in my own collective thoughts hurting rn

featuring @luvwillow
produced by @imxofilo

@imxofilo
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, idc if its all fake
cuz i be at my lowest, i cant handle all this pain
yea it will never ever ever ever feel the same
(x2)

@luvwillow
tell me that u love me
ur love is sweet like honey
girl i think its kinda funny when u try to touch me
ur so toxic im in love
my hearts flying like a dove
do you see that when i cry?
thats how i know ur all mine
cut ur name into my arms
do u wanna see my scars?
baby i'd do anything
cuz baby ur my everything
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, even if its fake

@imxofilo
im so lost in the dark
there is no light
tell me that u love me idc if its a lie
cuz ur the only thing thats keeping me alive
and if ur not here with me, i think i might just die
i wanna disappear but idk what to do
i dont feel alive
the only thing i want is u
ur like a drug to me
i love u endlessly
i might be ending me
it might be recklessly
i feel like i have nobody to go to
everyday i come home crying here to u
darling dont leave me
hold me in ur arms
tell me ur here for me pls dont break my heart

even if it's fake +luvwillow (xofilo)

not it v1

in my head [prod. acey]

@odece #us #toman

last song of 2021 :) thank u all 4 the support and luv. thank u all 4 a great year of growth and all the new beginnings im a part of. happy new years every1.

lyrics:

(victxrw)

like whts my fucking purpose?
all i ever know is all the pills tht i purchase
i know ur fucking hurting
all i wnna do is try 2 make u feel worth it
i dont wnna make u feel so worthless
and every single time i tell u tht ur perfect,
u dont listen so now ur feelings worsen
i stg im not doing it on purpose

thinking bout the past but i know its not my fault,
cause every single time i try 2 talk u would
walk away n leave me here
my heart enwrapped with layers of fear </3
i didnt know wht i was doing...
all these fucking voices in my head telling me 2 do it

u said tht ur done well i think tht im done too
feel like i gotta run but theres nowhere else 2 run 2
u said tht its over yea ig thats fucking done too
dont wanna stretch it out but remember i still got u...

like whts my fucking purpose?
all i ever know is all the pills tht i purchase
i know ur fucking hurting
all i wnna do is try 2 make u feel worth it
i dont wnna make u feel so worthless
and every single time i tell u tht ur perfect,
u dont listen so now ur feelings worsen
i stg im not doing it on purpose...

purpose (odece)

@prodsardonyx

ever since u left me ive been feeling really blue
try to hold back but i keep on running after u
things u never told me i wish that i really knew
ill never know what u were going thru
we both hate the life that were livin
tell me whats on ur mind that ur missin
i can see it in ur eyes u wanna be set free
wanna be set free
but what about me..
idk what u want me to think now
the way u made me feel
got me walkin with my head down
feelings that u showed me
all are in the past now
cant help but pace around
what do u wanna tell me
what is it that ur hiding from me
laughing at me cause i cant see
that im blind to all ur lying
not really sure where to go now
feelin really low im on the road
months ago u told me i was the best how?
not even on ur mind now..

running after you </3 [sardonyx]

@0noahh @magthegod
produced by @ezekiel40

Noahh & Magnus Brandt - OVERNIGHT (Ezekiel)

★never felt better, guess i'll see u never★

[artwork]
myself lol

[producers]
@benjithemachine
@recyclexbin

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/never-felt-better-prod-benji-the-machine-x-recyclebin-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
why you act so sad
guess you fucked up real bad
can't you see that

hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

verse:
they just wanna see me go and fall
a few times
guess they always did when i look back
in hindsight

never wanted anything
more than this
guess it goes to show
which friends are ur closest

if u hate on me
then ur a goofy sorry
you think i wouldnt
hear the shit u talk

ha hardly

why u such a lame bro
u should go outside tho
maybe touch some grass
but its up to you tho

bridge:
you both stay here
while i go up yeah
i dont fuck with goofys
get out of my life quick

while i cop some new clothes
i dont care what the price is

repeat hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

★streaming★

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

@b07gem
@will0wx
@pearlblade

lotta love<3

b07gem + willow.x - wat else can i do  (pearlblade)

prod by me 

I’ve been in my thoughts (( _ _ ))..zzzZZ
I’ve been burning through some Gs
been off a couple meds
but I cannot fall asleep Σ(-᷅_-᷄๑)
I’ve been downing white wine
I just feel like lil peep
don’t know why I try
I just feel like a creep (Ｔ＿Ｔ)

I just wish I felt okay
I’ve been masking with the drugs
I’ve been missing all these days
I’ll look up at the stars
thinking of my mistakes
I just poured up pimp c ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪
up in my soda today

I dropped a xan in black coffee ٩(^‿^)۶
been going off the deep end
I wish someone could stop me
whispers in my ears
they just talk to me softly
can’t do anything （−＿−；）
there’s some marks on my body

I’ve been falling in this darkness
been off the drugs wish I never started (◞‸◟)
I wish the best for every dearly departed
just lost my soul (･_･;
into land that’s uncharted

I can’t even trust
mixing substances up
all I feel is disgust
break down my bones
you can turn me to dust
coping with all my pain
smoking on angel dust (￣^￣)ゞ

I just wish I felt okay
I’ve been masking with the drugs
I’ve been missing all these days
I’ll look up at the stars
thinking of my mistakes
I just poured up pimp c ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪
up in my soda today

I dropped a xan in black coffee ٩(^‿^)۶
been going off the deep end
I wish someone could stop me
whispers in my ears
they just talk to me softly
can’t do anything （−＿−；）
there’s some marks on my body

stop me (mercyyy)

Haunted music for your ears my loves <3

U pushed me down the stairs
I broke my collarbone
I know that you don't care
I never go back home
You love to make scream & Shout..
It’s all you’ve ever known
You grew up under roof
with chaos as your love

U a broken vase
Water's leaking out
Everything will flood
Look at the mess you made
Like omfg
Have u not had enough
Cuz im so close to breaking in your arms I feel so rough ..

Like who are you ?

I'm tryna figure out
are you the one I met?
or the one that screams and shouts?
Like who are you?
I don't know what to do
I cut you fully off and I laugh inside my room .

myspacemark:

Buried in the snow 
Finger tips covered wit frost bite 
Would u believe ur eyes 
If The world lit up with fire flies 
When I had no one else 
You would tell me that’s it’s alright 
Connected to your love 
Connected energy like power lines 

The flowers start to die 
There’s glass and water 
All over the floor
Number nine 
Helmut lang 
On my jeans 
Christian Dior
Butterfly on your skin 
Butterfly all my doors
Gunmetal Vivienne 
Westwood crystal orb

Who Are You w/ myspacemark

sorry, better somgs soon :/
prod me 

>lyrix<

u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u hmu im like enough, wya
u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u turn n look, im gone, i put u in the past

n u can watch me walk away
n i wont let u lead me astray
turn a leaf, turn the page
take the leap 4 my getaway escape
u get the best of me
bby cant u c
ur not the best 4 me
but i cant seem 2 leave
wyd 2 me
ur touch is xtc
wyd 2 me

u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u hmu im like enough, wya
u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u turn n look, im gone, i put u in the past

i cant even sleep cuz i been thinkin bout us n i wanna scream
but i cant feel a single thing, ya im runnin out of steam
cant u lemme b, i cant even breathe
i just want a taste of freedom
ik i gotta go
ik i gotta go

u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u hmu im like enough, wya
u make me feel so bad so bad so bad
u turn n look, im gone, i put u in the past

u make me feel so bad :(

I don't know what else to do with this so imma drop it now for filler lol
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

Digicore kinda sucks now ngl
If part 2 minesweeping

GoingUp +PRXY! & Lumina (kittyflower)

IGBB - https://www.instagram.com/p/C1BCfRYs7JN/?img_index=1

@yobiee

i dont understand a thing tht u dooOooo
r u an enemy prepare to loooOOsseee
he my bro but dat not blood
he my bro he got my blood
sit nd learn cuz u my son
sit nd learn cuz u my ...
oooOOoooUuuuuu

bitches never honest
bitch u nevr cared
bitches nevrr talk 2 me
cuz dey don kno im derr

bt wat was i supposed 2 do?
i wanna talk i cnt get close 2u
in ur handz u hold da truth
shape it anyway u like
i know u wrong
ukno im right
i4got wat dey told m3
dnt giveaf not the old m3
when i fall cld u hold m3?
now tht ur gone im so lonely
all i c is u

bitche$ (pr. yobiee)

prod @pw4prez

(i Startd thinking bout u,
So i Gotta write a Song
Girl, you left me out in the Dust)

Girl, i Wish u were Here, But you're Far away from me
Girl, you're Far too Perfect why Don't you Fucking See
Spent these Last Two Years alone, Nobody wWith me
iThink i need Some help Soon i Struggle to Sleep
it's been Like 2 Years, it's Not getting Bettewr
i'm Making no Progress, i Wish i could Tell Her
Without u, I Don't want Another December
Still HeartBroken over Her, It's Neverending

it Never Ends
bby Come Back
i Miss your Love
i Miss your Laugh
it Never Ends
i'm Always Sad
Maybe one day
You'll just Call me Back
you'll Just call Me Back
and i'll Instantly Come right Back

You'll always Have
(Me)
x4

Girl, i Wish u were Here, But you're Far away from me
Girl, you're Far too Perfect why Don't you Fucking See
Spent these Last Two Years alone, Nobody wWith me
iThink i need Some help Soon i Struggle to Sleep
it's been Like 2 Years, it's Not getting Bettewr
i'm Making no Progress, i Wish i could Tell Her
Without u, I Don't want Another December
Still HeartBroken over Her, It's Neverending

ill Always Love you....
iLove cats Because they Help me WhenIm Lonely

#2yearsAlone 😿 prod Sochi

FXCKD UP ft Spiral Forever

☆spread your wings, just like a fairy!☆

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/adharmasatru

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/fairy-w-adha-prod-uglyzuccnitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
ever since i heard you lost your wings
but still did your best to not give up
to try to face him regardless
i wanted to hold u just like this 

i know how hard it must've been
im proud of you

hook: (scoobert)
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow

bridge:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

verse: (adha)
fairy wings on an angel
when im with the worlds less painful
i feel confident and i am able
to love myself could u make me so grateful

you build me up
and you changed my life
and i fell so hard
i didnt even have to try

years pass, tears fall
waiting for your call
but ur calling me
like every night

i wish that i could find
the words to say to you
although i tried
nothing comes closer than

i love you

repeat hook:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow
--------------------------
happy new year ily <3

★spotify★

★fairy★ w/ adha (prod. uglyzucc)

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running after you </3 [sardonyx]

wolfyy

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