coprod https://soundcloud.com/acuzi10 thanks goat

lyrics:
i left my home in heartbeat, you know that i’d do it again
yeah, i lost my heart, i lost my face, i lost my friend
don’t take my ribs to get to my chest
i got time i wanna invest
please don’t talk while im taking my test

i miss my fucking life back then
i don’t think i would mind back then
i don’t lose track of the time on there
rewrote my fucking life, now im going solo
i miss my fucking life back then
i don’t think i would mind back then
i don’t lose track of the time on there
rewrote my fucking life, now im going solo

say that you with me for life
you were by my side
through all of the shit we tried
would you shut out the shifty eyes?
i-i’ll miss life whenever i die
but in the meantime
simple things gon pass me by
like symbolism in every stride
walked that path with a heavy heart
we didn’t mean shit from the start
put my story in a bottle then capped it
left me alone in the water stranded
hoping i hit that cap
hoping that rip wouldn’t pull me back
hoping that house wouldn’t burn down [to] ash
hoping that house wouldn’t burn down [to] ash
think that i want a lil bit of some cash
don’t move by scene bitch, i move by act
won’t sign shit, don’t confuse contracts
i just wanna close up gaps
between me and who i idolise
in class for a minute, my brain got fried
don’t put your foot on the shit thats mine

heartbeat

i made this in 3 hours so it may be rough my bad
guitar sample from @hennanbeats on tiktok
cover is @eriszoi on ig

lyrics:
i told myself when i changed my name
im never looking back
i hate the way that you look at me
when you leave me on the tracks

day of, day after

cover is @eriszoi on ig
https://soundcloud.com/any1else

lyrics:

[chorus - willandra]
am i shit? i know, of course
yeah you know the clock is ticking like mario 64
thought you threw me in the trash, what you need me back for?
i got deep pockets, what you think this bag for?
i got no money im not capping bout that bag talk
if i told you something, bitch than you better not back talk
free cash in his back pocket, thats from surveys
but i dont really think that i cared in the first place

[willandra's verse]
i dont think that i cared
and i dont give a singular fuck if you think i should cut my hair
(are you troubled?)
only troubled if i wanna post a money spread
these bitches think im funny, they dont want me
they just want my head
both ways, yeah that could go both ways
staying bottled, my emotions having snow days
bragging about the money, you’re exploiting, im like “ok”
they said “you want a buzz cut for a k?”
im like uh-uh bitch, no way

[any1else's verse]
and i heard what you said about me baby
and i'd never run away
you call me crazy
no i don't wanna lie
i hide the pain from my eyes
and i don't wanna die
creep around in the night
i wanna ball up and cry
you continue your life

[chorus - willandra]
am i shit? i know, of course
yeah you know the clock is ticking like mario 64
thought you threw me in the trash, what you need me back for?
i got deep pockets, what you think this bag for?
i got no money im not capping bout that bag talk
if i told you something, bitch than you better not back talk
free cash in his back pocket, thats from surveys
but i dont really think that i cared in the first place

freecash / i am not cutting my hair (ft. any1else) [emogirl8519 + kara]

https://soundcloud.com/any1else in the goat conversation??
i might do lyrics eventually but this song is pretty legible

i got like three dollars 😁 (w/ any1else) [elxnce + kurai + vinso]

produced by https://soundcloud.com/kuriyai443, codyne, and dami4k

lyrics:
shit, i've been a liar and a fake
i don't wanna talk to you, i'm just counting up these days
i don't feel like i belong with you, i feel like you hate me
and i'm boutta fail my classes
cause i'm spending all day daydreaming

cause you don't think of me as a person
sit alone in my room as my condition worsens
having bags under my eyebags is the only thing thats certain
so i'm talking to a mic while my life has no purpose

cause i don't see greatness coming my way
i'll slam my head into the mirror and have the shards ruin my face
to give me one more fucking reason to put the mask on today
cause i'm so sick of everything
i've got no air left in my wings so i'm gone

i don't think i'm coming home soon
i remember the days sitting on trains playing sudoku
and i don't think you have a clue what i go through
and i don't keep my head above the ground because you told me to

shit, i've been a liar and a fake
i don't wanna talk to you, i'm just counting up these days
i don't feel like i belong with you, i feel like you hate me
and i'm boutta fail my classes
cause i'm spending all day daydreaming

cause you don't think of me as a person
sit alone in my room as my condition worsens
having bags under my eyebags is the only thing thats certain
so i'm talking to a mic while my life has no purpose

(at all)
(at all)

daydreaming

produced by bonergang representatives xpciel and reijiro 🙏🙏🙏

https://soundcloud.com/stag08
https://soundcloud.com/any1else
https://soundcloud.com/xpciel
https://soundcloud.com/reijiroprod

borzoi on the cover is lapsha (@loopsnoot)

blood splatter w/ john##howard, any1else

venturing cover
https://soundcloud.com/02_26_2001/david-ortiz-pillbox

david ortiz pillbox

lyrics:
talk about an emotional summit
and talk about our lives feeling rigid
it's all, it's all about your money
it never was about me, was it?
(it's not like i miss you, it's just)
(it's not like i miss you anymore)

you don't say you miss me
i don't say i care
we're not gonna talk
for like a hundred something years
and every time i sleep
another memory disappears
i wish i never threw away the shoes
i miss the crease
it almost feels like part of you
will never really leave
it's almost like my heart
has never belonged on my sleeve
it's almost like my safety
was something that you could keep

something that you could keep

21.2.24

lyrics:
with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

they're looking for you
but they never took the chance just to see me
so i'll watch you too

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

some have said that i'm picture-esque
but if they saw you
you would take their breath
so how does it feel
knowing i don't have the means to take my steps?

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

i almost told my mother i hate you
but it just seems unfair
cause you don't know me like that
hell, you don't know of me at all

with grace, you soar
i watch your left hand 'til it hits me
just what have i come here for?

they're looking for you
but they never took the chance just to see me
so i'll watch you too

soar

cover of kodak moment by Jane Remover

lyrics:
how does it feel to be the front of the line?
(do you feel like home?)
when was the last time you got caught telling lies?
(was it last night?)
i know you hate to see me like this
but winter's uninvited
cause i don't know how to stop the cold from coming in
i kept my coat on 'til the summer and it pissed you off
still don't know what I did wrong so i scrambled to keep it on
when it gets brought up in conversations i just wanna run
but i can't go very fast 'cause i got weights all on my tongue

don't talk if it's not your turn
just to watch the world burn
it's all your fault
don't blame me for what i didn't cause
you got lost chasing time again
it's all right
you got lost chasing time again
it's all right, it's all good

kodak moment

soundcloud exclusive probably i made this as a joke at first

contrast

lyrics:

i'm mad that i want to jump as a reflex
and who am i to live my life with some meaning?
what's a friend, what's a hand to hold mean to you?

i hate that i want to jump out of my skin
all because of what i did
but i wouldn't say regret is the word i would use to describe it
just a hundredth

it's been years since i've felt quite this empty
a true master of stalling
fuck, what did your mental health and love mean to me?

and i pale before questions
do i still deserve friendship?
those who bite are put down, even if they're caged

regret

i forgot to post this
circa february 2024

heartbeat (jersey remix)

put your head down, ruin your life

cover of https://soundcloud.com/any1else
original song: https://soundcloud.com/any1else
https://linktr.ee/any1else

my melatonin stopped working a week ago

lyrics:

that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live forever

i'll kill you again just to live in your head
(and nothing i could say would make it alright)
and hating my guts will just raise your rent
(the guilt keeps me awake 'til sunrise)

that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live, that's how i'll live
that's how i'll live forever

i'm so full of myself is what i think
(that you're still hung up on me is presumptuous)
'cause i am embedded in how i think
(when i lost myself over nothing)

that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live, that's how you live
that's how you live forever

it kills me again and again who i am
i thought i was special i'm just a man

how to live forever

i didn't do enough then
i don't do enough now
on my mind, probably off hers
how many months since it went down?
since everything went stale
i've got no life and don't go out
lie in my bed and see her smile
i look in my eyes and see my doubt
paywall in front of my life
and i'll hate that shit 'til death
can't close my eyes at night
i see blu tack on the wall that's left
though i never plan on dying
i don't like this life's instance
i'd just rather keep on crying
and feel things i shouldn't

i'd rather die than do anything that i don't love
if you hate my guts, i'm like, okay, so fair, so what?
i'm too fucking self-righteous, my reflection makes me sick
get pissed off at little things while i spit blood out in the sink
menial tasks ruin days, i remember this too well
turned my catharsis into art, i can't freely express myself
maybe its an ego trip, i'm by all means living well
do like anything but this? i would rather -

have you ever been paywalled behind your friends?
is this shit all in my head, or are they talking shit again?
can you keep living with me? or can i live with myself?
my life is a normal life, my life is a living hell
it's important not to dwell on facts that do not change
if i was her i would hate my guts, i think that shits gonna stay the same
though i never plan on dying, one day that'll be my fate
verse ends with a realisation, god damn i'm so cliche

i didn't do enough then
i don't do enough now
on my mind, probably off hers
how many months since it went down?
since everything went stale
i've got no life and don't go out
lie in my bed and see her smile
i look in my eyes and see my doubt
paywall in front of my life
and i'll hate that shit 'til death
can't close my eyes at night
i see blu tack on the wall that's left
though i never plan on dying
i don't like this life's instance
i'd just rather keep on crying
and feel things i shouldn't

normal life, living hell

try hard to try to be
somebody to keep close
to want something to leave
to know that isn't home
to keep yourself at bay
from everything you love
to not be one to be

washed out, the ripple is gone
(i don't see anybody else)
work out and die before long
(be just like everybody else)
lost everything i was
(i can't see anybody else)
rebuilt, then re-payed costs
(i've never been more lost)

and when all will re-enter the fray;
pseudonyms turn into names
lies of past turn into truths
stories to be told just stay
reset buttons yearned just poof
"we'll be back another day"
memory/fountain of youth
rewind, sit back, watch it play

and when all will re-enter the fray;
pseudonyms turn into names
lies of past turn into truths
stories to be told just stay
reset buttons yearned just poof
"we'll be back another day"
memory/fountain of youth
rewind, sit back, watch it play

rake me back, kill me again
rake me back, call me again
rake me back, kill me again
rake me back, call me again
rake me back, kill me again
rake me back, call me again
rake me back, kill me again
rake me back, call me again

rake me back (kill me again)

iLoveLASERS

i'll burn a hole in my head with a friction burn
(oh, please come save me from myself, i'm so hyperbolic)
i will bleed out on my desk, if it makes me learn
(and he weaponizes me, only to be so much more)
it swells inside of me, my wrists will follow suit
(i'm doing what i love the most, and it still makes me pissed)
so i'll burn a hole in my head with a friction burn

(anxious dug nails dig the crease in my palms)

(i know that)
i said things were always this way, but i'm lying again
(it's a built in part of me, i am a drama queen)
i quit what i love all the time and blame it on my friends
(it's a built in part of me, i am a drama queen)
there's a prize outside my head [that] envy and wrath are trying to earn
(it's a built in part of me, i am a drama queen)
so i'll burn a hole in my head with a friction burn

friction burn

she day-drinks until she hits me, i'm seeing stars
"enjoy the pyrotechnics"
and there's only a reason to want her gone
don't love the life i'm left with
replaying every time i should have had fun
she left me swollen and dented
when i look in her eyes, i turn into someone i'm not

would you tighten the leash on my neck?
i'll pray it makes a difference this time
will you hold me tight?
it doesn't end if i turn it off
would you brighten my eyes just this once?
i'll say nothing my mother won't like
say it'll be fine
when she hits me until i'm seeing stars

when she talks like she's me, i forget myself
with too easy an entrance
can't tell which one of us it is i want dead
are we interconnected?
would a guillotine or my palms brick my brain
in a quicker time?
and i don't want this life
if she's my legacy the day i'm gone

would you tighten the leash on my neck?
i'll pray it makes a difference this time
will you hold me tight?
it doesn't end if i turn it off
would you brighten my eyes just this once?
i'll say nothing my mother won't like
say it'll be fine
when she hits me until i'm seeing stars

seeing stars

my submission for cut2static song wars

lyrics:

heartbreak saturday morning night
inquires, injuries, i'll be alright
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they prophesied over me, i'll be alright

the first in too long, went outside
a mirror, i wanted to throw up in fire
every part me was so loud (except)
my desire to scream, unexpressed in the quiet

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

newsflash, something don't sit right
i meant not to be overt, i promise i tried
outlaws like me said "such is life"
they sculpted me into something i despise

the first in too long, went outside
watched myself and the last half year fall in real time
i think i would rather die than watch you lock
falling apart at a life that could have been mine

couldn't even spare one day for every month
couldn't even spare 2 weeks but i'm still fucked
i was never upset at you, and i'm still not
it was always "i never could live with you gone"
and now i can't think straight when you're up
and now i can't fucking sleep at all
a pathetic shell of who i was
of a man that did nothing for you
i'll die a man that did nothing for you

outlaw

guitar sample from key vs. locket's song "mundo"
https://soundcloud.com/keyvslocket/mundo

lyrics

i live a humble life, know i'm nothing and that's that
she's gonna think about me and then barf, i'm still trapped
pathetic, apathetic, i would rather be the latter
i never needed so much fucking time on anything
though i got nothing but it, i still got no time to dream
and anything i worked for, did it ever fucking matter?

and everything i made, i made with her in mind
i'm remembering a pact, we would rather fucking die
why the fuck am i still bitching over my own fucking lie?
i'm nostalgic over every little thing
i've still got your art, i've still got your star hairpins
it's just getting hard, it's just getting hard to live my life

i go back and forth with myself in retorts
gotta break your fucking records on wii sports
meanwhile running through a thousand fucking thoughts at 275 knots
there's a hundred thousand things that i don't know
i thought i was more than just a fucking man, but i'm not
i thought i was more than just a fucking man, but i'm not

the guilt that sits inside me wrote one hundred songs
i thought i'd never want you back, i still don't but there's a thought
eighteen months watering flowers that would never fucking bloom
i'm nostalgic over every little thing
i've still got your art, i've still got your star hairpins
it's just getting hard to not spend all day thinking of you

star hairpins

introspective demo

lyrics:

remnants of sparks i lost years ago the day i fell in love
i just need something to hang on, a fuck you is good enough
swear i need a girl to tell me i'm okay and that i'm loved
my friend asked my intent and i lied to his face while i crossed my heart

now i see what it meant, all the thoughts in her head
it felt so good being objectified
it felt so good to fake being all that she'd take
now i'm mourning something that was never mine
i could plan it for years, all the things i should hear
but if its not quite her then it's never mind
every song that i write, everything in my life
pales in front of the mountain i'll never climb

crossed my heart

venturing cover
https://soundcloud.com/02_26_2001/crowd-control-no-control

no control

venturing cover
https://soundcloud.com/02_26_2001/vulture-city

vulture city

soundcloud.com/stag08
https://soundcloud.com/gwencolocasia

regulars (w/ john howard + gwencolocasia)

samples "Aberdeen Dream Sequence" by venturing.
https://soundcloud.com/02_26_2001/aberdeen-dream-sequence

lyrics:
i can't make no music how i feel;
i forgot everything that i once knew
don't think about it too much
slam your table if you do
and if you hate the things you love
how can you say that you're true?
bitch i'm finally at the point
everything, it hurts
try to live my life myself
fuck it up and make it worse
i got everything i wanted
and i'm sleeping while it's here
i got an angel and a devil
and a shepherd in my ear

chop-shop bound if i was a robot
like some people think
it's like i've never made shit before
i'm forgetting the simple things
can't even do this
my dream sequence is a tragedy
and i can't figure out
how to make a song like aberdeen
i think i've gotta figure out
how to make a song like me
non-stop reminders of who's leaving me in the dust
each time that i breathe
and if the music is a penny's worth
i don't think i'm even in that ring
don't get too greedy or you might get hurt
you might get everything
tough ass sample so the beat rocks
can't make shit, but you still wanna be me
you hated my guts, and that's how we're gonna leave it on
bitch, i'll talk my shit until i'm dead
i only make good music in my head
from scratch until my forehead is red
and when i make beats, it's like fucking [up] a skill check
i'm walking with like 20 dollars bumping venturing
the wolfhound's on the aux
if it don't bump, don't let it spin
just spend two hours on a blank screen
i can not make a thing
my catharsis don't do shit

'cause i can't make no music how i feel;
i forgot everything that i once knew
don't think about it too much
slam your table if you do
and if you hate the things you love
how can you say that you're true?
bitch i'm finally at the point
everything, it hurts
try to live my life myself
fuck it up and make it worse
i got everything i wanted
and i'm sleeping while it's here
i got an angel and a devil
and a shepherd in my ear

aberdeen

in light of current events

lyrics:

i'm sorry that you didn't know much
just know that i tried so hard to keep it up
i'm sorry that i lead you on
but i'm not a target to fall in love (with)

because i'm a secretkeeper
i'm a secretkeeper
and i coulda kept a leash with you
as a secret

i knew it's better
not to keep you in my pocket so i
i never dared to try to use you
and though i know i'm right
every time i think about it im the villain
when all i did was try
i'll say its alright

because i'm a secretkeeper
i'm a secretkeeper
and i coulda kept a leash with you
as a secret

secretkeeper

recycle thoughts until they’re left for dead
i was thinking of you and nearly left my friends that night to grieve
which is weird since i’ve had not a heavy head
a liar speaks in my place upstairs
“you meant nothing to me”
i beat

i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her

i try to think about the reasons
that i know all too well by now
it all makes sense upstairs 'til i try to phrase
in a way i can speak out loud
i tried to let you down
in the easiest way that i knew how
i’ve never been a weeping man
what do i do now?

i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her
i beat a dead horse
i beat it ‘til i can’t miss her

until i can't

19 y/o producer and artist
https://soundcloud.com/pokerfacemafia

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