Yo, this song is deep. It describes a lot I can relate to. RESPECT!!

Sad nigga tuesdays

Everything's Fine

Something's Wrong

Redemption

i'm sorry that i can't get out of bed 
i'm sorry that my heads always a mess 
i'm sorry that i missed your call 
for the third time in a row
i promise that i care much more than i show

music video

i'm sorry, i'm trying.

luna has risen

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this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

staring at my ceiling
hiding from my feelings
tired of the same shit
tell my mom im leaving

playing playstation
ill call you back later
im so sick of waiting
can you do me a favor

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you (x2)

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

i just need to move on
ive been waiting too long
to feel like myself again
to feel like i never left

hiding from the gallows
hang my head downlow
walking in the shadows
feeling fucking shallow

just leave me alone when i ask you to
silence by myself is all i ask of you
you tell me that you care but i dont think you do
i need to get away i just cant deal with you

this is such a nightmare
this just doesnt feel right
you think that i dont care
you know im not alright
stuck inside the same page
hoping that ill be fine
sleeping with a night light
shining like a lite brite

luna

download

lite brite ✨

luna has risen

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take me away from this path that i follow
its left me hopeless and empty and hollow

will i stay asleep forever
nothings the same as i remember

i still bite my nails like i learned when i was seven
and i still remember that car that you left in

so i close my eyes and hope that tomorrow
brings brighter lights and respite from my sorrow

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way [x2]

my eyes are still sleepy just like when you kissed me
just let me be alone i dont care if you miss me

numb and cold and scared to be away
from those i love im heartless anyway

im scared of the day i wake up and im 18
the walls of my room are collapsing please save me

dream a dream and hope for that one day
you come to life and feel like youre something

the sky is dull i fade away
why do i feel so far 
from myself and the way that i used to be

forever all alone
no one seems to see
the colors in the rain
i guess nobodies feel this way 

nobody
nobody

nobody 😔

luna has risen

also available on:

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lost and afraid of the world that surrounds me
i constantly let down everyone around me

my heart it glows
my soul it floats
i stay awake cos i cant breathe
when demons haunt me in my sheets

have you ever felt like you were dead?
like nothing feels the same 
so you just lie in your bed?

light a cigarette 
put your woes to rest
im a fallen angel baby im not like the rest

i try to hold on to the things that i once loved
my heart and emotions are something im void of

youre wasting away
are you okay?
please just keep your head up and just hope for better days

hold on to your memories and youll be safe
this may be our last chance to leave this place

its like i hold myself back
crying wolf to all the sheep
singing lullabies to ease my mind
safely drifting in the night

but nothings ever as it seems
waking up from fever dreams
ive counted every single sheep
but i still cant fucking sleep

a fallen angel 🌟

Still stuck in my emo phase
Lyrics:


I've got the whole world on my back

Yeah, cause I'm 5'9, 165 
Established 1995 
Living like I'm not getting out alive 
Ima take a second just to tell you why 

I had thoughts since 6th grade 
That this world was not made for the sake 
of the people like me 
who can't see past their mistakes, and  misdeeds 

And I bleed the same blood you bleed
So why are you tryna cut me? 
Why's there always something you want from me?
Why can't you be happy for me?

That I'm not that kid on the phone screaming fuck this world I'm leaving? 
Like when I was sixteen and,  it still feels like I'm dreaming
When I call your phone and realize I forgot to breath in 
Forgot the grave that he's in 
I hope you know I mean it 

When I say I'm only here today cause this music keeps me breathing 
It's my only healing

I'm not alone if you can feel it

I'm not alone, if you know the bliss 
When i  heard that girl don't slit her wrists no more
From that time I reminisced at my show 
Told her there's reasons to stay don't go 

Don't push your family away I know 
They don't understand all the pain you hold 
Im just as sad know you're not alone 
Don't let your story go untold 





 I know you're here in spirit, put on deja entendu 
The only time I'm sad now is when I think of you
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only help one of them then I did it for all you 
I don't know how she's doing, no we haven't stayed in touch 
But I helped her put the knife down and that means so fucking much
I hope one day these kids get some of my lyrics tattooed 
But If I only helped one of them then I did it, I did it for you

I Hope You Know I Mean It

occam's razor

decaying at 18 w/ supachefm

mask of woe: halloween

the night he came home

COMBINATION LOCK

the monster still lurks [prod. combination lock]

@xam @logancannon

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/7EwAjJyCQIsAE4W1CgJVLX
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/sad-boy-feat-logan-cannon-single/1464244326
YouTube: https://youtu.be/bQfS7r13wkY

[Verse 1: XAM]
They told me to be happy when It’s raining
I wish my life was picture perfect like a painting
But here I am writing songs from my basement
I broke my soul when I fell down from heaven

Hit the earth face first on the pavement
Been working / waiting for my first payment 
Have you ever fallen down like this?
To the ground like this?
Felt down like this before?

Now I’m sleeping on the cold floor alone
Spending every second writing songs on my phone
About feelings that I used to know
Feelings that I used to love
Feelings that are…

Gone
They’re gone
Long gone
Yeah

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m just a sad boy
With a sad voice
Singing sad songs
With a sad flow

[Verse 2: Logan Cannon]
Man the worlds so cold no emotions
Everyday same shit the 9-5 commotion
There’s an ocean, It’s always open
So I’m diving deep in this life I keep on hoping

That me and Max yeah we make it out
That me and Max hear them screaming loud
These lyrics that we’ve written down
There’s a vision in my brain and It’s spilling out

Nobody’s gonna spill my blood today cos
The sun’s shining and I’m smiling
I’m saying fuck a 9-5, man
Saying fuck a 9-5, man

Touched down in dam
And you know I’m getting high, man
For my brothers I’m gonna ride, man
For my brothers I’d die, man
I’d die, man

[Chorus: XAM] x2
I’m just a sad boy
With a sad voice
Singing sad songs
With a sad flow

SAD BOY (feat. Logan Cannon)

@xam @lil_yung_pharaoh @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4Ug4VQPXCGxNfqMIxwh2xd
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/bad-thoughts-feat-lil-yung-pharaoh-single/1464634124
YouTube: https://youtu.be/qjjQ49p3xmY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

I’m counting down every minute time is moving so slow
Everything’s in slow-mo, every night feels so long
Where is Dora when I’m lost and I don’t  know where to go
Nobody knows me but they telling me to stay strong

I can’t swim but I’m going for the deep end
I can’t win I’ll be dead by the weekend
I got no flowies on my arms and I’m ‘bout to drown
Tryna hold on but I’m going down guess I’m a dead man

Staring at the ceiling of the ocean
Oh shit, feeling sick too much motion
I don’t sleep but I’m dreaming of emotions
I don’t have, I’m broken - the truth’s been spoken

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

[Verse 2: Lil Yung Pharaoh]
I ain't never been happy try to pretend
OD and get high on the weekend
So low I don't even got no friends
Can't swim but I'm headed for the deep end

Got a feeling I won't make it till next year
So you can put a knife through my chest here
I'm a human so it’s natural to shed tears
Living life alone that's my worst fear

And I'll be loving life next day I wanna die
Just to numb the pain I'll get so fucking high
Laying on the couch I can't open up my eyes
First I wanna die but now I love life

And I just want someone to understand me
And yeah I got problems that they can't see
So you can put a knife through my chest now
And Imma lay down to rest now

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m gettin worse by the minute just admit it you don’t even know
What is going through my fucking head right now and what is wrong
Why I’m locked inside my room and writing all these songs
About these bad thoughts, about these bad thoughts

[Chorus: XAM]
I don’t wanna lie, I’m a human and I cry
Myself to sleep at night, there’s a reason I don’t smile
I’m about to tell you why, sometimes I wanna die
Sometimes I wanna be alive, I got one life out of nine

BAD THOUGHTS (feat. Lil Yung Pharaoh) [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

@xam @cxldblxxd @universalchill

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2PLzLFiUqSFtRbhlOeXE5a?si=0iw1MAW_Ru6JZOzz1uPO8g
Apple Music: https://itunes.apple.com/fi/album/sleepwalking-feat-love-max/1409003690?i=1409003866&app=music
YouTube: https://youtu.be/hfoiCJ1Dkxo

[Verse]
I’m floating in the darkness and I’m choking
Holding on to my dear life and hoping
That nothing turns into something, yeah
Nothing turns into something

My head’s in the clouds but I’m feeling so low
Tick tock, tick tock time is moving so slow
Tryna hold on but I’m losing control
I dont wanna die, I dont wanna grow old

[x2]
This is a dream
This ain’t real
Nothing’s how it feels

Don’t believe
What you see
Nothing’s how it seems

[Pre-Chorus]
On a long lonely road
I’m lost and alone
I’m out of my zone
I don’t know where the go

[Chorus] x4
I’m sleep walking (On a long lonely road)
Sleep walking (I’m lost and alone)
I keep walking (I’m out of my zone)
Keep walking (I don’t know where the go)

Celestial Mixtape

SLEEPWALKING [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

(PROD. BY @prodlxve x @kvnny)
engineered @kvnny

lyrix

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

every single day
moving faster like a race
and im hoping that i crash
saw 200 on the dash
fuck a red light
stop sign
i cant give a fuck no
i aint got time
stopwatch
that rolly dont tick tock

woah

if i said it then i mean it
i choose you like
eenie meenie
told you that im never leaving
and you still do not believe me
so i put it in the past 
i cant see you like im stevie
so ill put it on a track
so you see me on the TV
im a rockstar
cant stop till they know it
really hoping i dont blow it
cause i really wanna show it
show show up with the flex
let em know that im up next
yung ghosty with the checks
yung ghosty with the checks

woah
yea i got the checks like its nike
running round my town i think they like me
neck and wrist is icey
baddie treat me nicely
yea
shes bad for my psyche
yea

must have met you in a past life
odd are i loved you then as well
but right now you make me so mad
make me feel so sad
woah

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

you make me feel empty
in my heart i feel blue
cause ur not around
when i close my eyes i see you
i cant get away
from the ghost that still haunts me
now im fucked up cause 
i know that you still want me

empty (p. lxve x kenny)

@mewsyc
@producedbyaidan
@guccihighwaters

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

whats inside my cup
blindsides my brain
so i hide my face
in an act of shame
and hope to dissapear
in a perminant way
u watch me fade to black
u'd love to watch my pain

and u know
who to call
ill b there
after all
and i know
when i fall
u wont care
afterall,

yeah im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i'll keep it to myself now
got me feelin left out
u talk a lot shit like u dont got a lot to hide

numb to the core
yeah, i kill that pain
with a bottle of liqoure
feel it runnin thru my veins
when im not high
or preoccupied
i got thorns in my heart
and a storm roarin in my mind

yeah, im just a waste
i dont got that much to offer
im selfish and conceeded 
but always put my all
into everyone and everything
then watch it as it falls
let it crumble to my feet
just like everything ive ever loved

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

im ur puppet and u play me like a game
text from my ex, yeah she never felt the same
use me on a rainy day
abuse me til i cant even think
that picuture that we took
i always kept it safe
id put it in my pocket just so i could see ur face
when i was out of town
u always kept me with u
never told u bout all the times when i would miss u

yeah, im just ur boy toy
fillin up some free time
take me when u wanna
then leave me here to die
i always knew the truth
u aint even gotta lie
ur the best thing
but im just another guy

Follow me <3

boy toy (ft. guccihighwaters) [prod. mewsyc & aidan]

i know it's been a minute..

producer links:

https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC04zau-oEQwOaG3y2xz9fQw

https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy

Daylight Dreamer [prod. 8ROKEBOY]

@xam @d1vv @karmarhythm

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5zdzLOREA83tH2ArEtiGJy
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/fighting-feat-d1v-single/1464238010
YouTube: https://youtu.be/BBvx2JlX0PY

[Verse 1: XAM]
I'm getting choked out by a diamond chain choker around my neck
While I'm walking in the rain one step closer to my death
Struggling to stay alive while I'm tryna find
My will to live but the time is running out - like my breath

"Don't go!"
"Don't leave!"
"Stay strong!"
"Believe!"

Those are the words they keep telling me
To keep me here

[Chorus] x2
But I got drugs in my veins
I can't remember my name
And I'm feeling insane
Dreaming of feeling alive once again

Fighting with the monsters hiding under my bed
Fighting on the phone with my imaginary friends
Fighting with the demons i got up in my head
Fighting with the thoughts in my brain

[Verse 2: D1V]
I'm so isolated, I'm stuck
I be with my team we run it up
Everybody think I'm done for
Doing all these drugs, now I'm going to the club

Only got my team left, that's why I got it tatted on me
Think they know my secrets thats why they trynna pull up on me
I don't want a girl cos they leave me in second
Swallow 5 pills or else I be stressing

Take your life for me would you do that
Got a broken heart would you glue that
I don't mind a thing if you leave me
Cos your better off without me

Chase my dreams
You don't really know me and It's better that you don't
When you said I'm wrong I didn't tell you cos I know
Drugs in my veins kill that pain

[Chorus]
But I got drugs in my veins
I can't remember my name
And I'm feeling insane
Dreaming of feeling alive once again

Fighting with the monsters hiding under my bed
Fighting on the phone with my imaginary friends
Fighting with the demons i got up in my head
Fighting with the thoughts in my brain

FIGHTING (feat. d1v) [Prod. XAM & KARMA RHYTHM]

Song written by - ILUVTRAGEDY and XAM
Produced by - Low Hope
Mixed by - Sinxi

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SAD BOY (feat. Logan Cannon)

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