lyrics

every piece of me is saying
word on the streets is you’re not staying
beg on my knees for you to say it
x2
but pleasant grove is all you know and fractured homes with broken family
i can’t tell you where to go
but every road led back to folly

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

iv been throwing up, iv been throwing up all on the pavement 
she’s said it’s so frustrating 
she said i wish you were happier
so now every smile feel like a facelift
now you got tears running down your face 
but you took it all and i gave it
i know it’s not good for my brain 
but i have more fun when im wasted
now i been drinking every night but safely
six months ago this looked so much different 
but word on the street and my mind says you hate me 
that would rip my heart in an instant
last time we had a fight 
i remember what it felt like to cry 
got smoke in my mouth and got tears in my eyes
cuz i don’t want the last time
to be the last time we say goodbye 

yeah every time that we touch base, water works right out my face
just how you found me
four years but i guess who’s counting 
every time that you embrace me
you’re saying “stop it grayson”
wish i had the heart to say
iv been numb for days waiting on the pavement 

sticks and stones tend to break me down
try to grab the wheel but im crashing out
mom and dad don’t like me know
it hurts because they used to be proud
why you never around 
when i’m calling your phone,you’re just putting it down
iv been falling apart on the burial grounds
iv been screaming for help but can’t open my mouth.

folly w/ notahero [king theta]

lyrics 

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

and i claw out my eyes
so i cant see what i’ve done 
and i rip out my throat 
so i cant speak to anyone 
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im starved
oh im
oh im
oh im

what would it take 
for u to listen when i warn you
im in the party bleeding out
in the corner
is it me 
or are the lights shutting off
pls check my wrist so that im truly gone

i never wanted to be your savior 
looking back 
im jus an entertainer for you
centered on you
centered on you
need to matter to u
are you happy now 
happy now 
im bleeding out in front of u
if i could id rip that smile off ur face

if i had a chance id kill u
and id eat ur skin
if i had a choice
id back out
back inside my ritt
i just punched the wall so hard 
i damn near broke my wrist
it gets harder breathing out
with a broken rib

wipe that stupid smile off your face (p. wraithontheporch)

cover of brecken's "sorry company"
it's been stuck in my head for like a month now

stay up lately wait until we grow
changing pages saving where you show
please don't leave me here out in the cold
last i heard you hadn't let me go   

wish i could cover my eyes
spent 5 months wondering why
i let you into my life
and now i gotta redesign
told me we don't have much time
let me look back in your eyes
always had thought you loved me
now i'm just sorry company

wait til i come out from hiding
ill find the brightest star shining
beautiful eyes in any lighting
nothing to find, but tired of fighting

but it made sense when you left me the first time
even on the third time
but that wasn't the worst time 
no that wasn't the worst time

left me on the roadside
never heard from you ever since
wish i never lost my mind
that's really all that i did

sorry company (cover)

Lyrics- 

Why don’t you feed on my flesh 
It’s cool, like please be my guest 
Alleviate my pain and put that knife In My chest 
You wouldn’t be the first but shurly the best 
I can tell by your energy you’re Not like the rest
It’s kinda comforting to know you feel exactly how I do 
In this world full of people my greaf has led me to you 
I was suffering In silence until you stepped in the room 
I guess will go out together an treat this house as a tomb 

Leave me in pieces 
I’ll play the victim 
It’s typical
You’ll be the voice of reason 
just take me out now before I change my mind like I do now every season v

There’s traces of you all across my skin 
What made us believe we’d get away with this 
Signed my fate with a painless kiss 
The punishment at hand was truly worth the Risk 
But u understand I wasn’t more than a fragile little pawn in your plan you’re knocking off of da board just to fall to the floor 
And come back begging for more

Flesh

prod. acey

stalkin me baby ill leave by the morning
you make me scared thers no point in ignoring
you every night, and leaving you afraid
i know that you never wanted it this way
talk to me

ill show you what you mean to me my darling
ill be honest
hold me in your arms

just please
call me back
ill be there
even if you needed some fresh air ill drive to you

ill be there in a second, dont you worry
i know youre hurting

my soul is on your body
my mind is yours, my heart is
attached to you my darling
my life is yours dont worry
oh i love you

happy as can, but girl youre hurting
youre strong i notice

im proud of you my darling
although i cry a lot its just cause i adore you
cant live without you

Oh Lord Jesus
help me and my precious
i trust in you i mean it
my love for her is seamless

just please
call me back
ill be there
even if you needed some fresh air ill drive to you

ill be there in a second, dont you worry
i know youre hurting

call me back

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
(my body's been remote, but i'm all ears)

crush two and i'm in it, he's waking bruised and deflated,
i got this habit of spitting, but all this acid come with it
he's turnt to ash every minute, a song and dance resurrection
you rabbits ripping up carrots, i'm canis lupis incarnate
got sonic booms when i'm barking, converting rooves into starships
this ain't your average invention, it's more than natural selection

thought she was safe up in his head
so he'd removed the padding covering his weakened flesh
but abrupt departure cut the flora thriving on his skin
now cattle's grazing on the flowers bursting through his chest

the green evades from being subject to an open wind
in apprehension of it's fate awaiting overhead
so nature waits in subtle breaks between the pavement
for many moons are to elude at compensation, but still, he's anxious

uncertainty enveloped through subtly of enthrall
but i regulate that haze through a blizzard of getting gone
with remedies for those emmitting vacancy of want
disheartened, hurt, and starving, yet crucial to it all
cast within a marshland, enhardened, enswamped
in emergance of that influence, the arteries are clogged
but the potency that comes with it is rightful in it's wrongs
as doubt within neglect to beauty's sewn within the flaws

so what's the word? you know i'm down for it
as mother earth determines counterfeit
the now dispersed yearns inhabitance
of bird and fern, the worm is blurred

might be universe impairing peers with lightning
a white screen thrown about, a crown ensures the stifling
so often i'm haunted and falter from nonsense,
the world's still revolving, he's not what she wanted
if you were just honest, it'd lessen the starving
this trail led of crumb that you thumb's disembarking
he's all but undone, but is stunned from the heartless
injected was rust, muck, and lust in her harvest

always unheard, speaking my word, they just wanna flirt
better or worse, embracing the curse 'till covered in dirt
wrapping in silk, given the earth, i know it'll hurt
off of the pills, downing that cardi, merlot, for the heal, yea

a forest reprieve from the withering eve of a sun
(like, can i go? are we done here?)
he walks on his teeth and he talks through depictions of scars
(they say you never know what you don't hear)
that fostered relief at the cost of neglection of star
(longevity's enclosed until the soul gears)
he's cosmically sore but apprentice of tethering hearts
my body's been remote, but i'm all ears

bird and fern (dash)

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

every single bone (josiah3)

prod by icantsleeplol & hvci
mixed and mastered by icantsleeplol & hvci

thank u @hvci for helping me with some of the layers to help my vocals more impactful ♡ 

and ofc w/ @xav0id

(i’m experimenting with my vocals and my voice in general to see what it’s capable of. i don’t wanna be limited to one genre. i wanna push past my comfort zone and explore different sounds with my voice)

enjoy:)

lyrics:

@icantsleeplol -
they asked me to smile
so i did
now i can’t tell when i actually mean it

i learned to read the room too well
picked up their moods, and forgot myself
said the lines they’d rather hear
kept my truth in second gear

they liked me better watered down
so i kept my head and voice low-bound
never asked them what they meant
just played the part and paid the rent

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
they never wanted all of me
just the version they could keep clean
so i edited my every thought
to fit inside the mold they bought

@icantsleeplol -
empty tent, the lights still burn
but no one waits for my return
they loved the laugh, not the cost
they clapped so loud, i got lost

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci -
empty tent, applause fades quick
left alone with what won't fix
i give and give, then disappear
while no one even shifts their ear

@icantsleeplol -
i swallowed pride and played polite
convinced myself it felt alright
but every nod, every demand
left another thing i couldn't stand

i tried to slow the spinning down
but silence just became more loud
i gave too much and asked too little
and broke apart right down the middle

@icantsleeplol w/ @hvci
they smiled, so i assumed it worked
but underneath, it always hurt
and though i tried to keep it smooth
the pressure cracked the parts i moved
 
@xav0id -
empty tent, still looks the same
but i don’t walk out how i came
they called it charm, called it grace
but missed the tremble in my face

empty tent, the echo's mean
i’m still stuck on what they’ve seen
if this was love, or just a guess
why did i fall apart to impress?

@icantsleeplol w/ @xav0id
i’ve memorized what pleases them
but not what brings me back again
i dance around their fragile moods
and call it kindness as i lose

they say i’m calm, they say i’m nice
but only when i pay the price
and every time i try to breathe
i wonder what they’d let me keep

@xav0id - 
empty tent, lights flicker slow
no one left to tell me “go”
but i still bow, still play it cool
still scared of not fitting the rule

empty tent, just me and air
i gave too much, and no one cared
the quiet hits a little late...
but louder than the love they faked

i’m still here
they just forgot
and that’s the part
that hurts the most

empty tent w/ xav0id & hvci

lyrics:

Round and round
And round again
Might blink twice and lose a friend
And say things I wish I meant
Well do you even know me at all

Why you tryna grow up so fast
Got your heart all heavy
When I know you would laugh
But you gotta keep it all a matter of fact
Or no one listens, no one listens
Does it feel any better when the sun sets late
Got a couple more hours just to hesitate
Tell everybody you gotta go home
‘Cause we’ve said it all, we’ve thrown it all away

Round and round
And round again
Might blink twice and lose a friend
And say things I wish I meant
Well do you even know me at all
Running, running off again
Through places we never left
Maybe save up a couple cents
Well would you even miss it at all

I don't wanna leave again, ‘cause I've been way too down
And I don't wanna play pretend, that it's not all about you
All the nights we stay up and all the days you've been on my mind
I miss our connection, times I wanna hit up your line
This is the last I swear, let’s get far away, far away from here

Round and round
And round again
Might blink twice and lose a friend
And say things I wish I meant
Well do you even know me at all
Running, running off again
Through places we never left
Maybe save up a couple cents
Well would you even miss it at all

round and round

everything by me

thank you for being here.
take care; as well as you can, as you are

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

cups rest beside the bed that keeps the body tied
a slow end, he'll try again yet something isn't right
it's pouring, as water runs the lungs of flooded eyes
the morning has led the wren to question it's own life

doesn't mean it don't exist if you don't feel it
the bat got me taking flight purging all villians
my whole life all i've known is a cold feeling
gripping vices alike, become the known illest
soul-stealing homes appeal him most
taken of his own and made a host
supplement contrived of what he knows
jeopardized, but it don't seem to show

cycling roads end, dividing unknown land
i'd rather be scarred than left deep in the heartless
those cursed of sight find contentment in low strides
somehow he's been alright, yeah right, what a bold lie

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you liar

halving days, another broken ballad
dissonance within of what is valid
turn your back against it when you hear it,
cowardice convincing you it's fearless
staring down the mirror will suck you in
i do it just to feel it all again
sensitized of strife yet still indifferent
reconnaissance of his creating distance

(4x)
i know it's gonna hurt but i let it,
i know it's gonna hurt, but i let it as i've been, yeah

what i heard whispered "it is all the same"
and i'm tired, of taking on that weight,
i'm wired and i'm trying to find her
you liar, you lia-

sorry company (cover)

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