this gave me chills at the end omg pls make more songs like this 🌌 your music is too beautiful

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lyrics-
what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be
i saw the changes in your eyes
guess it's not easy to hide, that you wanted to leave
i see your pictures online
there's now none of you and i
oh it seems
like it was all just a dream
pretend you don't know me anymore
you just left, walked out the door
oh please
why'd you do this to me


our ship sailed 
we left feelings stranded

you take everything i have
time i wasted, wont get back 
don't move on
i wont withstand 
back to strangers? just like that?


guess it was never meant to be
we were too young, no guarantee 

i don't know why we even tried

two worlds collide

seen it coming, not surprised

what was it like to fall out of love with me
was it as easy as you thought it would be

strangers again (ft. evergarden) (acey)

don't wanna stay (prod. boyfifty)

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

everyday is the same/ but just a little bit different
today i was the guilty one again, cuz i didn't listen
yesterday it was still my fault, but surely 4 anotha reason
i think/ shit never changes, despite us changing the szn
i suddenly went cold, like we're in a blizzard
sick of bastards who fold, n runaway like they lizzards
acting like u r dr connors, imma beat u like peter
ain't no way u betraying me, im sick of being beaten

not my choice to be born
not my decision
if it really was up to me
i'd be in a grave not breathing
all the bones that u broke 
r the reason 
why ur so bad for me 
but keep me from kneeling

so much pain in my heart
idk where to start 
i keep rollin up blunts
and smokin em all in the dark 
closed in the stu makin art 
about everything thatS a part
of my life and marked me 
to the point where i can't even talk

to anybody i know
bout anything that i go
thru everyday is a struggle
wakin up  wishin i don't
shit got me feeling so low 
going thru this all alone
i got nobody to relate to 
but a pillbox n a bong

sm pain in mh (tiedforsilver)

unprepared (michael harris)

guitar by rjpasin
prod by me

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go

how do i love 
when im broken
tell the same thing
im fading
that me you know
is gone now
how do i explain it 
told u everything i knew
you dont understand at all
i give you everything i had
everything i had

how do i explain this feeling
i dont know how to feel no more

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go

open up your mind a little
see my bones r brittle
so im unfixable 
others tried
they just let go


they say you reap what you sow
i did so much for you and you know
im in too deep
buried in the snow
drowning in my sorrows
a pit of self loath
im shaking 
i cant stop myself
im breaking
i need your help
soul taken
im in hell
my own personal hell

personal hell

it's hard

lyrics:
i scribbled symphonies of peace to cope with finding out the truth
worked as needed reaching what middle school me would think was cool
fiddling pens and pencils pensive wasn’t picky with the tool
i’d use for some naive translation of my angst and fragile mood

i can’t afford it now

growing pains replaced with what the bills are like in winter now
since the cold ascended i can’t shake the taste of poetry
phonetically imperfect pretty speech protruding out of me
im cramming syllables to cry of colder temps and picture books
reliving twisted memories romanticizing what it took
to be alive surviving prerip jeans and social trends
extending my insistence on reliving those remember when’s

it’s a fucked up toxic endeavor

middle child needs attention to feel valid who’da guessed it?
choose an evening to feel hollow with my grief i’ve been selective
been a lot of things over the years but never been objective
i’m a passive dude

some would call it sitting fence and when i’m honest i probably would too
at my expense i picked the easiest escape when i could
now im desperate to do something i should

cause there’s something bout finality that scares me
wavered care perpetuated the impression that i’m distant and aware
of ticking hours minutes seconds sticking strictly to my regiment
rejected any message i was yet to learn my lesson
started strong and i accepted that’s enough to use the leverage
and projected progress farther now it’s a little more than hard
to understand i’m on a limit always finish weaker than i started
know how to begin but stutter further in the tempo how ironic

looking in the mirror a song by melmige thank you for listening [prod. eeryskies]

Lyrics ⬇️

its easy for you to say that i dont care
never came true but i wish youd repair
the love that we lost cuz ever since then
No one compares
they wanna slide knives all inside of me
no i do not vibe with that energy
i really tbought you be here with me
too many nights all alone i miss ur sympathy 

ur trickin me
nonother way to explain without imagery 
Your blue eyes dont look like the sky tn
so know theyre not tempting me
in the meantime ima find the light
in the ways that this life will unwind me

can’t rewind no matter what i try all the time i dont wanna leave behind me

Cold shoulder made me make another set back
i dont wanna lie but i really had to back track
did time now im feelin all the whiplash 
couldnt cry so i came up with a big stack
tell my mama ima do all the dishes
in no time ima have a life witta mistress
want a cosign but i dknt really need the attention

just quit that 
so many nights no text back
so many fights still got back
into ur life just like that

ik that its wrong but i still be makin yhese songs
abt someone that has been gone for so long
yea j feel dumb
think i should quit it cuz i think shes done

done with the bluffs done with lies and the losing of trust
done with signs of abusing the drugs
time and time again u say its enough
why am i high again this is gettin rough
cant look back
tummy turnin thinkin boit my relapse
you dont feel bad
well i get that
i did it to myself 
now im feeling all the whiplash 

cant rewind but maybe if i could you would still be here beside me

whiplash (cxrter)

prod. kaydo

lyrics

(wont you leave me alone
dont you leave me alone)

(there’s blood on my coat
blood on my shoes
blood on my shirt
blood on my heart)

(no, no, i’m notahero)

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

but it’s so hard to let go
i’m finally happy i’ll seal this memory in a photo
you say ur sick of me and it makes my stomach hurt
but i tried my best for what it’s worth
feel like all my songs get boring by the 2nd verse
you said it goes from bad to good
but i feel bad to worse
don’t feel bad
i felt this way, way before you
but i’ll make sure your life is good cuz i adore you
sipping it slow
i will not walk with crow
how can you tell me what’s good for me
like you would know
i told you the answer a long time ago
real life’s gonna hit you like a cannonball
and that fall, feels like yesterday
and when you told me, i hope that you know that i prayed
your mind can do wonders if you take control
everyone i’ve met has tried to kill my soul

on this sidewalk i lay down and throw up
i’ll sacrifice
i want you to be happy even if i’m not
carry me to my house like i’m afraid to walk
i reach out to help
and you try to chop my hands off
baby just try to see beauty in the little things
i know there’s plenty evil in the world
but i got good in me
she know what to say to make me stay up
i wanna achieve my dreams
but i can never get them till i wake up

chop my hands off (prod. kaydo)

im sorry that its been a while
the time had made a heart to mend
find me in another life
i swear id try as hard again

a catalyst in heavy dark
your voice and how the bleeding stops
breath in a cold room to comfort
the surface im under for two years in sunder

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

i know its been a long time

silence feels like dying
i dont mind it
i cant find you in colours i had learned to know
olive skin in amber tones, cedarwood in maple grove
eyes low the night before i drove you home
said one day we could have our own
so why am i still here alone?

did you know then it was broken?
thought you cried in the car cause it still felt so far
but instead its just not what you want

fade out, start to forget me
soften the dead leaves of somebody else
brave now, but i know its early
and you couldn't hurt me but try to again

all that it brings
cold in the spring
whats the point of waking up
if not for you again?
i dont know me now
i dont know me now

Mount Hood

lyrics ⬇️

They give me attitide if i wake up in a bad mood

got no gratitude they said well look at what i passed thru

well im not the type to give anybody an option
To gimme their life
trust me ill leave you exhausted 
whyd you thinj twice when everybody said stay cautious 
i couldnt promise i couldnt promise
i dont miss all the fighting 
But i still miss ur touch
finally off the drugs 
But you left me in the dust

but i cannot judge

trusted me with everything
promised you a better me

yea i used to take anything to make me feel better
but now i look up to god he warm me up like a sweater
defying every single odd
get thru the weather
somehow untying the knots
wont take me on the stretcher 
and if you dont like how i walk nowdays
then thats ur loss
No cost in my book its just another one involved 

breaking out the silence-the silence-the silence 

wish that ur voice didnt remind me of the sirens-the sirens-the sirens

casting a curse on my bones, violence, violence

maybe its worth all the hurt and the cryin 

well im not the type to give anybody an option
To gimme their life
trust me ill leave you exhausted 
whyd you thinj twice when everybody said stay cautious 
i couldnt promise i couldnt promise
i dont miss all the fighting 
But i still miss ur touch
finally off the drugs 
But you left me in the dust

sirens & silence (caves)

@xobroken @jolst


and i can tell when you're lying
you can see it in your eyes
you can see it in your smile
fucking hate when you're vile

its like you get a fucking knife
and you stab me in the vital

ur only nice on your birthday
get your cards and open them up
the writing on the inside are lies open it up

and i dont wanna feed your ego
if i could get out of here
id be heathrow

guess i pay the price now
fuck it its a time out
i just turn the light out
tell me whats important
6 in the morning
i left in the morning
i just want a foreign

"take a seat"
i dont wanna sit down
ive been all up on my mind
n idk where im going

dont act like you know
dont act like you know whats going on
cause you fkn dont

It’s a cycle
She hit my vitals
No survival 
Expect apologies when I’m dying, ya so entitled
Feelin like I lost myself since your arrival
Saw this Shit coming but I was in denial

I been deceased 
She not missing me
Turned into fiend
Full of grief
Xanax make me lean
Weak up in the knees
Puffin trees
Just to get some sleep
Unable to dream
White tee
Blood drippin on me

Didn’t see you leaving, what should I expect? Im so dead,  there’s no way to resurrect me
Said you loved me 
Then you left
What’s is that?
Everything’s a mess

personal hell

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