any song b murph hops on makes it way better

knock X3! w/shlimeboyy (prod sneezii)

listen on spotify plz

u did dis 2 mee (dercept & jolst)

somebody else's problem (p. sergiuuu)

https://soundcloud.com/x1fern
support fernn! <3

losing service ft. fernn (5head x taurs)

bi polar w/ hayd333n (dercept)

tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow </3

this song was absolutely horrific to mix, but im glad it came out alright so i can re-publish it with the world once more :)

thank you @itschrismarek for sending this beat thru, cheers to more bangers in the near future <3

lyrics:

every time we talk tryna figure out the problem
then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

yeah you left me in the cold and it’s difficult to process
that you left me all alone and i’m flooded in your nonsense
i’ll be better off alone you just loved me for the concept
i’ll be better off alone you just loved me for the concept

now i’m always harming
now i’m always harming
i just wanna be alone yeah you left me in the cold 
i’m not picking up the phone cuz you won’t be calling

(now i feel so hollow)
(tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow)
(i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows)
(i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows)

every time we talk tryna figure out the problem
then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow
i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

now i feel so hollow
tryna put up with your shit was a pill i had to swallow
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 
i can never trust a bitch cuz they put me in my sorrows 

(every time we talk tryna figure out the problem)
(then you take me off your phone kinda difficult to solve em)
(i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow)
(i don’t wanna make it home i don’t wanna live tomorrow)


if ur still reading this ily :)

all plats

sorrows [prod. chrismarek]

from earlier dis year but iss cool still despite the fact my age is wrong in da lyrics lmao 

ft: @bmurphxo

socials:
twt: twitter.com/whywewish
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prod: datboineco

on all plats soon! :)

~lyrics~

break hearts, thats what i do 
but everything that u put out comes back to u 
and i, been wishin i was different lately
this lack of love is gonna drive me crazy 
late nights, even later mornings 
the things i love have all got so boring
and i dont know how i can fix that 
real smiles in old pictures, i miss that

yea i changed, i guess for the worst
19 years, tryna get out the dirt 
yea n i aint got much left 
anxiety kills, i feel the pain in every breath
i had to hop off of the net cuz i was actin up 
i got smoke for anyone no idgaf
i aint worried bout my future, i dont see one 
whats another night? ugh, ima be one
i reach out and no ones there 
late nights, never been so scared 
i fuckin hate this edgy shit yea i swear 
but i gotta get it out or ima rip out my hair
i got blood on my shirt again 
i scraped my face on the dirt again 
i been thinkin bout love a lot lately 
but i dont wanna feel this hurt again 

break hearts, thats what i do 
but everything that u put out comes back to u 
and i, been wishin i was different lately
this lack of love is gonna drive me crazy 
late nights, even later mornings 
the things i love have all got so boring
and i dont know how i can fix that 
real smiles in old pictures, i miss that

bmurph:
18 years im still ivin the same ol shit
18 years im still in love wit the same ol chick 
18 years i got so old so god damn quick
try to turn back the clock, back to when i was just a kid 
i aint have to worry about all the pain i got now
all these fuckin hardships, im goin down the same route 
yeah, pop some more pills until i pass out 
tell me where the plug at, im about to fuckin lash out
god damn my life has turned to shit, ever since i was a kid
i was just lookin through our pics, where the fuck did u go? 
yea u left me all alone, i was just on my phone, where the fuck did we go wrong? 

break hearts, thats what i do 
but everything that u put out comes back to u 
and i, been wishin i was different lately
this lack of love is gonna drive me crazy 
late nights, even later mornings 
the things i love have all got so boring
and i dont know how i can fix that 
real smiles in old pictures, i miss that

spotify

i miss that w/ bmurph

long story short, i got my ass kicked 
Beat prod by: king theta 
Written and performed by: popularreject
Lyrics:

<hook>
1,2,3,4
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 
<post chorus>
Can’t wake up 
Won’t wake up 
I think it’s my time 
Don’t pinch me 
Don’t say none 
I think it’s my time 
<verse1>
Lifes just a “kick in the ass”
I got my ass kicked
And life kicked it pretty bad
But that shit just happens 

And that makes me pretty mad 
But fuck it 
I don’t know why 
I rely 
On a substance 
I don’t know why
I even try
For nothin’

Break me baby
Chained up 
Please just take me
Drive me crazy
I’ve been 
So damn wasted 

But guess what…
<hook>
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 

<bridge>

<hook>
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired 

<verse2>
They hate when I flow
On beats 
That sound like these 
I can’t wake up 
So I’m loathing sleep
I find my peace 
In pieces 
Torn to bits 
And riddled 
With diseases 
Ball my fist 
Take all my shit 
And leave it 
Leave it 
Seem to be
An enemy
Of reason 
Reason
Don’t know why
I always feel
Defeated 
<hook>
1,2,3,4
Somethings got me holding on
A little tighter 
Stabbed my back 
But it’s all alright cuz 
Momma raised a fighter 
Pathological lie 
Denier 

Guess I’ll start the fire 
12 feet up
I forgot the lighter 
Burning down the spire 
Tie my guts 
Leave me undesired

long story short, i got my ass kicked (prod. king theta)

produced by xmichaelwarren
engineered by marcdoesmusic
i needed this 1

LYRICS:

I'm broken down and every day repeats again
And I don't know how I'm getting over this

1 step back and 2 steps forward
I'll be fine when I get older
Breathe that breath til it's all over
Break that chip that's on my shoulder

1 step back and 2 more forward
I'll be fine when I get sober
Sometimes you just don't get closure
1 more step just gets you closer

1 step, take one more
Tryna heal but I can't when I'm bored
Take more shots til I'm hugging the floor
Yak in the bathroom back for more

But it's much worse when I'm driving home
Cuz the songs can't quiet my brain no more
Think bout everything I could've done,
And I should've done, and that's never fun

Someone take these thoughts away from me
I wake up screaming tryna breathe
Heart beat racing I can't sleep

And it might take 100 sleepless nights
But someday I'll wake up just fine
I'll finally open up my eyes
And feel the sun come through my blinds

I've had, time to realize
Time keeps passing
I'll get past this

1 step back and 2 steps forward
I'll be fine when I get older
Breathe that breath til it's all over
Break that chip that's on my shoulder

1 step back and 2 more forward
I'll be fine when I get sober
Sometimes you just don't get closure
1 more step just gets you closer

1step (prod. xmichaelwarren)

mixed by me
mastered by Ally Holloway
produced by metlast
artwork by my gf <3

constantly looking towards the sky
and wondering why i’m even alive
i can never begin to fathom
why i was even put here on this earth
was it just suffer?
beyond what i could imagine?..
i’ll let gravity, grab me by the feet
to pull me 6ft deep

(oh underneath 
their decaying bodies still haunt me)

dragging me under the ground
slowly suffocating so i can’t make a sound
it seems i’ve found a new home
with the ghost around im less alone
hoping i could find a better way
to rid the world of my lunacy
looking for any opportunity
to fade away and ameliorate this world…

of me
so cold
and empty

so i solidified the thoughts inside my head
the thoughts that were telling me i’m better off dead
no matter what you said to me
6ft deep is where i fended up being
so as the light from the tunnel grew darker and darker 
my mind grew further and further away
you should’ve stayed stayed with me 
but you left my body alone to decay

(you left me alone
traversing the unknown)

i miss that w/ bmurph

whywewish

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