self-prod

ibleedicare - https://soundcloud.com/slaughter-tone-records
epitome - https://soundcloud.com/failure404
xipz - https://soundcloud.com/xipz_sad

Encore w/ IBleedicare, epitomeoffailure & lil XipZ

Featuring: @nokerbforever
Written by: Kurama SD & NOKERB
Produced by: jolst & dercept 
Mixed by: JoshIGuess & NOKERB
Mastered by: NOKERB
Artwork by: Kurama SD

[Intro: Kurama SD]
Some days I feel like a ghost
Feel like a ghost 
Going crazy in the back of the class 
I never thought anything 
You said was true 
So what the fuck dude 
True 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Verse: Kurama SD]
I fucked up 
I know I did
At least I didn't hide it 
I'm still a letdown 
I'm still a letdown 

Thought I was cool
But I always lose 
Nobody cares 
Who I am 
(WHO I AM) 

[Chorus: NOKERB]
Cuz i know that she doesn't move on,
Doesn't move on yeah she doesn't do that, 
And she wants to drag me down with her 
Yeah she doesn't go, 
She always looks into one direction 
Is it just her ghost who talks to me?
x2 

[Outro: Kurama SD]
Think I know everything 
But I know nothing 
So I fade away

GHOST w/ NOKERB (Prod. jolst & dercept)

mastered by @wokely
Lyrics:

[chorus] 

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

[verse]

slumped on my desk hoping that somebody wakes me up
this ain’t what u want, but that’s okay I always mess it up
haven’t slept for over 5 hours, in 5 years 
maybe it would be better if i could see clear

i been hurting myself for a while
throwing up every single day before a shower
what a disaster, i feel myself losing all of my power
headaches every day cuz i want music louder

hate going in my living room, cuz everybody thinks i wont be living soon
hate my voice so i try my best to cover it up in autotune
hate myself, i hate to loom, when that’s all i know how to do
i hate the way i think, so i hate my attitude 

[verse 2]

going down i know, that you probably hate me
i don’t blame u either, cuz i also hate me
everything i make is garbage and ez
that’s why nobody likes it lately

i been going crazy, i don’t even want to do this anymore it hurts me
yeah, it hurts me, i don’t even want to do this anymore 
it makes me feel weak 
and i can’t even stand this for one more week

it’s really hurting deep
my soul is not cheap, but right now it might be
i really hate this feeling
so can you take it please, can you take it please

[chorus]

scratching at my dry eyes for the last time
i know, that you despise, when i cry 
so i, try my best to, try my best to lie
so you don’t hate me for the last time

dry i's (killedmyself)

grief

grief ft. Teddyboi (branwen)

Big thanks to @carlby for being on this one. Mixing this was hard, because no matter what I did, everything I did to my mix made it sound worse. It got to a point where I basically just said "screw it, it's never gonna be good enough, I'm gonna drop it just how it is" so I hope you guys enjoy my suffering xD

Like A Forest Fire(Feat. Carlby) | Prod. HeyRick

produced by me and irby
(guitar from irby)
featuring cypression
lyrics:


im fuckin sick of my hometown
i think i wan be alone now
i walk alone when its cold out
i cry alone by your old house
im doing shows and they sold out
i miss ur face but ur gone now
hopin u hear all my songs now
hopin ur where u belong now

drawn out days and fuckin sickness
im the only one on my hitless
everybody around can bare witness
to the way i been living
i bleach my eyes so i cant see the past
im hopin for once that something can last
my bones are shattered like therye fucking glass
im doin fine tho im having a blast







i know you wont care when i say that i miss you 
but i stg its ture 
now hate this town with a passion 
you let me donw and it all fell thru 
idk how u live with yrslef 
i just wish u would rot in hell

i hate this town with a passion 
i should fit but i swear that they laughung 
i keep my head down i hate the attraction 
you left me here and im just getting older 
where was my closure

Hometown (Feat. Cypression)

prod me.
---------------------------
run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

wish away and call me out again
i swear to god, you'll regret this eventually
i cannot tell you what to do!
but ur the boss, and ur cocky its true

set, a break
makin a video to escape, this place
its so fuckin depressing can you wait, a sec
but ur  way to pushy what am i, to say?
ill run away

and hope that i can make some sense of this
ur lacking on ur evidence!
but residentially, i need to find a way
to escape, and live another day!

i didnt ever think this was hard
running through the smoke, and the fog
honestly i just wanna get far
why are you so alarmed

run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

why did you give up!
was hoping that we could be something!
i been so, fed up!
sorry love i know were nothing

knife in the hole!
but that hole is my heart
fallin out love again

i cant understand!
the things i do for minimum wage.
its ridiculous

Kill me and open up again!
IM SORRY YOU DONT GET ME MAN
GET SLAMMED FOR THINGS I DONT EVEN DO!
WHATS THE POINT, IM BEING USED

run through the fog
kick it till im gone
blue eyes in the sun
red lips, but i think im fallin off

dead for season
cold fall keeps me breathing
knife in the hole 
blonde hair in the snow

knife in the hole

prod. @idealismus
cover art by jenny yu

[verse]
and this pain sits right beside me
ignore it? oh it’s not likely
or just like me to forget it
in this darkness i find solace
and it’s taken from me so quickly
a monster born from his humanity
will he breath or succumb to the fighting
taking hits every night but still smiling
bare his teeth show his fangs as a warning
oh his loved ones can’t save him he’s folding
he’s a danger to all those around him
lock him up and just keep it confined in

[chorus]
solitary confinement
isolated, he suffers in silence
but my face always shows my emotions
try to hide it even for a moment

grief ft. Teddyboi (branwen)

getbetter

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