Producer Credits : Andy Sorenson & whxami

save yourself

Take your time this is all my fault
I’ll be alright living as a ghost
Subside, locking eyes just to ease my woes
I’ll never be alright this is all my fault
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
Watch you rip my skin just to see my blood
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
I’ll never be alright but that’s just fine 
Take your time this is all my fault
I’ll be alright living as a ghost
Subside, locking eyes just to ease my woes
I’ll never be alright this is all my fault
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
Watch you rip my skin just to see my blood
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
I’ll never be alright but that’s just fine 

I know baby is the time in there’s a place
But the void that I’ve been feeling hasn’t ever been replaced
For the past few months, I’ve been staring at the ceiling hoping you would fall in love
But the pain is too much, reminiscing in my feelings it’s the memories of us
Tell me you love me tell me you need me tell me you care
Show me you love me, you’ll never leave me you always care 

Take your time this is all my fault
I’ll be alright living as a ghost
Subside, locking eyes just to ease my woes
I’ll never be alright this is all my fault
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
Watch you rip my skin just to see my blood
On guard what the fuck, girl you fucked me up
I’ll never be alright but that’s just fine

This Is All My Fault

This is all my fault (prod. Sorrow Bringer)

Artwork and visuals animated by BY HUGO / @hugo.psd 
Visual Lyric Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OKrgc2vhL5Q
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lNbj2o31NLo
Lyrics: https://genius.com/Chris-rain-city-of-the-dead-lyrics

City Of the Dead

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CITY OF THE DEAD (Prod. Mantra)

A Thousand Hearts (feat. s0cliché)

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
in another life
can we meet?
i've been thinkin' of suicide
by any means
and i don't really wanna die
just want relief
i’ll see you on the other side
i'm sorry

and i don’t wanna fake it anymore
my secrets
leave my body laying on the floor
all seasons
burnin as the liquor runs its course
i need it
burning any weed from any source
While breathing

so just let me die
i've been alone
like all of my life
now i gotta go
it’s been quite a ride
shit i don't know
if i’ll be alright
when i end the show
so just let me die
i've been alone
like all of my life
now i gotta go
it’s been quite a ride
shit i don't know
if i’ll be alright
when i end the show

and i don’t wanna fake it anymore
my secrets
leave my body laying on the floor
all seasons
burnin as the liquor runs its course
i need it
burning any weed from any source
While breathing

in another life
can we meet?
i've been thinkin' of suicide
by any means
and i don't really wanna die
just want relief
i’ll see you on the other side
i'm sorry

and i don’t wanna fake it anymore
my secrets
leave my body laying on the floor
all seasons
burnin as the liquor runs its course
i need it
burning any weed from any source
While breathing

so just let me die
i been through a lot
i hate this disguise
i counter with pot
i find i'm alive
but not for too long
i felt i abide
but i deal with the law

in another life
can we meet?
i've been thinkin' of suicide
by any means
and i don't really wanna die
just want relief
i’ll see you on the other side
i'm sorry

and i don’t wanna fake it anymore
my secrets
leave my body laying on the floor
all seasons
burnin as the liquor runs its course
i need it
burning any weed from any source
while breathing

Secrets (prod. justletmedie)

Milli(prod.tenshixgod)

art - @riley-rand
prod. - @fiftysix000

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Speeding highway for my blight
There’s just no way to excite

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Thought that you would be my wife
I writhe away, and feel the spike

While I know the moments placed
Never know if it's the space
Kicked me down and left with haste
Picked up new like its a race

Can I get more weed, garçon?
Maybe some dom perignon
Waste my time in space, Elon
No one ever knows what’s wrong

That’s my greatest fear
I run with no one there
Lost without you here
Said you’d love me, insincere

There’s no one who cares
I’m beyond repair
I miss your stare
Endless despair

Need some food or I'll probably die soon
Sadness showers raining down like a typhoon
McCree ult hitting, coming in at high noon
I run the shit, yeah, they call me zoo tycoon

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Speeding highway for my blight
There’s just no way to excite

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Thought that you would be my wife
I writhe away, and feel the spike

Flower petals fall to floor
Seeking who I am some more
No one knows, I don't for sure
Painted me as wall decor, I’m sore

Broken beyond repair
Choking, smoking with no one there
You’re gone now, where you’d sit, and now I stare
Forgot when two together one heart shared

Seeping sorrow and depression
Baby girl was my obsession
Let that teach you all a lesson
Do not follow your heart guessin’

Listen to your mind
It will do you well in time
Do not stop hitting the grind
Rise above and make the climb

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Speeding highway for my blight
There’s just no way to excite

Always hope even in furthest height
Hate myself, but try my best despite
Thought that you would be my wife
I writhe away, and feel the spike

music video

hope (prod. fiftysix x lil heartbreak)

i'm not suicidal, ur suicidal!

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Lyrics:

[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse1]
fuckin' hell
Im not well
Trusted you
And then I fell

So afraid
I'm awake
Friends' like who?
Cause ya'll so fake

I might break
Then remake
Save my heart
From all the ache

Got my blade
I might fade
3 more lines
I wish you stayed


I'm so fed, no longer full
On every lie that you pull
Strings from above I'm their fool
Mastermind drowned in the pool 


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

[verse2]
You hate the way I numb my pain
I've hung myself inside your brain
An ornament for severing
The insecurities I'll bring

Bestow upon me gifts in vein
I'd follow you into the rain
But now you've gone and I'm insane
And you're the reason I'm to blame

It's suffocating not knowing where you lie
Awake I'm waiting for all to be made right
It's hard to believe me when I say that I'm alright
I live every day but I don't feel like I'm alive


[hook]
I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

I blame myself for the pain that you've dealt
My friends, you've known exactly how I've felt
So say I've changed but I did it for my health
And those I loved you've went and gone stealth

Health Issues (prod. Bartes)

Prod. MH on the Track

LYRICS
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

I’m not right in my head
feelin' hot with cold sweats
I been dizzy thinkin' bout the same old fuckin' nonsense
I gotta life that I live
I’m leavin' jersey hop in
shits crazy for you and me lately
once again

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

Kisses with your mask on
is not enough
we don’t come around these parts to sober up
Look me in the eye and tell me that you won’t
you’re playin games and we been goin toe to toe
I been livin on the edge now
I’m boutta jump, run it up
Vision red
And I always test my luck
a partner in crime?
I never lose
you think what I’m thinking?
I’m with you, aim for the bushes

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

kisses with your mask on
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

she want to, but she paranoid

I’m not right in my head
feelin' hot with cold sweats
I been dizzy thinkin' bout the same old fuckin' nonsense
I gotta life that I live
I’m leavin' jersey hop in
shit's getting crazy for you and me lately,
once again...

if you wanna dance
I won’t let nobody stop you
girl this ain’t six feet
but now I got you where I want you
really think you need some one like me you can talk to
let me set you free
show you what somebody ought to

kisses with your mask on
I’m not right in my head
this new fashion
new rules that are set
I need action
call me up any day
if you’re asking a little satisfaction

The Social Demo

kisses with your mask on (prod. mh on the track)

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

[verse]
Move on from all the sore
You caused me
Living a life
Built upon all your lies
Built upon all the cries
For you
I got no more love for you
You tried to play me for a fool
We used to call right after school
Until the rising of the moon
Hope we're cool boo
Wrote another song for you
Didn't sleep all night cause you
I was counting just on you
(I was counting just on you, all night)

[hook]
Why you run from me 
Why you make me bleed
Why I'm so confused?
Why you cry for me?
Why you begging me?
And not holding me
Why you treating me like that?
I'm not going to chase your love
I know that won't be enough
Move on, got to be strong
Move on, Move on

Move On [prod. tsurreal x IOF]

everything is produced, written, performed, & mixed by me.

i'm not suicidal, ur suicidal!

Sleepy Head