guitar by: ryini beats

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lyrics: 
We were so in love but in the end it didn’t matter
Pull my heart straight out my chest Nothing is left together

Ya
So Why you gatta treat me like that
Nothing is left for us baby leave me at the tarmac
Ya
You know I hate but u love that
It doesn’t matter I’m only good at getting laughed at
Ya
I know
I’m a fucking piece of shit but it don’t matter that I’m like that
Let
Me know
Is it funny that I’m dying because you looking like a mole-rat

I be feeling sick i be feeling really icky
Fell in love with drugs at 15 because I’m empty
They ever help but make me think that you were with me
Maybe if I didn’t feel that I’d be happy
I know
I know
I know it’s hard to feel
The pain
It grows
And nothings ever real
I know
I know
I know it’s hard to feel
The pain
It grows
And nothings ever real

Ya
So Why you gatta treat me like that
Nothing is left for us baby leave me at the tarmac
Ya
You know I hate but u love that
It doesn’t matter I’m only good at getting laughed at
Ya
I know
I’m a fucking piece of shit but it don’t matter that I’m like that
Let
Me know
Is it funny that I’m dying because you looking like a mole-rat

i know

all plats

i know [dercept] *mv in desc*

And
You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

Moral of the story everyday I'm on the same shit
I don't wanna talk about a thing it aint gone fix it
Oh no
Tell me what the fuck is going on cause I don't know bro
I keep holding on just by a thread this shit a tight rope
The voices in my head said ima be dead no matter where I go
So that's why I get high it help me balance out my lows
But if you ask me why ima tell you I don't know
I don't know yeah yeah

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

I'm just doing me
Could give a fuck what they think
Paranoid in public
Dropping E in my drink
Yeah I'm rolling now
Rolling round not coming down
I don't fuck with people
Always falling out
I can see your see through
Oh you think I need you
You must be confused
I just need the chemicals
Tweaking in the restroom
I hope that it ends soon
Stacking money staying true
That's like all I can do

You hold me down but you holding me up
I only do these drugs when I'm feeling stuck yeah
Lovestruck got my heart all in a damn knot
I just wanna get some time back right now
Cut another one I wont leave til I'm fucked up
I got problems with these people they all stuck up
Okay roll me one and take the pain away
I'm just doing me I don't care what the fuck you say

highs & lows

spoitfy

highs & lows w/ hamilton (p. methboiswag+frevel+roxa)

lyrics:

i learned my lesson night i passed out in the bushes 
in front of ‘on the rocks’ was off my rocker, no shit 
i don’t wanna be in VIP, it’s awkward 
ima stay at home, hit demon rips, its absurd 

they think i’ll go out bad but i won’t fold like that 
they relaxin watching tv while i make this shit 
while i lose my mind i seem like i’m okay 
stressin while im pushing all this pain down 


wait im not really like that 
too scared, backpedal, always getting sidetracked 
(it’s a long way home)
always so lost in my thoughts
if you wanna get me talking gotta get me on the rocks
think we fucked but i forgot
know i took too many shots 
didn’t know that i was capable of being want you want ‘till your sick of it 
it was good to feel on top for a little bit

long way home w/ xlhc

Lyrics_

Your voice echoes soft 
Everything comes with a cost
This life i made is tearing me apart

The years are burning away
But, i still feel the same
My bones will wither away
But my ghost will remain

I built a house of cards
Only to watch it fall
A haunting dissonance
Melodies that never resolve

The doctor gave me pills
Prescription chemicals
As i walk through the gate
I ran into a wall

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Misery chose me
But baby you’re the only one who really knows me
I flew so high when i came down
I had a nosebleed 

I suffocate on the words
I can’t say
I’m choking
Memories corroding 

Its been so long since i felt like myself
Desperate for help
Are you there?
Can you hear me?

Im sick of saying the same shit in all of these songs
Ive been hanging by a thread for way too long

Don’t go
Don’t go
I know im turning gray
But i used to be gold

Don’t go
Don’t go
Seasons change 
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

Don’t go
The cracks begin to show

don’t go

xivilai

lyrics:

bad things on my mind 
doesn’t matter 
now it’s fine 
im a waste of time 
she goes out she’s doin lines 

sitting next to me 
i’m losing touch with what i cannot see 
hiding in my sheets 
i can’t face it i stay in my dreams 

what u want from me 
just tell me i’ll make that reality 
what u want from me 
baby tell what we need 

bout time
im down for the night 
smoked out all alone 
ya i’m alright 
one sided 
i’m trying
i see u in the light 
bout time 
im down for the night 
smoked out all alone 
ya i’m alright 
unsighted 
go silent 
u text me hi 

rolling up weed in the dark 
im blazed with my friends in the car 
would u wish upon star 
cast a spell it’s from afar 

on my mind 
it’s atrophy
on the pack 
now i can’t see 
call the plug he’s down the street 
i just don’t know what i need 
they be keeping tabs on me 
i get all these drugs for free 
dropped a band that's on my feet 
im so faded 
make scene 

i’m so sick of feeling down again 
i just play pretend 
its like u got price up on my head 
why u want me dead 
 moncler and nine up to my neck 
make me break a sweat
 this winter's got me stalling 
i’m so fucked up
damn i’m fallin 

bad things on my mind 
doesn’t matter 
now it’s fine 
im a waste of time 
she goes out she’s doin lines 
x2

bout time
im down for the night 
smoked out all alone 
ya i’m alright 
one sided 
i’m trying
i see u in the light 
bout time 
im down for the night 
smoked out all alone 
ya i’m alright 
unsighted 
go silent 
u text me hi 

got ur text i’m in my room 
that’s way too from u 
save me from what i would do
u know that i would too

bad things on my mind 
doesn’t matter 
now it’s fine 
im a waste of time 
she goes out she’s doin lines 

prod wstdyth

special thanks to: @mvnvnight <3

✧ streaming ✧

stay alive ✨ (prod. ugly zucc)

lyrics:

shadows in my mind 
baby i’ve been going blind 
see it written in the sky
i don’t care this life is mine 
colored light up in my eyes 
stainless on me shine 
saw the light it made me cry 
saw the light it made me cry 

u still want me to say why
black and red in number nine 
need some water for my eyes 
i’m so faded off the dry 
smoking weed up in my ride 
she’s stay by my side 
baby i’m so high 
be my queen until i die 

spend a rack all on my body 
shawty love it when i’m wasted 
sometimes i be down but i’m okay it’s complicated 
i like getting faded 
ounce up in the air and i’m sedated 
i can’t deal with the tension that i created 

baby look at me 
i’m a different breed 
i be off the tree 
why don’t u leave ? 
am i what u need? 
burnout VIP 
all this greed 
they just want my steez 
promise that i’ll change 
if not for me 
i’ll do that for u 
i’ll do anything 

i just waste my time
but it’s alright
off the gas shawty i be smokin all night
x2

wake me 
wake me 
i’m on saturn in a daydream 
looking hazy 
i get sadder when the day leaves 
i’m wasting 
on my way 
to embracing 
the dead leaves 

smell like dolce and gabbana 
i’m tryna deal with the trauma 
from a year ago 
i don’t know why i cared about the drama 
need an antidote
i’ll make a lot of money 
n spend it all on some prada
i just wanna see nirvana 
feeling closer on the marijuana 

new designer shades 
keep the ghosts away 
please get out my place 
just get out my place

don’t know what to say 
feel it goin grey 
wish that it was day 
wish that it was day 

shadows in my mind 
baby i’ve been going blind 
see it written in the sky
i don’t care this life is mine 
colored light up in my eyes 
stainless on me shine 
saw the light it made me cry 
saw the light it made me cry 

u still want me to say why
black and red in number nine 
need some water for my eyes 
i’m so faded off the dry 
smoking weed up in my ride 
she’s stay by my side 
baby i’m so high 
be my queen until i die 

i just waste my time
but it’s all right 
wake me
wake me 
i’m on saturn in a-

i just waste my time
but it’s all right 

wake me
wake me 

(prod wstdyth)

wake me

lyrics:

smoking club weed 
i’ve been doing bad deeds 
acid wash jeans
acid in my cold tea 
can i see it now 
maybe it’s a cold lead
like a fairytale 
losing me in my machines 

low life 
in the low light 
maybe if i hit this flow right 
i’ll control life 
take my hand if u can hold tight 
can u hold tight 
i’ve been running from this cold night 
from this cold night 

stone island rest upon my head 
wasted so much time wishing i was dead 
wasn’t feeling right 
fix my eyes seeing infrared  
now i’m switching paths 
really feel the truths that i read
in the clear light 
ridding old lives that i shed

lie awake 
dancing with the snakes 
two Fs on my waist 
nothing stays 
this whole world is fake 
kiss me in the rain 

found the key
cycles still repeat 
incarnate of a dream 
calling me 
voices in the tree 
living thru a screen

smoking on the loud 
say to turn my music down 
i can’t keep it in 
all the secret lands i found 
sprawling at my feet 
i’m connected to the leaves 
watch me breathe 
taking in the tryptamines 

prayer flags 
trees start to stare back 
abstract 
u don’t understand that 
black cat 
crossed in front of my path 
bad loops in my head 
i can bypass 

smoking club weed 
i’ve been doing bad deeds 
acid wash jeans
acid in my cold tea 
can i see it now 
maybe it’s a cold lead
like a fairytale 
losing me in my machines 

low life 
in the low light 
maybe if i hit this flow right 
i’ll control life 
take my hand if u can hold tight 
can u hold tight 
i’ve been running from this cold night 
from this cold night 

stone island rest upon my head 
wasted so much time wishing i was dead 
wasn’t feeling right 
fix my eyes seeing infrared  
now i’m switching paths 
really feel the truths that i read
in the clear light 
riding old lives that i shed

prod wstdyth

MUISC VIDEO

low light

closely i can feel your heart 
it’s a blessing 
i’m lonely 
issey miyake what i’m dressed in
hold me 
i see past the curtain for a second 
holy ground at my feet 
i’m connected 
tiptoe to another world think i got it 
light shields me
i’ll be safe if i’m honest 
new eyes look around the globe there’s a goddess 
baby i got bad news i been spotted 

i live in this moment 
hear the truth spoken 
play the cards right 
put it all in motion 
love is interwoven 
see it when awoken 
diamonds on my chest unbroken 

smoking tree late night
i kinda feel nice 
bad memories 
take it out my timeline 
i like u but i don’t care about ur star sign 
light blue sky 
i can’t see the stars shine

when i last saw the light
paid a fair price 
greet me at the gate with the chrome knights 
edens fruit in my hands 
i said a prayer twice 
i can’t listen cuz the people in this world lie 

i live in this moment 
hear the truth spoken 
play the cards right 
put it all in motion 
love is interwoven 
see it when awoken 
diamonds on my chest unbroken 

i live in this moment 
hear the truth spoken 
play the cards right 
put it all in motion 
love is interwoven 
see it when awoken 
diamonds on my chest unbroken