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Broken Promises [+ sogimura]

shoutout soundcloud.com/boyfifty

lyrics:
woke up in a sweat last night, fuck my life howd i get so cold
I dont even know what I meant when I told u that, I was so fucked up
livin life like volume cant mute this shit howd it get so low
I dont even know who I am anymore so lemme take yo advice and go

fuck off with my bull shit
were too sick to evolve, a straight neucense
we rly gotta look at love in a new sense
not obsessin over shit fuck ur 2 cents
in the middle of the night straight mental
feelin like shinji what am I supposed to do
I hope u kno that my life dont belong to u
I hope u kno that im fighting for the likes of us

and I wouldnt wanna lie to us
I know ive lied but I learned to trust
so trust me, I dont rly do that anymore trust me
lonely
trapped in the back of my mind help me

or dont, I been like this for years I been gone so long
u see thru it, laugh wit me but u think im stupid
oh no, I kno this feelin like its my home
I hate it, think im fine but im fuckin anxious

I see thru the lies in my vision
tough shit, dont be surprised if im missin
exist in my mind like prison
listenin to the thunder im breakin in
to the place that I knew back then
its nostalgic ill pack it in, and
ill remember how i felt back in december

trust me

spotify

trust me (prod. boyfifty x kndey)

i want to believe you, i never wanted to leave w/ dear me (prod. jolst)

written by Lxst Boy & A Distant Voice
produced by mrmcchickino
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by Cavasoul

-lyrics-
(Chorus: Lxst Boy)
does she remember
the way she made me laugh?
i wanna text her
but i will get nothing back
it's harder than i anticipated
feel my chest collapse
i think i need a break
but i cant relax

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
save me
take control, don't
break me
turn the pencil upside down
erase me
what did i do wrong cause now
she hates me
oh she hates me

(Chorus)

(Verse 2: A Distant Voice)
every note that i would send
was a list of the dreams that i had in my head
but i missed all my chances, i’m feeling regret
now 
i’m 
thinking of how you would smile
you lit up my world
and it would took me a while
to stop feeling red
got my heart rate a hundred and ten
and you’re making it clear
i got nothing to fear
cuz now my end is here
all these letters i wrote to myself
were they meant for me or someone else
did i do something wrong to you 
making me seem like a demon from hell

(Chorus 2x)

S T R E A M

letters2myself w/ A Distant Voice (mrmcchickino)

Lyrics

Feel like all I do is wrong
Never should of wrote that song
Never should of loved that bitch
Never should of made that wish

Never should of heard that voice
Never should of made that choice
I should of just stayed asleep
I don't like what I've learned, I don't like what I see

I don't know what I want, I don't know what I need
Look at what I've become, I can't find any peace
I guess this what I choose, get high from the lows
Nobody knows me outside what I post

You only know what I want you to know
You only feel what I want you feel
You only think what I want you to think
This is my fucking world, I'm the only one real

I can only trust my own perception
I cannot rely on your deception
I can only feel my own affection
You won't ever care how I'm affected

You want something new but I'm defective
All I know is hate, I've got a collection
I can only take my own advice
I might fucking take my own damn life

Bitch can you not hit me up?
I swear you not what I want
I used to might give a fuck
But now I do not, I can't show any love

To anyone not showing me that they care
Every minute they can, I am not just a spare
I'm one of a kind and if you cannot see that
I'll fucking leave and I never will be back, bitch

defective. | Produced by puhf

one day on an empty street in Ohio (feat. Lxst boy)

as the star light fractured through my head
the midnight howls, had me worry am i dead
it was a cloudy  night, and the mist was thick
made me think that nothing really is better than this.


everybody's too in love, too in love
in the morning they all hit me up
honestly im fed up
nothings really worth it all

she kept telling me on stormy nights
i wanna end it all, if this is all thats to my life
the drugs and alcohol is all thats keeping me alive
im sorry lover, you gotta try, try try

fucked in the head
id rather be, alone, inside my bed
never attend, these party's and gatherings, throw up again
i cannot accept
or ever pretend
this life what i wanted, get over it

everybody's too in love, too in love
in the morning they all hit me up
honestly im fed up
nothings really worth it all

im so sick of the wasted nights
ur wasted in my bed, cant get a hold of anything
gotta breath, i gotta catch myself, before i fall for it
ur a faker, making lusty intentions, for the fun, of it

conventionalizations

worth it [+grayskies]

@fleshgolem

(flesh)
i've been sitting with my thoughts
without your company i'm lost
i wish i didn't overthink every part 
of the words that you said in a dream

(TNS)
Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

(flesh)
i hope that i dont mess this up
got so much love to give to ya
sometimes i think i'm not enough
intrusive thoughts can't break me
and so i try to loosen up 
so i don't lose my grip on us
i'm sorry that i've been impatient lately

(TNS)
Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you 

And you’re stuck in my head 
And you’re lost 
In my bed 
While you stare at me get outta my head

Sitting as the cars go by 
Thinking about you and I 

Say that you hate me 
While you degrade me 
I got nothing in my brain to hold onto 
Holding onto nothing but the fear that I haunt you

Sitting As The Cars Go By [+ jasco]

drawn 2 u (flesh)

https://soundcloud.com/heylog

i run away out of fear and out of panic
i dissipate everybody who cause damage
i love it here
i think i can manage
i disappear into trees and into foliage
i walk a path, clear my head for my advantage
no one knows i'm here
no one knows i vanish

walking through mud, all the mire's climbing up my pants
water soaking through my jeans, why is it all swampy land
i'm so getting sick of this, take me to the flower field
i need to lay down and rest
sleeping would be ideal

love

vanish

SPOTIFY

heylog - vanish

feat.
@Sentinel210
@hunterinabush

prod. me

Haunted Grove ft. Sentinel, Hunterinabush

[+] stop talking words are useless.
* featuring @trechorboy + @sushisai * prod by @boyfifty *

IG: www.instagram.com/seejayxo
TW: www.twitter.com/seejayxo
DISCORD: discord.gg/VRcvcdf
LYRICS:

[verse 1: seejayxo]
you could take my love and you could throw it out
got me looking at the stars when you not around
thats why i be jaded, fuck what u be sayin
i ain't even playin when i say that i'm make it
i don't feel anymore, eyes hella sore
i got the bag and it's Christian Dior
i'm callin for you, i'm callin for you

[verse: 2 trechor boy]
gas inhalation took me on vacation 
 i never get love i hate the sensation 
a life worth lived makes no sense 
cuz  we all die in da fuckin end like

lemme paraphrase Thoreau, he said
“rather love, money, faith, show me da road”
and i uh, i guess i understand that now
dont vibe with the lies they be tellin u now

[verse 3: suisai]
stop talking words are useless
can never hold up
What did you expect it 
to be different 
Shouldlt even have to convince
but they all look from outside
Walls could cave in at
Any givin moment
it looks like its the time to
Stop wishin for it to get better
And wash that pain away
Pitter patter of rain on the rooftop
i could lay in this bed all day
  And think And listen and look 4
For a sign pls remind me again
what really matters at the end of all this

[chorus: seejayxo + trechor boy]
like i want it all too
fuck it i'll fall through
i thought i loved you
i thought i loved you
like i want it all too
fuck it you'll fall through
i thought you loved me
i thought you loved me

useless

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useless (feat. trechor boy + suisai)

OUT NOW ON IDLEGLANCE: https://youtu.be/AEaAIisJ3ek

Check Out The Producer:

Soundcloud: @lilghosty00
Youtube: www.youtube.com/channel/UCVj24MJaGwohHDmmbfQ6Frw

Lyrics
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I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my-

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

I don't even know who I think I am
I'm just somebody who I used to know
Leave me alone with a couple of cans
I think I'm better at the side of the road

Spending all my cash on a couple of grams
I'm only high when I ain't feeling low
Back from a show with a handful of bands
Babe do you love me? Don't say no

Don't say no
Don't say no
You're all I have left just please don't go
Don't say no
Don't say no
You're all I have left, please don't-

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my-

Imma make it all the way, I'll be coming for my pay
Grab a slice and grab a plate, you can have what's left behind
See me: Louie on my waist, Gucci dripping in the rain
I ain't fucking with no fakes, but y'all can see me on the rise

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

I got bags, I got drip, I got lean in my sprite
I got cuts, I got scars, I got nothing left to hide
I got coke and xanny bars from the plugs on my line
If you ask me how I'm feeling then I fucking hate my life

I'm awake but I'm tired, looking for a lighter
Shawty call me liar, and I know that she right
Think I'm hanging from a wire, lover not a fighter
Baby I'm a vampire, never see the light

Nothing Left to Hide

iTunes

Nothing Left To Hide [Prod. Lil Ghosty]

SPOTIFY: https://sptfy.com/6Ao6
SOUNDCLOUD: https://soundcloud.com/cairnmusic
APPLE MUSIC: https://music.apple.com/artist/cairn/1534352747
YOUTUBE: https://youtube.com/iamcairn
INSTAGRAM: https://instagram.com/iamcairn
TWITTER: https://twitter.com/iamcairn_

Lyrics:
I honestly tried to fit in
To the life you want to be living
But I could never be enough
And I’ll never be enough
You’d rather throw away your love
Into the heavens above
You tell me that I’m not alone
I got no doubt I’m on my own
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

My picture waits in your closet
As my colours fade, I can’t stop it
Got me blind in thе dark
While I’m searching for the stars
And I’m covеred in dust
Locked up and living with these scars
And if you ever change your mind
Don’t think I’ll ever call you mine
‘Cause you ghost me and throw me away

You tell me you care
But no one is there
I’ve lost it all
I’m up in the air
‘Cause you can’t be there
You’ll watch me fall

drawn 2 u (flesh)

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