Rocky (snippet)

Payload (snippet)

i hate it here, but if u support me i love u sm.
v v v
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away 
emptychest <3
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
(needa get a job but i..)
(always hit my line for me..)
(ur fine for me..)
well i dont..
i dont see my worth
i dont really see my worth
tell me what my worth is
tell me what my worth..
tell me what my worth is, baby im just clueless
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away
try to get better 
but my souls fucking tethered
and im always fuckin caught up 
in the god damn weather
needa get a job 
but my phones always vibrating
people hit my line 
for some good fuckin vibrations
mom said "look how far that you've come"
but frankly ion see no one 
when i look inside the mirror, shit i just wanna run
cause i aint proud of who i am or what ive become
might as well throw my whole life away..


it hurts so much to be here <3

what ive become (noxiousnights x jolst)

sewerperson - complicated (slowed + reverbed)

ugly (prod siemspark x xmichaelwarren)

i made this with covid ;)

lyrics

She slides her key right into the front door 
She never usually gets home 30 past four 
I wonder if they notice 
how long you were gone for 
I wonder if they notice 
how long you were gone for 

Just rest your head 
close your eyes you’ll be fine 
dream about the things 
that you would in the night time 
These are the things 
that you’ll bring into the next life 

Just take your dads mustang 
Live in the moment 
Go 100 on freeway 
Just like you own it 
You got a way of waking all us up 
And you know you show it 
Your gonna take over the world someday 
And yet you don’t know it 
And your fathers looking down at you 
I know you miss 
Youd give up anything you have for a chance just to kiss him 
Raise your head don’t be sad 
He raised you to be gifted 
Give it the best that you have 
Cuz you aren’t a victim

She slides her key right into the front door 
She never usually gets home 30 past four 
I wonder if they notice 
how long you were gone for 
I wonder if they notice 
how long you were gone for 

Just rest your head 
close your eyes you’ll be fine 
dream about the things 
that you would in the night time 
These are the things 
that you’ll bring into the next life

front door (grayskies)

prod: caves x irby
mix/master: Anxiety Attacks!
music.anxietyattacksmusic.com/suddenly

LYRICS:
I just wanna freeze my brain
I need some time alone
The stars fade into the sunrise

I wake up and then suddenly
I feel the weight on every part of me
Hey dad I hope you're proud of me
For tryna be what I was meant to be
The kid is alright
You know I made a few friends and now I hold tight
I had to learn it for myself how to move on
Once they're gone

Just wanna feel something like I did last night
I never doubt myself till I see the sun rise
I shouldn't think too much, but I do it sometimes
But I just play it off like it's nothing
Running in circles every night, I just wanna find my way

I wake up and then suddenly
I feel the weight on every part of me
Hey dad I hope you're proud of me
For tryna be what I was meant to be
The kid is alright
You know I made a few friends and now I hold tight
I had to learn it for myself how to move on
Once they're gone

Other Streaming <3

Suddenly [prod. caves x irby]

spent a day in the city (in the city)
boys on the street near the park just singing (just singing)
made a little money i just made regrets (just fell through)
told you i was sorry cause i'm not there yet (i could take it still)
drinking on the train, looking back so dumb
sorry means a little when it's said so much (We don't feel the same things yet)
sleep as a concept, i don't really act out (We don't feel the same)
drugs in a backpack, probably like a band now, i just

try not to overstate it
all been so complicated
day turns to night, just breaking
light on my body aching
lay down in foreign places
noticing what it's taking
i wake up slowly in the black
i thought i'd learn to hate it

follow lights down the coast
in the dreams that you had
i just got in the way
fuck i think i'm slipping back
i start to decay from the waist down
face it, we could never fix what we break now
holding the exit in my hand
fuck i think i'm slipping back

holding on a feeling i might die soon
cause i met everybody that i want to
and maybe did a little that i'm proud of
but man this head's just so hard to get out of
holding onto mornings with the old you
fucking catatonic in my old room
and i hope you don't blame yourself cause baby
it's not like someone else could ever save me

try not to overstate it
all been so complicated
day turns to night, just breaking
light on my body aching
lay down in foreign places
noticing what it's taking
i wake up slowly in the black
i thought i'd learn to hate it

Bay Harbour

Brick house in the moonlight
This wax got me feelin right
My dear hold my hand tight
Zig-zag in the spring night
I should have listened
Work a 9 to 5 now and now I'm passed out in the kitchen
Fuck up my decisions ya I'm still on the mission
I ain't real religious but I pray my sins forgiven
Killing my nutrition
Bags around my eyes and I ain't sleep until I'm finished
Smoking on addiction
Hair a fucking mess but I ain't stressing about opinions
To say anything
All I want is to see you right here
In a world all things turn upside-down
Just stay right next to me
Leave me home
Winding holes
Call me cold
It's how it smoke
That's enough
I might cough
4 below
Don't need no coat

Rocky (snippet)

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