"you can buy a fix but you'll pay the price" hit deep

Lyrics:
Ask me how I'm doing 
I'm okay, and don't forget it
I'm good at hiding truths
And good at holding feelings
I wanna open up
But I'm better off pretending 
Losing you was too much
Gotta level up, ascending

Pretending is all that I'm good for
And still I let you hurt me
don't know what for
You love to break me down in ways
I wish I never felt before
(How could u do that)

That shared room was more than you thought that it was
And when you finally left
I thought that I had lost the love
But Instead you set me free
Pockets fatter, every green
Copping bodies every week
Making money, clapping cheeks

Now I'm good without a thing
I don't really need much
I just my cat and weed
You would never seem to try focus up
So I would never seem to care sober up

I'm sorry for the memories and pain that I brought
If it were up to me, I'd grab a gun and take the shot
Straight into my brain, easily erase the thoughts
And memories Im stuck of you
And all the times we fought
(Idek I just said random shit here)

pretend (prod. sorrow bringer)

Lyrics🎱

Fill my schedule, so I ain't got empty time
I struggle when I do, I'm never calm I'm never fine
Tryna find some peace, at the bottom of my mind
Will I make it out? Will i make it out alive?

I can see the ocean, and it's a nice view
But it doesn't compare to when I'm looking at you
The feeling that it brings on inside
Takes away every thought that I shared of 
Suicide

Suicide doors
Yeah you know I'm in the coupe
Doordashing while I'm driving
Making money while I scoot
Through my city, through my town
Making moneys what I do

And whenever i find time
I work on being happy cuz I know I'm never fine
I tend to sit around contemplating problems I
Caused upon myself
So I sit and wonder why
I do this to myself
I wish I just could end my life
(Just end my life, just end my life)
(Ooooooh, but can't do that)

I think I need a mercy
Think I need a second life
Alcohol consumes me
But it helps me when I cry
So scared to fuck it up
I know they're ain't no second tries 
So I gotta watch my cards
And I gotta play em right
Like now
I'd do anything to see you
But when I'm crying breaking down
Where were you when I would need you?
(Whenever I would need u?)

time (prod. eskimos)

I wish you, wouldn't have wasted time
Now I'm sad alone, every Friday night
And on Saturdays, I wake up and cry
And every holiday I dread to be alive

I wish you wouldn't have called my line
I told you were done about a thousand times
I wish you, couldn't have caught my lie
Now I know I'm fucked
Yeah I lost my life

I wish you, wouldn't have put me first
I left you alone
And now I feel worse
Than I did before
I guess life's a curse
I won't ever be happy
Til' the back of the hearse

I'm sick of shaking
In the dead of the night
I wish these drugs could help me
ease my mind
I can't feel my body
Just leave me behind
Let me rot away
Fuck my soul I'm fine
I'm fine :'(

I just wanna be happy
I'm never fine
But I took the pills
So I paid the price
Serotonins fucked
But my dopamine high
My stomach feeling low
But my body feeling fried

I cracked the seal
And then lost myself
Extract what seems real
Forget abandonment
Cause I know what I feel
And you're full of it
Go ahead, you can kill me
I don't give a shit

You're on my mind
While I write this song
I sure miss your touch
It's been far too long
I just miss your body
Now fuck that thong
You can take it off
It's been far too long

thong (prod. siem spark)

Lyrics🎱

I reminisce on memories
But none of them are mine
And if we're meant to be
Then why'd you go and waste my time?
I must've been out of my fucking mind
Cuz you could tear apart my heart without a tear inside your eyes

And I'll admit when I wake up, I wanna die
I reach for my pills I keep by my bedside
They're the only thing that's keeping me alive
through this neverending futile idiotic life
So I cry at night
at the thought of us connecting our eyes
And whenever we would kiss it would feel so distant inside

I would sit by the fire and absorb in the heat
I take in these thoughts while I sweat in my sheets
Throughout the night I just cry and I weep
I'm barely alive, I can barely breathe

I think its bout time I finally start to fo-cus
Realizing I wasted time, feeling fucking hopeless (fuck that!)
In and out my body yeah I know I'm fucking broken
(I'm fucking broken)

I can't take these scars, off the side of my face
I can't change my appearance, I can only lose weight
I can't look in the mirror
Without feeling ashamed
I hate everything about me
But I'm stuck this way

stuck this way (prod. MNDLS)

Lyrics🎱

I hate awkwardness, bad predicaments
I hate lustful thoughts, and commiting sins
I typed you up a paragraph to never hit send
To watch you be with someone else, you with him
And that's shit that I can't understand
We fell in love
Just to downgrade back to friends
I'm praying that you're happy
you always had a thing for crackheads

weight on my shoulders
But I never slow down
I think we needa make up
ride with the top down
cruise throughout our city
and tear up this town
I aint looking for no pity
but I'm lost without you now
so can we bring it back?
because I feel I'm gonna drown
without you in my arms
ion wanna be around
I'd rather be a ghost,
I'd rather be inside the ground
I feel like I'm eyeore (Winnie the Pooh bitch)
good at flaunting my frown

This is what I get for leaving you
In the rain
I know I'm fucked up
But I've been focusing on changing
Everything that,
I cannot stand, about myself 

I hope you're doing well, yeah I'd love a sign
we made a damn good team whenever we'd collide
I pray to God you miss me, cuz I'm barely alive
You twist my brain in circles like I was fuckin twine
And maybe we can fix shit, if the stars align

predicaments (prod. Malloy ✰)

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Just say that you hate me
And you left me to be
Everything is changing
But you swept me off of my feet

A cold hearted person
Makes the tears come down
I lost you for certain
Now it only rains now
In public see you flirting
Know it hurts me now
But I'ma be alright
Watch my world fall down

I wish I had the balls to block you
Sometimes I wish I would've never even met you
You been living inside the back of my head
And lately you've been drowning me in constant dread

I wish that I could figure this out
Cuz lately I've been feeling real down
I say that it's all in my head
Ion wanna feel so stupid
My words I say feel useless
But I'm still trying my best
But I know I'm better of dead

I jus wanna hear your voice
Can u blame me?
Demons screaming in my head
It's getting kinda crazy
Put the car in drive
Take my soul for a ride
I've been crying all night
I wish you were by my side
But fuck I'd rather not die
I'd rather hold you every night
For the rest of my life

3v3rythings2loud (prod. 4lexf )

first posted freestyle <3 Lyrics 🎱 

High anxiety
I need to bring it back down
I've gained a lot of enemies
inside and out my town
I hate when people fuck with me
I stay laid on my couch
never open my mouth
cause when I do
It's always foul
need some weed and an owl
I think I could use a drink
but I've been stuck Ina drought
words been stuck inside my chest
So I push em' back down
You seem to stress me out
But I still keep you around

you been pulling on my ego
But you look like a clown
out my face, you no amigo
but it's sweet in the south
make a movie
Ain't no sequel
Cause' I blew her back out
there ain't no love
I'm yet to see
I guess I'm shutting it out
I want get better
But I don't know where to start
she's breaks me and I let her
wondering where's her heart
I'm folding under pressure
And I don't know what's the cause
her tricks are always clever
And I'm fighting shitty odds

I lay in my hammock
And stare at the trees
the winds blowing hard
but it helps when I breathe
I hear the water rushing
while grinding my teeth
I push away others
I crave something concrete

You cannot see me
I'ma phantom
Fuckin these bitches
While in the friend zone
Double cup up
no holdin' me ransom
bitch I'm tired
Don't throw no tantrum
you can talk me up
But I know I ain't handsome
When you feelin' down
You can play this anthem

your anthem (prod. qg)

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I don't fuck with strings attached
I cut them all
To aid my freedom
And I never would've thought
That you would block my calls
Now you don't see them
At all

Sometimes I wonder
Will you pick up the phone?
I've been texting you for weeks
and if I called, it'd say unknown
I'm missing your physique
and what you hold under your bones
your love is all I seek
and when I'm with you
I feel home

And at night I hear your voice
I feel your feet under the covers
But you're not really there
I felt us shift to distant lovers
And you're still on my mind
While you've been thinking about others
You're eating up my mind
I never know if I'll recover

Epitome of failure
The ones around me tend to suffer
I'm grasping my inhaler
Cause' my chest can't take the pressure
I'm feeling the neglect
Despite precautions and my measures
Someday I wanna love myself
I'll do it to impress her
I struggle with my mental health
cause' I'll never forget her
I start my prayers
With wish you well
and go to sleep a sinner
Im hoping that she finds
the love within her
she's floating through my brain
like a river
and I can't concentrate
when I'm not with her

Woke up today
And I'm not feeling it
And I hate my city
But it's where my family is

Thought that we had planned
not to end like this
just a week ago
You were biting on my lip
I keep on lying to myself
And saying I don't give a shit

Even if we're not together
You're still a friend of mine
Feelings fake as polyester
we were doomed from the design
but I still got some questions
if you'll allow me to confine
without you girl I'm nothing
cause' you were so devine

polyester (prod. Malloy ✰)

Lyrics 🎱

Old times were bad
Focus on the new
not what we had
just try to improve
Put up a facade
Like there's nothing to lose
I know that I love you
But you don't have a clue
like Kenan and kel
Bitch we coming in two's
making some waves
but it's nothing brand new
in the back of your mind
I've been changing your views
I don't need you back
I'm making sparks when I move

Saying farewell 
to the secrets that I held
I'm climbing to the top
Despite the distance that I fell
I can feel you in my chest
like you never even left

I guess it's just my life
I've been decaying
I'm burning on the inside
You said you hate me
Now why you gon' fuckin lie?
I needed you to save me
Instead of wasting my time
I think that I'm crazy
But with you I'm alright
I needed your help
And you left me here to dry
My hearts been in pieces
And the love is hard to find
I felt it fuckin' leaving
But didn't pick up the signs
That you were cheating
Now you're everything I despise
Love really has no meaning
now without you
I'll learn to be fine. 

farewell, take care (prod. everestdidthis)

Lyrics🎱

Esophagus cancer is heading my way
I puke til' no bile
Just to feel so ashamed
I look anorexic
but it's hard to sustain
the food in my stomach
with stress everyday
The doctors can't fix me
seems neither can I
one foot is in the grave
baby allow me to die
Body dysmorphia
beyond the eye
I wish that I liked
what the mirror replies

I wake up and wonder,
Why open my eyes?
If I never move again
would I turn out the lights?
used to not having comfort
it's not worth the fight
I build my ego up
Just to watch it all die

yuhhh she got the best of me
I felt the worst of times
despite the texts I'd see
I stayed beyond denial
I miss her thighs and feet
and having netflix nights
Now a canceled subscription
is where we lie

said I wouldn't let it
but this shit is gonna hurt
lonely nights in september
bleach stains on my shirt
I remember when
you used to put me fuckin first
now I'm less than just a stranger
wish we coulda made it work

pick apart my fantasies
and seek what comes next
burn the bridge of all my memories
you had me at my best
and idk if we're meant to be
at least I tell myself
I cry and write these melodies
and lose track of my health

like a broke down car
I'm a broken guy
you can buy a fix
but you'll pay the price
I spent most nights lit
stuck within my mind
but it all went to shit
when she left my side

Say it's over
That's a lie
another day
and no reply
I'm not okay
Not doing fine
please bring it back
I'm terrified

who do I be
when I hate myself?
and why do I cry?
when I feel I'm impelled
I scream to my pillow
and eyes are swelled
no animosity
I'm not doing well
no probabilities
I'm going to hell
head in a guillotine 
watch as it fails
Cut up my arteries
endouver the smell

and I don't want a funeral
I don't want a grave
I just want her back
before I feel that I'm insane
I feel I'm attacked
By the thoughts in my brain
they eat me alive
watch the blood leave my veins

animosity (prod. ross gossage)

Lyrics 🎱
adventurous mind
we'll think alike
improvise our nights
though they're stormy
in her I confine
my truths and lies
she's the reason I
stay horny
and I don't wanna lie
got a feeling I'll
ruin something

you say that I'm the liar
girl you need to do a fact check
making all this money
shove that shit inside my mattress
talk a lot of bullshit
this bitch seem like an actress 
I'm smoking cat piss (strain of weed don't come @ me)

I was born alone
so here I'ma sit right here and rot
you fracture every bone
you're not fit to be my god
you cannot claim
I'm incapable of love
you can take me out the frame
but your problems won't resolve

remember the smell of her hair
that's toxic
only talk to me
when she low on options
december was fair, to me
to be honest
i hope that she sees
that she ruined my conscious

these 808s fuel my pain
but show me I'm alive
the scars upon my brain
tell the story of how I survived
the damage I sustain
break my body, not my pride
when I talk
It's not in vain
I don't wanna be alive

I wish I could have made her stay
Instead of saying bye
an example of some broken faith
from all the fucking lies
I'll admit that lately I'm afraid
that I've been wasting time
so I'm slowing down the clock
smoking weed and staying high

so I sit back and I smile
as I think where we end
I know the next one around
gonna take me to my end.
I don't need a hand to hold
I don't wanna feel my face
promises that she'd uphold
always brought a long debate
and in time I'll see it through
change my life, and move away
and I'll still text you here and there
no matter where I stay

adventurous mind (prod. eskimos)

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animosity (prod. ross gossage)

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