Mercy & Grace

@lilhappylilsad

i know i did before but i dont fuckin love you no more
you made me hate myself girl did you love me at all
i tried to kill myself girl you wouldnt pick up my calls
i know you knew what i was doin but u wanted me gone

i dont care cause someone else is fuckin waiting for me
she got everything you dont she is all that i need
see me smile see me rollin see me smoking my weed
cant believe i wasted time cause now im starting to heal

ever since u fuckin left ive been moving my ways
makin music everyday helps me handle the pain
makin music everyday is a highway to fame
i dont chase but i want it girl remember my name

ill be one of them
youll never see me girl again
if i dont kill myself
the scene is mine girl my revenge

my revenge (prod. lilhappylilsad)

Go follow my man <3
https://soundcloud.com/fuckhamz

Hammy:
I just wanna know
do you still think of me?
when you're all alone
i hope you still remember me
i don't wanna go
my heart is on your driveway
sitting all alone
they never care what i say x2

never care what i say
driving on the highway
driving on the freeway
you can have it your way
i don't really care girl
look at me and stare girl
i just wanna die now
smokin till i die now
diving on the highway
driving on the freeway
i just wanna see you
hope you want me too
i can't ever think straight
tell em that i feel great
even though i'm lyin
always fucking lying
remember what we had
now i can't stop crying
i just popped an oxy
now i think i'm flying
i just hit the ground
now i'm really dying

Yung Van:
I still have your number in my phone
Sometimes I drive by your home
I think of all the good times
I think we had some good times
I miss waking up to texts
I hate calling you my ex
I should have known this would happen
I should have known this would happen 

I've been driving all night
I'm just tryna feel right
When I think of you though
I don't want to die alone
Thinking bout you all the time
Wish that you weren't getting high
I don't think I'm feeling fine x2
Ive been driving all day
I'm just tryna feel okay
I know I can't run away
Girl you meant the world to me
Think of what we used to be
Wish it was just you and me
Guess we just weren't meant to be
I thought we were meant to be
I just wanna die now
I just wanna cry
I thought you were mine babe
I thought we were fine
Called you every night girl
Cause I thought you cared
Called you every night girl
I was always there
I wish I could walk away from all this pain
I feel like I was cut
I thought you were the one

Wish i was enough x4

FOLLOW HAMMY

i'm not depressed, i just miss you w/Hammy (Prod. Tec)

@lilhappylilsad @kuroimetsuyu
cover art: instagram @coverartplug

yt: https://youtu.be/vs75EkbecEw

dont ask me how i feel
you know how bad it is
lately i cant sleep
im breakin down im weak

ion wanna wake up
ion wanna breath
they meet me and they pay up
they cant lay off my weed

they love the drugs i keep
the drugs will make you bleed
the drugs they made me bleed
feel no love when i weep

when i weep (prod. kuroime)

@xam @lilhappylilsad @pastnight

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5F0CjNQii37YUkykNiElVl
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/less-than-three-feat-lil-happy-lil-sad-single/1464242497
YouTube: https://youtu.be/Ul6ZhefinsE

[Verse 1: XAM]
I really thought that I found what they call real love
I really thought that you were the chosen one for me
But I was wrong and now you are gone
So many girls on my mind, but I dont see you anymore

I’m going crazy, I can’t take this no more
I’ve been feeling so low for so long
Ever since you walked out the front door
I’ve been sleeping solo on the cold floor

I can’t sleep when I’m alone
I can’t breath when you are gone
You’re on my mind everytime that I’m on my own
Wish you were here right now but you are gone

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

[Verse 2: Lil Happy Lil Sad]
I always thought you were the one
I can’t believe I’m nothing to you
Bless my body with your hands
It was a world that I was new to

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

I wish you needed me
But now you’re leaving me
I need to smoke some weed
I need promethazine

Now I’m on my knees
You broke my less than three
And girl It’s killing me
I miss you kissing me

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I love you less then three, baby dance with me
We are meant to be, can’t you see It’s real?
I love you less then three, It is destiny
Tell me how you feel, do you even love me?

LESS THAN THREE (feat. Lil Happy Lil Sad) [Prod. pastnight]

i never thought id go far
but i fall like a star
never thought id go far
but i feel like a star

always feelin numb when i am smoking without u
head is spinning round im fallin down to thoughts of u
faded all the time i cry its really nothin new
my entire life is goin round like in a loop

thoughts of u r keepin me awake
anxiety is keepin me away
girl its gettin worse now by the day
need to make it going my own way

i will never stop get out my way
ill be on the top of all this pain
never fallin off im in my lane
never fallin off but then i fade

never fallin off but then i fade

i never thought id go far
but i fall like a star
never thought id go far
but i feel like a star

Follow me <3

burden boy (prod. br//oken)

prod. by @notmorgn

i been climbing on this ladder for months
time has worn it down now i’m breaking the rungs
city smog blackening my lungs
I’m used to shitty days
this stuff just isn’t fun anymore
where did all the time go 
spent it with my eyes closed
spent it with some fake friends
dissing ain’t a typo
now my pockets fat
they gonna need some lypo
i always spend it fast
i make it back in a night though

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

i need excitement
something that could pump my blood around
i been fighting with myself every time i’m down
and i turned blue right at the bottom 
man you let me drown now they ask me 
why i never bring that girl around
done with that phase
i ain’t coming back aye
but the pain stays
tatted with the sad face
sit back look at all the damage
i never knew i caused it
but i saw it when you vanished
i really hurt myself for you
i cry i feel i’m just like you
and i killed my body
and i killed my brain
i’m a bag of bones baby
walking in the rain
i call it

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage 
i’m with my entourage
cold shoulder
i don’t really wanna talk
and i don’t wanna stop
until i’m on the top
don’t want another thought
of when my bones will rot

self sabotage

"I gave you everything you ever wanted but you ended up closing the door" - van

SuiSai: @sushisai
Mix/Master: @demxntia
Prod by: @tothegood
Artwork: @suicideoutside (on twitter)

I am performing in LA, July 24th. You can get tickets here: https://www.songkick.com/concerts/38254179-pink-cig-at-1720?utm_source=8123&utm_medium=partner&utm_content=fb4a0d1b9180ab41a80f71c5bea1fa9b&utm_campaign=entity

"When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai”

Lyrics-

When you say me you love me, it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I’m crying on the concrete. I don’t have strength to get up off the floor 

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again 

Crashing down on my parade
You let me love till you were bored of the game 
Open hearts and shoddy flames
You let me burn in the love that we made 

SuiSai- 
That touch of yours left cinders
Trails of your heart set a flame
Lit like embers
Of our past
Screeching stop sounds like thunder
You were my lightning
Filled my clouds with your patterns
Made the world disappear 
liked it better
Then you left me here
To the forces of the weather
Cause the cold fronts near
But I swear id never let it
Change the way that I feel

How you gon tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore
I gave you everything you ever wanted but you end up closing the door
I’m trying to carry you over my back but your legs keep on dragging the floor
I’m trying my best but I just don’t think we can ever travel back to before
Let me
Fall in love again
Let me
Fall in love again
How you gon’ tell me you love me but it doesn’t feel the same anymore 
Let me
Fall in love again

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same

When You Tell Me You Love Me, It Doesn't Feel the Same ft. SuiSai (Prod. Tothegood)

Can't Breathe [Single Version] (feat. Lando.Krk, Bensbeendead.)

@Madatracker


I find it harder to feel like this is how it is
Throw me back at the floor I’ve got no time for this
People screaming my name I think I’m losing it
All that’s lost is my faith can’t keep control of this

So just tell me what’s wrong with me

WHATS WRONG!

Feels like I’m bout to collapse can someone help me
I’ve been losing my mind just like last week
I’ve done enough for myself what do you want from me
I guess it’s safe to say that you’re my enemy

That you're my enemy 
I guess its safe to say that you're my enemy

I know
What you’re going through
Cause pain shows me what it does to you
Cause I know how much it haunts you
Them nightmares is what kills you
But is there something you want from me?

LETS GO!

Feels like I’m bout to collapse can someone help me
I’ve been losing my mind just like last week
I’ve done enough for myself what do you want from me
I guess it’s safe to say that you’re my enemy

You’re my enemy 
I guess it’s safe to say 
You're my enemy
My enemy 
I guess its safe to say 
That you're my enemy
You're my enemy 
I guess its safe to say 
Yeah
You're my enemy

Feels like I’m bout to collapse can someone help me
I’ve been losing my mind just like last week
I’ve done enough for myself what do you want from me
I guess it’s safe to say that you’re my enemy

Feels like I’m bout to collapse can someone help me
I’ve been losing my mind just like last week
I’ve done enough for myself what do you want from me
I guess it’s safe to say that you’re my enemy

That you're my enemy
I guess its safe to say that you're my enemy

Enemy

Enemy [Prod. Madatracker]

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM