cold

ghost (prod. UNLUCKY)

lyrics fa ya mofos🎱
🎱🎱🎱🎱🎱🎱🎱

An empty bottle
Never cared about your pain
Situational circumstances
Fucked with my brain
I'm picking up your patterns
I know I could use a change
Could you love me still?
Or am I going insane?

Am I going insane?
Hate the drugs that I crave
I try and wean me off
But I relapse everyday
And nothing will change
You're better off just staying away

I'm so fucking toxic
I belong inside the grave
I feel like I'm sonic
Flying through the interstate
Speeding 29
To a job that I hate
(To a job that I hate)

Yeah I need to get away
Yeah I need a fucking break
from all the pain
You thriving on lust
And controlling your games 
you broke all our trust
An now nothing's the same
(Let's go)

Knee deep in blood
I feel right at home
Half ounce of bud
Burned in and out my lungs
I tried to stop fights
But you won't bite your tongue
We wasted many nights
Fighting over shit for too long
I'm gone
I can't stick around
I'm hurting deeply, so I gotta make a song
Or hit my bong
Anything to help
I've been hurting too damn long
The love is gone
I can fuckin feel it
Please don't try and say I'm wrong
You can walk away
And never pick up the phone
While I be tripping daily
Wondering if you're gonna call

empty bottle (prod. Tsurreal)

lyrics 4 u mfs🎱
🎱🎱🎱🎱🎱🎱
I've been in my own reality
So long I think that i'm stuck
I'll pick up the parts you left of me
Someday I knew this would come
and I bet you're feeling free
As you're fucking on someone
Else within a week
I've got this acid on my tongue

I can barely move my feet
I can hardly feel my lungs
While I'm laying in my sheets
It's been getting hard to breathe

Too much pressure
Need some sleep
I've been taking pills
And rolling up my weed
Everyday Im getting chills
Everynight I'm losing sleep
Nobody understands how I feel
I feel the hatred that they reap
I sit around and never sleep
My mind won't let me, it's too deep
Into my thoughts and what I'll be
When I grow up
If I live to see tomarrow
My life is filled with sorrow

But I'll never run away
Once I make a pact
Baby I'll be here to stay
Flipping every pack
Making money everyday
And I spend it how I like it
But I manage anyways

Baby I been on the road
Every single night
I've been in the studio
Cooking up some sounds
hope you fucking with the flow
If you ever need me
You know where the fuck to go

reality (prod. lovlok)

Lyrics:
Time is moving fast
everything just feels so different
If I knew how I could
id give my all and fix it
But some things just are broken
And I'm one of them it seems
You left me fucking hopeless
Now all I do is count up sheep
I don't hear you at all
I'm not listening
in fear of losing you
But don't get it twisted
If this is what love is (yuh)
Then I don't even miss it

I don't even miss it
I don't miss the kisses
I just miss the conversations
In which you'd would listen
aways on a mission
You're always seeming vicious
So I just stay away
And assume reality is glitching

I wake up sober
Then of course I start to cry
I know that I'm unhappy
I just wish to be fine too
I can't act like I'm okay
I can't take this fucking life
Pretending everyday
Only Stabs me from behind

I was nothing that you need
Fuck all your texts and your read reciepts
You don't want me
You don't owe me an apology
I just wasn't enough
But we were meant to be
So I ain't giving up

fix it (prod. hero)

Lyrics:

I ain't tryna talk much
I'm tryna severe ties
Tryna get rid of the memories
And leave the shit behind
Everything you ever said to me
Conflicted with your lies
I know I'm losing sanity

I'll admit that I wanna die
I just need to know
Are you doing fine?
Can I take you out?
Could we spend some time?
Do you wanna talk
About what's on your mind

I'm trying hard to be
anything but a nuisance
feeling hard to breathe
Anxiety make me feel stupid
She doesn't hear me when I speak
It's like I'm fuckin muted
(She don't even listen to me)

I hop in my whip then I leave
Not talking much, I got low self esteem
But I got wraps
So let's blow gasoline
Forget about your problems whenever you're with me

Let go of your stress
It's too much to bare
You can lean on me
I'll always be here
This beat is fire as fuck
From the drums to snares
I miss my old life
But I shouldn't compare

Sanity (prod. Tsurreal)

Lyrics:

U walked away I sit and cried
On holidays, this shit breaks my mind
I tried to find a peace of mind
But I return to the bottle to escape my life

I pray I find, a way to sleep
I'm petrified, I just wanna leave
I'm so sick of pills, I just need to breathe
I just wanna heal, I just wanna breathe 

( I ju$$$$ wannnnannaaaaa breatheee
❤️ if u see this I love u and hope ur doing good whoever u r)

My anxiety heightens whenever you let me down
I can't fix all of your problems through a phone or with a crowd
Surrounding me, just bother me until I'm 6 below the ground

Cuz life and me don't work at all
It's apparent to the rest
I may seem like I'm together
But my friends know i'm a mess
They can read between the lines
They know my smile is full of shit
So we smoke until were dummy
And we drink until were sick
(Ok I jus have fun fuck y'all I was drunk enjoying myself heheh I love anyone listening to this song wish we could be smoking together rn idek who u r reading this🤍)

breathe (prod. okaykoda)

Lyrics:

Could u pull me closer?
I'm sorry I need closure
I'm not made of steel
But pretend so I can cover
Up all these emotions
I'm hurting, cannot show them
I wanna feel fine, but I know my chance is over

Im too fucked up, I dunno if I'm alive
This ecstasy is taking me to highs I've never climbed
I run away from problems cause they they weigh my suicide
But when I feel I'm with you
 I always feel alright
So can you please stay by
You take away my freight
From waking up at night
Sleeping with you feels right
I've never felt this nice
So can you please please please please please please please
Spend the night

Voices in my head
I know something don't feel right
I know that you called
But I'm fighting thoughts of suicide

You can watch me fall
Or fix it all from the sidelines
It only takes a call
Or maybe just to see those eyes

eyes (prod. siem spark)

Lyrics🎱

Put a knife to my throat
Try and see if I shake
I ain't got nothing to lose
So you might just catch this fade
Thinking you are sumn else
Another reason I'm ashamed
To know another egotistical fuck
Like you exist
You are all full of shit
How could you even dare love yourself
I think I need some better help
Mentally I'm scarred as well
I just wanna hide away
From thoughts that eating up my brain

My brain, take it away
Send it to rehab
I'm going insane
You tell me you love me
next day things change

If you claimed u understand
Why you fucking other men?
How could you forget about the times I always held your hand?
Or been deep inside your body, just wishing for our plan
To continue how it worked, you were my Wendy, peter pan. (Reference to Peter pan)

If you're cold at night, skin my body bare tight
Wear my flesh just so I can maybe try to feel alive
I would give up everything just to make you alright
I would heal your mental health from a bullet to my mind

shake (prod. sorrow bringer)

How do I look after all of these scars?
Flew through windshields, wrecked all of my cars
scared the fuck out my family
Yeah I'm sorry mom
I can't take back all the tradgedies
But can be a better son
(I can be, a better son)

Something feeling different
I can feel it on my heartstrings
I been blowing purple smoke
And blowing out tsunamis
If you is not feeling me
Then tell me you don't want me
Damn I'm fucking feeling you
 shit, what is the issue boo?
I want u here right beside me
Stuck to me like it was glued
I don't care, not losing you
I lost my path, but have my clue
I want you back
I'm so confused
I need you now
My mind abuses
Every part of me
I'm blue (I'm blue)
I lost, I lose,
I lost, I lose.

Past midnight, and I wanna drive
But I'm beers deep so it's best I stay inside
I tried to call you, only bout a million times
Just to tell you I love you, and you're on my mind
(Fuckin on my mindddd on my mindddd!)

Dippin into shit when I was too young
Grew up always thinking I was always too grown
Now I miss my past, when I was damn young
Ignorance is bliss don't let it sneak up

I don't want apologies
I just wanna make up
If you think we're meant to be
Then why you never show love?
Broken hearts and melodies
I get so high my eyes shut
THC in my blood
Wonder when I'll wake up

I Lost. I Lose (prod. Eskimos)

If I fall from the top
Then what's my hang time?
I'm still standing tall
Through the flops
And bad times

I got blood in my eyes
fresh cuts upon my wrists
If you can't see, I'm doing fine
I crossed your name right off of my list
Crashed my car after a bridge
But I'm still alive, this full of shit
Im doing fine, with broken limbs
Still pop out like a zit
You're full of shit
You said you broke me down?
Now I wonder who's broken bitch right now?

Your personality's addicting
Yeah I think I need some more
personally I'm on a mission
To find out what I'll explore
Down the line
see every shore
With you on my mind
This is not what I intended
Empty bottles and broken bridges
Never start what you can't finish

With my broken mind
I just sit around and cry
I'm not here I fuckin died
I burn in hell throughout the night
All this pain I let it subside
Cause you're never here in the nighttime
I look at you
And you roll your eyes
I want you back
But you'd rather die
I lost you once
Won't do it twice
You needed space
I wouldn't give you time
You're the bread and butter
To this futile life
I'm sorry for lying
And claiming I'm fine
(I'm never fine, but baby girl, u can change my mind)

futile life freestyle (prod. UNLUCKY) (old asf)

Lyrics 🎱

I'm hoping that you won't go
Our love is worth the fight 
I've been waking up from cold chills
With tears inside my eyes
I've been tryna catch some zzz's
But I can't even close my eyes
Without seeing you there
Cuz lately you live in my mind

Way too much inside of my body
I gotta yak (oof)
Fuck the vodka I've been drinking
Think it's time for jack
Just hand me some alcohol
I swear I'll throw it back
Anything that can numb me
Anything to fill the cracks

*holup, I'm finna switch it up*

something's I jus can't seem to shake
They manifest inside the back of my brain
So I'm knocking back anything I can
Take the edge off, baby I beg within
My brain is hurting so I'm downing gin
To forget what bothers me, I'm falling in
I'm falling in, I know I'm gonna fuck it up
And I'ma fail for real
I tried to break the wall, that keeps me within
My turtle shell, but it's breaking in
And i'm getting comfortable
I need this to end

Oh i wanna grow, but I feel so stunned
I crave validation, just for being a son
I wonder if he loves me
Or if he thinks that I'm a cunt
For always residing, and thinking that a gun
Would fix my life, if I shot myself
I can't fix the world, but I can kill myself
Probably would help, or maybe damn me to hell

take the edge off demo (prod. heyrick)

Lyrics 🎱

I swear her eyes cut deep
That some shit you can feel
She's been working through all the seams
And every wall i've built
These days can't tell what even ever feels real
Inside my skin, I know that I've got the steel
Flew out my windshield
I fucked my leg up
Didn't think I would heal
Or even ever find the will
But I don't ever give up
Mistakes are part of the drill

I swear nobody really knows me
growing up and learing
Ive been growing up slowly
How to maybe love myself
I've been staying low key
Ridding of the old me
Sacraficing myself

Friends inside my Snapchat
Telling me that I gotta change
Doing such is hard but
It's better than living insane
And I'm dead in the head
Or at least it seems that way

*there's no other way to look @ it *

I load the mag and I think real deep
Sometimes I wonder if I would rather count sheep -
For the rest of my life
Am I worth anything?
Lonely nights grinding
All the way to my teeth

But I'm not who I wanna be
I worry and worry I'll never achieve -
All of my goals, but dedication runs deep
Inside of my blood, so I'll accomplish all of my dreams, and nothing could ever stop me

eyes cut deep (prod. jissa)

Lyrics🎱

Focus on my concious
Then I'll work upon my brain 
Situations tear me up inside
The devil got me by a chain
I swear I'm gonna break out
And prove to everyone that I'm okay

I know that times are hard
And they'll prolly never change
But giving up on us
Was just another mistake
That I should have never made
But I can never just walk away

Cuz I cant stand the thought of ever losing you
I've got cracks in my brain
And a couple loose screws
And I know it's confusing
But I'm conductive to
So when you set the fire
It only hurts us two

It only hurts us two
Some things they take their time
Some things can't fix with glue
I know you must be tired
About to blow your fuse
I can read you like a book
But you can read me too

I know I'm taking things too far
But babygirl can I have your heart?
We can smoke, and just gaze at the stars
I wanna know every part of who you are
I wanna know who you are

whoUare (prod. wetmall)

Lyrics 🎱

I jus met this girl
Ain't no telling where she's from
I'm feeling on her curves
And if I'm honest I'm succumbed
Her bodies overwhelming
she got money like she's trump
And we been making out for hours
now my lips are feeling numb

starve my brain of oxygen
You'll never find a better fit
I know I was toxic and I
Always acted full of shit
Read between the lines
And try to cope with losing benefits
Hollow out my body
I'm a junkie, need adrenaline 

You need a different man
I ain't falling for your bullshit
I ain't feeling it
You said you needed time and space
And now I'm giving it
So why you blowing up my phone now?
You're irrelevant

Shit, feeling time move fast
Soon I will be over you
Forget about my past
This this bitch looking beautiful
I'm grabbing on her ass
I'm fed up to my cuticles
I never want you back

No, I don't ever want you back
You're the reason
my liver is feeling unnatatched
You're the reason
That it's hard for me to interact
With others, push them further
Away into my past
(You're, the reason
 You're, the reason)

You couldn't even love me
Even when I gave my all
I was sitting in the bathroom crying
Waiting for your call
You know I hate to waste my time
Staring at my phone
Waiting for it just to light up
But I know it's not my fault

It's not fault though
I've been making money
Stack it by the butt load
I got brain damage
Bad inside my frontal lobes
I gave you every explanation
That I felt I owed
So get the fuck out of my life now
 you stupid hoe

ur the reason (prod. Jean Parker)

Lyrics🎱

Since ur gone
I'm only speaking to myself again
To be real I'm not okay
I wish you cared about my health
I cared about you
More than anybody else
You walked away
Only broken pieces left
I couldn't watch you fade away
Yeah, I damaged myself

I needed you, for comfort
Didn't, realize it myself
I feel so out of place
I jus wanna kill myself

I refuse to reach out
Assumed you needed time and space
now my life is living hell
I pray to God that you're okay
(You'll be fine)

I feel so
Fucking out of place
but I know it's only fair
Feel disgusting everyday
tired of breathing fucking air
Maybe time with you away
I can fuckin fix myself
Cause I know I'm not okay

Not Okay (prod. Percnt )

Lyrics🎱

I know you're not at home
But I know you're not asleep
I'm patching up my wounds
washing blood out of my sheets
I know you're not alone
And it's devastating me
why'd we even get together
If you were gonna cheat

I sit down and laugh
take a look at life
I just hit 21
still i'd rather die
Not much has changed 
throughout my life 
except pills I take
and how I pass my time

whether pharmacist
or paid 7.25
I can admit
I fucking hate this life
it's pitiful
I'ma claim that i'm fine
not to stress you out
at least you sleep at night

oh this ain't love
it's suicide
a change of pace
would help me ease my mind
I always say that I'm straight
but I'm close to leaving life
take another day off
inhale another breath
drink a lil listerine
to masquerade my breath

Every lie that she had sold
only tore apart my soul
and I didn't sleep for weeks
from the goodbyes that she bestowed
growing up, we growing old
watching hell on earth unfold
I've been breaking out the mold
changing how I'm seeing things
guess it's part of growing old

I sit down and laugh
take a look at life
I just turned 21
still I think I'd rather die
if you're not here
Here tonighttttt
Ion think I wanna be alive.

21 (prod. ross gossage)

Lyrics🎱

Watch these pills slowly dissolve 
As I drop them in my drink 
And the day you crash my whole world 
I didn't say a thing 
I just sit staring at the wall
before 2 tabs had took over my brain
and don't pray to watch me fall 
the walls just begun to speak to me 
they're telling me I'm better off all alone 
 
how could I talk when I feel this nauseous 
how could I find love when I know I'm toxic 
I've been tryna sleep, lately I been out of options
Therapy
Rip my mind to shit
She the center piece 
while my eyes are lit
I'm livid
so pissed
vivid, dreams tonight
Fuck the Seroquel
skipping pills
Skipping meals
But I'll be alright

Buspirone in my body 
with balenci on my mind
selling shit, making money
but I never cross a line
If I want it I'ma get it
Even if it takes some time 
Say I can't, then I'm gonna
I'ma hold onto my pride

Backseat, she throwing up
Big runts, I smoke it up
She blacked out, she blowing it
Tonight's lit, never growing up
Pick a fight
They ain't showing up
With hair with lice
Tryna act all tough
Wassup?🤔

alright alone (prod. rafikimusic)

Lyrics🎱

I know that things are different now
But babygirl I tried to change
Everything that you ever said
Is stuck embedded in my brain
I tried to walk away from you
I'm screaming out your name
I'm on drugs here tonight
And like, everyday 

I'm tryna find my way back home
I cannot stand to be alone
this damage breaking apart my dome
so I grab my pen and turn up the ohms
I haven't seen you, in so long
you're probably stringing me along
But I ask you kindly, just to not
Oh I just need this pain to stop

I know that things are different now
I tried my best to change the pace
I went and bought an ounce of loud
Just to drown out what you would say
I wanna talk all of it through 
you can put me in my place
a different substance, a different day
but I wake up, still feeling the same

I wanna talk bout what to do
how can I ensure you're safe?
we've never felt this far apart
even when you're next to me
could you just tell me
If we're through 
you at least owe me that much
I know you don't believe me baby
but I love you, gotta trust

(Chorus)

I highly doubt that you will call me
see the agony in my face 
I'll forever, always love you
even if you're miles away
I tried my best to get us through
I tried my best to make a change
I fall apart alone at night
and I seem to cry throughout my days

different now (prod. maxchris)

Lyrics🎱

When I see her
Imma pull her close
I can get us right
If you just play your role
Girl I know you want to be
Someone you're really not
I feel like I'm deceased
But my heart had never stopped

Take in what you see
With the little brain you've got
And if it's meant to be
We gon' chill and smoke some pot
It's been 36 degrees
keeping warm by taking shots

I'm searching for my peace
and Ill never fucking stop
you can go ahead and leave
smoking cookie making bops
I'm keeping shit discreet
give a fuck about an opp
burning herb for my relief
and I'll never fucking not

I don't wanna make time
Just to waste it
If something's on your mind
Then baby say it
Nothing's feel the same
As of late, and
It's been pouring rain
And I've been fucking up my brain
I'm about to give up
And it's only Tuesday
And I still need you
And I'm late
To the party
Yeah I'm see through
Always
I pretend that I don't need you
my intentions
always see through
I want to find a love
That I know I'll never stop
I want to find my everything
So baby tell me what you want

And no I cannot breathe
With this pressure in my lungs
treat me like I'ma disease
gripping ass and kissing tongue
I'm gone spread it to your feet
then I'm having fuckin fun

see through (prod. okaykoda)

With blood I could taste
I sit and I wait 
I'm scarring up my body
And I'm bruising up my face 
Two damn days 
Since I felt you next to me 
it's hard to deal with distance
when without you I can't breathe

You can hear it in my tone 
You can hear it in my laugh
Something in me changed 
And I been sure of that 
I'm leaving Bacardi 
She's all on my mind 
I say the same shit 
But it's different this time 
I can't handle bullshit
My blood pressure high 
Weed it helps with panic 
Fuck a pill, no clonidine
Still I stay romantic
But i'm fucked up in the mind
I hate that I ain't handsome
Baby just give me some time

I feel you in the evening 
I swear I'm tryna do my best
can't reciprocate the feeling
Of your lips upon my neck
I miss you when I'm sleeping
need you more with every breathe
I'm sorry for the distance 
But I'm tryna to do my best

Said I'd have a short life
but it wasn't in my fate
I'm 21 nowww
With too much shit up on my plate
the moment she would cry
I would feel my heart deflate
at least I know now
Shit won't ever go my way

Lost in the sky
But I can see when you when I cry
Holding onto hope
but confused if I'm alive
I can fix myself
baby please give me some time
I hold my resolve
as I break down through this life

I been longing for a sign
for the bond we create
it's all in due time
so for now I'll just sedate
it's been a while now
since I last been out my state
I hate she's gone now
god I'm missing her taste

sep6_hurt (branwen)

fuck needing friends 
with these beats I'll be fine
no amount of destruction 
could alter my grind
I still miss my nonnie
and all her advice 
I'm still fighting urges 
To pick up the knife
Slice to my skin
watch the redness arise
drinking and self harm
is crazy combined

I cough up my lungs
And I stay to myself
the doctors don't love me
they're ruining my health
I am my own enemy
Mixing these pills
but vodka with cranberry 
helped what I felt 

I don't need you
And don't need no help
I can roll me up a blunt
And smoke it by myself
I don't need me no company 
to keep my sane
I been making music
And enjoying the rain
I don't make no love songs
I talk about life
complicated as fuck
But the same every time
who would I be
If I took my own life?
who would I be
If I left her tonight?

With stool in the sheets
I don't bat an eye
I just care for these people
to help my own mind
I smile as I bleed
From a dopamine high
And I barely can breathe
From the smoke that I light


This year, been a long haul
But it's over now my dear
one for trying different vodka shots
but now I'm only sipping on beer
I could fuck up a good thing
and do it all from anger/fear

anger/fear (ciche&jarn)

lyrics🎱

I hop out my car at night
And feel it in my chest
Losing her hit different 
When I wasn't at my best 
Coping with the comfort 
Of attachment to my bed 
understand that she left 
why's it feel she never did?

Why I feel abandoned 
When I know it's not her fault 
No cussing when at Nonnie's 
That ain't changing cuz she's gone
I'll miss her till' the day I die 
Then we'll be back as one
I lay awake at night and cry 
Her back is all I want

Feeling dizzy from the weed
In this cigarillo
head bumping to the beat
of the instrumental
As far as I can see
I won't hit the pillow
And for what's wrong with me
Shout-out willow

I'm too sad
You're too mad
This won't work out
That's too bad
I know that
I won't hurt now
I cry
you cry
We hurt ourselves
if you die
I'll try 
To kill myself

I just wanna call you 
I need to speak with my nonnie
you checked out just a little too early
I'm trapped, lately I've been so lonely
I just need someone to hold me

I can't even catch my breathe
I ain't kicking back a bottle
she would only be upset
lately drowning in my problems
her spaghetti was the best
Now I'm stuck with memories 
That I cannot digest

It was her time 
I'll say I get it 
Now making her proud's become my only mission
I'm sick from thoughts, and I can't dismiss them
I miss her much
I miss her living

Are u still smiling?
Cause I'm still crying
Wishing I didn't feel so alone
This got me fucked up
Right to the bone
Right to the bonee
I'm so damn lost
Don't know where to go
Her arms aren't here
so I guess I'ma smoke
(I love you nonnie
I love you Nonnie
I fall the pieces 
When you're not around me)

bereavement (okaykoda)

Lyrics 🎱

Drink in my cup 
With nothing to do 
Lost in my thoughts 
While I'm staring at you 
Take many L's
I got nothing to lose
No Prada, da Vinci
But look at my shoes
My heart is not working 
I pop out the fuse 
My demons stay lurking 
Don't know what to do 
I still reminisce her 
While I'm kissing you
I blow out her back
Every night like it's new

Here lately in love 
I just look at the clues 
Posted in bed 
With a blunt watching news 
Send weed to my head 
Just to prevent The noose
Can't get out of bed 
On the days that I'm blue
I smoke till I'm green in the face
And I been taking some shrooms
No acid, can't find it
But I ain't no regular dude 
You can't take what I take 
You can't do as I do 
I been changing perspectives 
And I been altering views 

I pour my potion 
And sip till I'm gone
I'm stable for now 
But won't hold for long 
I feel I'm creative 
With this broken dome 
I Drink till I'm faded 
And smoke out the bong

I know I ain't shit
But I live up to hype
Blunts in rotation
That's fatter than pipes
Blood in the air
I can I smell it tonight
Met a foreign bitch
Who's gonna fuck up my mind
Triple sec
With a cube of ice
You can see I'm hurting
But I'll say I'm fine
With pain comes learning
Gonna strengthen my psych
I got pills in my pocket
That would blow your mind

Got shit in my lungs
That would shiver your spine
I'm all about fun
With that thang on my side
.380s, no babies
I don't got the time
This music creating
Is s weaving my life
I wasn't the problem 
You know you're the cause 
It's hard to believe you
With blood on my arms
I barely can see you
So let's make it count
I'm planning to leave you
And I can't block it out

Was it something I said?
Could we change dynamic
I'm running on "E"
And I feel so pathetic
Just leave me to be
Let me lay in this hammock 
Regret what you said
In that night full of panic
Spew out some words
Oh I'll never forget it
The darkness consumes you
Unless you don't let it
I get that I'm broken 
You've already said it
I'm stuck in my home
3 am smoking lettuce

triple sec (sorrow bringer)

Lyrics 🎱

I drive past your road
No it wasn't an accident
Hate I'm alone
No she won't take me back again
I'm in my home
Splitting blunts then packing them
It's hard to believe
Now she's gone
Will I laugh again?

I pull on this pen
And exhale my own thoughts
Decaying of lately
I'm stuck growing moss
My health is declining
I turn and I toss
Inside of my bed at night
I'm feeling lost

I got ethanol in my veins
I feel so lost
I swear I'm okay
Stuck in my head
I live in my brain
Been needing some help
But I take in the pain

Sipping this twister
And chugging a tea
Without her I'm lost
I don't feel a thing
I try to forget it
But it's on my mind
They say it gets easier
Just give it time

If I disappeared
Then in life would you miss me
Drowning in fear
From the fact that I'm living
In need of a savior
I can't save myself
I whisper to demons
With weed on my breathe

She said that she needed me
Why is she gone?
Preventing from seeing me
It's been so long
Lately feel crazy
I've talked to my walls
Converse with the dead
With my eulogy flawed

Swear to God
I'm used to feeling lost
Used to feeling empty
Getting double crossed
I don't trust that easy
I know what I want
Wanna sleep forever
Lemme breathe the exhaust

I'll do the vocals
Handle piano
Sliding on beats
With my shitty soprano
I sought my past
Yeah it's hard just to let go
I knew I was sick in the mind
From the get go

accident (prod. johnnyfriend)

Lyrics 🎱

Stuck in this body
don't wanna be
hard tryna find love
Whenever you're me
hard to be done
with liquor and weed
I'm sadder when I'm sober
it's hard to believe
With all of this shit 
Floating round in my head 
It's harder to get up 
And stay out of bed
Repeating this cycle
I'm already dead
Right down to the follicle 
Fucked in the head

Hennessy Gatorade
take all my thoughts
Without all the alcohol
I feel so lost
I live in the moment
Despite what it cost 
My brain my opponent 
I drink till I'm sloshed

yeah depression a bitch
I hope I don't slit my wrist
I'm tryna get fucked up
pour a beer sip the fizz
this is sad how I live
I'm ruining moments that I get
I'm sneaking shots of different gin
and then I say I don't pretend
I feel like shit, cause I'm the man
these weirdos fucking with some kids
I'm not one for the Vicodin
I take percocet 

When I'm gone
No, this shouldn't take long
I just wanna see you
I'm bout to take off
I'm tryna see you baby
Get me out of my thoughts

I know that things are hard 
I know that I'm depressed 
I know that things are feeling different 
lying in this bed 
With sins I won't forget
I'll take secrets to death 
I got lost while growing up 
I fucking hate when it reflects

I'm tryna find my way
Feel like shit, but getting paid 
Mama told me it's okay 
I wipe the pain from out my face 
Stay inside on sunny days 
Hate when people see my face 
I got secrets in my closet 
Probably will never change

closet (tenguzavr)

Lyrics 🎱

I clocked in at 3
And I'll work till the night
This feeling's free
at the cost of my mind
I rarely can see her
But she match the vibe
I wanna believe her
but care bout my life

I swear I try to fix myself
at the bottom of the barrel
Or the bottle couldn't help
Still I'm steady striving 
for a way to find myself
I talk a lot bout dying 
couldn't care less bout my health

I want to be somebody else
Quarter sack I'm packing 
From the corner of the shelf
I don't need nobody's help 
I drink away my feelings 
And pretend to love myself
So now you're worried bout out my health?
I pour this vodka back 
And tell my friends I'm doing well 
I'm fuckin hurting 
Could you tell?
I stay awake at night 
From everything that I had felt 

I'm stressed
I can feel my heartbeat
things been complicated 
every since I left the car-seat 
I'm a mess
My arms are looking like some chopped meat
sick of people switching up
just give me someone concrete

Getting twisted in my thoughts
Thought she loved me
Why's she gone?
Didn't stay for very long
hear my pain
Throughout my songs
painted nails
She give me top
she's hot as hell
I'm just a jock
I get swindled in my thoughts
broken fender on my car
cigarettes throughout my yard
empty beer cans where I park
I feel alive when it gets dark
 
Roll me up a fatty
And turn on the game
sipping on some natty
with gas in my tank
it's gone be a good night
Oh I know, I don't think
life can get ugly
with pins in ya brain
whenever you fuck me
call out my name
nobody's above me
damn it's a shame
got that dog in me
No I couldn't be tamed
heart break on a sunday
And I'm not to blame
I struggle in this life
carrying all of this weight
a beast in the night
I could never be maimed


somebody else (okaykoda)

Lyrics 🎱

Woke up without a clue
What happened last night
I pour shots inside my soda
Then I take flight
I'm a legend in the making
When it's late night
And I wake up a lil hungover
To the daylight

I pray to God
That I make it till morning
I drink to myself
With addiction that's forming
I'm hiding my welps
In this hell I'm enduring
I throw back this jose
And thrive while it's burning

Last night
I bout ended who I was
I sat around and cried for hours
Staring my at gun
It's hard to live this life
When you're putting up a front
It's hard to live this life
When a fuck up of a son

Possibilities
Live throughout my thoughts
Go and take my conscious
So I forget it all
I was buying pounds
Posting "people come and shop"
But no amount of money
Could every be enough
And no amount of liquor
Can take me out my thoughts
You could take my brain
But never ask me why we swapped
I keep my baby loaded
And you know I keep it cocked
I could whoop some ass
But I won't ever fuck with cops, no

Take off to the moon
I'ma live with the stars
No words can describe
All this pain in my heart
No shit I'm prescribed
Doing more than these carts
I think I might die
I sense pain in my art

Whisper some sweet shit
Just tell me you love me
You got me? I got you.
You never could bug me
Wouldn't give up
Till I turned us to something
Couldn't shut up
I just need you to love me

She don't even know where to start
And I don't know myself
I start up my car
And attempt to forget
The bass shake my body
This feelings legit
My windows are foggy
From smoke that ferments
Ganja on ganja
I smoke till I'm lit
I text my momma
To see how she is
I'll die for family
It's just how it is

Honestly life is so ugly
Stressed bout some people I lost
And it bugs me
Guess I was dumb
When I thought we were something
Wish I would run
Stead' of letting you love me
I'm smoking runts
Since you're not here to hold me

life is so ugly (jtbeatz)

Lyrics 🎱

Lay your head on my chest
And let's pretend, all is fine
I'm making up, for all I missed
And treading water in all due time

I feel that I need you
So don't break my heart
You've pulled on my heart strings
You've tugged from the start
I don't want to see you
I can't make it right
I spew out these words
But could never describe
The feelings I feel
In the dead of the night
Kiss me through the phone
Tell me everything's fine

Perhaps, the consequences
Will rise
Look to your left
I'm with you tonight
This trips gone be different
Just feel out the vibe
My bedroom is breathing
But it feels so right

Skin to my skin
In an alternate life
Take what you can
And then tug on the pipe
Love can be felt
Though it's lost in the light
I felt you here with me
Throughout the night

I miss the taste of her lips
It hurts
Going through hell
Just to see it gets worse
Blood on my jeans
As I live out this curse
What's life to me?
It's a waste, send a hearse

Talk to me baby
All of this ain't adding up
And when it comes to loving you
I'm building us on trust
We could fuck it out
Unless you wanna fight and fuss
I'm oozing out my brain
This shit is leaking like it's pus

Been about a week
Since I last cut
All the shit that you had said
Had turned my heart black
If you didn't wanna leave
Then why'd you say that?
She belong inside the streets
And I won't go back

skin (akassshhhiii, jibaorockin)

Lyrics 🎱

You're in my bed for a reason
I'll teach you some lessons
I swear that I'll mean them
My heart on my sleeve
I barely am breathing
I feel palpitations 
And I know you're the reason
This life that I'm seeking
Can't reach it with trust
I show you I love you
You don't give a fuck
You don't give a fuck
About me, or anything that I do
My momma and drugs
Are stopping the noose
choke me to death
As I cry in my room
(My heart on my sleeve
Idk what to do
I get lost in my thoughts
When I'm thinking of you)

palpitations/intro (soprettyanxiety)

Lyrics🎱

Lizzie:
I really thought what we had was real
I don't know what happened
You sort of played me for a fool
It appears you don't really care now, so
I guess the joke's on me

hook:
One time for the effort
Two times cuz my heart hurts
Three times cuz you were the worst
But I'm glad I got to say it first
You were prayin on my downfall
And now it's all kinda beautiful
I really thought we had it all
Lol, I - I guess I was wrong

w8std: One chance, make my heart hurt
You're leaving again
what about what you said?
you claimed that you had me
were we just pretend?
Now I'm stuck alone
with my head in my hands

I stare at her lips
With nothing to say
She bringing me death
But I smile anyways
I thought we were close
what an empty facade
I miss her the most
when I'm crying alone

Rust on my body
bitch I'll give you tetnis
If I take a shot
then i turn shit to reckless
still I'm caught up
on what she said then
i'm feeling fed up
and sick to my stomach
(chorus by the one n only liz)
(back to me)
One time for the effort
Two times cause my heart hurts
and I know it could be worse
now when she calls
She's getting the tone
when you said you loved me
Was it just for fun?
you completely played me
I'm gripping my gun
I'll stare at the sky
As I offer my soul
I'm pissed bout the shit
I cannot control
I miss her the most
When I cry all alone

jokes on me (ft. lizzie calisto) (Christ)

burden (ft. benimaru) (eskimos)

shoutout @tommyice the goat.

Lyrics🎱

Tommy Ice-
(I'm onto another one
I took a hit of another one
I made you my number one
You made me your number two
So I guess I'm the shit, yeah
I'm shitting on y'all
I got drunk and I shouldn't have called
Drunk and I shouldn't have called)

I tried now you fucking with my head
I lied, now these people want me dead
6 feet, like it's eternal rest 
I tried, didn't matter what I said

w8std -
The burn in my stomach
from seltzer and gin
can't take back the words
that you shouldn't have said
I'll try to forget it
I don't understand 
why hurt me for fun?
was all of it planned?

Can't back down 
But I'ma pay the price 
I got two missed calls 
In the middle of the night 
got a four gram blunt
And it's packed real tight 
Got a lemonade on me 
And of course it's spiked

Too much pressure 
Need some sleep 
Taking pills
And rolling weed
Everyday I'm getting chills
Every night I'm losing sleep
no one feel just how I feel
I ain't who I wanna be
You been fucking with my head
now you ain't shit to me

fwm head (ft. Tommy Ice) (stafford)

Lyrics🎱

I got scars stuck in place
From the talks we would share
And I dwell on all my memories
And rip out my hair
stab me through my arteries 
and cut out my air
no oxygen baby
I love it in here

and don't take it personally
I'm never fair
you hurt me so perfectly
you didn't care
about me or anything
AND IT SHOWS
walking to the bar
I'm tryna mend my own soul
you bend and break me
it's getting so old 
And I know
It's been hard for me to cope
And I hope, you can hear me
Cause I just need something

I'm drowning in this alcohol
I can never hide
a body lost at ocean
that's been taken by the tide
I only feel serenity 
when deep into the night
I can't stand to take a pic of me
my body isn't fine

She could gather
What is left of me
my morals and my pride
aren't the only ones who's suffering
I wish that I could fly
Into the sky, and then I'd fall
break my skull and break my spine
then I'd laugh at what an aftermath
as I leave this life behind 

aftermath (prod. shvrs)

Lyrics🎱

I shouldn't have cried whenever you left 
I shouldn't have drank and replied to your texts
I Shouldn't have swore by the things that you said
I'm just mediocre
I'm trying my best

it gets hard
When living in the present
If I cut my arm
Would you say that you get it?
How ain't I calm
From this medication
The medicines failing
It's more than apparent
I got broken shit inside of me
Scars in place in the memories
Anxiety is only killing me
And I don't wanna hurt like this no more 

I shouldn't have cried whenever you left 
shouldn't have drank and replied to your texts
Shouldn't have swore by the things that you said
I'm just mediocre
I'm trying my best

Light up a blunt 
put scars in my lungs
don't look at the stars
Take a look what you've done
decaying relations
and truths that been spun
and since she had left me
I've been on the hunt
Just give me something
to ease up my thoughts
love feels important
Until it's all lost
words are just wasting
the time that we've got
just loosen the ends
and we'll sort out the knots

mediocre (prod. ciche&jarn)

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