unfair

4/25/22

Hey it’s me I get paranoid from weed
I hate myself so much I think they think the same of me
I think it’s time to be everything I wanna be
A ceiling don’t exist if I compare myself to me

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

I don’t like smoking weed but I’ll sell that shit to you
Questioning my own reality I need no help to do
But I do like getting lit shit I’ll take a pill or two
Now I’m looking in the mirror for once I like the view

You fucked me over you won’t admit that you did it
They say you acting so crazy no I didn’t I didn’t
Why don’t you listen?
My love for you is diminished
It’s time to switch like the minutes
I fucking hate you were finished

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

I don’t have to go outside I’m too busy living in my mind
There’s a lot of people I don’t like I don’t got the energy to pretend to vibe

I’m the type of attractive that’s both ugly and cute
I got decision dedication with nothing to lose
I’m just another busy brain with nothing to do
You either build up yourself or when you die they say “who is that again?”

Imma fucking know it all
Talking to myself but I don’t listen
The impossible and the improbable
It’s getting hard to tell the difference

Consumed by my desires
Too tired to be tired
I’d walk into the fire
Just so I could climb higher

I might talk back but I’ll never walk back
I might be mad but it’s better than sad

hey it's me (mcx)

U lie cuz ur scared of the truth
U follow all ur fucking rules
U don’t know you but I know you
U had ur moment in high school

I got Everybody talking like we used to be homies
Why you the hell you capping I don’t like you, you a ohing
You used to clown me “he got no bitches he so lonely”
Well who’s laughing now ha ur pockets looking lonely

What goes around comes around
You got the first laugh I get last laugh now
U gon look like clown
When I run it up you run it into the ground

When I’m famous or I’m dead you gon try to profit it from it
Ur a selfish opportunist I won’t pretend that I’m above it
I’m bout my cheese like wallace, grummet, this that shit u cannot stomach
How you started from the summit now you rock bottom bummin

Everybody knew me as the tall quiet kid
Now I’ve really grown up Call me mr. flip a brick
I got xanny oxy addy whatchu want I’ll sell you it
But I ain’t popping shit except a bullet out the clip

I got Everybody talking like we used to be homies
Why you the hell you capping I don’t like you, you a phony
You used to clown me “he got no bitches he so lonely”
Well who’s laughing now ha ur pockets looking lonely

What goes around comes around
You got the first laugh I get last laugh now
U gon look like clown
When I run it up you run it into the ground

=lonely (prod. johnnyfriend)

i want to believe you, i never wanted to leave w/ dear me (prod. jolst)

just another lil fun one cuz i miss my friends
creature pt. 3 otw
<3

lyrics
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you know it's import
-tant i can't ignore
feeling like forever might be shorter than before
it's been on my mind
all throughout the night
so me and all my friends go drink until we feel alright
till we feel alright
sprite ciroc and ice
down another cup but it gotchu feelin nice
might light up another slice
it ain't even noon but we gotta smoke twice
got a double in my cup
with a soda on the side
chicken noodle soup
way i'm spittin all this fried
with the gx engine we gon bring the coupe to life
in the tx 972 with all my guys

got my foot elevated while we drivin up the 5
06 ludacris followed by nelly furtado
breeze past you goofies in the sprinter with my gattos
feed lines to bitches off my dick like a silo
jesus where the pen at imma write another rap
jesus where the pen at im just trying to get smacked
ayy you kinda quiet is it getting to you bad
we a long way from home when home is all you've ever had  
i'll just redefine my character & get right in my bag
the tequila made it worse now i'm cursed with all this lag
eyes bloodshot crossed while i'm puffin on the zag
i don't wanna talk about it i don't really wanna drag 
you down with it
kiss another blunt go round with it
pop another top go drown in it
feelin like i got to
this pain heavy so the substance what i'm bound to

bound to round two
googling just how to
c-o-p-e cope with
-out chu out chu
(x2)

sour then sweet then i'm gone
feel like this tour wasn't long
nuff with the chit chat
man i miss my dogs
fuck it man i miss my dogs
control alt deleting this song
y'all really keepin' me strong
nuff with the bullshit
man i miss my dogs
started tallying the score
i think i've been here before
went from hollywood to venice
back to crying on the floor
i know this bout to be rough
you know you can call my bluff
we did everything we wanted
but everything's not enough

round two (prod. twix x g06 x thirtyyy)

@xam @prsonprson

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7ziotsoQJ9Sc1hnBodbesL?si=d731d90e037d49d7
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/fi/album/is-there-anyone/1614267269?i=1614267270
YouTube: https://youtu.be/nUXYJ86kbGo

[Verse 1]
Lately I’ve been hating everything that I’ve been making
I’ve lost the motivation for the dreams that I’ve been chasing
I know this ain’t a race, no, but all I’ve done is racing
I’m noticing how everything I’ve built is slowly fading

I’m dedicating all my time to overthinking,
Drinking & the heavy medications I’ve been taking
I’m slowing down and breaking
I’m tripping out like I’m on a vacation

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

[Verse 2]
All I want is for someone to understand who I am
Someone to sit there in the silence by my side and hold my hand
But all I have is me, myself and I and my imaginary friends
And a broken hourglass that’s running out of sand

Life is tricky, time is ticking, life’s a ticking time bomb
I’m dying slowly like the battery on my phone
I’m alone, I don’t like to be lonely
But I’m pushing away everyone that say that they love me

[Chorus]
Is there anyone that is strong enough to save me 
If I fight for love, will it come back around to bite me?
If I fall in line, I am surely gonna break it 
Take me back in time, life is moving too fast for me now

IS THERE ANYONE? (feat. PERSONPERSON)

Lyrics:

Now my love is locked inside

(Verse)
Now it’s done will I ever find another one?
With a knife in my back I am holding on
And everything that we once were fighting for
Is burned up, all gone and I’m on the floor

We used to kick it in the summers at my pops place
You made me red velvet cake at my birthday
I still go down to our place and it still hurts
I wonder if you still got my Mayday Parade merch

(Pre)
I wonder could we ever get it back
I don’t know, no, I don’t know

Would everything be better if we tried?
I don’t know now, fuck if I know now

(Chorus)
And I don’t know where I am now
After all this time, yeah, I've
lost all sort of control that
Well, I thought I had back when

We walked down by the pier where you ended
Everything I thought I believed in
Guess the sun is just as deceiving

And I could never say goodbye
Now my love is locked inside

(Verse)
Now I’ve moved all the way to the other side
I wake up in the morning, got me a life
And yeah, I try to be happy but I’m hella tired
Nowadays I’m just hoping I’mma be alright

You know I still run up to that hilltop
To see the view of the place where we grew up
It’s messed up cus they building like a city
On the fields where we used to kiss, pretty

(Pre)
I wonder could we ever get it back
I don’t know, no, I don’t know

Would everything be better if we tried?
I don’t know now, fuck if I know now

(Chorus)
And I don’t know where I am now
After all this time, yeah, I've
lost all sort of control that
Well, I thought I had back when

We walked down by the pier where you ended
Everything I thought I believed in
Guess the sun is just as deceiving

And I could never say goodbye
Now my love is locked inside

thank u for listening <3

Locked Inside

Slowed and Reverb version of "ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif)
Shoutout "Harmony" on YouTube for making this

ESCAPE (feat. Swiiif) [slowed + reverb]

Unfair - The Neighborhood

----lyrics----
this boy's got me going insane
if im dead inside baby you're the one to blame
its such a shame that we ended like this
I fucked it all up before it even started
now im sat here brokenhearted
I guess home is where the heart is
you know I've been heartless
I wanna be alone
I wanna turn off my phone 
I just wanna go home
and get stoned but
you're the reason that im here
and now I wanna disappear
waiting three months for you
to make a motherfucking move
now you don't know what you do
or what you put me through
its sad, but it's true
I'll always be here for you
I'll always be here for you

boy you're making me look so dumb
now tell me where did it all go wrong
someone tell me what the fuck is love
cuz' I don't ever get none
I often feel so numb
believe me baby
im going crazy
people love to hate me
now no one can save me
how can you sleep at night
leave me high and dry
when you know that shit aint right
yeah you know that shit aint right
but theres nothing I can do
ima leave it up to you
you found someone new
it'll always be you
it'll always be you
it's always been you

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