
I fucking h🎱 my life
Lyrics:

saw your light on
But you said you were asleep
We never talk for long
And when we do
Its in my dreams
 can't stand these fights for long
I think I'd rather just leave
I'd rather just leave
And catch up on sleep

Feelings fade away
And time can fly by
I tried to make you stay
And now I stay high
Regardless of the pill
I feel I can't die
So then I double up
And feel my eyes cry

I've been on my grind
In the end it'll be worth it
These drugs hurt my mind
But I take them , I deserve it
 I don't wanna die
But when I do it's for certain 
 I cry when I'm high
Because I know that I'm hurtin

I'm hurting more and more
I miss my old house
And the memories it stored
Why can't I just go back
I lost more than I could afford
Now the devil's on my back
I lost it all, what I adore

Altercations
Leave my brain
Feeling like I'm stupid
How could I feel loved
When what I say
Feels ignored
You let me down again
I'm bleeding out on the floor
I could kill myself for real
I know that's what you're hoping for
She could waste my time again
And I would just love her more

Like her words
In one ear and out the other 
I've been living right
And trying hard to stay sober
Always dreaming through the night
As u lay in the covers
I know I'm not alright 
And I'm struggling for composure

I may have been hurt
But I never give up
She breaks me down
But I don't really give a fuck
you say you're sorry now?
 you just see that I'm up
You went and blew your chance
Now I'll keep it a buck

altercations (prod. wetgropes)

Lyrics:
Don't get close to me
I'll only ever let you down
My head just fucks with me
It's telling me we're nothing now

When I'm at the top
I can finally rest
The pain in my songs
Match the pain in my chest
You don't know what you have
Until your world has left
And I know I'm down bad
Anxiously I'm a mess
I can't calm down
without my meds
I can't sleep at night
Without you inside my bed
I can't breathe at night
When the panic sets in
And I don't wanna live
When my life's full of shit

I don't need your love
I just need my cats
Floating in the clouds
From this quarter ounce sack
If I take another shot
feel my vision going black
Maybe I should pause
I can feel I'm losing track

I don't wanna waste ur time
I'm a waste of space
doing differently than I was
But I'll never change
Swallowing pills through the night
And I pray they're laced
Maybe I can take all that
And meet God today

Smoke until I comotose
I'm tripping acid
I can feel you in my bones
inside this casket
I can say I'm better now
But life is tragic 
Ballin' like I'm kobe now
This trips like magic

My night gets better
When I can't see the sun
I drink and I drink
Till I puke up my guts
Your words hurt deep
So I talk to my gun
The climb looks steep
But I've already won

And I don't wanna waste ur time
I'm a waste of space
Too focused on my past
need to focus on my brighter days
Too busy getting money
Counting blues, yeah I've been getting paid
yuhhh I been getting paiiiiiiiidddddd

lolol the endings a joke, luv u <3

waste of space (prod. whywecry)

Lyrics: 
Things been hard
She still askin me to open up
But if I'm being honest
I don't think that I could sober up
My heads too much
So baby i've been fucking throwing up
And baby I could use you right now
I need to sober up
I need to do this for myself
Tired of living off the meds like
I think I need some fucking help
Anything to stop the stress
I know that it's been harder each day
And I know that you've been looking for a change
And I hope, i can take you away

Things been hard
Yeah, I never sobered up
I drank too much
Got arrested, started throwing up
I've been trying so hard
But close to giving up
And I'm so close to death
I'm never growing up
Yeah, I double dosed on my meds
In my brain I fried some cells
In this life I could see what's next
I'd rather give my life instead

sober up (prod. UNLUCKY)

i wanna feel alive b4 i peace out <3 but don't we all

Lyrics:
take a couple xans
and i'm out like a nightlight
i've been slow on making music
tryna get my mind right
acids got me trippin'
i've been sippin'
tryna shine bright
i hope that i shine bright
i hope i shine bright 

feel like i'm gonna die
before i ever feel alive
and i never see the sun
because i always stay inside
and i know im gonna die
i jus pray its not tonight
i've got so much left to prove
in such a small amount of time

baby i cant fall in love again
and nothing's gonna change that
kiss me on my forehead
as you tie me to the train tracks
why can't i let you go?
i'm addicted
need a relapse
i'm just learning how to cope
living life and dodging mouse traps

i put my pen up in my pocket
but you know my eyes are low
my pupils bigger than my dick
this acid putting on a show
i stay away from all the hard shit
never been the one for coke
a lot of problems in my mental
im just learning how to cope

im just learning how to cope
this life is ugly needa rope
around my neck so i can choke
and maybe find my way back home
mY waAaAayyY bAcK h0ooOmme3

(chorus again)...
i never wanna wake up
and i hate that i can't change that
I listen, you ignore me
even blocked me on my snapchat
now im shitting on these beats
and spilling liquor on my mouse pad
but damn you did me dirty
i don't think that I can bounce back

die before alive (prod. OkayKoda)

yup

Lyrics:
I cant stop thinking
I can't stop drinking
But I can try my best
And I know life is hard but
But I could be the shoulder, or the chest
In which you rest

Uh, in which you rest yuh
I've been fucking huring
I can feel it in my chest
I can feel it in my bones
I'm getting tired of this shit
 I need some time alone
In my shower needa slit
I Hate im feeling so alone
But can't complain
I'm not a bitch
I prolly needa therapist
 never calm
But tripping cid
Finally feel like I'm home
Melting walls
And moving skulls
Serotonin take control
You said you loved me
Now you're gone

I know that I messed up
It's the past and I can't change that
I pictured you trying wedding dresses on
And me beside you
I can't be honest with myself
I only sit around and cry
I should end myself
I can't take much more
I feel I'm losing health
I'm seeing signs I can't ignore
Looks like the end of it

But fuck that
I don't need your help
Don't try an facetime
I've been tripping over memories
And all our fucking lost times
I've been iving in this misery
And I just wanna die

I could text you now
and you'd just ignore it
I could end my life
And you'd could move forward
When I can't take being alone
I miss the simple things
Like holding you in my arms

miles (prod. OkayKoda)

Lyrics:
*I love u all who's been supporting me,
Thank you for everything, I love u all, 
Seriously, I mean that🎱🤍*

Got a few in my city, tryna represent me
Got some bands inside my pocket
But you know I'm lonely 
I rep the 8 ball
It's attached, it's a part of who I am
I cant stop this music
It's a part of who I am

I'm gonna die soon
And nobody can stop me
People wanting beef
I've got a gun just right beside me
Will I shoot you first
Or myself I don't know

Cookies in my blunt
And it fly my to the sky
I've been trying to build relations
Taking pills to get me by
In my mind I see u naked
But without you I'm blind
If I can't even see you
I guess I'll talk to my knife

Cuz I've been mad
And I'll be honest depressed
And I just need a friend 
That i can vent to when I'm stressed
And everyday I wake up
I've been feeling like shit
And I could use a friend
But no one gives a flying fuck about me
And that's alright
I'll take another drink
Waste away and past the time
I don't believe in love
That shit is just a lie
It'll bend your fucking bones
And break your fucking spine

🎱who i am 🎱(prod. neverland)

Lyrics: 
I was smoking blunts and rolling
You were downing shots and choking
You were feeling fucking hopeless
We were jumping bars being broken tryna heal our pain
Sick of feeling feelings
But you walked away

Blunts in my mouth
I don't rlly give a shit about how u feel
If you don't really love me now
Then I guess you, never truly will
And I gave you my everything
And you just broke me down
How the fuck you gonna
look at me and turn around
and act like you don't love me
How you do that to me
I could give you everything
And then you'd still leave me to bleed

You know I tried to love you
Yeah I crashed down hard
I can't change the way I act
Even though I try hard
DNA made up of these bad parts
Of my mental
It's hard to be simple

When you're fucked in the mind
It's not my fault
I hate when I cry
I know this a sad song 
But I'm just showing you my mind
I don't really wanna be alive
But I fight fight fight

*me jus humming, this beats beautiful it felt necessary*

I guess I'll see you in a week or two
I don't know what else I'm to do
I've called you everyday
And haven't even got a text from you
In my head, yeah i know I'm screwed
It's jus odd, I never lose
So when you walked away
It took my heart and ripped it in two

DNA (prod. OkayKoda)

lyrics...

Now I lost you
I hope you burn in hell
Every single word you said to me
Just rings like some bells
Inside my head
I know that I'm fucked up
Everyone I know can tell
(Yuh)
Honestly, I just want this artistry
I've been filling up my cup because
I know nobody's proud of me
I try so fuckin hard
But with this music no one's stopping me
I'll make it whether u like it or not
So fuck the ones who don't ride for me
Like honestly 
(Like honestly?🤕)

I could lend you a rack
You can't even scratch my back
Thats some fucking bum shit
I guess the drugs have turned you wack

Don't tell me you need me
Then just walk away
It'll do much more damage
Than I know I can take
I can't run from my feelings
So I drink them away
You know my name is w8std
So I live up to the name

Play this life like a game
Take od amounts
And I'm sure I'm insane
Well you can blame what you want
you're the one who walked away
I can't change who I am
So just walk away
jus walk away :(

walk away (prod. drmabeats)

Lyrics:
Don't talk about shit that you don't really know
Designer on my body
Got it head to my toes
I complain like a bitch
But I feel so alone
So I'll grind till I'm rich
And i'll wait by the phone

I drank enough shots
I can feel the jose
coughed up enough blood
I know I'm not okay
I hate how people know me
I just wanna be erased
Forget every fucking memory
And put me in a grave

Dug my own grave
and I'm laying in it now
I need these feelings out my chest
Or anything to calm me 
Pls jus call me now
I need a fucking hug
Or a pillie in my mouth
Either way is fine with me
I've been heading southbound 
I've been hurting everyday
Crave a bullet in my mouth
Everyday I feel the same
happiness within a drought

I really watched you walk away :(
Still I'm wondering how :(
I'm still wondering how :(

call me now (prod. UNLUCKY)

dis shit on my bday letzzzgoo
Lyrics:
I've been having dreams
Waking up and fucking shaking
I tremble in my sleep
I feel my demons are awakened
But I don't hear a peep
Where's my friends at when I need them?
When I need them

I can hardly breathe
All these drugs that I'm taking
I'm sure my lungs are green
I know that I will never make it
Everynight I weep
And I don't know if I can take this

I waste my time
Doing every substance I percieve in my eyes
Living each day just like it's a Friday night
I don't know if I'ma make
But baby that's alright

Look at my body
I been bleeding
I been sobbing
And losing sleep and
Drinking Bacardi
It's all that I need
I don't wanna talk
I just wanna sleep yuh

Fuck it then
I guess I never knew enough
I would sit around and cry
Until I'm sick and throwing up
I can wait for better days
But they're never showing up
So I'll sit around and cry
Waste away while growing up
Don't give a fuck
About you or your feelings
I'm just filling my pockets up
Running it up until I stack to the ceiling

substance (prod. Tsurreal)

none of my business ft. tokieo (prod. rossgossage)

🎱it's all for fun<3 

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altercations (prod. wetgropes)

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