Producer Credits : Andy Sorenson & whxami

save yourself

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
Enjoy.

i fell in love

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Send help, be quick please
‘Cause it seems that my life is in repeat
I’m waiting for your phone call baby, this silence is driving me crazy
I know that you love that you hate me, I’m too drunk to know that you blamed me
For every problem, every mistake and every time you made my heartbreak
I’m a fool for you, should of known better it was cruel of you
Know we’re done it's through
Crying so hard in the two-door coupe
Will you remember me? Tears in your eyes in my memories
It wasn’t meant to be but, just know I’ll still bleed for you
I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Lately
Feel crazy
Thoughts of you, back to back, got me shaking
Fuck around with a dumb mix I ain't safe b
Self-harm in the form of bliss it amaze it
Dazy
Hazy
I ain’t know where I am wake up achy
Crust up blood on my lip fuck so I take these
Chalk white pills to forget what I can be

Damaged
And frantic
Ya cold heart take advantage
Baby

Manic
You savage
My poor heart you gone damaged

Lately
Soul lost
Glazed eyes
Dead face under bangs baby

Same thoughts
With the same lies
I ain’t want this so I fade, daily

I'm losing my soul
I'm losing control
I've got nowhere to go
I don't care if I fall

Fall (feat SLOTHBOI) prod. sorrowbringer x amalia

This is the fist song release off my upcoming album. Enjoy.

Dear Ghost

Check Out Shiki XO:

Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/shikixo
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/0QDCjKEJLERqsoqUZmyjd2
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Check Out The Producer:
Soundcloud: https://soundcloud.com/luka-faletar
Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@prod.soulburn4403
Beatstars: https://www.beatstars.com/lukafaletar

Artwork Made by @devilboyxo
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Lyrics
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(Robstar)
I got a voice inside my head
Saying I can go to sleep
Pouring a forty in my bloodstream
But the joke was still on me
'Cause I never tried to learn
You can hear it when I speak
And my skin gets on my nerves
So I shred it 'till I bleed

Yeah
Tell me something that's actually gonna fucking surprise me
I've been running donuts in my brain I think I might be
Crazy, a little is making me who I am but maybe
Too much is seeping into my plans
Frying all the neurons in my brain like lightning
I'm still tryna understand what the fuck I have
Save me, I took a leap of faith into quicksand
Sunk into the pit and so I never looked back

(Shiki XO)
You give just enough that I don't leave
I'm up all night staring at my screen
I take two pills to fall asleep
But I'll be fine in the morning
I leave your house at six AM
And I don't need another friend
But it's your voice inside my head
That's telling me this horror story

(Robstar & Shiki XO)
I got a voice inside my head
Saying I can go to sleep
Pouring a forty in my bloodstream
But the joke was still on me
'Cause I never tried to learn
You can hear it when I speak
And my skin gets on my nerves
So I shred it 'till I bleed

Shredding ft. Shiki XO

Shredding Ft. Shiki XO [Prod. Soulburn x Dreamr]

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

You walk in like a silent scream
grief in your mouth, lust in your stare
you want to burn, but not be seen
and I’m the flame that won’t play fair
you wear the ache like second skin
I taste the guilt beneath your grin
you say it’s wrong and pull away
I pull you close, you want to stay

Your hands say yes, your lips say no
we kiss like sins we shouldn’t know
you breathe me in like morphine grace
and beg me not to leave a trace

Kiss me slow until it hurts to breathe
my hand slides low, but you pull away
your lip half-parts like you want to play
you lean in close, then shift and sway
I trace your tears, you bite your grin
your tongue just flicks, we both pull in
I want you more than I admit

Your tongue tastes like a fevered fruit
you ride that guilt like a fever’s pulse
you say his name with a shaken root
your body begs what words repulse
we’re wired wrong, but feel it right
I hold your hair through every bite
you brace your moan against my skin
and say you can’t, but pull me the fuck in

You say you’re breaking, say it’s fast
but still you dig in, make it last
I kiss your throat and taste the grief
we love like pain will bring relief

flesh locks down with a fuck-you grip
hips crack loud when the fever rips
nails slice deep in a sacred spin
blood and sweat where the breath kicks in
crash to the floor with a grind and shout
tongues don’t wait when the light burns out
fuck like fire and never stop
you shake, I break, we claw and drop

your breath spills warm across my chest
our ghosts still gasping in the air
my arms wrap tight, I pull you in
hands won’t loosen, don’t let it end

Kiss me slow until it hurts to breathe
my arms wrap close, you sink into me
our fingers lock where the tension clings
you hum my name like it still stings
your thigh draped warm across my skin
we don’t move, afraid to give in
I want you more than I admit

you leave the room, the ache remains
perfume soaked in what’s been stained
my tongue still tastes your silence clean
hail to my fucking dopamine saint

Dopamine Saint

What I Carry in the Quiet

I fuck things up for no reason
change life up each change of the seasons
and I'll find love
though I don't need it
follow my gut because all my heart was never enough

I don't wanna give up
but I don't wanna go on this way
I don't wanna break hearts or shame
I'll take blame for not playing those games
hit me when I come up
'cause I'll talk when life is made
I need meaning, show me worth
give me purpose here on earth
and life isn't so scary
grind till I get buried
I'll change up just to change up
good change, bad change
life gotta vary
I don't care where I go
I care where I call home
but this page I can't stop staring
what words, what notes might carry

I fuck things up for no reason
change life up each change of the seasons
and I'll find love
though I don't need it
follow my gut because all my heart was never enough

'cause I fall from grace, I'm my own worst enemy
'cause I fall from grace...
it's a choice
it's only me

I fuck things up for no reason
change life up each change of the seasons
and I'll find love
though I don't need it
follow my gut because all my heart was never enough

Enemy (prod. blade901)

Check out my homie https://soundcloud.com/sepha-joey
His new album bangs <3

Rivilin
--
change up where did I go wrong I just
messed up sinking all day long I’m just
sick of being used all wrong I'm just
watching myself waste all away

change up where did I go wrong I just
messed up in my brain so long I can’t
feel much anymore I’m gone Im just
watching everyone leave me again

I can feel the presence between your in the distance just watching
stuck in the space of the walls where depression left you hungry
grabbing on my mental state those drugs did no good they take
the emotions out of my best friend left him hollow inside

cus I see you dancing between
memories of us on lean
one thing leads to another yeah I see you fitting on the couch over there
eyes fluttering, hands in a fist I didn’t wish for all of this

ring around the rosy, down here it’s so lonely 
I can feel the cold biting my neck every time I picture you
twinkle twinkle, little star I never made it that far
I see mental illness has defined me through the eyes of you

when did I ever learn to quit
I’m sorry I can’t be there
when did you learn to not exist
I feel like this is my fault

--
Sepha
--

Things were Lookin hopeful
Now they’re paralysed 
those slopes I was to climb 
now exist to demise 
Things were lookin hopeful
Now they’re paralysed
Paralysed
Paralysed
Things were lookin hopeful
Now they’re paralysed
Paralysed
Paralysed

On the view from the side 
Recline in my back seat
the streets flutter by 
I’m on the 
On the view from a height 
Isolated lonely street
The birds runnin wild
I’m on the

Scared by the shadows
scared by the light
Scared of your movements
consume in spite 
Scared by the news they say
Scared that you’d run away 
Scared that you’d run away