The quiet aftermath. A cinematic, soulful reflection on how a child learns to hide in silence, bedrooms, daydreams, and shadows after trauma. A tender acknowledgment of invisible survival and the strength behind shrinking to stay alive.

Javel 2 (female)

This song explores addiction, hallucination and loneliness. It’s the story of a girl trapped in the haze of substance use who hallucinates a lover that only exists in her mind. The song examines the pain of isolation, the seduction of escape and the tragic allure of imagined relationship.

High hallucinations

Vishnu Shantakaram  DJ Yak

LOST & ALONE (feat. Sabina Nova)

@xam @neverday

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6qrcnWwMQIky4H3ysslFvd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/no-motion-in-my-emotions-single/1464239296
YouTube: https://youtu.be/oEJKXvkvNAg

[Chorus] x2
Everything’s in slow motion
No motion in my emotions
It feels like I’m drowing in the ocean
No motion in my emotions

[Verse]
I’m laying in my bed
In my bedroom playing dead now, yeah
Staring at the ceiling
And I’m dreaming about bleeding out

Feelings bleeding out of my brain
Everyday just feels the same
Mama raised a soldier
But I think that I might lose this game

I’m just wasting my time
Waiting for my time to run out 
It has been a while since the last time
I really felt alive

I’m feeling dead inside and
It is dark and cold outside
I don’t even know why I am
Trying to survive

[Pre-Chorus]
Leave me alone
I need some space
Been in a chase
I’ve lost the race
It is too late
I’ve given up
Look at my face
I’m a fucking disgrace

[Chorus] x2
Everything’s in slow motion
No motion in my emotions
It feels like I’m drowing in the ocean
No motion in my emotions

NO MOTION IN MY EMOTIONS [Prod. NEVERDAY]

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Prod. by Misery

Misery's Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCvSMLAQ8-6Fmj68haqD_J2Q

Engineered by Davo

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Lyrics: 

Dad I'm always missing you
I just wish we could talk
Dad I'm always missing you
you helped me on life's walk

Mom you've been so strong
And oh how far you've come
I still keep doing wrong
Making mistakes I wish they were done
I've been so selfish
And we've both felt helpless
I know life has been hectic
But I know where we're headed
I'll forever be indebted
I love you more than you know
but wouldn't have guessed it
I've been living so reckless
I'll give you everything you've wanted
To pay you back for all you've funded
your time and your happiness
I know you want me to succeed
I'm sorry I haven't been compassionate
A mother knows what a son needs
And you see that I'm passionate

I'm sorry to everyone I've let down
I've been on the edge but need to get down

My heart is screaming
Lost in dark but I'm dreaming
Neon glow has me beaming
Pray to God I find meaning
I've been fighting off hate
I've been fighting these demons
I've been fighting off hate
they want me gone for so many reasons

(Late nights in my head
Make it through thoughts of dread
contemplating being dead
but this hurt won't make me beg
this misery won't win
this uncertainty will die
along with my sins) x2

Sorry (Prod. By Misery)

❤ Follow my boy @oddyssi, I promise you won't be disappointed. ❤

Lyrics:
(plxntkid)
Everytime you came to my place,
we hung around, played in the underground
Everytime you left me on read,
made me wanna die, not gonna lie

Everytime I was facing myself,
realized I'm nothing but waste,
all these thoughts got me feelings some way,
I can't cope I can't find the right way.


For every moment that you look away,
I wanna run I wanna hide away
Even for a moment let me get away,
get away, get away

For every moment that you look away,
I wanna run I wanna hide away
Even for a moment let me get away,
get away, get away

I wanna run, I wanna hide away,
even for a moment let me get away, 
get away, get away

(oddyssi)
even for a moment let me hide away
i know its hard when you see me every single day
its in my head, every time i just try to escape
but its hard, cuz i got lots of shit inside my brain

let me just leave, i dont wanna be here, i dont wanna see your face
i dont wanna be reminded of the shit i did back in the days
its in a fire, when i realize im not up to date
so i might just pull out my plug and turn the other way

i dont wanna go out, i think i just wanna stay inside
its pretty often when i think ill commit suicide
but i think too much i might hit myself and head outside
i dont wanna be alone, but i dont wanna be by myself

yeah its what you'd hear from me on everyday
every occasion holding something that i don't wanna wait for
yeah its something stupid i would say
so i guess the only thing id do is hide away

(plxntkid)
For every moment that you look away,
I wanna run I wanna hide away
Even for a moment let me get away,
get away, get away

For every moment that you look away,
I wanna run I wanna hide away
Even for a moment let me get away,
get away, get away

I wanna run, I wanna hide away,
even for a moment let me get away, 
get away, get away

For every moment that you look away,
I wanna run I wanna hide away
Even for a moment let me get away,
get away, get away

𝓱𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓪𝔀𝓪𝔂 (plxntkid x oddyssi)

@xam @sabinanova

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0QWVNT8xNr4ibDiLeAlsDq
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/1-800-you-matter-feat-sabina-nova-single/1464246742
YouTube: https://youtu.be/bzTFTGL6ESQ

[Intro : Sabina Nova]
It gets so hard yeah I know
I'm here for you just hold on
You’re an addict for the pain
An addict for the unknown
You’re holding on to your past
But this pain ain’t gonna last

[Chorus - Sabina Nova] x2
You should feel the love
You should heal your heart
Cause you live for the better days

You should see the stars
You should reach above
You need to look for better ways

[Love, Max : Verse]
What’s the point of life
If you tryna grab a knife
Every night without a fight
 Don’t give up you’ll see the light
You’re a star, you’re shining bright

Don’t cry
Everything will be alright
Turn that frown on your face
To a beautiful smile

You’re not a waste of space
 Life’s not a waste of time
You will have better days
When you’ll be happy you’re alive
In pradise

So don’t die
Don’t even think about it
You gotta love yourself
You can not live without it

The world is yours
 You’re not alone 
Remember when you’re feeling down
You are always loved

Sometimes you’re feeling worse 
Sometimes you’re feeling better
But the pain that you are feeling
 Deep inside is not forever

[Sabina Nova : Chorus] x2
You should feel the love
You should heal your heart
Cause you live for the better days

You should see the stars
You should reach above
You need to look for better ways

1-800-YOU-MATTER (feat. Sabina Nova)

Misery - Single

12:03 AM (feat. NVR/Mnd)

Stream <3

Restart (Feat. VENAZ) [Edit]

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM

1-800-YOU-MATTER (feat. Sabina Nova)

XAM

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