Loser (demo)

computer shy (demo)

I can't do, what I want to
And you're so rude, I hate high school
Push me around, and you'll have a frown
You let me down, I'll let you-
Yeah I'll let you down

Silent rooms, looking for you
You can't move, too fucked up to
I'm alone, drug approved
Vow for death, say that I do

200 miles per hour now
I think I'll end up dead and clowned
Picked a bad build, and screwed myself
Picked a bad build, and screwed myself

Silent rooms, looking for you
You can't move, too fucked up to
I'm alone, drug approved
Vow for death, say that I do
Silent rooms, looking for you
You can't move, too fucked up to
I'm alone, drug approved
Vow for death, say that I do

drug approved!!

XO WILLOW - I Think Its All My Fault Feat Belowground

7.17.23 the person i wrote this song about left last night

waking up here again
above all you said we'd be here together
but nothing lasts forever
yeah nothing lasts forever
stuck inside this game of yours
constantly worried that ur bored
bored of me my texts are green
i texted u so patiently
please tell me is it worth it
take oxy my stomachs hurting
throw up outside the curtains
wish i still knew for certain
sweet release
you got me down on my knees
ill do whatever you need

hook

Forever

he first sunrays in the morning i see
are shining thru my half closed blinds
and they end up on my face
another day
i have to live with myself
life starts going kinda fast
once you hit a certain age theres no going back
all those things of youth that you have missed
youre old and jelaous and full of shit
my potential is wasted and my life is over
dont look at my face dont come closer
i dont wanna be your friend and my time is getting shorter
i see only one way out to end this torture
all those memes all those years
all these pointless things
they shaped your whole identity
all your screams all your fears
you cant explain it its too deep
not like anyone is listening
and youre drowning but youre not making a sound
you dont care if they save you or if they leave you to die
im just like you
pair of fools
ones and zeros on the screen
waking up
clocking in
let it all begin again
my potential is wasted and my life is over
dont look at my face dont come closer
i dont wanna be your friend and my time is getting shorter
i see only one way out to end this torture

my potential is wasted and my life is over

prod me

lyrics:

on my pc all my time
i just wanna make her mine
im just waiting for the second
that shes goes online

hope she doesnt think im obsessed
ima try my very best
but i dont think i can hold it 
i wanna cut open her chest <333

i love
i love you
why wont
you say it too?

she said "are you crazy?"
idk maybe :3
i just killed ur boyfriend
so we can start dating

idk why shes running
but its okay cause i love chasing
idk why shes still crying
cause you still have me baby

i love
i love you
why wont
you say it too?

im obsessed w my internet girlfriend

lyrics:

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

FUCK MY LIFEEEEE
FUCK MY LIIIIIIIFEEEE
IM SO DOOOOOONE
 i said FUCK MY LIIIIFEEEE

im a mess
im a wreck
i am fucked up in the head
growing up
growing old
the mental problems wont go away
fuck you say
that you can just grow out of it
you stupid bitch
i swear i will die like this!!!

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me

my parents didnt know any better than i do
but they somehow made it work
threw me into this world

i guess i was always weird
i used to bully fat kids
then i got bullied
for being too skinny

karma is always right
i deserve what i got
i shouldnt be upset
but its not making sense

i guess im just meant to die alone
(thats true)
i guess i can never be loved
(fuck you)

bless me
its all for nothing
im gonna fuck it all up
fuck up my life and for what

fuck me
im disgusting
wanna give every person a nickel
just for looking at me x2

im not that important to god
to be cursed
but theres some ppl like me oh ya
in the world
ppl who will always be alone
will die alone
even with so much love
inside them
ppl who are just observing
the world
i guess thats just how it works

Bless Me

lyrics

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?

monday again
just another week
cant do this anymore
im to weak
im going inside of the bathroom just so i can eat
cause when they see me all alone they wanna bully me

everything cools down when im in my bed
in a place called home where i can rest my head
but this cycle just repeats itself over again
if nothing ever changes i might end up dead

why does everyone around me feel okay?
why am i getting even worse everyday?
why does everyone i talk to seem so fake?
and why is it so hard to make somebody stay?
x2

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