this for years was my favorite song, and soundcloud randomly decided to remove it, i was pretty hurt, proved to soundcloud there was no copyright infringement or anything breaking guidelines and they still declined my request to have it put back up. Sooo, i feel silencing art for no reason is fkn dumb so i decided to reupload. No, it doesn't match the level of production as my newer songs, but it is years old. Love you all <3

jus the way it goes (prod. CapsCtrl) (reupload)

Lyrics🎱

I don't want to wake up alone 
In this empty apartment 
I've been working on myself 
I'm a project of a person 
(Shout out Lund)
I put her above all my stress 
All my love 
I give her every option 
And now that you're gone 
I think about dying 
Can't stop it 
Take what's left of me 
You can leave me dry 
And say you hate me 
Baby girl, I know you lie 
Fake what's meant to be 
We'll work it out in time 
She thought that she could save me 
We just couldn't coincide

My heart loves fast 
To the ones who don't attach
I need you to bring it back
The happiness I seem to lack
like a fool, I'm feeling sad
Like a QB getting sacked
Grenade below me
Need a flak
Mental illness, I unpack
need a breather
Where's my flask
Need a doctor
Ribs are cracked
Feeling empty
Yeah that's facts
If I'm the stump
Then you're the axe
I bought some carts
They fuckin slap
Distro my city
yo, need a plaque
where's my pedastool
Count my racks

having shitty days
Yeah I'm getting kinda used to it
depression comes in waves
I'm fucking sorry, I'm still new to this
receive more than you take
you cannot change the world
you jus human

And if you need
You can take your time
I won't go anywhere
this shit scares me
and if you leave
how will I be fine
no ion wanna die,
could you spare me?

A minute within it
and I was in love
she committing robbery
and don't need a gun
she say that she get it
but play me for fun
I try not to sweat it
with weed in my lungs

walk through the door
And I'm holding it back
filtered emotions
I'm starting to slack
Easier said than done 
At last
And you won't forget me
I'll make sure of that
I wonder if she real of fake
I cannot tell
the way she's looking here tonight
Oh I'ma propel

I move miles in my head
while I sit still
and I stress out about the shoes
That I cannot fill
And I fall short of expectations
it's all surreal
And I wonder how much I'll take
till' the blood spills

empty apartment (prod. eskimos)

Lyrics🎱

Broken down inside 
With a smile on my face 
Perfection in facades 
And only family knows it's fake 
Today I woke up and cried 
What a way to start my day 
By now I won't reply 
You can watch me fade away 
I can feel the tension rise 
Watch the smile. Wipe off my face 
Feeling stressed and sick at night 
Wasting time and sleeping late 
Reminiscing pillow fights 
And the way she'd say my name 
Could explain but I won't try 
I just always felt so safe

I'm better now 
At least I tell myself 
I settled down 
Oh, at least that's what I say to myself

I cry when alone
But I hate a convention
I stick to my bong
Jus to keep out the tension
I fuck up my gut
But I'm teaching a lesson
I'm throwing up blood
Then I'm asking for blessings
fuck up of son
but I'm proud and I wear it
i hate who I am
and I struggle to bear it
My momma's my world
Buy her diamonds by karrots
despite what you heard
should have quit while you could of
show her disrespect
then you're meeting the bullet
Despite if I do too,
then at least I could do it
I've been on my come up
this dream I can't lose it

I been reading a lot
And watch it reflect
I been staying calm
steady taking my meds
another day, a new song
to your ears I infect
my lyrics go deep
some shit you can't dissect
I lost half my face
From like 2 wrecks
I'm pissed off tonight
couldn't you guess 
I keep marijuana
In my nightstand 
I won't kiss her
Till' I know it feels right
she won't let me leave
But it's alright
I don't feel at home
Until it hit night
weed and cheap cologne
I bet I smell nice

safe (branwen)

Lyrics 🎱

I think I lost my friends 
they never check on me 
I built this all from scratch 
enjoy what's left of me 
wake up in the morning
then I wait for the night
taking vodka and the gin
Just to mix it in my sprite

First you kill me
Then you miss me
your words change my thoughts
And feelings
nicotine and drink won't save me
the man inside my mirror hates me
(Oh he hates me, fuck I'm shaking)

Fuck I'm shaking
I feel amazing 
drugs in my body
dissolve when I take them
I'ma junkie, could you save me?
I'm an addict
but I ask you don't hate me

torture my skin
kill my body
with resentment
I'll learn how to live
feel my pain, feel my sins 
I hate my sins
I hate this body that I'm stuck within
I don't got friends 
use me till the end
I don't got no body 
the fucks with the kid
Explaining my hobbies 
And just how I live 
Escaping my pain
When I pick up the pen
Relaying my thoughts
and reliving my sins

ik it's hard (prod. salahbeats)

Lyrics🎱 ight it's my first country song, go easy on me <3

I know you know
I miss you in the dead of the night
at least I attempted to try
you broke my heart out of spite
you left a knife in my side
I tried my best not to cry
but damn these words
yeah they bite
I don't feel heard
but it's fine

I can't let her go
and take away from me
I've been doing better
From the plants I eat
I can feel the stress
In the air we breathe
and I can feel it ferment
what's wrong with me?

Take me out west
Have a good time baby
shut down the party
hear them calling me crazy
Everybody friendly
But they don't know themselves
Smoke a little lettuce
Putting whiskey on my breath

i'm still here
she's far gone
she'll end my life
she gone' break all of my bones
Death cries
Scary eyes
I just need you to hold me tight

dead of the night (jtbeatz)

Lyrics 🎱

is there love in the end 
are you wasting my time 
is there is something here to fight for?
or am I just burning light 
is there anybody here?
oh my god I'm not doing fine
I took my pills, and I shut my eyes
probably won't sleep, but I'm gonna try
just give me some time
(don't waste your life, on me)

I still got the same shit wrong with me 
as I did, back when you left
and I sure hope that you don't think of me
and I can say that shit with my chest
I hope you went and found serenity
inside this life we get 
I went and made you my whole center piece
it's so hard to wish you the best
(Wish you the best
I don't ever want you back
I'm sick of life 
I'm sick of it
just kill me now
just slit my wrists
just lord forgive me of my sins)

load a gram into my rig
then I put that shit on blast
this a little bit of rock 
and a little bit of rap
hope you won't forget 
you said you'd have my back 
and then you went and left, so
i've been in my bag

I don't want to back down 
I don't want to take this
I don't need a lot of love
I just need a face lift
lay stiff 
on the pavement
when you said that you loved me
I hated it

wake up from the night
and feel I'll hurt myself
I've been sick as fuck
but I hope you're well
am I puking blood?
I can't even tell
waking up in sweats
I wanna fix my health
and every since u left
I've been going through hell
will, or won't I make it?
I guess time will tell 
do you think I'm crazy? 
crazy? CRAZY!??????

(Chorus again)

I don't ever want you back 
(My heart)
you fucking ripped it out my chest 
I don't ever want you 
BACK
BACK
BACK 
BACKKKKKKKKKKKK

i'm going through something i can't understand (prod. saint mike)

Lyrics🎱

She got her painted nails
She's sitting next to me
She's watching me roll up
She makes it hard to breathe
And when I smoke with her
It's only her and me
I'm getting high on her love
I let her pull on my strings

buy my girl versace
And I'm ripping off the tag
she always want hibachi
so I tell her throw it back
Everything I felt
Well bout everything that you said
always dealing out hatred
always something negative

this that brand new Nike
so I'm rolling off the lint
enemies they come and try me
and they end up always
Paying up the price
don't need no diamonds
when I talk this nice
no point in locking in
I swear that i don't even try

(Chorus again)

all alone
but I really want a band
I get sick of making music
I get sick of loneliness
I get sick of my perspective
and the way I'm negative
I should be proud of decisions
and be proud of who I am

I don't want to talk
when it feels like this
don't worry what I'm on
i never drink, it's how it is
got sick and started growing up
and changing how I lived
picked a problem then I tore it up
and fucked with how it felt

I need to calm it on the lying
I need to focus on my rent
rehabilitate my timing
focus on college and my bills
I need a vacay to the mountains
just to remember how it feels
help me gain the motivation
to keep on spinning all my wheels
I'm better at escaping
When I'm stuck inside my feels
on the edge but I ain't breaking
I ain't busting any seals
I ain't driving to your house
For you shit on me
and lately I've been sick of always listening

negative

With blood I could taste
I sit and I wait 
I'm scarring up my body
And I'm bruising up my face 
Two damn days 
Since I felt you next to me 
it's hard to deal with distance
when without you I can't breathe

You can hear it in my tone 
You can hear it in my laugh
Something in me changed 
And I been sure of that 
I'm leaving Bacardi 
She's all on my mind 
I say the same shit 
But it's different this time 
I can't handle bullshit
My blood pressure high 
Weed it helps with panic 
Fuck a pill, no clonidine
Still I stay romantic
But i'm fucked up in the mind
I hate that I ain't handsome
Baby just give me some time

I feel you in the evening 
I swear I'm tryna do my best
can't reciprocate the feeling
Of your lips upon my neck
I miss you when I'm sleeping
need you more with every breathe
I'm sorry for the distance 
But I'm tryna to do my best

Said I'd have a short life
but it wasn't in my fate
I'm 21 nowww
With too much shit up on my plate
the moment she would cry
I would feel my heart deflate
at least I know now
Shit won't ever go my way

Lost in the sky
But I can see when you when I cry
Holding onto hope
but confused if I'm alive
I can fix myself
baby please give me some time
I hold my resolve
as I break down through this life

I been longing for a sign
for the bond we create
it's all in due time
so for now I'll just sedate
it's been a while now
since I last been out my state
I hate she's gone now
god I'm missing her taste

sep6_hurt (branwen)

lyrics🎱

I hop out my car at night
And feel it in my chest
Losing her hit different 
When I wasn't at my best 
Coping with the comfort 
Of attachment to my bed 
understand that she left 
why's it feel she never did?

Why I feel abandoned 
When I know it's not her fault 
No cussing when at Nonnie's 
That ain't changing cuz she's gone
I'll miss her till' the day I die 
Then we'll be back as one
I lay awake at night and cry 
Her back is all I want

Feeling dizzy from the weed
In this cigarillo
head bumping to the beat
of the instrumental
As far as I can see
I won't hit the pillow
And for what's wrong with me
Shout-out willow

I'm too sad
You're too mad
This won't work out
That's too bad
I know that
I won't hurt now
I cry
you cry
We hurt ourselves
if you die
I'll try 
To kill myself

I just wanna call you 
I need to speak with my nonnie
you checked out just a little too early
I'm trapped, lately I've been so lonely
I just need someone to hold me

I can't even catch my breathe
I ain't kicking back a bottle
she would only be upset
lately drowning in my problems
her spaghetti was the best
Now I'm stuck with memories 
That I cannot digest

It was her time 
I'll say I get it 
Now making her proud's become my only mission
I'm sick from thoughts, and I can't dismiss them
I miss her much
I miss her living

Are u still smiling?
Cause I'm still crying
Wishing I didn't feel so alone
This got me fucked up
Right to the bone
Right to the bonee
I'm so damn lost
Don't know where to go
Her arms aren't here
so I guess I'ma smoke
(I love you nonnie
I love you Nonnie
I fall the pieces 
When you're not around me)

bereavement (okaykoda)

Lyrics 🎱

Drink in my cup 
With nothing to do 
Lost in my thoughts 
While I'm staring at you 
Take many L's
I got nothing to lose
No Prada, da Vinci
But look at my shoes
My heart is not working 
I pop out the fuse 
My demons stay lurking 
Don't know what to do 
I still reminisce her 
While I'm kissing you
I blow out her back
Every night like it's new

Here lately in love 
I just look at the clues 
Posted in bed 
With a blunt watching news 
Send weed to my head 
Just to prevent The noose
Can't get out of bed 
On the days that I'm blue
I smoke till I'm green in the face
And I been taking some shrooms
No acid, can't find it
But I ain't no regular dude 
You can't take what I take 
You can't do as I do 
I been changing perspectives 
And I been altering views 

I pour my potion 
And sip till I'm gone
I'm stable for now 
But won't hold for long 
I feel I'm creative 
With this broken dome 
I Drink till I'm faded 
And smoke out the bong

I know I ain't shit
But I live up to hype
Blunts in rotation
That's fatter than pipes
Blood in the air
I can I smell it tonight
Met a foreign bitch
Who's gonna fuck up my mind
Triple sec
With a cube of ice
You can see I'm hurting
But I'll say I'm fine
With pain comes learning
Gonna strengthen my psych
I got pills in my pocket
That would blow your mind

Got shit in my lungs
That would shiver your spine
I'm all about fun
With that thang on my side
.380s, no babies
I don't got the time
This music creating
Is s weaving my life
I wasn't the problem 
You know you're the cause 
It's hard to believe you
With blood on my arms
I barely can see you
So let's make it count
I'm planning to leave you
And I can't block it out

Was it something I said?
Could we change dynamic
I'm running on "E"
And I feel so pathetic
Just leave me to be
Let me lay in this hammock 
Regret what you said
In that night full of panic
Spew out some words
Oh I'll never forget it
The darkness consumes you
Unless you don't let it
I get that I'm broken 
You've already said it
I'm stuck in my home
3 am smoking lettuce

triple sec (sorrow bringer)

Lyrics 🎱

I drive past your road
No it wasn't an accident
Hate I'm alone
No she won't take me back again
I'm in my home
Splitting blunts then packing them
It's hard to believe
Now she's gone
Will I laugh again?

I pull on this pen
And exhale my own thoughts
Decaying of lately
I'm stuck growing moss
My health is declining
I turn and I toss
Inside of my bed at night
I'm feeling lost

I got ethanol in my veins
I feel so lost
I swear I'm okay
Stuck in my head
I live in my brain
Been needing some help
But I take in the pain

Sipping this twister
And chugging a tea
Without her I'm lost
I don't feel a thing
I try to forget it
But it's on my mind
They say it gets easier
Just give it time

If I disappeared
Then in life would you miss me
Drowning in fear
From the fact that I'm living
In need of a savior
I can't save myself
I whisper to demons
With weed on my breathe

She said that she needed me
Why is she gone?
Preventing from seeing me
It's been so long
Lately feel crazy
I've talked to my walls
Converse with the dead
With my eulogy flawed

Swear to God
I'm used to feeling lost
Used to feeling empty
Getting double crossed
I don't trust that easy
I know what I want
Wanna sleep forever
Lemme breathe the exhaust

I'll do the vocals
Handle piano
Sliding on beats
With my shitty soprano
I sought my past
Yeah it's hard just to let go
I knew I was sick in the mind
From the get go

accident (prod. johnnyfriend)

Lyrics🎱

Lizzie:
I really thought what we had was real
I don't know what happened
You sort of played me for a fool
It appears you don't really care now, so
I guess the joke's on me

hook:
One time for the effort
Two times cuz my heart hurts
Three times cuz you were the worst
But I'm glad I got to say it first
You were prayin on my downfall
And now it's all kinda beautiful
I really thought we had it all
Lol, I - I guess I was wrong

w8std: One chance, make my heart hurt
You're leaving again
what about what you said?
you claimed that you had me
were we just pretend?
Now I'm stuck alone
with my head in my hands

I stare at her lips
With nothing to say
She bringing me death
But I smile anyways
I thought we were close
what an empty facade
I miss her the most
when I'm crying alone

Rust on my body
bitch I'll give you tetnis
If I take a shot
then i turn shit to reckless
still I'm caught up
on what she said then
i'm feeling fed up
and sick to my stomach
(chorus by the one n only liz)
(back to me)
One time for the effort
Two times cause my heart hurts
and I know it could be worse
now when she calls
She's getting the tone
when you said you loved me
Was it just for fun?
you completely played me
I'm gripping my gun
I'll stare at the sky
As I offer my soul
I'm pissed bout the shit
I cannot control
I miss her the most
When I cry all alone

jokes on me (ft. lizzie calisto) (Christ)

burden (ft. benimaru) (eskimos)

shoutout @tommyice the goat.

Lyrics🎱

Tommy Ice-
(I'm onto another one
I took a hit of another one
I made you my number one
You made me your number two
So I guess I'm the shit, yeah
I'm shitting on y'all
I got drunk and I shouldn't have called
Drunk and I shouldn't have called)

I tried now you fucking with my head
I lied, now these people want me dead
6 feet, like it's eternal rest 
I tried, didn't matter what I said

w8std -
The burn in my stomach
from seltzer and gin
can't take back the words
that you shouldn't have said
I'll try to forget it
I don't understand 
why hurt me for fun?
was all of it planned?

Can't back down 
But I'ma pay the price 
I got two missed calls 
In the middle of the night 
got a four gram blunt
And it's packed real tight 
Got a lemonade on me 
And of course it's spiked

Too much pressure 
Need some sleep 
Taking pills
And rolling weed
Everyday I'm getting chills
Every night I'm losing sleep
no one feel just how I feel
I ain't who I wanna be
You been fucking with my head
now you ain't shit to me

fwm head (ft. Tommy Ice) (stafford)

i hope they have xans in hell - xoubliette x w8std (prod. xenshel)

Lyrics 🎱
People talk and people spread lies
Left me here and broken, w8std time
watch me barely coping, getting by
can't escape the pain, I need my knife
listen here, I need you in my life
I fucked up and I apologize 
I used to smoke some weed to pass the time
I'm sober now, it's hard to be alive

I got sick of situations
I got sick of feeling small
I've been fighting through the cravings 
everything's always my fault 
fuck my minds interpretation 
I just wanna paint the wall
of my brain and all the pain
oh I just wanna end it all

You already know just who it is
Yeah w8std breaking necks
From the way I stunt my shit
I'ma pass another blunt
and then I take another hit
forget about a grudge
and then I buy another fit
I'm a spitting image
That you never wanna be
I put my hoodie on
So they never see me bleed
got cuts on top my back
and watch them sink into my sheets
got love inside my heart
But baby I don't feel a thing

Oh I never listen
It's fine I'll admit it
a spiritual malady
fucks up my feelings
addiction, i hid it
I drink just to feel it
I'm sick of reality
and don't really get it
Fuck you just listen
resentment forgiven 
I text you and apologize
just see my vision 

yeah you asked if I'm love
And only thought about you
hope you got serenity
with nobody to talk to
I love and you reject it
and I know I'm getting blocked soon
I wanna hold you tight
I'd be honored, I'd be proud to

I can tell you plenty shit
and know it isn't true
I'm off the pills and alcohol 
can't tell me what to do
I'm floating, no I'm flying
I ain't got much left to lose
when I'm sober find me crying
but I'll never tie the noose

I'm inside my head
I'm not important
I see infrared
And girl you're gorgeous 
cut me up to shreds
inside the forest
bleed me till' I'm dead
and grip on the Taurus 
shoot me till I'm dead
and don't you ignore it
(woahh, don't you ignore it) 

people talk (prod. eskimos)

Lyrics🎱

Listen my position
Is everything but fine
you turned into an enemy
from crossing different lines
I'll sing another symphony
I'm broken by design
I hate to drink this Hennessy
but it gets me out this bind

My eyes grow shut
As i stare into the sky
the sun it burns my body
and emotionally I'm blind
You never should have dropped me
you had fucked up my life
and still I really want her
and I can't win this fight

My heart grows fond
In the worst of times
I'm fueled from other bonds
that will never stick in spite
where is all your honor?
Never meant to bother you at all
I can't even call you babygirl
You won't pick up the phone

you were staying next to me
with bright red hair
and it's distant
but I hope the feelings still there
I'm persistent
and I know
you probably don't care
it's more than missing your touch
I hope that you're aware

We talk
You lie
I start to cry
my brain is scarred
Can't control my mind
I'm happy, lonely, scared, I swear I'm fine
my heart is bruised
from taking my own advice

In life I have a path
I'll find
I'm dying soon
So don't you act so surprised
Hold my hand
And hold my heart
go and and try to break it too
I'm not sad
No, I'm depressed
and honestly I'm leaving soon

my position (prod. malloy)

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