stream

field notes

another semesters gone and i hardly
guess i'll sequester what i can't rearrange 
it's been a long damn while since a friend had said my name

sill out the corvette clost diptych erased 
roll out the carpet sit latched in a copper cage
i'm in the parking lot and you're still backstage 

i'll be front and center front and center front and center for you
just cus' they said cus' he said doesn't make it less true 
i'm scared to death i'm scared to death i'm to death i'll kill you just by saying hi (2x)

front and center

https://ffm.to/bleith 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

i'll be the first

pronounced "bləith, or blayeth"
_________________________________
guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

maybe i won't miss those white halls and those silos
and your wide eyes

(do you remember me?)

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
and i still wonder how
covered in clovers and i’m six feet
under now five leaves aren't enough
this september i’ll be leaving
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

slipping through the cracks i'm calling it back on you
shadows shifting elisions i'm still in your arms
cosmic collisions it's crumbling falling through
scaffold splitting derisions i'm sealing the hearth

inhaling erosion i'm sinking i'm floating that
solemn corrosion i'll swallow the hope and i'll 
hold onto something and someone will hear the 
implosion aeolian sediments blowing away

one to many times i let myself slide
resin in the hide and it's hopeless
summit through the sides i thought of better ties
brethren tiled the pine on a pulpit
covered in the sines i coveted the lies
nolled up on a lyre a forfeit
lauded once or twice a strath that lead the line
straffed it to your silage and sold it

if you'd just lie awake 
i won't shear no shame

save me 
break me
save me
chain me

all the pain went when you kissed me
but it was back when i woke up
winters always warmer when you're with me
caught a cross to call my own
in the inverted lattice beneath
i was just trying to calm you down
'cause this summer i'll be sixteen 
throw the photos on the ground i should have known
i should have known

guess it's been a long time
i don't even know
nothing left but splintered bones
and broken hope
walking down the road
we grew up on
choking on the roses 
but they're grown and gone

bleith

@loginstrash
@brakence

Fall around
My instincts never kick in tryna calm me down
You can catch me in the wreckage where I'm far too proud
To look you in the eyes where I've lost your smile
(I am using my imagination)
Lost-lost your smile
Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I'm addicted
I could never trust you sincerely
Oh my god I don't think you love me
Be sure you sign your letters with tears please
My head is still abuzz, I breathe, I just hear

Catch me now
Would you bring me back the water if you touched the clouds?
The sunshine couldn't stop me from falling down
Oh Icarus just help me to sleep somehow
And I'll be waiting

Fall down
I had to run it back again
Fade when I cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
Not tryna fall out
(Patience, if I can't hold you, it doesn't mean that we're through)
Fall down
I had to run it back run it back run it back back back back
Cried out
I care for you I care for you
Far out, I have a choice to let you in
And bring the stars out
Think I'll find out who I am

Let go of closure fall into devotion
Flowers in this garden, bees come form an ocean
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Go figure)
(We cry and laugh on the floor)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
(I'm with you)
(You cannot catch me no more)
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
(Where in the world did I go)
Arms out, hold your laughter in
(Where in the world did I go)
Thought cloud made it rain today
(Where in the world did I go)
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage
Shots bounce, call it ricochet
Arms out, hold your laughter in
Thought cloud made it rain today
Clap, bow, I'll just take the stage

Distant
Wings just lifted
Statue fixed here
I never left you
(Athena)
Distant
(And I can't wait another day and stay begging just to go back home)
(And I could never trust you sincerely)
Wings just lifted
(All my friends becoming royalty father help me watch the throne)
(Cause I don't think I thought through it clearly)
Statue fixed here
(Stars kill my anxiety I won't fight this all alone)
(Hold me there in your arms I'm dreaming)
I never-
Burning
Don't let me go

Login:

Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being together ain't about
Being together
Girl I know I'm far
Yeah I know I'm far
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Being ain't about
Be-be-be-be-be

(Being togeth-th-th-th-th-th-)

Athena feat. brakence & login

Watch the music video at youtu.be/2REABpIQ0wI
https://evangeline.info
🔄

Performed by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Produced by Evangeline and Self Discovery
Written by Evangeline, Self Discovery and vai

contains sample from soundcloud.com/vai22/theaters

2/█

Cinemas (ft. Self Discovery)

Its not that hard.

Art shot and edited by me, and finalized by vai5000

lyrics

I claw and I tear me apart
But theres no sign of wear on my skin
I keep calling it some form of art
Yet I still don't know where to begin

Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard

The dealer, they call out my bluff
And prevent me from playing my hand
And although I don't think its enough
I'm too powerless to make a stand

I'll play my part
I'll play my part
I'll play my part (its not that hard)
I'll play my part (its not that hard)

Oh you're hurtin your hurtin your
Hurtin your hurtin your head 
I don't know how you do it just saying you're fine

And you're getting too comfortable
Lying around on your floor with no thoughts in your head
Only tears in your eyes

And I know that I've got no prescription
That will cure any of my deception
And I can't find some kind of prevention
For this turning into some fixation
So I try 
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try it again

Oh no you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it

I admit its not really a problem (but it only serves nothing to you)
Even if you can't look at me right (cause you say what you know isn't true)
I can say that it doesn't affect me (but you think of it everyday)
When you call me the person I was 
But that's all that you see (oh but how did you make it this way)
But I look in the mirror and its not really me (so you try and you try it again)
Its counter-productive cause' I can't the words out (but the cycle it just doesn't end)
And just say what I mean 
Its so tiring

So whats all the point of this trying

And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
No its just me


And its getting too
Getting too
Getting too
Getting too close to the eminent feeling
Like you're gonna die
(but you won't go yet)
(no you won't go yet)
(no you can't go yet)

And now that you are older and
Everything's smaller
Do you start to wonder "where did I go wrong in my life?"

So I lie
Cause I'm fine
No, I'm fine

And I'm so tired
And sick of trying
So why not
So why not


And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
Its still just me

Body

spent the summer of 2022 making this. wrote the original draft in 2021. not much compared to what i can do now, but i figured it was worth putting out since there's a bit of an emotional attachment for me. Represents a different era of my life

yes the export/sidechain is glitched because the file is corrupted and i could fix it by jumping through some technical hoops, but it's been like that for so long i kind of just consider it part of the song

ann j gardner canyon park 2012

what are we talking about?

featuring:
@leastfavorite
@bhproducer
@prodmusa
@wishlane

produced by:
@dossyx
@leastfavorite
@draf2k

anylonger

Written, recorded and produced in Morristown, Tennessee

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Wishlane-cruelty-and-release-lyrics
Streaming: http://ffm.to/crueltyandrelease

Cruelty and release

listen somewhere else

All Bandcamp profits are going to The Trevor Project: https://wishlane.bandcamp.com/track/i-dont-know-how-to-explain-to-you-that-you-should-care-about-other-people

If you want to learn more: https://www.thetrevorproject.org/

Length: 5min, 39sec
Key: A#min
BPM: 47.00

Lyrics: https://genius.com/Wishlane-i-dont-know-how-to-explain-to-you-that-you-should-care-about-other-people-lyrics

https://www.huffpost.com/entry/i-dont-know-how-to-explain-to-you-that-you-should_b_59519811e4b0f078efd98440

Written, recorded and produced in Morristown, Tennessee

I don't know how to explain to you that you should care about other people

All platforms — https://too.fm/ma532yq
Music video — https://youtu.be/BNdcc178iiU
Lyrics — https://genius.com/Wishlane-mindreader-lyrics

Length — 3min, 30sec
Key — Cmaj
BPM — 128.000

Additional drums — @bhproducer
Additional synths — @colecalico
Cover art + music video — https://instagram.com/yeongseo

Written, recorded and produced in Chattanooga, Tennessee
Video + cover art shot in Blairsville, Georgia