i for real cant not get over how fucking good this song is

hmmm 8

joke's on you: the bedroom ballads

novocaine (live)

Prod. Kado

I was thinking bout my friends house 
When we used to go to parties 
And how I never thought you’d be there 
But you always seemed to be there 
Regardless 
I was feeling kind of homesick 
Cause nothing really feels like home no more 
Yeah it feels  a little different 
These days when my friends are drinking on my porch 
I guess that I would change a few things
But  not the ones you think I would 
I would squeeze a little tighter
I would try a little harder 
If I could 

And I would listen to my friends say
The things they planned for future years 
Love something and let it kill them 
A few more laughs a few less tears
I hope my homies happy out there
I lost it somewhere, I don’t know 
If I’ll ever get better but I’m still trying 
I really gotta learn to let things go 

I was thinking bout my friends house 
And how we’re really not friends no more no more
I don’t think you would’ve  gone to bat for me 
When you wouldn’t even help me off the floor 
I was thinking bout the days ahead
All the words I said 
That I’m not sure it I regret 
But I really wish you could have seen
Me achieve these dreams 
And believe I’m not done yet
It’s okay to look back sometimes 
If you keep pushing ahead
We haven’t spoken in a long time 
But you know I cant forget 

And I would listen to my friends say 
The things they planned for future years 
Love something and let it kill them 
A few more laughs a few less tears
I hope my homies happy out there
I lost it somewhere, I don’t know 
If I’ll ever get better but I’m still trying 
I really gotta learn to let things go

Human

Parties

Song about a guy having a hard time letting go.

Never Let You Go

finally finished up this extremely stressful semester, and figured I would release this. shoutout to @iamsidxkick for the beat, this man is a fucking god. 

I'm planning to start putting my music on Spotify/iTunes/Youtube, and I'm gonna have an EP out sometime soon, keep your eyes open.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K9GaMIgoqy4

would you? (prod. sidxkick)

@lilhappylilsad 

Ima little fucked up 
just cause it's night again 
babe I miss u all the time 
won't u let me in

babe I even miss you 
when you're with me 
I know that you're in there 
but you're nowhere to be seen

what's life I don't have no motivation 
can I be whatever I want w some dedication? 
I cant get out of my bed but I try to stay on the grind 
every fucking hour is like a year what even is time?

I can't fucking stand all these nights alone 
holding you tight but there's no one fkn home 
and I can't fucking stand the way you look at me 
like there's no one fucking there you see right through me 

what's life I don't have no motivation 
can I be whatever I want w some dedication? 
I cant get out of my bed but I try to stay on the grind 
every fucking hour is like a year what even is time?

Miss You (prod. lil happy lil sad)

RiverKinn
"Cut"
Instruments and Production by RiverKinn

My tears fell on the microphone while recording this
Thank you Trent
Thank you Johnny

--------------------
I cut myself today
To see if I might bleed
I cannot stop the rain
But it's the only thing I need
And you will make me fall
Right up off the earth
You don't love me now
Your love's more than I'm worth

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
--------------------

@riverkinn

Play Dead MMXVIII

KISAMA

in loving memory of my mother angela

for all the lies you would believe; you lost what i'd let use my trust for these wrongful lines. i couldn't see the cost and the headache it took to leave. the weight on my chest and roads that ended made me regret my disbelief. these days with no rest made me desperate. opiates let me get to sleep.

for all the lies you would believe; you lost what i'd let use my trust for these wrongful lines. i couldn't see the cost and the headache it took to leave. lost in my head shaking thoughts that i've let take all that was left until you couldn't breathe. cut off from my meds in a loft with no bed i'd hope for the best but never sleep.

▶ Spotify

angela

Produced by Fabian Secon

Artwork: @ AaronCAustin

What Do I Live For

@xam @cxldblxxd

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2KQIV0bUZ3xGzIlQ0nO1cx
Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/album/secrets-single/1464218058
YouTube: https://youtu.be/rd00nXZewjM

[Chorus]
If you’re hearing this it means
I’ve had enough and I’ve let go
If you’re reading this it means
I’ve given up and I’ve moved on

I’m just a guy and I speak less
I’m not shy I am speechless
I’m tired and I’m depressed
I’m tired of these secrets

[Verse]
That I’m keeping deep inside of me
I tried to deal with this pain that I feel
I feel myself slowly fading from reality
When you find me can you promise me
That you’ll let me be?

You would think that I am fine
When I wake up with a smile
On my face the smile is fake
The smile is there to hide behind

Still alive but I’m in pain
My blood is running through my veins
There’s a storm inside my brain
Time to put this to an end

[Bridge]
So… One cut… Two cuts… Three cuts… Four…
My blood just started dripping to the bathroom floor…

[Chorus]
If you’re hearing this it means
I’ve had enough and I’ve let go
If you’re reading this it means
I’ve given up and I’ve moved on

I’m just a guy and I speak less
I’m not shy I am speechless
I’m tired and I’m depressed
I’m tired of these secrets

SECRETS [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

taking naps i cant even afford

with some beautiful guitar work by my friend @the-gnarly-neighbors

blackheartemoji
an album from @prodbybrody and thebreathingbackwards

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AmBDiyk9YO8
lyrics: https://genius.com/Thebreathingbackwards-morning-light-w-the-gnarly-neighbors-lyrics

blackheartemoji

spotify

morning light (w/ the gnarly neighbors)

i'll say goodnight

"you were so broken, i was so lost in myself"

LYRICS

VERSE
i was so high
and you brought me down
(you brought me so down)
you wanna try
i’ll see you around

VERSE 2
i was so scared that you would
take a couple pills
try to float away
party in the hills
'quila for the pain
find another man
that’s how we began
why wouldn’t you do it all again

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

RAP
i been tryna fix us
you been caught in mix ups
that receipt it aint mine
you forget what you buy
lingerie aint on my mind
put your baggage on me
i can carry your grime
fuck the shit that you see
if you saw what i see
pussy stains on my jeans
sure as hell came from you
sure as hell aint from me
i been feeling soley
maybe if you hold me
i can show you what’s real
i can show you what’s me

BRIDGE
i just wanna try
but she dont wanna stay
baby let me try
i know that

CHORUS
you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

you were so broken
i was so lost in myself
but i never want to leave when you’re in doubt

OUTRO (Foreign Forest)
you broke my heart
i just wanna restart
but baby there you go again
i’m hurting and i can’t pretend
i just want to heal
but i can’t tell what’s real
i could really use a friend
baby let’s start from there again

yøu were sø brøken (ft. Foreign Forest)

hi i love u thank u for listening new song next week <3
follow @macmoonwalks
prod. pieperbeats
mix/master by MNNX the legend himself

uu said this is part of life then u walked out of mine on that 
summer night
now i dont go anywhere that reminds me of u

ballroom dancing with the ghosts & the goblins
red eye vision getting blurry no response &
you were the one,
to keep me level headed from the jump (now)

YOUR WHITE LIES TURNED TO DUST
THE RUSH IS FINALLY OVER 
I GUESS IT WAS PUPPY LOVE 
[x2]

[hook]

part of life

You my moon, you my stars, you my sky at night
You the fire in my heart, keep me burning bright
Hold me close, in the cold, cause you all mine
Got my heart, make it quake like a fault line

Ooh, you know im living like i wanna do
Got my girlie in my arms, im coming up, she know it too
Piling all this money i got bands and then i roll it dude
Chillin on the couch im countin racks boy you know what it do

Ooh, i got some fans and they love me, im running all the way to sunny California with money, im tuckin hunnid dollar bills inside my pants while im hungry, ill never be complacent cuz im always searching for something, yeah

hit the road, get on board, cuz we comin up
got some drip, got some Ks, but its not enough
got my girl, by my side, and she keep me loved
throwin bills, catchin dubs, while i run it up

Throwin bills, throwin bills yah
While I run it up

Feelin sunny on a mountain top
Gettin money like i cant be stopped
Makin bangers like im finna drop
Keep it going cuz Ill never stop
Yah lil homie you know what it do
Got my baddie i aint share wit you
She my girlie yeah she be my boo
She my ride or die she love me too

(November seventh, you hit my phone
You stole my heart and, gave it a home
I'm doin good now, but you been know
Cause you my moon now, im in your glow)

All i got is my words
And all i want is to learn
All these rappers absurd
All they want is to turn

All they boring little songs into a mountain of clout
Never ever cared about the music they speak about
So ima keep it to myself but let them words all come out
Cuz im just tryna keep it real so i been speakin it loud, ooh

Find me in the stu you know im staying on my grind
Im writing every single day to get it off my mind
Im spittin bars and writing hooks i do it all the time
Im being me you see and me i can not be defined

Ayy, i run this show on my own yeah
But then i pick up the phone yeah
I tell my girl to come home yeah
Cause now we're never alone yeah

November7

produced by @sorrow_bringer

Pills been on your lips
Baby girl don’t play with this
Guess I’ll always miss
Color in your cheeks to kiss

Tell me about does it really make sense
Are you feeling all bliss when drug drops in now
Think about how you really do miss
How the first hit went and you don’t even know how
I got friends on the fence don’t allow
No one in so just go around
Girl maybe we make better love barely talking
When you hit me up and the rain it start falling
We don’t even talk at all these days
Not much question or much to say
Think we went down every avenue not
A single one for me and you

I think I still can feel your love when I sleep tell me what I was in love with
Numb with all these inner battles tell me in the day do you see me in your shadow
Girl Maybe we make better love barely talking
When you hit me up and the rain it start falling
Maybe we make better love barely talking
When you hit me up and the rain it start falling
Girl maybe we make better love barely talking 
When you hit me up and the rain it start falling
Maybe we make better love barely talking 

I know we all try to go get better think she hoped but her head wouldn’t let her 
Now instead it’s all done never did I think that you would go and let me go
Let me know if you’re ever really ready though
I think the lust I’m forgetting so
Regret the mess that you left don’t hold
A single part of heart
When you kiss another know you love the taste
Got a couple friends I would once pretend
That weren’t at an end in the same place
Pills been on your lips
Baby girl don’t play with this
Guess I’ll always miss
Color in her cheeks to kiss

I think I still can feel your love when I sleep tell me while I was in love with
Numb with all these inner battles tell me in the day do you see me in your shadow
Pills been on your lips
Baby girl don’t play with this
Guess I’ll always miss
Color in your cheeks to kiss
Pills been on your lips
Baby girl don’t play with this
Guess I’ll always miss
Color in your cheeks to kiss

Spotify

I'll Miss the Color (prod. sorrow bringer)

Prod by @imgeist
Mix/Master @farhantnvr

Available on the following and more!
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/6KmD0iJgA4STNbZEc04o1b

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Days to waste  - 
Spotify - https://open.spotify.com/artist/3atbVRVOuIUxjoxeuNbd26
Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/daystowaste/
Twitter - https://twitter.com/DaysToWaste

GEIST
Instagram: www.instagram.com/hidinginplainview
Twitter: twitter.com/imgeistny
Facebook: www.facebook.com/imgeist
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Anthony Sidoti
Instagram: www.instagram.com/anthonysidotiofficial/
Twitter: twitter.com/anthonypsidoti?lang=en
Spotify: open.spotify.com/artist/4ichKAvCL9ebmAK13AI98N

Art Credit  - https://www.instagram.com/kalcyfer_/

Lyrics - 
I'm trying to sleep knowing we're through 
Tears fall in the dark without you 
Silhouette where you slept i hold on too
Lost all sense i'm a wreck played right into

I'm trying to sleep knowing we're through 
Tears fall in the dark without you 
Silhouette where you slept i hold on too
Lost all sense i'm a wreck played right into

Into..

I played right into you 
What should i do do do 
What should i do do do 
What should i do do do 
 
Breaking away so far from my conscience
Don't really know these dreams ill forget them
Living away so far from i setback
All of my clocks to times i regret, and
 
Maybe it was just a nightmare all along
Maybe i can really bleed for all i got
Cause i been running away 
When you gon' beg me to stay 
But all the time that i spent with you was a waste

All that time i spent on you 
Left me broken hearted and torn in two 
I don't know what i should do 
At least you took the half that held onto you

Whats the point if you wont even care
Lack of thoughts is there one you'd spare
A room full of your shadows
Sing to me and bring my thoughts so low

So low so low 
Whats going on 
So low so low
What went wrong
So low so low so low 
Why do i live my life so solo

Breaking away so far from my conscience
Don't really know these dreams ill forget them
Living away so far from i setback
All of my clocks to times i regret, and
 
Maybe it was just a nightmare all along
Maybe i can really bleed for all i got
Cause i been running away 
When you gon' beg me to stay 
But all the time that i spent with you was a waste

Shadows w/ Days to Waste (Prod. Im Geist)

1/2 of @prsonprson

EMAIL: XAM.MGMT@GMAIL.COM

SECRETS [Prod. CXLD BLXXD]

XAM

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