And im not very happy with myself I wanna run

Internet Depression </3

cave dive feat. 8485, kuru, straydogali (tayevr)

w/ @co1ton & @mental
prod. @mkne & @176s
art. me

[Lyricss] Halo:
ooooo its so real -real
its so real -real
face to face to face - i don't wanna problem
i dont wanna fade away - sleep in a coffin
wake up wake up wake up - or you're forgotten
everytime i close my eyes - i see it blossom :)
ooooo its so real -real
if i could stop the pain - then you know i will   
face to face to face - i don't wanna problem
i dont wanna fade away - sleep in a coffin
wake up wake up wake up - or you're forgotten
everytime i close my eyes - i see it blossom :)

mental:
im confused 
all my problems go to you
but this time aint the same
overdue i cant solve this :/
i need you 
or something else to change
the look in ur eyes that u give me    o.o
im feeling that somethings wrong   -.-
cant think spinning circles im dizzy  >_<
been like this for way too long
tell them i would be okay
but i never felt this way
i dont rly wanna change
but im scared of stayin the same
what if it takes too long
and then theres no other way
turn around and look away
u dont wanna see my face
u just wanna see me strong
fight it almost every day
wish it would just go away
i dont wanna carry on

colton:
i just want you here with me
i think my heart just skipped a beat
just take my life its yours to keep
still hear the song thats on repeat
like please dont please dont go away
im comfortable don't want to change
i wake up i see your face
i promise you im here to stay
like ohh i will never go
dont want to be alone 
my heart overflows <3
thought you should know 
its not the same without you here
soon as you're gone ill disappear
live in my arms without a fear
nothing ever felt so clear

Blossom w/mental & colton (maknae & waifu)

prod me


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i dont wanna go there
feeling like they all stare
shawty this a nightmare
crashing like my software

playing modern warfare
glowing like a red flare
semtex glare bitch im shooting make em all stare
going fucking nowhere
going fucking nowhere
going fucking nowhere

im stuck in place
i cant feel my face
cant pick up the pace
i need a saving grace

i know its late
but i still need to get it straight
go thru the gate
i keep on carrying this weight

playing modern warfare
glowing like a red flare
semtex glare bitch im shooting make em all stare
going fucking nowhere
going fucking nowhere
going fucking nowhere

Modern Warfare

優人

どうしよう

prod @vilexx

back to dropping normally :)

Cry Of Fear (Vile)

i am a big https://soundcloud.com/1glaive fan 
man named crowbars: scared

LYRICS

(chorus)
"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,
"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,

aint no chance of survival,
20 shots to your spinal,
and if u wanna go cry boi,
we gon pull up wid that rifle,

where u at then ?
sed u wanna fite real hard,
but u madeleine,
keep a lil click like a guard ,
bringa sylo men,
givin me that lip,
then i dip em wid a mini skeng,

(chorus)
"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,
"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,

I was sipping soda! (h-h-hi dopa)
fucked up off sum liquor idk her 8)
crazy!
how u turned into a hoe ya
boring like da state of north dakota 
walk in to the club like im 18 
its crazy!
fake id n da police gonna chase me
i just threw up in da back
they gon hate me
now i got a cop on my ass tryna taze me
im a soldier (j-j-john)
ima walk into tha spot like im its owner
and my bros packing heat 
just like its sonar!
i been posted up i been smoking kosher
i been posted up i been smoking

"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,
"you a loner",
but i cant find u in my folder?
come and see me in the back, 
smoking doja,
crowbars!
yea we tryna come over,
take all your shit,
then we sell it to the olders,

crowbars w/ glaive

SPOTIFY
https://open.spotify.com/track/5Xx3C7NahN8rPhyiJ5vlEK?si=Y5duZxdIT1qAXocuUPoqDw

@mkne @176s

useless (prod. maknae x waifu)

@prod4am
@1spxce

me and @yungkurtains on the outro :)

223 bullets poppin out da ar
no i do not know u idk who they are
c4 on the axel of the sportscar
dead by 27 yeah im feelin like a rockstar

i dont think i know u
do u wanna try me?
drugs in my system and i think im gonna od
put the body down n i hide it in the debris
back u in the corner n i hit u with da shotty

splinter cell no tom clancy
heard u wearin air force 1 how fancy
at the back of the club pop percs like candy
sitin my room takin shots of the brandy

tired of this shit yeah im 2 fed up
heard u talkin 2 the feds yeah i knew it was a setup
put the bodys in the hole its a pile up
whining over twitter but ur a grownup

talk shit on me n my friends i dont like u 
choppa 2 ur face yeah its rlly nice 2 meet u 
say u wanna beef me tell me whats ur iq
do u rlly wanna link yeah just know that ill delete u

take a look im behind u
switchblade put it thru ur tummy imma push thru
wtf would i do if i was in ur shoes
.45 hollow points watch em go n fly thru 

fatal frame imma snap a pic
say u shootin shots but the only thing u shoot is flicks
big rounds poppin out the k u get dealt with
tryna run up on me but the only thing i heard was clicks

Setup (4am + Space)

produced by yours truly
w @blxty @mental
art by @ihateshota
<3

doll feat. blxty, mental

(@prodnomu)
stay safe luv u all <3

video on astari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xysH0udOXdc

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U look pretty in that dress
U look pretty in that
dress(16)

Okay i take it back
Everything i said
Eveyrthing i did
You dont understand
Thats not what i meant
U done made me sad
i Didnt give a shit 
Yea
yea

Im just jealous how u make it look so effortless
make s it hard for me to try to make an effort yea
when i try,  u end up always doing better yea
But when i'm insecure i think about the better days 

 
But now i look right in the mirror and I see what ive become
And im not very happy with myself I wanna run 
Away from all the things that make me feel like im someone
Ive tried so many time to make it right but now im done

IM A QUIET PERSON BUT IM SCREAMING  IN THE DARK
AND NO ONE FUCKING HEARS ME CUZ I MUTE MYSELF A LOT
I TRY TO KEEP IT SILENT IN THE DAY BUT DAM  ITS HARD
AND YESTERDAY I SCREAMED SO FUCKING LOUDLY IN THE CAR 

And even though Im better than before I still feel worthless
Ive tried so many times to make it right and make it perfect
And after all this time ive figured that its just not worth it
Go and lock the doors so i can hide behind my curtains

dress

spotify <3

pain n b

(@prodnomu)

haven't posted a song in forever so here u go <3 luv u allll thank u for listening


Its a been while since i been by myself
Talking nobody else
Except me

Ive been so comfortable inside my own shell
And im feeling quite well
Its routine

Everybody gets one second
Ye Just one second of heaven
1 for me
1 for u
1 for everytime u knew
How i felt when i was down
Everytime ur not around
For the first time in forever I wake up without u now

dont know how much time i have
Til my haves become my had
And my dreams turn into wishes
While my wishes turn to ash
Ive got problems in my veins
You can see it in my face
But my problems fade away
Everytime u call my name

FUCK!!
This prolly the last time for a while
It seems like the perfect chance to get things off my mind ye
Wish i had more music but i just don't have the time
Maybe it's excuses but regardless i was trying

And every time i hear a song i feel so insecure
Cuz everybody has a sound and im just standing here
Cant write a line i lost my shine im out of things to sharee
But thanks for listening to me its good to know you care

just an update - i made it into college
Hope i get a chance to see u all after the fall ends
Ill miss everyone of you who talked to me at all and
Ill make sure to check up on the ones who even called me

Promise ill be back
Maybe send me messages and maybe start a chat
ive been feeling better and better
like Much better than ever
finally i really like it where im at :)

dress

nomu

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