One of many

mixed/mastered: @lilspudxlp

[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat
[Verse 1]
You reminded me that I'm still human
I can't expect everything to always be perfect
We all make mistakes and learn from them
It's the only way to be a better person
I wish someone had told me all this when I was young
I wouldn't have ever considered pulling the plug
Sometimes all we need is just a simple hug
I used to think that opening up wouldn't be enough
[Verse 2]
I used to hate looking at myself
I was insecure if you couldn't tell
You showed me how to have confidence
The cold shoulder was all I ever felt
The only person you can really change is yourself
You can't force your agenda on someone else
Trust me, I had to learn the hard way
If I never reflected I wouldn't be here still
[Chorus]
You made me realize
That everything is gonna be alright
I don't know what I was so afraid of
I think I just needed to clear my mind
I started to feel better when I read through your text
Whatever you wrote me did something to my head
I almost thought I would never get out of that mess
You always make my problems seem like they're not a threat

you made me realize (prod. 2001)

beat made by https://soundcloud.com/pekarot_161

pekarots yt: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBVicoij06gb6PA2rapkqFg

lyrics:

conflict
in my soul
and it's hard
i can't process

any words
any thoughts
its all spinning now

darker parts
started seeping out
I'm doubting myself
am i good enough to keep around

i think that you deserve better
my brain isn't working my heart's become weatherd
feels like some wires got severed
void of the chemicals inside my brain 
i just don't feel the same as when i met her

but that shit don't matter
with you till i die I'm here forever
hold me when i cry and I'll be your shoulder
even though I'm numb i will always love her

woah
youre always there when i fall
when everyone's looking appalled
i can look at her and no one else matters at all

woah
i just can't see how you love
and think someone like me is enough
coz i think I'm awful but I'm glad that you think I'm wrong

love me
i promise I'll be
forever
by your side
let me be your light

to be
oh i don't know what's to come
don't know where these thoughts are from
but i can manage
if youre here for me to rely on


woah
youre always there when i fall
when everyone's looking appalled
i can look at her and no one else matters at all

woah
youre always there when i fall
when everyone's looking appalled
i can look at her and no one else matters at all

woah
i just can't see how you love
and think someone like me is enough
coz i think I'm awful but I'm glad that you think I'm wrong





Forever / Awful (Pekarot)

the second single off my upcoming album 'dearly departing' coming out on 9/9
featuring @betweentheveinsandi
produced by @jolst
art by @/ashleydhe on instagram
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin 

or when its half mast
think about what i’ve passed
will i be forgiven?

or when im undone
will i run
or is this a new beginning?

i think i saw your star sign
projected in the night sky
i look out to the ocean
and then im back to your eyes

veins:
I don't give a fuck anymore
I would let her drown me in a low tide
these decisions assault my eyes
I brace for the waves that drag me back into the deep tide

yuh,
it gives a deep high
I guess it feel right
underwater with no sunshine
I heave a deep sigh
I'm filled with sea brine
all of my bones will rest in deep lime

but it's been nice
I hope u feel right
I hope he never leaves ur fucking side
I pray u both live long and happy lives
most of all, importantly, I hope u feel alive

its finite, reactive bullshit
that got us here
and i dont mean to laugh or joke
but i see it clearly how
time takes lives in the cruelest way
and im fucking exhausted
so i wont pray for calmer waves
im better off in a coffin

dearly departing

low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

spotify & apple music!

IV. low tide (ft. betweentheveinsandi) [jolst]

(p. nevrfall)
mixed by kii and @lilbooj
mastered by kii

kii.
dont you worry 
that were all gonna Burn
what do you mean
 when you say for sure
creepy crawly walking on me
told me lie they felt so plenty
know that you love lately
stay in bed im so lazy
damn baby whatcha do when you say im bad
i dont wanna say this but oh you bad
all you wanna do is match that
I dont wanna say none on snap chat
all these segments break in a path
i just say that i hate all that 
i dont wanna do none so i crash
down and i hope i wont ever pass

booj:
don’t start feeling what I’ve left behind 
over thought and over shot better keep that in mind 
try to leave my bed I’m stuck between the folds now
rid my head from every sight of us just growing old 

Light it up and let it burn we’re never knowing the return 
only one of us could tell the truth then maybe it won’t hurt 
send a message drink a bottle now it’s getting too absurd 
I take it back now everything that’s left is fully 
 underserved

dont worry w/ lil booj

prod. eeryskies


verse
im falling in love and im drowning
out
tell me about it
now
whoever you feel when my hands touch your thighs
and the feeling you get when i look in your eyes
baby im not the one you wanna fall in love with
i'm not amazing or incredible in the way
you thought of me
and i wanna hold on to you
without turning your skin blue

chorus
im drowning
with you
im drowning
with you

verse
see, you're running around and round inside of my brain
i don't wanna suffocate you with the fact that i bottle so much of my hate
and emotion, it fills me up to the brim
so many thoughts of just letting this blade to my wrists
could you handle finding me unresponsive?
i'm not afraid to love
im just afraid of
the fact that my demons are speaking in tongues
i promised you i wouldn't drag you down with me
i'll be gone when you hear this, i pray you don't miss me

chorus
baby im not the one you wanna fall in love with
i'm not amazing or incredible in the way
you thought of me
im drowning
with you
im drowning
with you

Moribund

featuring @skrxwd
produced by @afterlife66 & @jolst
engineered by @marcdoesmusic

LYRICS
say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

there's something missing without you
the sunlight's missing from my room
I stay up late with the blood moon
the notes I kept smell just like you
I lost the way, wasn't just you I was heading down this road anyway
I still replay, every memory just like you'd play me green day

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

I can't even front, I fucking miss you
telling everyone you're scared I might diss you
still upset but I just wanna kiss you
hit my line, anytime, not an issue
you don't even care
whether I'm here or there
I'll never be what you want, yeah I'm aware
everything feels like a chore, watch the rain pour
why'd you have to even up the score?

say my name
(only say I love you, when nobody's around you)
when you can
(wish I didn't want you, even though I want to)
say my name
when you feel me in your veins
say my name
(only say baby I love you when nobody's around you)

say my name (feat. skrwd) (prod. by afterlife & jolst)

An intro + EP teaser for anxious in anticipation
the ep aims to be a collection of lofi songs i've made, including "plz (skyp)", and "fomo (autrioly)"

lyrics

anxious in anticipation

it just doesnt make sense
i feel like im alone in this again

everytime i break out
i fall right back in

and i dont think im gonna make it
i feel myself
spiralling
im spiralling

anxious in anticipation (poppy ozu)

I Don't Wanna Be That Guy (prod. kiranaito)

Lyrics:

Forget about my problems
Put a pistol to my head
Green beam upon my eyes
Show me peace within the lead
I've been wasting many nights
Tryna cope, but I'm just losing my friends

And they're all that I've got
You fuck with them
And you're getting shot
I'd rather burn in hell
But I'm included in the plot
That Ion even understand
So I just sit and smoke my pot

God damn, I love my weed
Always was a lover, but it grew with thc
I became a stoner for a chance I wouldnt leave
The world before I'm 20, now I'm laughing,
what a dream 

But everything aint always what it seems
Life is looking up, and the wizards waverly
Disney with my mom, got my feeling 14
I truly miss it all, at least I still got my family

(What a dream, I still got my familyyyyyy)
(and I fkn love them)
(Chorus again)🙄

And they're all that I've got
And mean more to me than I ever thought
I'd die for them
And id take a shot
Straight to my head
Just to heal their bad thoughts

all that i've got (prod. slayingibis)

Forgive Me Father

Don't Know Why (@prod. geekum + plugghurtz + solo)

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