Lyrics🎱

I reminisce on memories
But none of them are mine
And if we're meant to be
Then why'd you go and waste my time?
I must've been out of my fucking mind
Cuz you could tear apart my heart without a tear inside your eyes

And I'll admit when I wake up, I wanna die
I reach for my pills I keep by my bedside
They're the only thing that's keeping me alive
through this neverending futile idiotic life
So I cry at night
at the thought of us connecting our eyes
And whenever we would kiss it would feel so distant inside

I would sit by the fire and absorb in the heat
I take in these thoughts while I sweat in my sheets
Throughout the night I just cry and I weep
I'm barely alive, I can barely breathe

I think its bout time I finally start to fo-cus
Realizing I wasted time, feeling fucking hopeless (fuck that!)
In and out my body yeah I know I'm fucking broken
(I'm fucking broken)

I can't take these scars, off the side of my face
I can't change my appearance, I can only lose weight
I can't look in the mirror
Without feeling ashamed
I hate everything about me
But I'm stuck this way

stuck this way (prod. MNDLS)

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I wanna take off out this galaxy
I need the fuck out
humans instinctively, built callously
jus figured it out

So can we talk about our agony?
At least say our problems out loud?
I'm seeing others living casually
and to me, it's so profound
I've come to terms with my reality
The situations, and their gravity
I feel the world is tryna crush me down
conflicting thoughts, and broken fallacies now

I got a loose head, bruises, covered head to toe
I got blood on my knuckles, yeah i think it's time to go
And if he keep the beef, then I'll let the 9 blow
I truly want some peace, I'm tryna let this stress go

yet I still question, where did the depression
Originally start, or why I feel lost?
All of the time, will I ever feel fine?
what the fuck is normal life even like?
dink me in the head, like it was counter-strike
Cause I'm on go, yuh I'm in overtime
and whenever making music I'm in overdrive

I'm in overdrive, you can't stay the night
Stimulate my body, until I feel fine
U can say ur hurting, but were nothing alike
If you felt this pain, you'd prolly stare down a pipe
Prolly pull the trigger, after contemplating life
Tell me that you're special
Without copying a style
Show me that you're different
That you'll go the extra mile
I could use the love
I haven't felt it in a while

galaxy (prod. Malloy ✰)

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I drink and cry
with my bong held tight
I finish a bottle
In just one night
I sit and I shake
And I tremble in fright
I never knew 
That this would be my life

My whole world feels
like it's caving in
So I sip some more
And I live in sin
Why do I feel this way?
I think I need some gin

Put my 9 on my hip and I walk into the night
Got a blunt behind my ear, so ofc I'm flying high
Reminiscing on my past, I jus miss my old life
I'd do anything to you have you back
But that won't work out
And I done showed you why
My body's broken, in and out the sides
I know I need to leave, but cannot say goodbye
It feels like a needle piercing through
the back of my spine, am I even alive?
I could make it all up and say that I am fine
Or I can just be honest and admit I hate my life
I could admit I hate my life

I cant say to you 
What I can to this mic
I'm tryna harder everyday to delete my mind
Anxiety controls me and make me wanna die
But trust me when I say that I'll always stay right by your side
I may not be perfect
But that's perfectly fine
I just need to see you happy
I need to see that beautiful smile
Everyday I fuckin miss you
Despite the short amount of time
I know that I'll never forget you
you may rest inside of my mind

rest (prod. Malloy ✰)

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I think i'm ready to dive deep
Don't try and call me, or text me
I'll sacrafice myself
And make sure no one can stop me

I'm getting high today
Smoking a blunt just to fly away
I'm not gonna cry today
I've been in my head, I wanna die today
I'm praying and showing that I can change
While running and running away from this pain
But it catches up
You could watch me burn
And ruin my life that sucks
Never was surprised when you gave us up

Now I'm sitting in my room
Revaluating trust
Tryna figure out the difference
Between the love
And all this lust

Now I can't even be comfortable
Whenever walking out
Unless I take a pill
But im nothing when without
And knowing that alone
really drags me down

Don't hear a trace of a sound
But I see your face here and now
For my world, it's falling down
I feel my brain, it's bleeding out
Jus know I need you right now
You watched me fall to the ground
You broke my heart, you broke my heart
I hope you're proud
:/

proud (prod. Malloy ✰)

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Medication, on my desk
Hallucinations from tabs themselves
I need THC whenever I'm depressed
Which is consistently, because i'm fucked in the head
But, at least I know myself
While you still pretend
And act mean as hell
And only drag me down
Keep me from doing well
don't wanna see me doing better
But I don't even care bitch, give me back my sweater
I used to reminisce cold nights in November
And now I sit alone wondering will it get better 

I really hope that it gets better
I miss when we would fuck
Tie her down, and have to web-her
You can call me spider man
Won't put up with no other man
I can do some shit to you
That I know that he never can

I let myself forget, that I'm just flesh
I've been feeling kinda slow, I think a need a refresh
And I'm not falling for your traps
Or getting caught up in your mess
You're the reason that I'm hurting
wish the pain would just end

spiderman (prod. heyrick)

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I just wanna hold you
I just wanna know you
Better than the day, than I did before
I just wanna hold you
I just wanna show you
I just wanna show you off to the world

Just wait until I get my hands around your waist
No holding back, I love the taste
I need you now, you're what I crave
At late at night, I miss you babe
Wish you were here, but you're miles away
It's how it goes, and ig it stays that way
And ever, and ever, and ever, and after

I would leave you for never
I never wanted you to see
The broken parts inside of me
I'm growing thin, my body bleeds
Watch me decay inside my sleep
I'm too damn high I'm out of reach
I won't come down, I'm the black sheep
(Oh I know, that I'm the black sheep inside of your head, and I know I'm probably better of dead)

I just wanna hold you
I just wanna show you
Whenever you are with me
You'll always be fine
I just wanna prove to you
That everything I said was true
Our love was always so far, from seeming so blind

black sheep (prod. 4lexf x autrioly)

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Sometimes I play my music too loud
It has a way of always drowning you out
I cannot think without you now
I lost what's mine, but you're not found
I smoke too much, buy it by the pound
I stay so high, I live in the clouds
I want you back, but I ain't coming down
I'm too damn scared to keep you around

And I still go through our old messages
I'm hurting deeply
But I'm tryna make the best of it
I hope you see me trying
I know that I'm irrelevant
You'll find me crying 
serotonin feeling deficit

We fell apart in the middle of summer
I'm not that smart
but I learned a lot from her
I'm ripping carts
To forget that I love her
And now she gettin piped
There ain't no plumber

So I packed my bags
And I hit the road
I'm wondering without you
Will I ever feel home?
I'm constantly sad
I need to unload
It's thundering and lightning
you won't pick up the phone
(you won't pick up the phone)
x2

phone (prod. reezgy)

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Old times were bad
Focus on the new
not what we had
just try to improve
Put up a facade
Like there's nothing to lose
I know that I love you
But you don't have a clue
like Kenan and kel
Bitch we coming in two's
making some waves
but it's nothing brand new
in the back of your mind
I've been changing your views
I don't need you back
I'm making sparks when I move

Saying farewell 
to the secrets that I held
I'm climbing to the top
Despite the distance that I fell
I can feel you in my chest
like you never even left

I guess it's just my life
I've been decaying
I'm burning on the inside
You said you hate me
Now why you gon' fuckin lie?
I needed you to save me
Instead of wasting my time
I think that I'm crazy
But with you I'm alright
I needed your help
And you left me here to dry
My hearts been in pieces
And the love is hard to find
I felt it fuckin' leaving
But didn't pick up the signs
That you were cheating
Now you're everything I despise
Love really has no meaning
now without you
I'll learn to be fine. 

farewell, take care (prod. everestdidthis)

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I've been struggling as of late
Tryna filter through the fakes
watch my ego jus deflate
to her house, I'm on the way
oh shit, I need to cover up my cuts
yo fam, can you shut the fuck up?
Oh man, it's getting kinda late huh?
Baby what's the plan?
I'm tryna take you home, yuh 
and don't try to play me
Cause' I'm the man
this life couldn't phase me
I drown in regret
And don't you say you're sorry
Just read through our texts
the shit that you been saying to me
causing me a sweat
And I jus sent a text
She won't ever understand
Maybe we could get along
If I could meet demands

every week I'm trying harder
End up embarrassing myself
when in love, you can go farther
with intentions on the shelf
So I'm pushing back the stress
And I open my eyes
And I cut off the excess
cause' the drugs gon' take my life
watching you slowly progress
it's fucking up my mind
I jus wanna be there for you baby
Even if it's for a night

Jeopardizing our love
Never felt right
paralyzed from the cuts
and the scars upon my thighs
if you can't live it how you wanna
what's the point in life?
if I can't take you home with me
I'm crashing here tonight.

fall asleep to your serenade
I'm begging you, don't go away
I don't wanna talk about
how I'm feeling everyday
don't you close your eyes tonight
demons watch us anyways
I can handle all the fright
baby I can keep you safe

my friends are doing well
but my life's been stuck in place
did it hurt when you had fell?
From a place so far away
in the sky, no not hell
I know that heaven's where you stay
and no I never sleep at night
but change is underway

stuck In place (prod. lexelbeats)

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You started the fire
Now you want me back
You departed, and it proved 
That I don't really need your ass
you can see the scars
all on my arms
I know it's sad
Forget I said we're meant to be
I'm finally on track

You can't break me anymore
My head is feeling strong
For love i'd go to war
But if for you, it would feel wrong
I know that time is ticking
But I'm right where I belong
I'm drowning in my feelings
So I put them in a song

And some nights yeah
I miss you
But I never want you back
you barely cared about me
Not opinion, just a fact
I hope you're feeling guilty
Cause' you turned my heart to black
I couldn't care less if you miss me
Cause' I'm smoking on this pack
I'm chiefing on this stizzy
So I keep my mind intact
Rolling up some purple cookie
So I can sit back and relax
King Louis in my blunt now
mix it with some wax 

All these drugs help the pain
But it comes back worse
I wanna leave right now
Wanna ride in the hearse
Put my body in the ground
Please god take me first
I don't wanna be around
But I can take this perc
We all die one day
I'm just waiting my turn

Take your doses
Don't you choke and
I am scarred
you were low
I gave you roses
I'm falling hard
Taking pills
I'm tryna cope and
I am jarred
don't listen
When I'm angry yuh
My head is hard

I don't know where your boyfriend at
He's a waste of time
And you looking like a snack
I can see your lonely baby
Lemme rub your back
He been sourcing all your problems
Lemme pick up all his slack
We can drive back to my stash
Roll a blunt
and then relax
buy some weed
make profit back
smoking gas
and that's a fact
head is strong
my mind intact

headstrong (prod. eskimos)

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Honestly
Probably
I'm unstable
Talk to me
follow me

Sing me a lullaby
I can feel you twist the knife
Promise lil baby
In the end we gonna be alright

I could've woke up dead
nobody notice
I was in my bed
I couldn't focus
I was in my head
And now I'm M.I.A
While you're lying in bed
I hope you miss me
bet you're happier instead
Oh I wish you would listen
To the thoughts inside my head
And when I try to voice them
You just act like it's pretend
I want your heart
Just let me in
let me in, ohhh
lemme inn

I've been burning these bodies
I'm in my coffin
Come find me
I'm drinking whiskey no cardi'
oh i'ma demon can't stop me
I'm on my toes at these parties
I wear the sin I embody
I'm by myself
Need no possy

I don't know
What to do with my life
I lost it all
Now I'm never feeling fine
I'm tryna find myself in this dark dark night
I wonder if my soul and body will collide
My brain it hurts me
And it does it out of spite
My lips are burning
And it's prolly from the shine (moonshine)
My stomachs churning
my lungs are tight

unstable (prod. eskimos)

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